The soul penetrates the little paste bean, and the title becomes top-notch

【Dear Feier:

Good news! 】

"Faier"?
These two words were like some kind of trigger, and a lot of memories flooded into Lin Fei's head.

This is the memory that belongs to the original owner, this little girl.

Frog Qu, are you beating me up?

Lin Fei rubbed her painful temples, not knowing what to say.

This memory of yours is not settled at once, it has to be vomited out slowly over a specific period of time.

Why is it soul-piercing?

Where has the original body gone?

The answer lies in this heavy memory.

The pretty little girl is not smart, she is even a little stupid.

She has been at the top and experienced troughs, well-behaved and timid.

Her father's torture, the class teacher's insults, the disdain of her peers, and the gap at work finally defeated her.

It's sad and a pity.

When she died, she was just a 17-year-old girl.

Live, keep living, no matter how difficult your life is, there will always be light in your life.

Unthinkable, this pure and clean girl walked to the rooftop of the school administration building and died alone and quietly.

Except for me, no one knows or cares about the person who wears it on her.

The father in my memory was not a hopeless gambler from the beginning.

He was once a very good person, so to speak, probably so.

Who would think that their parents are bad guys as soon as they are born?

Perhaps, few people will be moved by the overused plot of "Dad carried me to the hospital on a rainy day".

However, these experiences were the reddest and most beautiful wild rose in Lin Fei's dilapidated childhood.

Both in the past and in the future, everything is beautiful.

The sugar residue in a cup of bitter water naturally looks particularly sweet.

When she was a child, she did not live in Sioux City, but in a small county town in her hometown.

She was weak and had colds and fevers from time to time.

Every time, it was her father, carrying her on his back, to a small pharmacy nearby.

Pass through the not-too-busy shops and walk downhill.

Lin Fei is playful and naughty and likes to watch her boss grind medicine into powder with a mortar.

Also, Dad can climb over the fence of the bridge to pick it because Lin Fei likes a foxtail grass beside the bridge.

There is rushing water under the bridge, and if you don't pay attention, you may be a dead end.

Lin Fei looked up these memories and found that Lin Gang was quite ignorant. Wasn't he following his daughter and fooling around?
Oh, they sure are still kids at heart.

There were a lot of rats in the old house, and getting rid of them was a very troublesome thing for the family at that time.

Lin Gang designed a mechanism in the iron cage and caught two mice, one big and one small.

The little mouse trembled and hid under the big mouse. The big mouse kept testing the surrounding environment to see if it could open the iron cage.

All things are animistic, except rats.

He doesn't care about ethics among mice.

They are all bad and deserve to die!
Lin Fei was curious to see this fun thing, but was afraid to see the bloody scene where her father stabbed the mouse to death with an iron pole. She was both good and playful.

"Dad, I'm so scared. Don't you think this is too cruel?"

She was wet and sticky and wrapped around Lin Gang, hiding behind him.

Dad's eyes were also full of smiles.

Li Gang came up with a good way to kill rats painlessly.He dug out an abandoned bucket at home, filled it with water, and put the iron cage inside.

The diameter of the bucket is too small, and the iron cage just fits perfectly.

The mouse fluttered several times in the cage, but couldn't escape.

Unexpectedly, after one night, they saw a magical scene——

The big rat's forelimbs clung to the gap at the top of the iron cage, and its hind legs also found a fulcrum on the wall of the iron cage.

Its belly is bulging, and it looks like it drank a lot of water and became bloated like this.

And the little mouse, lying peacefully on the back of the big mouse, looked at the outside world cautiously with its small eyes.
Maybe it's father's love, or mother's love, or brotherly love?
He is good at everything.

This emotional scene made Lin Gang soften his heart.

The two mice were eventually taken to a garbage dump not far away and released.

During the holidays, her father would take a small blackboard and teach Lin Fei to recite ancient poems.

"The luminous cup of wine and wine, if you want to drink the pipa, please remind me immediately."

For a long time, she thought that Pipa was a kind of wine.

The childhood drama has come to an end.

A novel about adolescence, beginning.

It was so long that Lin Fei almost forgot what her father looked like.
In other words, people have no specific appearance in the first place, and everything is constantly changing with the passage of time.

Is it gambling?

Is it inner greed?
Are you not satisfied?
Is it comparison?

What on earth turned a seemingly good father, husband, and son into the maggot he is now, wallowing crazily in the mud?

Lies, violence, insults, beatings, blood.

Lin Fei's daily life is surrounded by gloom, light red blood and slight sadness.

The scars on the body will heal.

Leave a scar, that's all.

However, the trauma of the soul, the self-doubt, the distortion of the three views, the timid behavior, the timid character, the appearance of pretending to be strong, and the confusion of not knowing where to go were integrated into her body like flesh and blood.

Lin Fei wanted to believe, she was willing to lie to herself, that was not him, that was not my father, he was just a man whose soul was taken away by gambling, leaving only an empty body, doing random things.

People often say that today's children are born in blessings and do not know the blessings. They study in the classroom every day. Have they experienced any big storms?

Lin Fei took a deep breath and thought sadly in her heart: Does this count?

Her mind was filled with many thoughts, and finally, her eyes fell on this father's final suicide note.

Dear Feier:
Good news!
Feifei, please allow me to call you this.

Dad knows that he made a big mistake and caused you a lot of harm. I cannot be forgiven.

There is no end to the road. If God closes a door for you, he will naturally open a window for you.

You have lost my care. Your grandparents, mother, and aunt will give you more care.

While serving my sentence, I reflected a lot and thought a lot.

Life in prison is boring, and recalling your innocent and cute appearance as a child is my only comfort.

I can't pay back the hurt of the past.

In the future, I may not be able to control myself from gambling again.Ah.

Fei Fei, Fei Fei, Fei Fei, Fei Fei, Fei Fei.

I read your name over and over again, hoping to remember it more firmly and ask it to accompany me through the rest of the road to hell.

How great would it be if there really was a blue sky on the other side of the world?

My big ghost hand can hold your little hand through the air, and we can go home together as happily as we did when we were little.

If there is an afterlife, dad hopes that he can fulfill his responsibility and protect you for life.

2023.10.2
Father: Lin Gang
In prison (end of chapter)