I build nuclear bombs in the giant world.

Chapter 182 A Spark

When Asuka is soaked in the water of life LCL, it feels quiet, moist and warm.

All that reached her ears was the surging sound of LCL.

She curled up into a ball, hugging her slender legs, and stared silently at the countdown on the upper right side of the insertion plug screen.

That was the countdown of the life support system. Tiny charges passed through the lamp, and under the control of the auxiliary optical module, a series of changing numbers appeared.

This is the only light source inserted into the plug. In order to maintain an environment suitable for the driver's survival, almost all the power of the system is supplied to heating and oxygen circulation.

Asuka was in a dark, narrow darkness, and all she could see was a series of decreasing numbers that emitted a faint light.

There was nothing here, no one talked to her, no one would look at her.

It had been some time since she had been confined to a space that could only accommodate her.

There was nothing she could do.

She closed her eyes and there was only silence.

Some scattered memories emerged. In the darkness, the boundary between reality and self became increasingly blurred.

She felt as if she had lost her shape, as if she was gradually merging with something.

someone is calling her

"Asuka, Asuka"

It was a very gentle voice, reassuring.

"Asuka, were you good in school today?"

"Hey, Asuka was praised by the teacher. It's amazing."

"This one is called a bag doll. It's a gift for Asuka because Asuka did well in kindergarten."

"Promise Mom, you will be good in the future."

"Mom." Asuka remembered that it was her mother's voice.

That was a memory she had buried deep in her heart and had finally forgotten.

"I didn't expect this kind of thing to really happen."

"Yes, he is obviously an advocate of experiments, but he became insane because of experiments."

"EVAGELINO, is it really too early for today's human beings to be exposed to that kind of thing?"

"It's so pitiful. Her daughter is only four years old, and now she doesn't even recognize her own daughter."

"It's pitiful, but I'm telling the truth." The speaker lowered his voice: "Don't you think it's very intrusive to hold a baby and talk all day long? Sure enough, that's not the Miss Kyoko we know anymore, right?"

"Although no brain function damage has been detected, it is obviously another person. I think the real Miss Kyoko is dead, and what is still here is just a corpse."

"Hey, don't talk like this around."

The young Asuka walked out of the corner, and the two people who were talking immediately shut up and smiled on their faces.

"It's little Asuka. Are you here to see your mother? Come on, come here, we will take you there."

Asuka looked at her mother on the bed through the glass of the ward.

She was still young and didn't understand what was going on, why...why was her mother fine before that day, but she became like this after going out for a trip and then coming back?

Why did she not even remember her when we met again after just going out to work for a day?

She walked into the ward and looked up at her mother's face.

Her mother didn't look at her, she just held the doll in her arms like a baby.

The woman in a white hospital gown called the doll's name.

"Mom, Asuka is here." Asuka stood on tiptoes: "That thing is not me, Asuka is here!"

She reached out her hand to take the doll away from her mother's arms.

"Give it back to me! Give it back to me! That's my daughter!"

The mother pushed her away hard, turned her back, hugged the doll tightly, and hid it under her belly.

"Don't be afraid, Asuka, mom is here, don't be afraid."

"Mom...what's wrong with you! Mom!"

"Is it my fault? Is that why you don't recognize me as your daughter?"

"I will definitely be a good child and become a child that my mother likes!"

"So...so, look at me, mom, look at me!"

No matter how Asuka cried, her mother would never look back for her.

She cried countless times and sobbed for countless days, her voice became hoarse from crying, and her tears dried up, but it was of no use. Asuka's little heart gradually became numb and cold.

After her mother was taken home, her father spent less and less time at home, but she still went to her mother's room every day. Even if her father didn't go, she would still go to that pale, cold and dark room.

"Your father hates your mother and doesn't want her anymore."

"No, you must not like me from the beginning."

"You must not have wanted me from the beginning."

"Dad doesn't want us anymore."

That day, Asuka opened the door and saw her mother who had hanged herself, and the doll with a rope tied around its neck.

"Asuka, go die with your mother!"

This scene will appear in Asuka's nightmares for many years to come.

The corpse hanging in the room looked at her mother, the rag doll whose head was torn off by the rope.

"Really? Are you dead?" Dad said calmly on the other end of the phone: "It doesn't matter. Let's move tomorrow. I just want to introduce a new person to you."

When her mother died, her expression looked very happy, but Asuka hated that expression.

She hates death, hates her own disappearance, hates dolls, hates her father, and hates her mother.

Hate everyone.

No one wants to protect her, no one wants to be by her side.

So I have to live alone.

But it’s so annoying to live alone.

A house alone is terrible.

It's so scary to be alone at night.

One person fights, one person drives EVA, and one person dies inside the insertion bolt.

very scary.

"Are you lonely?"

A voice spoke in my ear.

"Are you lonely?"

It seemed like a pair of hands touched Asuka's head.

When Asuka opened her eyes, what she saw was not the dark space inside the plug, but the hazy and illusory sea.

"Is this the inside of EVA?"

"Mom. Is that you?"

"Mom, are you here?"

"Have you always been here?"

"So you've always been by my side and looking at me!"

"Asuka, are you lonely?"

The insubstantial shadow stretched out its hand towards Asuka.     “Are you lonely?”

Asuka stared at the hand and hesitated.

Other hazy memories appeared in front of her.

"Let me introduce myself first. My name is Ian. I work on a farm, but although I say it's a job, I'm actually a slave. I was sold to the farm."

"Please, Asuka-sensei, please teach me."

"You really made gunpowder! It's really awesome!"

"I can get three gold coins a month now, and the housekeeper is teaching me how to read."

"I want to learn how to make a waterwheel. If there is not a good harvest this year, many people will starve to death."

"We are not fighting humans, we are fighting man-eating giants, so we need some more powerful weapons."

"I'm sorry to bother you again. Without you, I would have died on that farm long ago. We, the people on Parady Island, are only able to get where we are today because of you."

"This is my last request. Please teach me how to make a nuclear bomb. I swear, I definitely don't have any bad intentions. I just hope to protect my country and my companions."

In fact, that period of time was not long. But Asuka would see that person every night

He is always noisy, wanting to learn this and that.

At first, he was shorter than Asuka and wore old cloth clothes. Later, he grew taller and taller, and Asuka could clearly see his changes.

Is that a real person?

She often had this kind of doubt, and with the help of Mr. Kaji, she went to the German branch of NERV for brainwave testing and mental examination, but nothing was found.

After that, she stopped mentioning it to other people, but she would still pay attention to what the person mentioned, and would spend time carefully memorizing the knowledge that was unclear or poorly understood.

Maybe it's not that person who needs her, but the other way around.

Until one day, she never saw Ian in her dream again.

It became one person, one person's room, and one person's night again.

No one needs her anymore.

No one needs her anymore, right?

Be it the apostle or SEELE, they will all be solved smoothly, right?

He has grown up and no longer needs her. No one needs her anymore.

Asuka turned around and hesitated for a long time.

However, Shadow took his hand back.

"So you're not lonely."

The figure in front of Asuka disappeared like the wind.

The dream ended abruptly here, and Asuka suddenly woke up in the driver's seat.

There was one hour and seventeen minutes left in the countdown in front of her, and she fell asleep.

"What a long dream. I didn't expect that sleeping would become so tiring."

Still no movement, no rescue, no external communication received.

"What am I still expecting?"

When she was thinking this, suddenly, flashes of fluorescence appeared in front of her eyes.

In the darkness, a faint light lit up, like a firefly, illuminating the surroundings of Unit 2.

Even though there was no energy, after having the dream just now, Asuka still synchronized the vision of Unit 2 and saw the situation outside.

Those rays of light, thousands of them, surrounded Unit 2, illuminating the surroundings like daylight.

"What is this? What are these?"

Asuka was full of doubts. She didn't know what was happening, but these light spots did not make her feel afraid. Instead, they gave her warmth in the insertion plug where the heating and oxygen supply were gradually failing.

"found it!"

"This is it!"

"This is Unit 2, right?"

"It can't be wrong. I've seen the picture drawn by Captain Hanji, and this is it!"

The light spots got closer and closer, and Asuka finally saw their whole faces clearly. It turned out that they were figures one by one. They were holding "torches" and walked in front of Unit 2. They were wearing strange clothes, and each one looked as if they were virtual. Illusive.

Asuka had seen this kind of clothes before. In her dream, she saw Ian wearing this kind of clothes.

"Could it be that he's from that island?"

"Why can they come to the apostle's space!"

In the Dirac Sea, in an extremely remote place, Ian sat quietly in front of the weird bug.

He saw where Unit 2 was, and finally determined the location of Unit 2 and the apostle within the Sea of ​​Dirac.

After learning that Unit 2 was swallowed into the Dirac Sea, he began to try to connect with Asuka.

It was probably the Apostle's AT field that was hindering him. He couldn't determine where Asuka was, he could only determine a rough direction.

The Dirac Sea and the material world are completely different realms. Although Unit 2 was swallowed in New Tokyo City 3, there is no way to determine the location of Unit 2 in the negative universe based on this.

As for rushing into the Dirac Sea with a passionate body, this kind of thing is a reckless thing that only young people who can't find a way will do.

The weird insect sleeping in the Sea of ​​Dirac, the power of coordinates that can connect with the Eldians, Ian used what he already knew to find a solution to the problem.

Because the power of the ancestors was eliminated, he could no longer forcefully pull the Eldians over unless they had a strong will.

For example, when I connected with Historia, Captain Hanji, Levi and the others, it was because of their willingness that I could connect with them.

So, he found everyone and explained the situation.

"My teacher, the one who taught me a lot, is in trouble and she needs our help now."

The news quickly spread throughout Parade Island, and people put down everything they were doing and came to help the person who had helped them.

Tens of thousands of Eldian soul projections were pulled over by Ian.

They searched for Unit 2 in the nearly endless, dark and lightless Dirac Sea.

If there was only Ian alone, there was only a very low probability that Unit 2 would be found before Unit 2 completely lost its energy.

But when a spark lights up the darkness, it becomes the inevitable result.

"Are you hiding here? The twelfth apostle, the Night Angel!"

Ian's soul was transferred directly to Unit 2.

In the realm of the weird insect, that is, within the coordinates, he can move instantly with consciousness. Although this place is outside the realm, those who are connected to him are his "coordinates."

Through the grotesque bug, Ian and Ymir can exchange the matter and the material world in the Dirac Sea to create things like "giants" and "apostles" in reality.

In other words, Ian could have restored the apostle in the Dirac Sea!

During the more than ten hours of searching for Asuka, he had already prepared.

Fish Angel, Sky Angel, Rain Angel, Music Angel, four apostles made of "sand" appeared around Unit 2. From Ian's body, four fluorescent flowers floated out, as if Tiga had gained light. Like Ultraman, the apostle gained life.

They moved, powerful AT force fields exploded, and launched an attack on Night Angel!

(End of this chapter)