i'm not a bad man

Chapter 483 Please don’t kill people and hurt your heart

I once thought that I could control my emotions very well, at least not being sad or happy easily. However, facing Qiao Jiao, who had penetrated me because of our close relationship, I still had a feeling in my heart that was difficult to express in words. I even became hesitant because of the emotions that came out. I didn't know whether to continue to be tough or to completely remove the disguise that didn't make me feel relaxed in front of someone who understood everything about me.

It is undeniable that I will miss the days when I lived in a small town with Qiao Jiao. We got off work together, went to the supermarket together, and chatted while eating. And she is an extremely smart woman, so in such an undefended situation During our relationship, she had already penetrated my heart.

However, after gaining insight, should we push back to the current relationship to re-establish it?And what can this repetition bring us?
I fell into a confused state, so I ignored the main point of her words, chose a sub-key point, and asked: "How do you know that I am wearing the underwear you gave me before?"

Qiao Jiao was a little discouraged when she didn't get the response she wanted most. After a period of silence, she replied: "I told you, I want to cut off that thing of yours... It's these underwear that saved you." , I suddenly woke up. I feel that you are still the Korean Chao from before, and everything you see now is just an illusion you deliberately made... No, you are not exactly the Korean Chao before. You are not only cruel to others, Be cruel to yourself. In order to achieve your goal, you actually sent yourself to a detention center. With such cruelty and scheming, is there anything else in this world that you can't do?...But, do you really want to do this? Would you use your cruelty towards others and yourself on someone who treats you sincerely?"

I still only grasped the secondary point and said: "Are you crazy... If you really do such a ridiculous thing, the consequences... have you thought about the consequences... It's really ridiculous."

"No matter... the thought of you sleeping with a barmaid makes me go crazy!"

After saying that, Qiao Jiao looked at me without blinking. She said to me with a little expectation, a little temptation, and a little hesitation: "So, can you tell me, am I right?"

I fell into silence. During the silence, I lit another cigarette for myself. I took a deep breath before replying: "You are getting married. After you get married, you will become a brand new person. Waiting." Yours is also a brand new life...Why do you care about these things that you need to look back to see?"

"So what if we get married? I promised to get married... But when I think about you once saying that we will buy a house at Xiaogang Pier and have our own home and children, I will wake up crying in the middle of the night... Of course I know that this is not the case. Okay, not free and easy enough, but I can't control myself... I'm not as powerful as you. Really, when you say cold-blooded, you turn yourself into a cold-blooded animal... But I will think of the small town, and the heavy snowfall in the small town, electric The car ran out of battery, so you let me sit on the electric car, one foot deep and one foot shallow, and pushed me home... On the way, when you saw roasted sweet potatoes, you would buy them for me and let me eat them and warm my hands at the same time... ...So, Han Chao...please don't kill people and punish your heart, okay?"

"First of all, you are the one who wants to get married."

Qiao Jiao sneered and replied: "You still decided to kill people and punish your heart, right?"

"is it?"

Qiao Jiao lowered her head, her hands tightly gripping the sheets, as if forcing herself to calm down, but she suddenly lost control. She hammered the bed with her hands, over and over again, then raised her head and cried to me. Roared: "What do you want me to do? Lu Xi said he wants to marry you... What do you want me to do?... I can only tell myself over and over again that helping others is a great thing... No, with It doesn't matter if you are great. If you love someone, you just want him to live well. I want him... I just want him to be well... I am a person with a good face. I don't want to be the one who is abandoned in the relationship. I want to make myself better. I gave up, so I also decided to find someone to get married, a flash marriage... As for the consequences, I am too lazy to think about it... However, you and Lu Xi made a false shot, and you are not together... Haha... Talk about me Ridiculous, aren't you ridiculous?...I've almost been tricked to death by you!...I don't know what to do. The wedding is about to be held. The two families are busy buying wedding rooms, booking hotels, and making invitations. Buying a wedding ring, now, not only the two families are looking at me, but also the relatives and friends of the two families are looking at me. If I give up the job halfway, won’t I become the number one female bastard in the world!"

I looked at Qiao Jiao, holding a thousand words in my heart, but I couldn't say a word. I just kept swallowing.

Qiao Jiao suddenly picked up the scissors and said coldly to me: "Tell me, why did you suddenly return to Qingdao?"

"I didn't... I didn't think about anything, I just wanted to relax."

"Have you not been to 296 cities? There are so many places where you can relax. Why did you choose Qingdao?"

After asking, Qiao Jiao stood up and approached me with scissors.

I subconsciously took a step back and replied: "Because Qingdao has the most friends." "Bullshit... from now on, just be a father-in-law and stop playing so many tricks. I can go to jail with peace of mind, so I don't have to be in such a dilemma like now!"

As she said that, Qiao Jiao took another step closer to me, but I had already retreated to the corner; Qiao Jiao grabbed my waistband, and I looked at her in horror...

I finally said to her: "Stop joking, I can't be a father-in-law, and you won't go to jail... Let's all live a good life."

"What does it mean to live a good life?"

"Pain is temporary. I won't lie to you... If you don't believe it, you can recall the painful things that made you feel when you were a child. Are they no longer as painful as you imagined at the time?"

"I'm still in pain!"

"Why are you so hard on yourself?"

"I'm having trouble with you... You still don't want to tell me the truth... I'll give you one last chance, do you want to tell me the truth... I'm not trying to intimidate you, be careful with my hands The sword rises and falls..."

After saying that, the scissors in Qiao Jiao's hand were already aimed at my vitals.

I finally felt that she was not intimidating me, and facing such a smart and vicious woman, I had no possibility of lying, so I could only whisper: "Yes... I did not have a relationship with the bartender, we It was just a prank, and I transferred the 1 yuan to her on purpose so that the police could confirm the transaction when they checked the house."

This sentence seemed to be an antidote. Qiao Jiao's anxious and painful expression suddenly relaxed, but after a short period of relief, she frowned again... But this time, she did not attack me.

She threw the scissors on the ground, and then said to me: "I understand, I won't cut you anymore, you can go."

I kept looking at her, and then moved tentatively. She didn't respond, but was a little absent-minded.

I finally picked up my things, but she was already sitting on the bed, making no noise and becoming more and more listless...

……

I don’t know what mood I was in when I walked out of this hotel, but the moment I walked out of the hotel lobby and my sight became wider, I stopped...

Opposite me is the "Little Harbor Pier". There are various ships parked in the pier, rising and falling with the waves under the dim light.

I gradually fell into a trance. To me, this was no longer just a dock, but a promise I made but never fulfilled!
(End of this chapter)