I collect cultural relics in the human world

I don’t even remember when I started to like Li Jiahui. I only know that I knew her from the moment she was born.

Our two families are neighbors, and my parents are good friends. We work in the same factory.Because the factory was busy with work at that time, both parents often had to work overtime, working day and night, so when we were young, we always went to each other's house to have dinner.Today I will have a meal of dumplings at her house, and tomorrow she will have a meal of noodles at my house. We grew up like ordinary siblings.

I don’t know when, this brotherly love turned into curiosity, temptation, admiration, and love.

It was just as our parents wanted. "The Jiahui bush is as beautiful as Deng Lin." My name is Deng Lin, so she named it Jiahui. From birth, our parents decided this name half-jokingly. Baby kiss.

Later in our lives together, I often said to Li Jiahui when joking, I watched you grow up.Li Jiahui didn't refute after hearing this. She just looked at me quietly with a pair of bright eyes and asked, "So did you fall in love with me at first sight?"

Of course.

I always answer like this, but I know in my heart that I have never fallen in love with her at first sight.Love at first sight is too shallow and cannot escape time. For me, still water runs deep and my love for her grows over time.This feeling becomes long-lasting and strong in companionship, but it is as fast as a fleeting moment, and as dull as time flies.

She and I seemed to have never had a moment of excitement.Now that I think about it, the only two quarrels in my life were both sweet.

One time, I was filling out my application before the college entrance examination, and I gave up my favorite university and favorite major to stay with her. That was the first time she blushed with me, and she rubbed her neck and ignored me for several days, until I complied with my original wish. She was only willing to talk to me again after she went to the university she longed for. Once she was hospitalized due to a sudden appendicitis, and she even hid it from me so as not to affect my graduation exam. That time, I was the one taking the lead. How could studies be as important as health?But after all, she was sick. In the end, I took it first and peeled loquats for her all afternoon. Even the color of her fingernails changed.Other than that, it's all smooth sailing.

On the wedding day, I took her hand from my father-in-law's and walked to the end of the auditorium hand in hand. Although it was embarrassing, I felt that my life was complete here.

Later, we walked together through grasslands, climbed over hills, waded through streams, walked through deserts, and finally stood on the edge of the ends of the earth. I said, Jiahui, our journey along the way was so dull, and we didn't even get romantic once.

Why not? You said looking at the boundless sea water. That year you climbed over the wall and planted a loquat tree for me. Is there anything more romantic than this in the world?

foodie.

I blurted it out at that time, but my mind went back to many years ago.You love to eat loquats, but the loquats here are always sour.That day my uncle from my hometown came to visit me. It was the first time I ate such sweet loquats. I bit the honey-like juice in my mouth and the first thing I thought of was you.I think I have to plant these loquats so that Jiahui can eat such fresh and sweet loquats every year.

But I don't want you to jump up, the moon will fall, the flowers will break, the fragrance will disappear, the jade will die, the trees will still stand tall, and the beloved person has gone.

I've heard people say before that even the deepest love in life cannot withstand time in the end, but I don't believe it.When I was young, I didn’t know how high the sky was. I only knew that if I loved someone, it would last for all eternity and eternity. Naturally, nothing could separate two people who love each other, not even time.

So at that time I was very sure that Li Jiahui and I would grow old together from childhood sweethearts.

It wasn't until that day, when I stood in the familiar world with scarlet eyes, and listened to the doctor telling me that there was no need for resuscitation, that I realized that life is always chaotic, and there are too many things in the world that can make love stop abruptly. A few words on the screen, or a short sentence from a stranger, means that loved ones are separated, heaven and earth are separated forever, and souls and dreams never see each other again.

What disappeared was not only my lover but also my unborn child. My family disappeared in that moment.Splashes of blood dyed my sight red. A drop of blood fell on the curtain of my life, and then smudged out, just like my pain, expanding a little more every day, spreading out on the track I walked.

We can no longer reach the original destination. My life unfolds under a new coordinate system, and the origin of that coordinate is the drop of blood that has turned into crimson.

From that day on, I hated everything - the person who took the video, the person hiding behind the keyboard, the person standing downstairs shouting, the person who didn't arrive in time, the person who told me it was an accident, Those who advised me to let go are happy people, joyful people, people who have not been stung by fate... I hate everything in this world, including myself, except for you, Li Jiahui, the memory of you is what keeps me alive. The only motivation.

As long as I still remember you, you will not be forgotten by this world.

In addition to taking care of your parents, I put all my extra energy into research, because I think this is what you want to see - bamboo slips, oracle bones, jades, bricks and tiles, sealing mud, military amulets, bright objects...

Day after day, year after year, I can see you looking at me quietly from above on all the words engraved on the fragments and all the fragments carrying the words.

I thought my life would end like this, until one day, I turned to Zhao Mingcheng's "Inscriptions on Gold and Stone".I once told you about the love between Zhao Mingcheng and Li Qingzhao. When Zhao Mingcheng was still a student, as soon as they had money, they went to Xiangguo Temple to buy inscriptions and some fruits and snacks. After returning, they ate fruit and tea while admiring the monuments. Posts, collated various different manuscripts, and finally compiled thirty volumes of "Inscriptions and Stone Records".

It was great. I longed for those years, and you held your face with one hand, listened to me quietly, and then told me that we should also be a couple like Zhao Mingcheng and Li Qingzhao.

It turned out to be a prophecy.

In the midst of intense love and leisurely elegance, we both forgot that Li Qingzhao and Zhao Mingcheng did not grow old together.

Being shocked by the wine, Chunchun fell asleep heavily, and gambling was so scent of tea.At that time, only Tao was commonplace.

There were drops of water falling on Yi An's vagina. When I touched my face, I realized that it was already wet.

Go for a walk.I closed the book and prepared to go to campus to relax, but at the corner of the street I saw a figure I had never thought of - Wu Litian, Zeng Bin's mother.

After Jiahui's accident, an indignant reporter came to me and wanted to expose the person behind the tragedy, but he was dissuaded by his father-in-law.He said that she was gone, and if Jiahui was still there, he probably didn't want to see another turmoil for him, so he should just let her rest in peace.

Although the reporter was persuaded to leave, I kept a copy of that set of materials. During those lonely and sad years, the faces of those people had already been deeply etched into my mind, and I knew that I would never admit my mistake.

For some reason, I followed him, following the figure through the streets and alleys, and finally came to a temple. The old woman got in without hesitation, but I was stopped by a slender figure.

"Teacher Deng, why are you here?"

"Who are you?" I searched for this face in my memory to make sure he was not my student. Although I was confused, I had not forgotten such a handsome face.

"I'm very interested in epigraphy, and I once attended your class." I was still confused, but the old woman's figure had disappeared, so I had to say casually: "I remember you, welcome to come more."

A smile appeared on the young student's face. He took off a pendant from his neck and handed it to me: "This piece of tortoise shell is an ancient relic in my home. I have been looking for an opportunity for the teacher to help me study and interpret it. I didn't expect that I would be lucky enough to meet it today." …”

My eyes lit up. It was a well-preserved tortoise shell fragment. Normally, I would have stopped and discussed it with him in detail. But at this moment, I couldn't help but interrupt him: "I have something else to do. We won’t talk about it in class next time.”

"Ah," he said with an embarrassed look on his face, and handed the pendant directly to my hand, "leave that thing with the teacher first. I will find the teacher next time in class."

"This..." I had never seen this student, but Wu Litian's figure had disappeared for too long. I didn't want to get entangled, so I took the pendant from his hand and put it into my trouser pocket, and walked into the temple.

Thinking about it now, everything about that day, from the sudden appearance of Wu Litian, to the strange man and the strange fragments, everything was abnormal, but at that time I didn't notice at all, all my mind was on Wu Litian.I watched her pray like a cat in the temple, then hurried through the alley, got on the bus as if nothing happened, bought groceries, chatted, went home to cook, and spent an ordinary day in her long life. , but it is a day that I can never ask for again.

For some reason, I stood downstairs in her house, reluctant to leave until I saw her leaning out from the balcony to collect her clothes.

Why wasn't she the one who jumped down?

At that moment, the deep hatred in my heart could no longer be buried. My hands in my trouser pockets clenched tightly involuntarily, holding the pieces of unknown origin in my pockets. I gritted my teeth and cursed: "Since you want to help your son, To atone for your sins, why not just jump down? Only death can make up for death."

After saying that, I didn't want to look at her again, turned around and strode away, but suddenly there was a loud noise behind me.I was startled, and when I turned around, I saw a patch of blood falling not far from where I was just standing, and it was Wu Litian.

The crowd of onlookers gradually grew, and some people took out their mobile phones and started calling the police. The sound of ambulances sounded from far away, and I ran away.

When I got home, my originally uneasy heart gradually calmed down because of the familiar environment. I thought about the scenes that happened today, and I couldn't help but take the piece of tortoise shell out of my trouser pocket and found that there was a crack on it.

This crack... I recalled over and over again that the student did not have this crack when he gave the tortoise shell to me. How should I explain it to him now?I was just worried when my eyes suddenly glanced at the mirror in the entrance hall. Who was that?I was startled, and when I looked closer, I found that the gray-haired person in the mirror was actually me.

When did I get so old?

Today's scenes appeared in my mind again, the tortoise shell, the prophecy, the fulfillment, the price... I don't know why, but secret expectation and happiness arose in my heart.

That night I had a dream. In the dream, I rode a giant turtle back to our old house. Under the loquat tree that carried all our romance, there was a little girl whose face could not be seen clearly.

Jiahui, all of this must be a miracle you gave me.

To confirm my idea is very simple, just go to those two people.I took a week off citing physical discomfort and spent three days finding Wang Shengbang.Such a person has actually become a teacher who teaches and educates people. How can he deserve it?I came to his school and asked him to walk step by step to the top of the teaching building and jump down under the watchful eyes of the students.

Looking at myself in the mirror again, wrinkles have climbed onto my forehead.But I don't care, there is no one in this world that I care about anymore.I guessed my fate, and there were two more people on my list, as long as I could survive until then.

I went to see my father-in-law. After my mother-in-law passed away last year, my father-in-law's mental state became worse and worse and he suffered from Alzheimer's disease.He will also forget everything about you. The only thing I can do is to complete my revenge before he forgets everything.

Zhang Yang's whereabouts are easy to trace. His mahjong parlor has collapsed and he is now a delivery boy.I followed him to a tall building, made sure he had finished delivering the takeout, and then manipulated him to climb to the top floor. Looking at the struggle and fear on his face, I used words to force him to jump down.

The moment he died, I was already covered with white hair, and the giant turtle from the previous dream was by my side.For some reason, the little girl from the previous dream broke into this fantasy.I didn't mean to scare her, but she was frightened by the giant turtle. Fortunately, a man in black costume followed closely behind and saved her.There was a very familiar scent about that man, but I didn't want to get entangled. There was only one person left in my target. Now was not the time to create complications, so I withdrew from the fantasy world.

The little girl did find me, and I met her three more times.

For the first time, she was accompanied by an extraordinary old man and a tall and strong man, both of whom were strange people. There was also a bird that could avoid all the attacks of the turtle. Leave safely.

The second time I had controlled Zeng Bin, but she appeared in the dream again, almost risking her own life to save Zeng Bin.

The third time she appeared with the man, I realized that the man was the student who gave me the tortoise shell that day. No wonder they also have the ability to follow their words.This battle consumed almost all my life force, and when I was about to dissipate, the girl suddenly asked me if I wanted to see you again.Li Jiahui, she actually asked me if I wanted to see you again.

Everyone knows that if I could see you again, I would trade my whole life for it.

You know what happened next, right? I returned to my old house, back to the day you jumped off. You saw me with white hair. You held me in your arms, just like on the wedding day, we supported each other. Let's move forward together, and then we wake up from the dream.

I always thought that we could grow old together from childhood sweethearts, but now that we are really old, I realize that even if we grow old together, we can't grow old together with you.

Since we can’t forget, we might as well think about it as much as we can.

I finally held the tortoise shell that was already covered with cracks, and read the poem in the little girl's astonished eyes.

I'm sorry, little girl, besides being careful about the people around you, there are some things I have no time to say to you.

I saw my fingertips becoming transparent, and the loquat tree I had planted over the wall that year was rising from the ground. Li Jiahui, let me use the few remaining days of my life to give you another grand romance.

Deep love will last forever, wisdom will be broken, and another story has come to an end. This story consumed Deng Lin's entire life, but I think he was happy at the last moment.