i'm not a bad man

Chapter 395 Erase her from her emotions
Looking at the red exclamation point in the dialog box, I fell into a kind of confusion. Even if you want to block me, at least you have to send me the delivery address of the car. This is a million-dollar luxury car. Is it possible that I really want to leave my car in this remote and backward mountain village and never want it again?

Or, she felt that there was a tacit understanding between us. After she cut off contact with me, I should contact Qin Minhong and ask Qin Minhong to tell me where to transport this car?
That's what she probably thought. As long as Qin Minhong is here, the car issue will be solved. As for whether she left the winding mountain road safely, I don't have to ask her personally. I can ask my godfather to call the village party secretary. You can know her movements.

Therefore, any kind of farewell seems redundant, and I shouldn't feel lost, because this is my choice.

But I still fell into a state of trance, and then dusk came. Dusk in the mountains always reminds people of many past events...

I once had this fantasy in a strange city: The night was approaching, I was walking alone on a deserted street, and then I stopped under the street lamp to smoke a cigarette. At this time, a woman walked past me. , suddenly turned back, and I also raised my head at the same time. The city lights fell on her face in a weak and scattered manner. The poignant beauty made my cells tremble...

This is just a fantasy, a fantasy about encounter, but from beginning to end, only when I think of Lu Xi, I feel that this fantasy can be realized, because in reality, only she can correspond to that woman, because when she is sad, It is indeed a poignant and stunning look.

I suddenly remembered the scene when we separated at noon. She remained silent and her eyebrows were cold, as if to tell me that she was really sad.

If it's night and there are street lights, that scene turns fantasy into reality.

As the sun set, I sat on the tractor and couldn't help but hum the song "Crossing the Pier" again...

It is a farewell and a farewell.

She is indeed a woman that I have loved with all my heart, and I have also fantasized about her.

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After Lu Xi left, the dinner for the three of us was inevitably a little less lively, so we finished it quickly. After that, I wandered around the village boredly, but until now, I still hadn’t taken the initiative to contact Qin Minhong to inquire. What to do with that car.

On the way down the mountain, I met Lao San again, who had just become the new mage of the village.

In fact, I prefer to call the third child the "village guardian". I know that he is the only person in the village who will never leave, because he needs to host and help all weddings and funerals in the village.

To me, "village guardian" is not a derogatory term. It is the last continuation of rural culture, represents an era, and is also the mark left by an era. As long as the village guardians are there, the countryside will not disappear, so I have always I am very opposed to associating village guards with fools.

In fact, the third child is certainly not a fool, he is just a little stubborn and a little incomprehensible. He is almost 30 years old and has not had a girlfriend yet.

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There is also a locust tree in the third child's house, which is slightly smaller than the one in my godfather's house, but it can block out the sky and sun in summer, so a stone table is placed under the old locust tree.

The third child took a bottle of grain wine he brewed, cut some dried meat, and then sat with me under the old locust tree and chatted.

"Chao, do you think a man really needs to have many women in his life?"

I looked at the third child and suddenly felt a surge of energy in my heart. I had something to say, but I was still patient and asked, "If you ask this, do you think a man can only have one woman in his life?"

"Better so."

"This is indeed a beautiful expectation... But relationships in reality are a process of constant trial and error; it is possible that when I was in China, I met a woman who wanted to get married. We liked each other, but because of our age, I couldn't satisfy her wish to get married, so we had no choice but to separate... When it was time for me to get married, I might have met a girl who just passed by. I really wanted to get married, but she was still ignorant about love. In this state, even if the process is vigorous, I can only reluctantly separate in the end... In addition, there is a more realistic situation. When I have no money, I may meet a woman who particularly likes money. After I have money, I thought money could solve everything, but I met a woman who only wanted love... The world of love is so unpredictable... So, there may really be no lasting love in this world anymore... ...Unless, as before, parents arrange marriages... If there is free love, there will definitely be a lot of uncertainty... What I want to say is, it's not that I need many women, in fact, I lost to this lack of Certainty, again and again!" After saying that, I lit a cigarette and lost my mind while looking at the locust tree in the yard...

Until the third child spoke, he said to me: "If you don't find a woman, wouldn't you have so many worries?"

"No, absolutely not... My dad said that all men who can achieve great things do it for women. Men who give up love will never do anything well."

After saying that, I took another deep breath of cigarette and tried to forget about Deer Creek as the smoke dispersed...

The forgetting I pursue is a kind of forgetting that is close to amnesia. If I can't do it, there will be a very dangerous uncertainty between Qiao Jiao and me.

In fact, when I think of Qiao Jiao, I also have a strong sense of satisfaction in my heart. This sense of satisfaction makes me look forward to the future and our life together, so in my desire, I really want Qiao Jiao to give me I will give birth to a daughter just like her, smart, naughty, beautiful and fearless.

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Besides, Lao San will probably have a hard time getting rid of the fate of being a bachelor in this life. He actually thinks that women symbolize troubles. If women are troubles, then why did God design women when he created humans to be just like earthworms? , forget about hermaphrodites.

Therefore, I think men and women must have a complementary relationship. The key point is whether you can really find the woman who can complement each other. If you can't find that woman, sometimes it will indeed create a lot of troubles and troubles.

I heard that two of my roommates in the university dormitory were tortured to death by their marriages and have already divorced this year.

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This night, the third child and I only finished one bottle of wine, and then we went back to my godfather's house...

After washing up, I lay on the bed where Lu Xi slept on last night. I vaguely felt that there was a light fragrance left by her on the bed, so I asked my godmother for new sheets and quilts. However, when I was about to change them, I found that there was something on the pillow. There was a strand of her hair that fell out and I went to get a new pillowcase.

After I replaced everything with new ones, I lay back on the bed and suddenly discovered that the hole in the wall had been painted into a smiling face by her with an eyebrow pencil...

I tried to erase the smiling face, but except for wiping the dust off my own hand, the smiling face was still there, and this became a mark that I could not erase no matter what.

Just when I had no choice but to give up, the scene of her using an eyebrow pencil to draw a smiling face suddenly appeared in my mind. She must be very focused and have an undiminished childlike innocence; therefore, she looks silent, but she still has a My own little world, filled with colorful thoughts.

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I really didn’t want to think about her anymore, so I asked my godfather for an old newspaper, then I put some glue on it and stuck it on the smiling face...

After I made sure to eliminate her from my emotions, I called Qiao Jiao.

I want to talk to her about living in Thailand for a while.

(End of this chapter)