The palace wall reflects the moon

Chapter 105 Extra: Jiang Qingyue Chapter [-]
Later, before leaving Gusu, Qin Gu told me: "Jiang Qingyue, what is so good about him?"

I agree with what he said: "You're right, it's not good anywhere."

"Don't be so stubborn."

"I really don't have any stubbornness." I'm serious. Where do I look at my stubbornness? -
When I faced Meng Zhen, I reminded myself to be patient all the time, but in the end I looked completely different in front of her.

She had almost no doubt that I was Jiang Qingyue.

Probably because I never tolerated anyone in the past. Even if she slapped me dozens of times, I would not give in to her.

How could she believe that one day I would kneel in front of her and serve her servilely?

Looking at her swollen belly and thinking that it was Shen Xiao's flesh and blood, for a moment I imagined the scene of their love and affection.

I have to be heartbroken.
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I thought I would have to fight alone for a long time to avenge my blood, but it was inexplicably easy.

Shen Xiao did everything I wanted to do and the people I wanted to deal with first, and brought the results to me.
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But I don’t quite understand Shen Xiao’s cruelty to Meng Zhen.

He once doted on Meng Zhen so much, why could he have the heart to turn her into a living dead?
I thought Shen Xiao was not a good person, nor should he be such a cold-hearted person.

Perhaps Meng Da Sima was too arrogant and domineering and blocked Shen Xiao's way after all? -
Until many years later, I accidentally said to Shen Shuning: "Shen Yi and Zong'er are obviously siblings, but they are nothing alike."

Shen Yi is the daughter of Meng Zhen and Shen Xiao, and Zonger is the son of Shen Xiao and I, so naturally we are siblings.

Shen Shuning looked at me in surprise: "Siblings? Why do you think they are siblings? Didn't he tell you?"

He told me nothing.

It took all these years before I heard a completely different version of the story.

In this story, Shen Xiao never liked Meng Zhen, he even disliked her.
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I asked my father the truth about that year.

He sighed deeply, decided to tell me everything, and finally said: "Qingyue, is dad wrong?"

My mind was in confusion, I stumbled up and went straight to the old mansion.

I dug a box out from under the dirt in my yard.

There are many letters in the box.

I opened each letter one by one and read them word for word.

In the letter, he repeated many words, and many of the handwritings were trembling, all of which were telling his true feelings and his helplessness that was difficult to express in words.

He was begging me, begging me for a long time, begging me not to give up on him.

Please don’t give your whole life to someone else easily, please give him two years.

I was heartbroken holding these letters and burst into tears. Until dark, I was still sitting under the tree, holding the pile of letters.

I don’t know how long it had been dark before my father found me.

He was already old, his old body was bowed, and he said to me apologetically and distressedly: "My daughter, it was my father who was wrong."

I shook my head and comforted him: "No, it's my own fault."

I turned a blind eye to his efforts. I always convinced myself that he was doing it for profit, not for me.

But isn't he really doing it for me?

I abandoned him and left him alone in a deserted place. He learned to let go, fulfilled me, and never complained about me.

I feel sorry for him. It's been so long that I know how to feel sorry for him.
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I shamelessly asked Jiang Zong to help me date him.

Jiang Zong said to me in surprise: "Mom, what do you want to do?"

"Nothing, just catching up on old times," I explained, "The emperor and I are old friends."

Jiang Zong wondered: "Are you trying to bribe the emperor to treat me better? Mother, the world is not as simple as you think..."

I wondered: "Do you look like I am such a stupid person?"

Jiang Zong nodded: "It's true..."

I slapped him on the head: "If I ask you to date me, then I will date you!"

Jiang Zong was on the verge of crying, but said, "The emperor will think there is something wrong with my mother."

I don’t know what Shen Xiao will think.

But I seem to be sure that he will come. Over the years, he has indeed been very good to Jiang Zong.He was okay with me, but he didn't make his attitude towards me explicit.

While waiting in Lanyuelou, my mind was so blank that I forgot to order.

He sat in front of me and I still didn't know what to say.

So I turned the conversation over to him.

"I'm getting older and I can't afford to wait any longer. If you don't speak clearly, I'll be the one to stop you."

As a result, he directly asked me to step down and make way for someone worthy of his post?
I'm not asking for this.

He has long since allowed me to come and go freely in and out of the palace, and there is no need for me to force him to abdicate to fulfill my freedom.

I just want him to personally explain what happened so that he can give me a step down.

As long as he gave me a step, I would hug him and never let him go.

...I took the initiative to tell Jiang Zong that this was his biological father.

Jiang Zong didn't even ask who it was, so he called out to King Xuan and disappeared.

But Shen Xiao was very happy. Like a child, he asked me a little excitedly and carefully: "Can I really recognize him?"

I asked back: "Otherwise, do you have other children to inherit the country?"

He had already blatantly had this idea, and tested me countless times to see if I would agree, otherwise I would not dare to say it outright.

That night, Shen Xiao suddenly asked me: "Why don't you want me when I become emperor, but why can you agree to Jiang Zong becoming emperor?"

He probably means that I have double standards.

I'm embarrassed to explain, but actually I thought he became emperor for imperial power and to get Bai Yueguang Meng Zhen...

But saying it probably makes me look stupid.

I said nonsense: "Probably because I care more about you, and the more I care, the more I care."

Shen Xiao looked at me suspiciously.

I was discouraged and told the truth: "You told many people personally that you liked Meng Zhen, and you treated her so well before and after you became emperor. I thought..."

Shen Xiao laughed angrily: "Brother Three Emperors was interested in you at that time. I can only say that I like Meng Zhen."

I said, "Oh, just say yes, you said it anyway."

"It's the truth," he said more and more urgently, "haven't you seen how I treat her? Can't you see that I have no interest in her at all? I told you many years ago that I only like you One, why don’t you believe it?”

I was speechless.

Then he asked me: "Would you rather not believe it? Would you rather convince yourself that I don't love you?"

There are many times where clues can be seen.

Maybe I didn’t want to write it, I did it on purpose.

I would rather be disheartened than have hopes for an emperor, but this is unfair to him.

He said with some disappointment: "Jiang Qingyue, I really didn't expect it to be like this."

He turned to go out.

I hugged his waist from behind and said softly: "Don't ask about the past, okay? We still have a future."

His body was a little stiff: "I'm going to relieve myself..."

I immediately let go of my hands.

He came back quickly and stood a little awkwardly in front of me.

We haven't gotten along for a long time, and we are like strangers. He doesn't even dare to take the initiative to hug me.

After being awkward with each other for a while, he said: "It's getting late, I'll go back to the palace first..."

"Isn't it early?"

I hooked my fingers around his girdle and untied it.

With the sound of the white jade matte brocade waistband falling to the ground, he hugged me and kissed me as if he had lost his restraint.

We fell on the bed.

He pressed me and asked patiently: "Did I force you that day?"

In fact, on the night he forgot about me, he seemed to be menacing and determined, but he was still timid. He cautiously asked me several times, and finally said mercifully to let me go.

Do I need him to be so kind?Why do you always give up and leave after provoking someone?

At that time, I stared at him and said in a deep voice: "I know you are not interested in me, so don't embarrass yourself next time."

He said, "I'm interested."

He worked hard to prove it.

So later he emphasized that I didn't refuse, and he was so angry that I refused to make peace with him that his eyes turned red.

What's there to say no to?He's not bad looking, but it's not like only men have needs in this area.It's probably because...that erotic book was read by me.

I thought to myself at the time that I would just pay someone to take care of me, and he did a pretty good job.

I want to laugh a little bit.Just him, do you think he will rape me?He has always been very timid in this regard.

"Do you think you are so talented?"

Then...he used practical actions to make me realize that I was wrong.

……

After doing this several times, it felt like my whole body had been run over.

He was still very energetic, hugging me from behind, biting my ear and forcing me to answer: "Have I had a seed?"

What a stubborn person.

(End of this chapter)