Rebirth of the eldest daughter

Chapter 442 is not about foolish loyalty, but about moving forward with a heavy load!

Thinking of her father, uncle, and brothers, and the battle in Yinshan, she still can't calm down.

The pain of losing a father and a brother will still hit me suddenly.

When she thought of the tragic death of her father, uncle, and brother, her heart felt as if she had been crushed by thousands of troops, and she still felt so painful that she couldn't breathe.

Perhaps all the pain in this world can be overcome and healed through time, but the pain of losing a loved one is unforgettable.

Rubbed into the bones and blood, it is difficult to peel off and unable to let go.

So when he spoke again, Bai Mingwei choked up a little:
"He sent his children and grandchildren to the battlefield with his own hands. The family that had been famous for centuries was destroyed because of the battle in Yinshan. Many people thought he was foolishly loyal."

"The death of his father, uncle, and brother made him more sad than us widows who have lost their relatives and husbands. He is more heartbroken than anyone else!"

"But this is the price he pays for carrying the burden for the people of the world! He can only bear it!"

Mr. Gongsun was silent and said nothing.

He sat quietly, his bearded face tense.

It seemed like there was some intense emotion burning in his heart.

Bai Mingwei continued: "I still remember that at that time, my grandfather dragged his sick body, endured the grief of the white-haired man sending the black-haired man away, and was still discussing the expedition with me."

"My grandfather supported us as we headed north to the border. Although reality crushed him and turned him into an ordinary old man, he still couldn't worry about the important matters of his family and country."

After a pause, Bai Mingwei said again:
"My grandfather entered the official career when he was a teenager, and he has been in officialdom for decades. He was a veteran of three dynasties and a minister of two generations... My grandfather dedicated his life to this land and the people who live in this land."

Bai Mingwei said, unable to help but burst into tears:

"When my grandmother passed away, I was still very young and didn't understand many things, but I still clearly remember that my father was going to pick up my grandfather and come back to see my grandmother for the last time."

"My grandmother grabbed my father and said, 'Don't go. Your father is providing disaster relief in the south. If your father is not there to personally watch, the food and disaster relief money will not reach the hands of the people. Only your father can ensure that more people survive.' "

"Grandma wouldn't let me, and no one dared to tell grandpa, but grandma would still lean on the quilt and look to the distant south from time to time until she closed her eyes."

"Perhaps deep down in her heart, she still longed to see her husband, but in the end she failed to do so."

"Because she knows that once her grandfather is called back, more people will never be able to see their loved ones for the last time."

At this point, Bai Mingwei covered his cheeks with both hands and burst into tears.

"I still can't forget the scene of my grandmother looking south from a distance when she was dying...I can't forget the heartbreaking feeling of my grandfather kneeling in front of my grandmother's grave after he came back."

"My grandfather loves my grandmother very much. All the boys in the Bai family are infatuated. He and my grandmother have supported each other for half their lives. Even my aunt in the house was forced to die by my grandmother."

"But sir, does he know? My grandfather was just sad for a long time, then he gathered his emotions and devoted himself to political affairs. Because there was a coup in Xichu, he had to ensure that Dongling was not affected."

"Isn't he sad? No, on my grandmother's tombstone, there is still a mouthful of blood that he vomited when he stumbled to her grave. The blood soaked into the stone and cannot be washed away by all the wind and rain."

"If you ask me to tell you what my grandfather has done in the past few decades, I can't finish it because there are countless."

"But the emperor does not remember my grandfather's good deeds, nor the courtiers, but the people do. Do you think such a person is foolish and loyal?"

"It shows that you don't understand him, his passion, and his patriotism." After saying that, Bai Mingwei wiped away his tears.

She did not let herself continue to lose control, but she would still look in the direction of the capital again.

There are endless stories there, and there is also a great old man who loves her very much.

Mr. Gongsun listened silently without saying a word.

Because he knew that everything Miss Bai said was true, and he couldn't find any reason to refute it.

He couldn't help but think of his experience in hiding in Liancheng these years.

He can pat his chest and say that without this prime minister, he would not have been able to survive until now.

Finally, Mr. Gongsun spoke with a hoarse voice: "I take back what I just said. The old prime minister is someone I admire and that has never changed."

Bai Ming slightly looked at the map pressed down by Zhen Chi, and she reached out and gently brushed the locations of the five cities.

"I still can't imagine that if Xiao Chuanyi hadn't led all our women and children to carry coffins to ask for help, who would have stood up, who would have dared to stand up and take back these five cities?"

"Perhaps the people in these cities will still live in the humiliation and trampling of the enemy. In fact, the Beiyan people will use these cities to continue to send troops southward."

"In the end, more and more people will be displaced, and more and more people will lose their country and their families... What I did is not out of ignorance and loyalty, but because I love my homeland."

Mr. Gongsun stared at her, and then slowly breathed out: "I understand, let you marry to avoid trouble, just pretend I didn't say it."

Bai Mingwei blinked her eyes, all her emotions were controlled by her, and she was that calm and calm girl again.

There was a faint smile on her lips: "Sir, don't you agree to go out now because you feel that your seclusion can't change anything? Don't you also want to end this never-ending troubled world?"

Mr. Gongsun patted his knees, stood up and walked out.

His voice came back word for word: "That's exactly it. However, I overestimated myself and underestimated others after all."

Yes, Mr. Gongsun can admit without hesitation that when he was young, he was indeed a bit arrogant.

Therefore, he looked down upon Emperor Yuan Zhen and looked down upon the treacherous and sycophantic government and the public, and felt that these places were not suitable for him to display his ambitions.

However, he forgot that in places he looked down upon, there were still people who were burning their heart and soul, working diligently and conscientiously.

Therefore, he overestimated himself and underestimated others.

If the love for family and country and the love for homeland still take time, when will the vision of a peaceful and prosperous age be realized?
Mr. Gongsun knew that he was impressed by this girl with a strong heart and a broad mind.

At the same time, he also knew that going out this time was a correct decision.

After talking to Mr. Gongsun, Bai Mingwei slowly sat back on the chair.

Suddenly, a shadow appeared outside the door.

(End of this chapter)