i'm not a bad man

Chapter 26 Spear and Shield

Under the ever-deepening night, Ren Ran and I were silent; I knew that whether it was vinyl records or giving up work, it was not the real reason for Zuo Xiaowei's departure. It was the constant accumulation of disappointment that forced her to leave. As she grew up, she needed a bigger stage in her life, so she took this opportunity to give herself the motivation, or rather the reason, to leave.

It is impossible for her to just be a bar singer for the rest of her life, so leaving Qingdao is an inevitable choice for her.

At this time, I have no other expectations, I just hope that Lin Xiangyu can really shoulder the responsibility of leading the way and become a veritable Bole on her road to success.

……

I don’t know how long it took, but I finally turned to look at Ren Ran sitting by the bed, and then said softly: "Sister Ran, I am actually very calm now, do you believe it?... If you only look at the front of you, we are indeed missing. A friend, but if we look at it from the perspective of life, we should be happy for her, because she made a brave choice today to change her life... We are not as brave as her, because we have maintained the status quo. Some people live for a long time and have no surprises in life and no motivation to make progress; but she is different. After arriving at BJ, she will have new friends, a new career, and a new environment, and every day will be fresh. "

Renran was thoughtful, and then nodded; suddenly, she shook her head and said to me: "What you said is not entirely right. We are also working hard to seek changes. You forgot to work with me in the decoration company. You finally want to stop, and I finally want to get out of my failed marriage. We will definitely get better in the future."

I smiled in agreement.

"Han Chao, hurry up and eat; I can't stay here with you for too long tonight. I have made an appointment with a friend who is a designer to see if he can come to our company to help."

"Aren't you going to the bar to drink?"

"If I don't go, I will get tired of being drunk every day."

After saying that, Ren Ran picked up her bag and walked out of the room, while I kept looking at her back until it was blurry.

Changed, everything has changed!In the future, we are afraid that we will never go to that bar again to seek something called drunkenness, dreams, and death. We seemed to have become sober overnight.

However, no matter how hard I try to recall, I still don’t know what the reason was that suddenly made us sober.

……

I habitually stared out the window for a while, and I felt a little sleepy. Just when my consciousness was gradually getting blurry, the mobile phone placed next to my pillow made a vibrating sound.

I picked it up and looked at it. It was Qin Minhong who sent me a message: "Boy, Lu Xi will be back tomorrow, did you know?"

"I know, we had a few chats in the morning."

"When she comes back this time, she doesn't plan to go to BJ again. She packed up all the things she used in BJ and sent them back by express delivery. Do you think I'm desperate or not?"

This is Qin Minhong's daily complaint to me. Although I'm used to it, I still feel a little bit guilty. I know that Lu Xi's choice to return to Qingdao from BJ means that she has the intention to leave the entertainment industry.

Suddenly, I thought of Zuo Xiaowei who went to BJ from Qingdao today. Although she has been in Qingdao, as friends, we all know in our hearts that she will pursue a bigger stage sooner or later; then, choose to return from BJ What about Luxi in Qingdao?

I suddenly had a bold idea, so I quickly sent a message back to Qin Minhong: "Sister Minhong, it's not that I shirk responsibility. Have you ever thought about it, even if this incident didn't happen, Lu Xi would have already She plans to quit the entertainment industry, and this incident just gave her an excuse to leave."

I'm afraid I touched on Qin Minhong's pain point. This time, it took her a long time to reply: "Stop talking sarcastically. If you hadn't caused this trouble, I wouldn't be so worried. What you have to do now is to cooperate." I am not trying to be clever and try to figure out what Lu Xi is thinking...Whether she wants to stay in the entertainment industry is not important, what is important is the group of people behind her, what should we do now?"

Qin Minhong seemed to be really angry. She sent me a message and scolded me. She still didn't feel relieved and immediately called me.

I was mentally prepared to be scolded, and then I answered the phone. Sure enough, Qin Minhong said to me in an almost gaffe-like tone: "I told you so much sincerely this morning, have you understood it yet?... What you have to do now is not to care what happens to Lu Xi, you have to figure out what you should do. If Lu Xi really quits the entertainment industry, those of us who follow her will never let you go."

I was sweating profusely, and after a while I replied: "Sister Minhong, I'm not committing murder or arson. Why are you acting like a ghost and not letting me go?"

"If I don't use a stronger wording, can you take this matter to heart?"

"Yes, I can... calm down. There is a saying that care leads to chaos. Regarding Lu Xi's matter, you have to calm down. Maybe she is just tired and wants to take a break from this matter. You Give her some space, and once she has had enough rest, this matter will definitely take a new turn."

"You said that earlier. Do I deserve to be so angry with you?"

"What you are saying is, Sister Minhong, from now on, I will take the initiative to lose my imagination, and I will never say another word about Lu Xi that you don't like to hear."

Qin Minhong sighed, and then after a short silence, she said: "I just said it too harshly. Maybe I really don't know Lu Xi well enough. She is not a person who likes to take the initiative to communicate with others, so between us, Maybe there really is a little misunderstanding... She is a very independent girl, so no matter how anxious I am or how hard I push her, it's useless. It's better to just follow her temper, as you said, at least Give her some space during this time..."

When Qin Minhong's words became humble, I felt a little uncomfortable in my heart. I felt that Lu Xi should properly take care of Qin Minhong's emotions, and as the troublemaker, I should take the initiative to take on more responsibilities, at least in the A bridge of communication is built between Lu Xi and Qin Minhong, allowing them to understand each other's true inner thoughts, so that Qin Minhong does not have to be too desperate, and Lu Xi does not appear to be too arbitrary.

Just when I was thinking about this, Qin Minhong on the other side of the phone said to me again: "Lu Xi will arrive in Qingdao at 10:30 tomorrow night. I will contact you in the hope that you can pick her up at the airport... Look... "

After weighing it for a while, I replied in a very sincere tone: "I'd better not go. It seems too deliberate. It was obviously you who revealed the news to me. Since you said she is a very independent woman, Then she will not like the feeling of her privacy being leaked... Anyway, she will stay in Qingdao during this period. I will definitely find an opportunity to make an appointment with her, and then ask her what she really thinks... I still can't be too eager for quick success in this matter... ...What do you think?" After a short silence, Qin Minhong replied: "You are more comprehensive than I thought, but Lu Xi is not someone you can date just because you want to date her. She is particularly easy to reject others, don't say It’s you, she won’t even give you the face of an investor… If I don’t create opportunities for you, how long will it take for you to meet her?”

"You're looking down on me. As long as it's someone I want to date, I haven't been able to date anyone so far."

"That's not true. You can even do things like jumping off the balcony. How come there are people you can't see?"

"Sister Minhong, look at you, why are you not opening which pot?... There is really a way to do this. I don't know how to explain it to you in detail, but I have all the experience in my heart; If she is an indestructible shield, I am an indestructible spear.”

"Since you are so confident, then I will believe you."

"Well, don't worry."

After hearing what I said, Qin Minhong seemed to be in a much better mood. She finally smiled and said a few words about my health to me before hanging up the phone. However, after the call was actually ended, I felt a little embarrassed...Actually, , I have been rejected by Lu Xi once, and I am not completely sure. The reason why I say this is that I just hope that Qin Minhong will not be so anxious. She really behaves too anxious in front of me, and it has even affected my mood.

……

In the afternoon of the next day, my physical condition had basically improved. I put on the new clothes and shoes that Lu Xi bought for me, and I went to see the nurse when she was not busy.

"Sister, I'm getting ready to leave the hospital."

"Well, after you are discharged from the hospital, don't drink as much as before, and you should pay special attention to taking care of your stomach. Eat more soft foods and less things that are difficult to digest."

"I understand, isn't it just about eating soft rice? I know that soft rice tastes good."

The nurse sister rolled her eyes at me and said, "Don't you know how to speak seriously?"

"Sister, you have misunderstood me. It's because you are so good to me. I feel very relaxed in front of you. It's like chatting with my own sister. That's why I talk so openly."

"Don't treat me like a sister. I don't have a brother as troublesome as you... In the past two days, I have been annoyed to death by you."

"Even if it's just wishful thinking, I have to treat you as my sister...Sister, when are you free? I'll treat you to a meal."

The nurse became more and more impatient: "Oh... just leave quickly, why are you talking so much nonsense?"

I couldn't help but feel a little depressed, and I felt that what I was boasting about in front of Qin Minhong was just too much. I couldn't even date the nurse in front of me, so how could I date Lu Xi, who didn't even give me any money to invest?

I'm afraid this matter really needs to be discussed in the long run!

……

After leaving the hospital, I walked to the street alone and stopped a taxi. I sat down naturally and didn't feel anything was wrong, but the driver kept looking at me...

"Master, what are you looking at me for? I'm driving."

The driver looked dumbfounded: "Young man, you really think I'm a roundworm in your stomach. You should tell me where you want to go first."

I have never had the concept of home, and I don’t know where I want to go, so I have never developed the habit of reporting the location first after getting in a taxi. This is not the first time I have made this joke.

What made me even more embarrassed was that I had forgotten where the RV was parked. After a long while, I said to the driver: "You can go wherever you like."

The driver looked at me with confusion, but he still started the car. While waiting for the light to turn green, he still couldn't hold it back and asked me with some concern: "Young man, are you falling in love? In this state, There’s something wrong!”

I laughed: "I don't even have a girlfriend, so where can I lose my love?"

When I stopped laughing, I opened the car window and lit a cigarette...

This is probably the highest state of loneliness, no friends, no family, no home.

I gradually lost my mind, looking at the neon lights of the city and the streets with people coming and going...

(End of this chapter)