i'm not a bad man

Chapter 44 Forget about being a waste
In addition to Yulu's safety, I also thought about Yulu's having you. But I meant to say this, but I couldn't say it because I didn't want her to think I was frivolous. Although many times, I was really frivolous, but on a night like this , I think about life, which makes me feel too serious, and I lose some romantic and frivolous impulses...

But having you in Yilu is really romantic!
I closed my eyes, and a picture gradually came to my mind: On a starry night, I was riding a motorcycle along the seaside road, driving slowly against the sea breeze. The sound of the waves was mixed with the low sound of the engine. This road seems to be driving towards the gentle land deep in my heart, getting closer and closer to her who is far away...

She was standing on the beach, wearing red high heels, a white skirt, and her long black hair dancing in the sea breeze...

The journey began to feel less lonely. She hugged me from behind, and we drove together on the seaside road, pursuing each other's destination. Naturally, tenderness is indispensable...

……

I just fell into self-indulgence. I didn't open my eyes until I heard the sound of lighter lighting.I saw Tu Lin's seemingly bald but not bald head again, and I thought it was a bit spoiling the mood, so I wanted to drive him away... He really should go, because I really couldn't help him in this matter.

I deliberately raised my wrist to look at my watch, and then said to him: "It's almost eleven o'clock, go back and rest early."

Tu Lin cried sadly and replied: "I can't go back. When I got home, my parents forced me to ask when I would get the marriage certificate and when I would hold a banquet...I can't explain either of them now, and I'm almost forced to do so." crazy."

"Just tell your parents the truth about what requests your fiancée made to you. They are your parents, so they can't possibly not understand you, right?"

"I don't understand. I've spent over 20 yuan on her in the past six months. If everything comes to nothing in the end, they will skin me!"

"Then it's not a problem for you to stay here. I have to get up early tomorrow and be on my way."

Tu Lin lowered his head, neither saying to leave nor saying anything else; his state reminded me of my own mood before leaving home, when I was forced to be so desperate and at a loss.

I couldn't help but feel sympathy, so I picked up the phone and said to him: "If you really don't want to go back, I'll book you a hotel nearby. Tell me your ID number."

"Staying in a hotel is just like drinking. After you sober up, you still have to face it."

"Then what do you want?"

Tu Lin turned around and looked at the RV parked next to us. Finally there was a glimmer of light in his eyes, and then he said to me: "Han Chao, I still have a deposit of 10 yuan. You don't have anything serious anyway." Work, why don’t we go out for a walk together... The farther the better, the expenses along the way will be mine."

"Even if you escape until the end, don't you still have to face it?"

"I really have no choice but to face the difficulties any more... let's just run away one day at a time."

After saying that, Tu Lin hit his head painfully with his hand, very much like me four years ago...

When I could empathize with him, I was no longer in such a hurry to drive him away. I patted his shoulder, and then said in a lighter tone: "10 yuan is your last resort. Don't throw away this 10 yuan easily." Ten thousand yuan has been squandered... Regarding your marriage, let me tell you the truth. You should be stronger yourself. I suspect that woman does not really want to marry you. The reason why she put forward such harsh conditions , I just want you to get out of the way."

Tu Lin looked up at me with an expression of reluctance. After a long time, he choked and said to me: "Why do you want me to give up in spite of difficulties? I am so good to her, I answer her requests... and I even go to plant a plant for her." Hair."

"I don't have an answer either... To be honest, I also encountered something very..."

I shook my head and smiled bitterly. After a long time, I finally said: "This morning, my ex-girlfriend came to see me... She must have found a very rich man. That man has religious beliefs and does not accept women having premarital sex. ... She went to have her hymen repaired... This is understandable... Unbelievable... What is unbelievable is that she actually asked me to leave Qingdao, fearing that someone would investigate her past and find me in the future, so she had to do it without leaking anything. ... She loved that man so much that she threw the dignity of my ex-boyfriend under her feet, and then trampled it into scum."

Tu Lin sighed, then wiped away his tears, lit a cigarette, and took a deep puff before replying: "In the final analysis, it's because we have no money... A woman's only rationality is all used to measure money... But there are so many fucking rich men in this world... So when they can't get satisfaction, they try every means to torture men... Otherwise, let's say men are miserable!"

"Don't be so extreme, Brother Lin... not all women are like this."

Tu Lin's door of resentment has been completely opened. I couldn't persuade him, so he said with hatred: "Forget being a waste...fuck women, f*ck love, f*ck marriage." !”

After saying that, he took out his mobile phone and started operating it frantically, until it finally settled there like a stone.I glanced at it and saw that he really sent a message to that woman: "You want this and you want that... I have a tomb here with your name engraved on it, do you want it?... Greedy Dead woman!"

Thinking of the past when Tu Lin quit the drinking group without hesitation because of this woman, I can't help but feel a little sad... It's only been half a year!

At about twelve o'clock, Tu Lin left. He went alone along the seaside to a place I don't know. Anyway, it must not be his home opposite the beer bottle, because the direction is different. …

The next day, when I woke up, it was already nine o'clock in the morning. I didn't get up immediately. I opened the car window and sat on the bed for a while...

After a while, Ren Ran came over. While I was washing, I said to her: "You can take your luggage to my RV and drive to my RV."

"Are you really not planning to come back?"

"Just in case. If I don't come back and the RV remains in Qingdao, it will be a lot of trouble."

"Nothing goes wrong. You have to come back. At worst, your parents will be brought to live in Qingdao."

"Puddle in the RV with me?"

"You can rent a house first. People come up with solutions anyway...and I want to buy a new car, and I don't plan to keep the old one. Do I have to drive directly to Tianjin to replace it?"

With a mouthful of toothpaste foam, I turned to look at Ren Ran, and she urged again: "You should be more agile. This place is [-] kilometers away from Tianjin. We have to get to Tianjin before dark. I will treat you tonight." Mom and dad eat."

My heart suddenly tightened, and then beat faster and faster uncontrollably; after four years, I have matured and begun to learn to face reality; what about them?Will I change my mentality and accept that I am still accomplishing nothing and being alone?

I didn't have any confidence, so I was nervous.

"Sister Ran, when you arrive in Tianjin, you can find a hotel to stay in. I can go back alone."

"What are your concerns?"

This time, I replied truthfully: "I don't know if my parents' mentality has changed. I'm afraid that after we meet, they will still be the same as before... By then, I will be embarrassed and you will be uncomfortable too... What they said was really unpleasant, especially my dad. When he got angry, he would even pick someone off..."

"Don't always think the worst about things... You've been out for four years, they won't miss you, and four years is enough time for them to let go of many things. Not only do you let go, but you know you have to go back." Take a look."

"I really don't have confidence."

"How about you contact your relatives? Find out what the situation is now."

"I don't have anyone's contact information because I never thought about going back at that time."

After a brief silence, Ren Ran said with a very firm attitude: "Then I want to go home with you. If there is really any conflict then, there won't even be a mediator... Then how desperate you must be. , I finally worked up the courage to go home and take a look."

"How come I can't defeat you at all?"

"Because I am reasonable... If you are willing to listen to me and trick Luxi back, if you want to have any conflict with them, they will not give you a chance."

"You also know that you were tricked back there?"

"This is what you call helping each other and each getting what he needs."

"You are wrong, we are really not this kind of people... Let's go, I have already packed up."

After saying that, I carried my luggage and got into her car with Ren Ran. The moment Ren Ran started the car, I became quiet...

I just thought silently in my heart: I hope Yilu is safe!
(End of this chapter)