i'm not a bad man

Chapter 418 The Uniqueness of Love

The snow outside the window was getting heavier and heavier, and I could hardly see the scrap collection station clearly. In addition, I had given up hope in my dad's appearance, so I finally put aside this worry for the time being and focused all my attention on it. There was a New Year's Eve dinner for just three people.

I have gradually forgotten the severe cold outside, and even took off my heavy coat. All I can see is the hot food and the warmth brought by Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao. Although their attention does not seem to be on me, they It is undeniable that today, on New Year's Eve, I finally have someone to eat New Year's Eve dinner with me, and I finally don't have to sit alone in the RV, looking at the lights of thousands of houses outside, thinking about other people's sumptuous dinners, but there is only a box of ready-made meals at hand. Cold instant noodles and ham sausage with its casing removed.

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Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi seem to have solved the knot in their hearts, and instead cherish the friendship that they have maintained for nearly 20 years, so they have been chatting about the past, and I am gradually immersed in their past years. Here, listening to their girlish feelings and joys and sorrows...

In fact, there were many interesting things in their circle, as well as male classmates who impressed them deeply. These male classmates were generally out of the ordinary or extremely outstanding. Anyway, during this long conversation, they did not hear them talk about a certain person. A well-behaved classmate or friend.

Coincidentally, when I was in school, I was one of those male classmates who was quite out of the ordinary and extremely outstanding. Unfortunately, they didn't know me at that time.

Looking back on my life, I suddenly came to the realization that all the carefully arranged plans could not catch up with a change of fate. I also remembered the process of my parents cultivating me in order to make me excellent. In the process, I learned several musical instruments, as well as hip-hop dance, and later even gained the ability to create my own music. However, when the hand of fate reached out to me, all of this lost its meaning and there was no use for it. land.

He picked up the wine glass and took a sip. He couldn't help but feel sad about it.

I was a little drunk, and all I could see was the smiles of Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao when they were talking, and I gradually couldn’t hear what they were saying. It wasn’t until Zuo Xiaowei stepped on the stage of the Spring Festival Gala that I came back to my senses; at this time , Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao also looked at the TV together...

I am sure that Zuo Xiaowei on TV is definitely not lip-synching, because the song she is singing was written by me. If she was lip-syncing, she would not be able to sing such emotions at all, let alone Zuo Xiaowei is really She is a singer with good performance skills. Even if this is the most dazzling stage in her life, she can still handle it calmly. This is my confidence in her.

I closed my eyes and listened quietly to Zuo Xiaowei's performance, and gradually I remembered my state of mind when I wrote this song.

At that time, my family was already dilapidated. Under the pressure of my parents, I started looking for a job...

Although I was admitted to a 985-level university, it is an indisputable fact that I dropped out of college. So when I was looking for a job, I fell into a dilemma. In order to get out of this dilemma, I suppressed the humiliation in my heart and spent money to find a job. The agent, but in the end I was tricked by the agent. I was so angry that I had a fight with the agent on the spot, two on one, and I suffered a big loss...

That day, I sat alone at the door of the shopping mall and bought iodine and band-aids to treat the wounds. My heart was filled with despair and sadness, but I didn’t want to compromise with this sadness and despair, so I tried my best to think of various happy tunes in my mind. I tried to write this song, but I am a person who has a hard time going against my own will, so there is still an element of sadness hidden in the song.

If you are not careful, you will never hear it, so it actually fits the stage of the Spring Festival Gala and has a festive flavor.

At this moment, I was lonely, but I was relieved and relieved of that unbearable experience. I just looked at Zuo Xiaowei on the stage quietly. She might understand, or she might not understand.

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After dinner, the three of us walked side by side on the long street that was already covered with snow; this time, Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi did not hold their arms around me like they did in the small town. Although I was still walking among them, But we kept some distance from each other, so when I looked back, the footprints we left on the snow were also restrained. This restraint seemed to give a new definition to the relationship between the three of us.

I stopped first, and then said to Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao: "It's almost twelve o'clock, and I feel really happy... because in the past few years, I have been celebrating the New Year alone, but today... is an exception. Although you didn’t talk much to me during the meal, even watching you chatting makes me feel comfortable... I don’t know how to describe this feeling. It’s like I’m back in the [-]s. Years ago, when my grandparents were still alive, the family gathered around the table, watching TV and eating... Although I couldn't participate in the topics they talked about, and they didn't care if I was bored alone, but I knew that they They are my relatives and will never leave me... This kind of peace of mind is really of great significance to me. Although they later left me one after another, I still remember those times when I could be with my family. The New Year's Eve dinner is a scene, and my heart is still full of residual heat... Therefore, today's New Year's Eve dinner will definitely be remembered for a long time... No, I will never forget it in my life... So, I am not deliberately being pretentious, but I am really thank you……"

After a period of silence, Qiao Jiao spoke first: "What, your solution to the problem is to treat the two of us as family?"

"Not family, but better than family." Qiao Jiao smiled and said to Lu Xi, "Did you see, it's this kind of sincerity...this expression."

Lu Xi also smiled and said, "Are you going to do this?"

"Of course I eat this way, but I often regret it after eating it..."

"why?"

"Because I think he is trying to trick me and is suspected of brainwashing me." After a pause, Qiao Jiao asked Lu Xi again: "Then will you follow his tricks?"

Lu Xi thought for a while and replied: "I can't tell clearly, but after hearing what you said, I will definitely learn from it in the future."

I shrugged helplessly: "Sincerity is not a mistake, right? Why do you come here and deny me like a scourge?"

Qiao Jiao looked at me with a half-smile but not a smile, and replied: "The sincerity with routine means that you have ulterior motives... I think there must be other ulterior secrets behind your family talk."

"There's really no secret. I mean it from the bottom of my heart."

After saying that, I looked at the locked scrap collection station. As I looked at it, I felt a little dazed. I was thinking, if I could reunite with my parents tonight, the whole family would bring Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi. What would it be like to have a New Year's Eve dinner together?

When this scene appeared in my mind, I was shocked to realize that what Qiao Jiao said was not unreasonable. Behind my family theory, there seemed to be some different expectations. I actually hoped that this relationship could last forever. Keep it going.

Although I also know that this is impossible to happen, I still have such a desire in my heart for no reason.

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I couldn't help but look at Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao standing opposite me. Sooner or later, there will be a result between us. If for the rest of my life, because of the uniqueness of love, I never see Qiao Jiao again, what will happen to me? What's your mood?
Or, how would I feel if I never see Lu Xi again?
This is undoubtedly a soul-searching question for me, and I am not even in the mood to think about the answer.

I don’t know if this emotion also spread to Lu Xi and Qiao Jiao. The next moment, they left me here and walked towards the hotel. As they walked, they held each other’s arms. arm……

This time, I didn’t follow their footsteps. I just looked at the footprints they left in the snow. Compared to when the three of us walked together, this was a more intimate look because we were walking arm in arm. , their footprints seem to be somewhat staggered.

I suddenly felt that that trip to XJ was probably the most important test in my life. Just like Qiao Jiao said before, maybe after that, they didn’t think I was that important anymore, and instead I was all alone. .

This night, they seemed to be holding back for the sake of their friendship as best friends. Since they are holding back, there is a possibility of it breaking out. As for where and how it will break out, I don’t know yet. (Han Chao and Lu Xi are getting married? Search and follow the author’s personal satellite number: *** to view the latest chapters.)
I only know that love must be unique, and all greed will eventually become a sanction for myself!
At this moment, I have already been sanctioned, because Qiao Jiao and I have agreed before that when we meet, she will definitely jump on me, wrap her legs around me, and then hug me tightly, but now , but she held Lu Xi’s arm and gradually disappeared from my sight...

On this night, who is restraining, who is forbearing, and who is the one being targeted?
I was suddenly confused!

(End of this chapter)