I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 118 Chen Jinzhi

Chen Jinzhi doesn't like rainy days.

The drizzle of light rain would make the old building smell of mold from every corner, while the heavy rain would make her worry that the already shaky house would suddenly collapse.

Although sometimes it feels like it’s collapsed.

But she still had some vaguely good memories about this house, but it was as distant as a lifetime ago.

At that time, my mother was just like other mothers, gentle and loving to laugh.

It must be, I can't remember clearly.

I don’t know from which day everything changed.

Chen Jinzhi has been a very observant child since she was a child. She knows exactly what to do to make adults like her.

Excellent test scores, greeting politely with a smile when meeting, not crying and fighting over favorite toys like other children, pretending to be enthusiastic and helping adults with things.

Gentle, courteous and thrifty.

It is very effective. Whether it is the nearby neighbors or the teachers at the school, they will praise her non-stop whenever they see her and use her as a role model to educate their children.

But this probably won't work for someone who suddenly becomes mentally ill.

The full-score test paper was casually torn into pieces, the prepared food was thrown everywhere, and the room that was carefully cleaned before going out was in a mess again when I returned home.

When she was in a better state, my mother would huddle in her room and cry.

When she sees Chen Jinzhi, she will cry even harder and say that she is sorry for her.

When he is in a bad state, he will scream, yell, bang his head against the wall, and curse everyone with extremely dirty words.

If he were an ordinary child, he would be so frightened that he would cry and run out to find others for help.

But Chen Jinzhi just hid in the closet and listened expressionlessly.

Wait for her to calm down, then go out and clean up the room that was vandalized.

"Mom, I'm sorry for you. You will be better off without your mother."

When she was awake, her mother would repeat this sentence to her.Her eyes were shining with hope, clearly hoping to hear words of comfort from Chen Jinzhi's mouth.

So Chen Jinzhi would answer as she wished:

"No mom, we're going to be fine."

Will it get better?
Chen Jinzhi doesn't know.

She said this just to maintain her good child persona.

My mother is very afraid of thunder, and her condition will worsen during thunderstorms.

Occasionally hurt yourself.

That's probably when Chen Jinzhi started to hate rainy days.

Before going to bed every day, she mentally recalled her mother's normal appearance to avoid letting the bad image now replace the good memories.

Maybe she didn't pretend enough and her words of comfort weren't sincere enough. On a thunderstorm day, when Chen Jinzhi ran to the door of his house with an umbrella with two big holes in it, he saw everyone surrounding it. The blue ambulance Lights flicker.

The police determined it to be suicide, and the funeral arrangements were simple. Chen Jinzhi held the urn. The weight of the ceramic was a bit difficult for a child of this age.

Throughout the whole process, she didn't shed a single tear.

People who usually praised her were full of praise for her, but now they were quite critical of her indifference.

Of course, there were also some people who didn’t mind the excitement and laughed and said:
"Jin Zhi, your mother is gone, and your life will be easier in the future. At such a young age, it is hard to take care of a madman, isn't it?"

His teasing smile froze on his face when he saw Chen Jinzhi's eyes.

It was a look without any emotion, which made people feel cold.

As soon as he got home, Chen Jinzhi subconsciously went to get the rag.

Yet the floor was clean.

There was no porridge thrown everywhere, no garbage, and no broken objects.

There is no mother who often wanders around the house like a ghost.

Whether in this old three-story building or in the entire vast world, she was alone.

Later, her other guardian came to the door under pressure.

At that time, she was lying on the balcony on the second floor, doing homework by the light.A man in a black suit held a card in his hand and compared it to the house number at the gate.

He muttered something impatiently, squatted down and carefully wiped the muddy leather shoes.

"Chen Jinzhi?"

When he saw her on the second floor, the man frowned and shouted tentatively.

Chen Jinzhi looked at his face that was somewhat similar to his own, and already had the answer in his heart.

All her luggage added up to nothing more than a schoolbag. Before leaving, Chen Jinzhi took one last look back.

The door was locked, as if a dusty memory was locked away.

Although the old life was in ruins, the new life was not that good either.

When I first arrived, I didn’t understand the language, so most people looked at me with disdain.

Auntie didn't like her at first either.

Who can accept that their boyfriend suddenly has a ten-year-old daughter?
Fortunately, Chen Jinzhi has an extremely beautiful face.

The aunt who works in an entertainment company happens to have a pair of eyes that are good at discovering beauty.

After a period of observation, the aunt strengthened her opinion.

Chen Jinzhi was born to be a star.

She is completely unchildlike, doesn't cry, doesn't fuss, and isn't interested in anything that fascinates a child.

In this way, I can devote myself wholeheartedly to being a trainee.

He doesn't like to talk, but if he does speak, he must say something that makes others happy.

Misfortune comes from the mouth. Talking too much can lead to mistakes. The most taboo thing for public figures is talking too much.

He treats everyone with a polite smile, which is even more standard than the idols in the company who have been trained in facial expression management.

They say no one is perfect, but celebrities must be so perfect.

At least in front of the camera.

The aunt also said that she had a strong energy, like a plant struggling to grow out of the concrete floor.

Well, maybe it's a money tree, Chen Jinzhi thought.

However, in the end, both the aunt's dream of getting rich and Chen Jinzhi's career were shattered.

Like stray dogs with nowhere to go, the three of them packed up and ran back to the old house.

But after returning to China, the aunt seemed unable to accept the reality and decided to fight to the death. She tried her best to send Chen Jinzhi to take the art exam.

Chen Jinzhi did not disappoint her either, ranking No. 1 in the province.

Now the dying dream of getting rich was rekindled.

After careful decision-making, her aunt chose Tang'an No. [-] Experimental Middle School, the school with the best performance, for her.

Of course, what Auntie values ​​​​is not grades, but reputation.

It can be used for speculation in the future.

Chen Jinzhi looked at the school's promotional website and found a person with a staggering resume in the list of outstanding students.

However, the ID photo next to him showed an expressionless and world-weary face, which was out of tune with the other students, as if someone was pointing a gun at him from behind.

Chen Jinzhi laughed immediately and silently remembered his name.

Su Chengyi.

Unexpectedly, on the day of registration at the school, I saw him in person at the entrance of the Academic Affairs Office.

Unlike what is written in the novel, the scene when the two first meet is not romantic at all.

He was stuck there like a stake, his eyes fixed on himself.

Chen Jinzhi has long been accustomed to the feeling of being stared at.

But his eyes were different from everyone else's. They were not mixed with any desire and were as clean as a pool of clear water.

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