i'm not a bad man

Chapter 500 Memories of the Past
Looking at Zuo Xiaowei's eyes drooping, for a moment, my heart felt painful; of course I knew that from the moment I called her, I was taking advantage of the person who once loved me. As a woman, I know better that even if she rejected me on the phone, she still couldn't completely control herself, so there were those two text messages she sent me when I was on the train.

She has no principles in front of me, so even though she had been sexually assaulted a long time ago and was afraid of things between men and women, she still slept with me in the end.

Human nature is complicated, but not complicated, so we have Zuo Xiaowei who is so easy to handle...

I looked at her again, and for the first time in these days, I asked myself in my heart, what is the purpose of what I am doing now?
I didn’t have a clear answer, and along with it I was hugely confused. I just stood there, gradually losing my mind. Zuo Xiaowei had already stopped the taxi; she tugged on my sleeve and said, “Let’s go. You didn't mean to go to the bar and have a drink, why are you standing here?"

I came back to my senses and thought of the noise in the bar, and suddenly I felt a wave of disgust in my heart. This disgust made me give up the idea of ​​going to the bar, and then I made an apologetic gesture to the driver to indicate that we were not leaving. .

The driver complained before reluctantly leaving, which made Zuo Xiaowei look at me with some confusion. After all, it was me who suggested going to the bar to continue drinking.

I smiled and finally said to her: "Xiaowei, do you remember the time you went to Qingdao to find me? The two of us sat on the roadside and chatted for a long time."

"I remember, I went to Qingdao to participate in the benefit performance you gave Liu Chuang."

"Well, it felt really good that day. We were sitting against the wall transformed from the mountain. There were many roses climbing on the wall. The wind was blowing neither hot nor cold, and there were people in a hurry on the street. We just sat there, as if no matter how busy the world is, it has nothing to do with us."

"No, I don't remember. The wind was a bit cold that day. I was waiting for you to take off your clothes and let me wear them. But at the end of the day, you didn't show any gentlemanly manners when I left."

"It's really not cold in my memory!"

"Leng, I brought you a big goose down jacket that day, did you forget?"

"There is a big goose down jacket. You lied to me that it was fake. Later, Sister Ran told me that it was real. It really cost more than 1 yuan!"

"The point is not the value of that down jacket. It's really cold. Otherwise, why would I give you a down jacket? Moreover, there are no roses on the wall. It was late autumn, and the flowering period of roses has long passed. However, there are many trees planted on both sides of the road that do not lose their leaves in winter.”

Zuo Xiaowei seemed to be more awake, and her speech was no longer intermittent. It was me who was not awake. My memory seemed a bit confusing, so I didn't know whether to believe Zuo Xiaowei or firmly believe in myself.

Seeing me stunned, Zuo Xiaowei smiled again and said, "It doesn't matter anymore, it's all in the past anyway... Don't you just want to sit on the street for a while, I'll just accompany you."

After saying that, Zuo Xiaowei took me and walked to the roadside, and then chose a quiet place to sit down.

……

I lit a cigarette out of habit, but I didn't habitually speak after taking a puff of the cigarette. I was still struggling with whether it was me or Zuo Xiaowei who was right.

Unfortunately, there is no way to prove this matter, because time cannot be turned back, and the scene was not recorded at that time; however, some things can be made up for. In this early spring, which is still a little chilly, I finally took off my own The coat was draped over Zuo Xiaowei.

Zuo Xiaowei was moved. She looked up at me with tears in her eyes, as if she wanted to release an emotion that had been suppressed in her heart for a long time. "Han Chao, you know, I gave you that watch not because you are worried about losing the bracelet... In fact, you are not worried about it at all. The person who is really worried about it is me... If, My uncle did not steal the pair of bracelets that Sister Ran gave you. Maybe, I mean maybe, maybe we will still be together now... I am a music teacher in a small town, you open a music training class, and we work together for a set We are working hard for a house and a better future life. Although our lives are not as good as those of rich people, we have countless possibilities in life because we are together, and we know what we are fighting for..." He paused for a moment. , with tears in her eyes, she said with a smile: "I am just a girl born in a small town. How ambitious can I be... For me, being able to stay with my parents and have a man I love, is the most important thing for me." A common cause is the best way to live!"

I took a heavy drag on the cigarette, exhaled it again, then shook my head and said to Zuo Xiaowei: "Even without that pair of bracelets, we wouldn't be together forever."

"why?"

"Do you still remember that the first night we returned to the small town, we were inspected by the police?"

"of course I remember."

"That was the threat Guan Yubo gave me... How could such a high-end hotel be easily inspected? And what a coincidence, it was on the first day we returned to the small town... Later, he didn't make it easy for me either. , once, Lu Xi and I were attacked by a group of people when we came out of the scenic spot, and almost killed me; at that time, Lu Xi and I jumped into the river and escaped by luck."

Zuo Xiaowei fell into silence.

"Guan Yubo cares about you so much. Although he doesn't show it so obviously, everything he does is directed at me... That's why when he invited me to help him at his scenic spot, I refused so firmly, because You, we can't work together. If I can't resist the temptation and work with him reluctantly, it will only give him more opportunities to persecute me... It's a pity that Chang Tianming didn't treat me sincerely in the end. I gave all the resources I could use to the scenic spot, but he tricked me several times in a row."

After another period of silence, Zuo Xiaowei finally spoke and whispered to me: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought you back to the small town, let alone thought life was so simple."

"I don't regret it."

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"I don't know... maybe this is fate..." After a pause, I added: "By the way, at that time, you always fantasized that by the time I found my parents, they were already a We don’t have to struggle for rich people who are full of gold... Later, I found them in Tianjin, and the result was a million miles away from what you imagined. When I found them, my dad had already collected them in Tianjin for a long time. It’s a piece of junk, and the two of them have been living in a shantytown without even a window for light.”

Zuo Xiaowei's eyes were full of surprise, and she sighed after a long while: "How is it possible? You keep telling me that your dad is a great man who once had a prosperous life. How could he be reduced to collecting scraps and living in a shanty town? ?”

"Nothing is impossible for people living in this world... Just accept the reality, otherwise you will be competing with yourself."

When Zuo Xiaowei and I were chatting about this episode, Wu Luoge was not mentioned, so this made Zuo Xiaowei full of a sense of crisis. She said to me: "Then what are you going to do in the future? You don't have anything serious to do." Come on, uncle and aunt are like this again?"

"I don't know, just take a step and see."

Zuo Xiaowei looked at me and said to me seriously: "You must not be as undefended as before... People's character is too sinister now, you really have to be more ruthless, this is Protect yourself best, otherwise, you will meet more people like Chang Tianming."

(End of this chapter)