i'm not a bad man

Chapter 601 Life and Death

Qiao Jiao's accurate inference made me half sober. I wasn't sure how I looked at her. I only saw her looking at me worriedly, looking very sad and distressed...

She was probably feeling sorry for me, for my transformation, for the heavy burden that was placed on me, but no one was there to share it. But in my opinion, this heartache was very heavy, because it was something that no one else could do. Zou Chang has already learned a lesson about sharing things. It is impossible for me to drag another person into this dangerous situation again, not to mention, she is Qiao Jiao.

But she was really too smart. Faced with her question, I didn’t know what other reasons I could use to justify myself. I could only avoid her gaze and fell into silence again, but silence was not an answer.

……

After being in a stalemate for a while, I got up and found the cigarette case, then lit a cigarette and sat against the wall. It was still raining outside, and the sound of the rain was not loud, but it kept shaking my mood. I was a little uneasy and nervous. , somewhat at a loss.

I must have been tricked by Qiao Jiao. Her real purpose of letting me drink was not to prove how important she was to me. She just wanted to know the real purpose of my coming to Chengdu. From this point of view, it was more like telling me , how important I am in her heart; otherwise, why bother to do this.

"Why did you want to kill Guan Yubo? Is Zou Chang's disappearance related to him? What is the grudge between them?"

Qiao Jiao was still sitting cross-legged on the bed, but this time, she frowned...

I still didn't speak, trying to make the last resistance.

I thought Qiao Jiao was going to have an attack, but she closed her eyes and was silent for a long time. Then she smiled slightly and said to me: "Death is a very heavy topic for everyone, it means farewell, it means farewell. I must let go of everything in the world, but this is a topic that no one can get around. Therefore, I also thought about it very seriously and thought about how I would let myself die if I were the God of Death... I I have come to a conclusion in my heart. Anyway, don’t let me starve to death, and don’t let me die quietly alone... As for other ways to die, I don’t care so much... I’m not that afraid of death, and I even feel, If the two of us die together because of something we have to do, it seems quite romantic... If people die like a light goes out, let's not talk about it. If there is another world, there will be people. Let’s keep you company... I’ll let my dad burn a RV for me, and you’ll be the driver, and we’ll go to another world together without the worries here, how cool it will be!”

Qiao Jiao didn't seem to be joking with me. After a pause, she added: "I just don't know if there will be a country in another world. A country is divided into many cities... What if there are so many cities?" , 296, will it also be a limit number between us?... It's best not, I hope we still have a 297th city..."

I took a heavy drag on the cigarette and finally replied: "Actually, Luan Yu and I don't have 296 cities. When I told you before, I overlooked one thing. Luan Yu and I met on the road. Before we met, I had traveled many cities alone."

Qiao Jiao stared at me and said for a while: "You don't want to focus on purpose?... What I want to express is that I am afraid of death, but I am not afraid of dying with you... Therefore, you don't need to have anything in your heart." If you have any worries, don’t be afraid to involve me...Compared to you, I may be less afraid of death, because death may be an opportunity for me to start over."

After a moment of silence, she looked up at me and said: "If we can all escape this disaster and live well... you will be with Lu Xi; if unfortunately, we two die and go to another world, you Just be with me, and you can’t be half-hearted anymore... There is no better solution to this conflicting and heartbreaking relationship than this!"

The relationship between two people should not be so heavy, and the choice between life and death should not be made. Therefore, I looked at Qiao Jiao and was stunned for a long time, and then I said, "Why do we have to die to be together?"

"Death is the best ending and the best beginning... Just take a bet and see if there is another world..."

I was in a trance, and in my trance I thought of Luan Yu and Zou Chang. They must know whether there is another world outside this world to rest their souls.It wasn't until Qiao Jiao waved her hand in front of my eyes that I came back to my senses.

"Put aside the issue of whether we should die or not, and put aside all the unclear troubles between us... Let's still talk about the topic at the beginning, why did you want to kill Guan Yubo?"

The uneasiness in my heart made me light up another cigarette...

I gradually calmed down, and because of my calmness, I had a profound judgment on Qiao Jiao's determination. I also had a deeper understanding of not only her determination, but also her as a person.

She is the most legendary of all the women I know, not only because she is smart, but also because of her attitude towards life; in my opinion, being able to see through life and death and fearless of life and death is of course very awesome. Thing, because it has escaped the genetic blockade...

But I haven't done it yet. I am afraid of death. The reason why I don't seem to be afraid of death is just because of the anger that is difficult to dissolve in my heart. Therefore, I don't have so many fantasies about death. Only when I am truly not afraid of death will I think of it. Words like romance and chic; but in my heart, death must be cold and lonely.

Based on these cognitions, I finally said to Qiao Jiao: "If there is even the slightest possibility, I don't want to tell you these things... But, you have already guessed a lot... Sometimes, being too smart makes you really sad. It’s not a good thing…”

"My cleverness is limited to you... If it were another person, I wouldn't even want to make a call, let alone come to Chengdu."

I looked at Qiao Jiao, spit out the cigarette in her mouth, and said, "Yes, I want to kill Guan Yubo, because he deserves to die..."

Although Qiao Jiao had already guessed it, she was still stunned when I said it myself. I know that this kind of psychological shock can surpass everything, because what is taken away is life, and life is only once, no matter what the person is... Defined as good or bad only once.

I spoke to Qiao Jiao again: "The man who died in Malaysia was called Ma Guan... Back then, it was Guan Yubo who hired his father to drive and kill Zou Chang's father... Guan Yubo once told me such a thing , he said that Zou Chang’s father once violated Zuo Xiaowei in the name of making up lessons... At that time, the seeds of hatred had already been planted in his heart..."

This was a very complicated matter, so I stopped several times and reorganized the logic of my expression, so that Qiao Jiao could understand the cause and effect. Finally, I added: "But , I got to know his father indirectly from my contact with Zou Chang... Therefore, I am also skeptical about what Guan Yubo said... There may be a deeper hidden secret... But I no longer have it. To clarify his ability, Guan Yubo covered the sky with one hand in that small town. As you said, after Chang Tianming entered, there was no one who could restrain him... I can only punish him in my own way... If I don't sanction him He, the next victim may be me... I think he has already started to stare at me!"

After saying that, I put out the cigarette in my hand, and then looked at the neon lights outside the window and fell into a state of trance...

This time, I didn't feel relaxed because I said it, and my heart became even more uneasy... I still don't want Qiao Jiao to get involved. I hope she will leave here and leave me after satisfying her curiosity...

And I still proceed as planned!

(End of this chapter)