I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 236 Life is a wilderness, not a track
After Wei Peilan said this with a little complacency, Su Chengyi realized why he found this dog weird.

There are many such simulated dog toys on the market, and many of them are lifelike and well-made.

But toys are just toys after all, and the Samoyed in front of him looks too alive.

It's like being frozen at the most lively moment.

specimen
Su Chengyi looked away, not wanting to look anymore.

But Wei Peilan on the side obviously couldn't understand his reaction. She put on an expression of "Why can't you understand this is a work of art?", and then she seemed to have remembered something and said with a smile:

"Forget it, I don't expect you to understand.

When Qingmian saw it when she was a child, her reaction was much greater than yours. "

".Is this her dog?"

The moment Su Chengyi spoke, his throat felt a little dry.

"uh-huh."

Wei Peilan responded, reaching for the glass cabinet and stroking Samoyed's back from a distance.

“She has always been interested in these little things, and every time she passes by a pet store, she stares at them eagerly for a long time.

Every year on her birthday, her wish is to have a pet.

It's a pity that she can have stars or the moon, but not this one. "

"why?"

Su Chengyi took a deep breath and tried to stay calm.

Is it really because of animal hair allergies?Her house is so big and someone is cleaning it all the time, so it's completely avoidable.

Wei Peilan did not answer him, but just said to himself:

"She rarely disobeys her elders. She used to cry and make trouble when she was a child, but she can also listen to others' reasoning and get better after being coaxed.

Only this time.

Her classmate's big dog gave birth to a puppy. She said that she originally went to see the puppy out of curiosity, but the puppy liked her very much.

I followed her all the way and couldn't chase her away.So she had to bring it back.

How long have you been hiding this from me?Three months and sixteen days.Keep it quietly at home. "

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Su Chengyi, who already knew what would happen next, could hardly bear to listen any more.

But Wei Peilan had no intention of finishing the point, and his words were cold and stern.

“I asked her if she liked puppies very much, and she said firmly that she did.

So I went on to say that the puppy will grow up and become completely different from what it is now.

The next second, it might get sick and die.Or, he was crushed to pieces by a car.Or, it is no longer close to you.

do you hope so "

“She was very scared and cried saying she didn’t want it.

I said, if you don’t want it, mom will teach you what to do. "

Having said this, Wei Peilan showed a smile, stretched out his knuckles and knocked on the glass cabinet door happily.

She looked at Su Chengyi through the reflection of the glass and asked:

"You are so smart, do you know what methods are used to prepare specimens of large vertebrates?"

Of course Su Chengyi knew, but he didn't answer.

Taxidermy.

The muscles, bones, internal organs and subcutaneous fat in the animal carcass are completely hollowed out, leaving only the fur, scales and horns on the body surface.

After the internal filling is done, it is then reshaped to look like it was before death.

"I made this specimen with my own hands in front of her."

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“First clean it, then peel the skin, fill it with cotton, and then sew it up.

Look at its eyes, are they beautiful?I specially asked someone to customize it. The raw materials are genuine gems. Now they can be sold for money.

She fed this dog very carefully and it is chubby, and it took a lot of time just to remove the fat."

Having said this, Wei Peilan sighed softly.

"I originally thought she would like it. She didn't cry or make trouble at the time.

After that, I was stunned. For such a long time, I didn’t say a word to me or call me mom.

until"

She suddenly stopped speaking abruptly, and the surroundings fell into a dead silence.

"Until you met me."

Su Chengyi raised his eyes and looked at his reflection on the glass.

Wei Peilan's expression froze at first, and then he smiled.

"You are really confident."

"Ah."

"Yes, I know she likes you. And this kind of like is so long, it may have started from the age when she didn't know what liking is.

I probably made a wrong judgment in the past.

When she insisted on going to a public high school because of you, I thought she was a child at heart, and after that incident, it was rare for her to ask me for help.

Now because of you, I don’t want to go abroad and want to stay in China to waste time.

What are your thoughts on these? "

Wei Peilan suddenly threw the question over.

Su Chengyi actually didn't want to have too much communication with people like her. She always felt that it would affect her physical and mental health, but Naihe had already said that.

"No matter who it is for, these should be her freedoms."

Wei Peilan sneered and asked:
"Freedom? Doesn't she know whether she should have freedom?
Growing up, who among the people around me has ever enjoyed these two words? "

"If others don't have it, she can't have it?"

Su Chengyi looked into the eyes of the Samoyed specimen. They were indeed genuine sapphires, glowing with color under the refraction of the light.

"Let's put all that aside. What's the difference between her liking you and her liking this dog?"

After Wei Peilan asked this incredible question, his eyes suddenly turned thoughtful when he looked at Su Chengyi.

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It always felt like she was considering making a specimen of herself into it.

Or if it is not a specimen, it can be made into a vegetative state and placed in the ICU.

The surrounding atmosphere suddenly became weird. Wei Peilan opened his eyes, and the sight made people feel chills on their backs.

Even Butler Han and Uncle Gao standing far away couldn't help but feel a bit chilly.

Su Chengyi suddenly smiled and said in a casual tone:
"The difference is, I take care of myself. I follow the traffic rules. I do."

He paused before continuing:
"Always liked her."

This seems to be the first time he has admitted this in front of others?
Unexpectedly, in this situation, he had not even told Chu Qingmian himself.

Before Wei Peilan had time to speak, Su Chengyi went on to say:
"It's you. I've been wondering for a long time, why is your desire to control her so strong when it comes to raising pets?"

He took two steps back, put his hands on the waist-high glass counter next to him, and tapped his knuckles.

Wei Peilan's expression was gloomy and unclear. The objects placed at the position he pointed at were two longevity locks.

The texture of gold inlaid with jade is exquisite and round, and it is worth a lot at first sight.

One has a lotus pattern, the other has a goldfish pattern, both are engraved with the word "福".

Apparently a custom made pair.

"I originally thought that everything here should belong to Chu Qingmian, but it seems not. You must have had a child, right?"

Su Chengyi put his hands on the cold glass, waiting for her answer.

"Even if there is, what does this have to do with pets?"

“Since you are avoiding the question, I have no choice but to say it casually.

You should have a child about the same age as Chu Qingmian, but for some reason, he died.So you put all your expectations and pressure on Chu Qingmian.

And you often use this incident as a reason to kidnap her morally and force her to listen to you.

Your strictness is completely unreasonable when it comes to keeping pets.

Because the fundamental reason why Chu Qingmian wanted to keep a pet when she was a child was that she needed companionship.

And you, you seem to attribute all the reasons or faults for losing that child to her.

So you don't allow her to show her weak side.You deprived her of the right to have a companion she grew up with.You also don't allow any little animal to love her so wholeheartedly. "

Su Chengyi finished his conclusion in one breath.

This problem has indeed troubled him for a long time, and Chu Qingmian also mentioned it vaguely in the love letter he wrote to him.

When I saw these two longevity locks, I suddenly had a more reasonable explanation.

"Crack, snap."

After a long silence, Wei Peilan clapped gently, like some kind of encouragement.

"There's just one thing wrong. It's not that I put the blame on her, but that she should have shouldered the blame.

I was pregnant with twins, a boy and a girl.You should understand, right?Dizygotic twins.

They will compete for nutrients in the mother's body, and the weaker one will not develop well.

So her brother died not long after he was born. "

“At the same time, the doctor also told me that it would be difficult for me to have children in the future.

In this case, of course I can only put all my expectations on her. Am I wrong?
When I see her getting close and joking with those animals, I think of her biological brother who hasn’t had time to open his eyes to see the world.

So of course I don't want to see, am I wrong? "

"You may be right."

Su Chengyi lowered his eyes and glanced at the phone screen. There was new news.

“Chu Qingmian was wrong.

She should not be born as your daughter, should not feel guilty about her smooth growth, and should not live her life as a perfect person according to your wishes.

She shouldn't be so tolerant of your morbid psychology, and she shouldn't be willing to sacrifice so much of her freedom.

I shouldn't still love you after you have done so many crazy things. "

Following the route given by the surveillance camera, we headed south. When we finally found Chu Qingmian, she was sitting on the rocks by the sea in a daze.

The sunset on the beach is breathtakingly beautiful. Not far away, there are many people walking along the beach, bending down to pick up shells from time to time.

In this beautiful atmosphere, Chu Qingmian's back was so lonely that it looked like it would disappear into the afterglow of the setting sun at any time.

She rarely gives people this feeling. She is always full of energy and makes people feel happy.

Su Chengyi placed the box in his hand a few meters away, took off his shoes, and walked over with the sea water flowing.

When Chu Qingmian saw him, she didn't seem surprised and smiled at him. The little tiger teeth that were exposed inadvertently were as cute as usual, but her pale face was still bloodless under the warm light of the sunset.

Su Chengyi said nothing and just sat down next to her.

The sun warmed the sea water, only reaching their ankles.

The wind rippled the water's surface, reflecting the sky and the setting sun, like a colorful impressionist oil painting.

Su Chengyi turned his head to look at her.

A long time ago, Su Chengyi secretly used "clear sea water" to describe Chu Qingmian's eyes.

Now that the two of them have actually come to the beach, this metaphor still seems to be very appropriate.

She looked like she was in a trance. Su Chengyi tried to get closer, but she didn't resist, so he hung an earphone on her ear.

Chu Qingmian thought he wanted to listen to music, but for a long time, no sound came out, so she turned her head to look at him with some confusion.

Su Chengyi smiled, as if on purpose.

Chu Qingmian lowered her eyes, and her eyelashes fell softly, making people want to reach out and touch them.

"You ran a long way."

Su Chengyi reached out his hand according to his own thoughts, but he only smoothed her forehead hair that was messed up by the evening breeze.

It is indeed very far away. This is already a coastal city hundreds of kilometers away from Tang'an City.

Chu Qingmian shook her head and said slowly:
"I don't know, I'll just walk around."

"Ah."

Su Chengyi had no intention of asking her anything, because he already knew everything.

But she suddenly started talking, as if she wanted to explain to him, and said intermittently:

"It's my fault. Xiaohua shouldn't be like this. She could have lived well.

If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have gone for a walk there that morning.

If it didn't meet me or know me, it wouldn't have the following things, right?
I went to see where it was buried. How could such a big dog end up in such a small mound?"

"It's not your fault."

Su Chengyi shook his head and suddenly interrupted her.

Seeing Chu Qingmian startled, he continued:

"Don't take the blame on yourself. You did nothing wrong."

"But."

"If I were Xiaohua, I would probably be very happy to meet you in the last stage of my life."

Su Chengyi raised his head and watched the setting sun slowly descend to the horizon, forming a fiery red circle with its reflection.

"Puppies, like humans, need to be loved."

Chu Qingmian followed his eyes and said softly:

"I looked at it from where Xiaohua lived. The sky inside the courtyard wall was square and there was only a small patch.

Now it has finally escaped the wall.

But I couldn't help but think, what's the difference between me and it? "

“My life is a step-by-step track, and I can see the end at a glance.

I have been taught since I was a child that I have to strive for first place in everything.Everyone will only remember No. 1, who will remember No. 2?

But I don’t want to be remembered by so many people, I just work hard not to let them down. "

"The few rebellious moments in my life seemed to end very badly."

Chu Qingmian lowered her head lower and lower, and her voice became softer and softer. In the end, she seemed to be mumbling to herself.

Su Chengyi gently pinched her face, forcing her to raise her head to look at him.

"Who will remember No. 2? Of course it's No. 1."

What he said seemed very unflattering when taken out in words, but he said it in a serious and convincing manner.

The last ray of sunset sank into the sea, the world darkened, and the sea breeze seemed to become slightly cooler at this moment.

Chu Qingmian looked at the person in front of her quietly. The night was getting darker and her vision was getting blurry.

Tears filled her eyes, and the second before they were about to fall, she reached out and hugged him.

Su Chengyi touched the back of her head soothingly, and then felt the person in his arms tremble slightly.

This embrace lasts until the moon slowly rises from the sea level, reflecting the sea surface into a bright silver color.

Su Chengyi reached behind her ear and pressed the remote control switch of the earphones.

The prelude of "Talking to the moon" started.

Chu Qingmian raised her head to look at him, with tears shining like pearls in her eyes.

The moon in the sea has tears, Su Cheng realized this ancient poem.

The bright moon sets in the sea, and the pearl is born in the realm of tears.

Under the moonlight, she was as beautiful as a little mermaid quietly running ashore.

"Your life is only determined by yourself. Whether it is your family's expectations or your love for me, it cannot affect your own heart. Don't be bound by these."

"Chu Qingmian, you have to remember.

Life is a wilderness, not a track. "

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