I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 420 Redemption.

Su Chengyi set the DDL time for others at 12 noon. Because they were too afraid of his power, everyone sent the video files to him around 11 o'clock.

After transferring it to the computer, Su Chengyi opened the video editing software and browsed everyone's videos at double speed.

I have to say, each has its own weirdness.

It fits his stereotype of these unreliable guys very well.

Xu Yang's video alone lasted for five minutes, but Su Chengyi originally planned to compress the entire video to less than three minutes.

Four of these five minutes were devoted to Xu Yang's daily life display and speeches similar to his acceptance speech.

Those who didn’t know thought he had won the Hercules Cup.

Su Chengyi thought for a long time and deleted most of the invalid shots with a click of the mouse.

Logically speaking, Han Bing is the least to worry about, but she obviously has some sequelae of being an up-lord.

You are a passerby who has never been in love. You are blinded by hormones. You hand her a love letter in public amid the cheers of your brothers.

After all, he could just delete it without thinking, but he still has to struggle a bit, feeling that it is not appropriate to delete anywhere. After all, it is the hard work of millions of bloggers.

Lin Tong is even more important here. Everyone shoots horizontally. Only he holds up his mobile phone and shoots from a middle-aged and elderly self-portrait angle.

The tallest among the shortest, it seems that it is better to be a blogger with millions of people.

Su Chengyi was originally planning to have a good chat with her about this matter, but she was so indifferent, which seemed like he was thinking too much.

Su Chengyi can actually understand this kind of conjecture with a sci-fi suspense temperament.

You are the most inconspicuous classmate B among the crowd. You have braved the risk of being caught for hanging around the building and ran to the senior high school teaching building countless times.

She studies art, she wears her school uniform like a model, and she is as beautiful as a fairy.

Her WeChat account was changed, and so was her mobile phone number. No one except Su Chengyi knew her new contact information.

Su Chengyi counted. In just 45 seconds of video, Lin Tong's eyes glanced to the lower right corner at least seven or eight times.

Just the opening shot of smiling and waving seemed to have been shot seven or eight times, and the best frame was selected.

Su Chengyi wondered for a moment whether he had clicked on some sad emotional song MV.

Forget it, maybe college entrance examination students will just like this?

Su Chengyi accidentally saw some people discussing in the class group of No. 1 Middle School before, saying that they suspected that Chen Jinzhi was a figment of their imagination. In fact, she did not appear in No. 1 Middle School at all. She has always been the big star on the screen.

But with a temperament like hers, it's not surprising that she is always at home wherever she goes.

The key is that this classmate is also gentle to others, and her every move and smile seems to carry the aura of "the forgiveness of the goddess of dawn".

There were roars of laughter around you, and you reacted belatedly. Just when you were ready to become the laughing stock of the whole school, she took your love letter with a smile:

There are probably his cheat sheets there.

When I talked to Chen Jinzhi yesterday, he did not give a specific DDL, but just gave a general time.

Eleven thirty-five.

Because everyone feels a little sorry.

So much so that the matter of IrisC's debut became so popular on the Internet that not many people from No. 1 Middle School came out to participate in the discussion.

After calming down, he raised his wrist and glanced at his watch.

But since the accident in the college entrance examination, Chen Jinzhi seemed to have disappeared from the sight of everyone in No. 1 Middle School.

Although Chen Jinzhi transferred here in the second semester of his third year of high school, he is very popular among his classmates.

Su Chengyi closed the laptop with a snap.

The short one-and-a-half-minute video also includes a cool opening and ending, various atmospheric shots, and the subtitles are even bilingual.

The heroine of the MV even appeared in full makeup, and her every move had the baggage of an idol.

Su Chengyi moved the mouse and entered the next column.

Su Chengyi suspected that she had met more people in just one week than he had in three years of high school.

It's almost like two different people.

Tomorrow afternoon.

It must be because it is a "fantasy" that the Chen Jinzhi in my memory is so perfect and so unreal.

Su Chengyi was silent for a while, feeling that this was more difficult to deal with than Xu Yang's.

If so many things hadn't happened between him and Chen Jinzhi, and they were just ordinary classmates, he would probably have this kind of suspicion.

Contrary to expectations, Chen Jinzhi didn't seem to hesitate and agreed directly.

But Su Chengyi thought about it and felt that his consideration should be correct.

"That gentle and beautiful transfer student" and "Iris, the most popular genius idol at the moment", in the eyes of people who have met her in real life, it is actually difficult to connect them.

"Thank you for your thoughtfulness."

Under this death angle, Lin Tong was as nervous as a marionette, stiffly speaking out the lines he had prepared in advance.

It's incredible to think about it. In the second semester of the senior year of high school, when everyone was enveloped by the pressure of the college entrance examination, a beautiful transfer student suddenly fell from the sky.

I passed by the door of Rocket Class just to take a look at her in the back row, until I happened to catch her eyes one time.

Feeling ashamed and at a loss, you turned around and were about to run away, but she stopped you and pointed you in the right direction.

"Classmate, the dean is checking here today."

You are love insulator C, who has confessed to you twice as many times as you want and has a success rate of 0%. Today, with the encouragement of your best friend, you regrouped and prepared to launch the last offensive against your male god.

But the male god you are licking is just someone else's licking dog. He was upset after being rejected by her and knocked over the cookies you made by yourself.

In front of everyone, you squatted on the ground feeling extremely embarrassed, your vision blurred by tears.

At this time she walked up to you and bent down to pick up the box for you.

"Are you ok?"

You raised your head at a loss. She glanced at the few cookies left in the box and smiled:
"It's so cute. Can I have a piece?"

At this moment, you feel that the world has stopped, your injured heart has been comforted, and you have vowed never to be the male god's licking dog again.

Because I have to seize the time to take care of myself and get ready to start being the goddess’s dog licker.

All of this is not groundless, but an anonymous confession post that Su Chengyi once read on the forum of No. 1 Middle School.

It can be said to be breathtaking.

Chen Jinzhi's rank is so high that he can do these things with ease, and he can easily win the hearts of high school students' fragile boys and girls.

Although she may not have meant it herself.

But as we all know, seducing people without knowing it is the most terrifying skill.

Su Chengyi wanted to reward himself with a little red flower.

To reward myself for being able to hold on for a while without falling under Chen Jinzhi's thousand-layered routine, Liu Xiahui was no more than that.

So from this point of view, as "that gentle and beautiful transfer student" Chen Jinzhi should not disappear.

Although the final result was not good, at least she had such a high school time, and left many people with beautiful memories worth recalling for a lifetime.

Su Chengyi thought about this matter seriously.

Facing it calmly is the best way to get rid of regrets. Avoiding talking about it and disappearing is just hiding one's ears and stealing the bell.

But Su Chengyi also knew very well that the thing didn't happen to him, and all his thoughts were the product of taking things for granted, and maybe even a little unhuman. So when Su Chengyi proposed recording the video to Chen Jinzhi, his wording was very tactful.

"Jin Zhi, what do you think?"

"If you feel you don't want to, that's okay. Don't feel pressured."

“I just feel like if all graduates are eligible to participate, then you should be too.”

Chen Jinzhi looked down at the messages on the screen and slightly curled his lips.

Because of this incident, they actually called her "Jin Zhi".

rarely seen.

Seemingly thinking that she would be in trouble, Chen Jinzhi turned off the screen and looked sideways out of the window.

The newly rented house she rented had a view of the river across the street. The neon lights of the Magic City flashed at night, and it seemed like a completely different world from the quiet and dilapidated old community.

In fact, I don't feel embarrassed at all.

Chen Jinzhi was leaning in front of the window, her expression dimmed by the night, but the corner of her mouth was raised slightly, obviously she was in a good mood.

Completely different from what Su Chengyi thought, the reason why she cut off all ties with high school was not because of her failure in the college entrance examination.

But she felt that it was unnecessary, she didn't need it, it could even be said that she disliked such an emotional connection.

Others had no problem with their perception of her. It would not be an exaggeration to say that the "gentle and beautiful transfer student" they had in mind was a fantasy.

Because that is indeed just her habitual disguise.

In order not to embarrass others, I accepted the love letter, but I never opened it and even threw it into the trash can at the next corner.

Remind people who pass by him a hundred times a day the correct escape route, because you want to prevent him from being implicated in himself after being caught by the dean.

As for why you picked up the cookies that fell on the floor?
Chen Jinzhi thought for a while and attributed the reason to sympathy.

Because in the past, when she was in a foreign country, no one was willing to lend a helping hand when she was isolated and ridiculed.

In fact, she is not that gentle, but others automatically add too many filters when interpreting her behavior.

But if you want to talk about it, not only the identity of this "gentle and beautiful transfer student" is a disguise, but also the identity of "genius idol Iris".

She doesn't love the stage, doesn't like the spotlight, and doesn't have so many passionate dreams.

Chen Jinzhi is more like an actor than an idol.

She clearly knows what kind of person is the most popular, so she puts a lot of effort into playing that role well.

The growth of a normal child is a process of physical and psychological maturation, and Chen Jinzhi's growth can probably be described as a learning process.

Learn how to act like a perfect human being and keep imitating and improving.

At first, little Chen Jinzhi thought that it was best to do everything perfectly, but in this case, others who had not had much contact with him would not be able to tell any clues, and the aunt who got along day and night would feel that something was wrong.

Little Chen Jinzhi once heard her aunt talking to someone on the phone, saying that she felt she was completely different from other children.

I never make demands to my parents, I don’t cry when I fall and get hurt, I don’t ask for toys, I don’t ask for snacks.

She lives in this home like a stray cat that is always vigilant, the kind that is not well-fed at all.

Sometimes when I see her eyes, I feel scared.

The relative on the phone laughed a few times and asked how could she be frightened by a child?

The aunt said "yeah" and said seriously that she suspected that the child was an ominous sign. Maybe the evil spirit was reincarnated and might have killed her biological mother.

At this time, the aunt thought that she was new here and didn't understand well, so she didn't avoid her when she said such unpleasant words.

In fact, little Chen Jinzhi has almost taught herself, and her language talent is very good.

She understood every word, but she just pretended not to understand. She stood at the door with a plate and stumbled and said:
".? (Auntie, want to eat?)"

Seeing that it was so difficult for her to say a few simple common words, Auntie was naturally relieved.

After that time, Xiao Chen Jinzhi added another note to his study notes in his mind.

Perfection is imperfection.

At least in childhood, the occasional act of coquettishness and blundering is necessary.

The memory went back to this period, and Chen Jinzhi, who was leaning in front of the window, thought, when did this start?

It must have been around the time after my mother passed away.

When the neighbors educate their children, they always say look at Jinzhi next door, how pitiful he is, but how strong and sensible he is.

In fact, only Chen Jinzhi knew that she was not that strong.

Otherwise, there would not have been a moment of hesitation when her mother asked her for comfort: "Would it be better without my mother?"

Although her final answer is always: "No mom, we will be fine."

But do you want to say that there is no wavering?
impossible.

For a young child, caring for a mentally ill person on his own is an extremely difficult and almost impossible task.

Every time he thought of this, Chen Jinzhi would feel a dull pain in his heart.

It is a fault to waver, and it is also a fault to be selfish, she knows it well.

So as punishment, she was literally left without a mother.

From then on, because I had lost the most important thing, I had to disguise myself.

You will not cause harm to others, nor will you let others harm you.

"Safety" is the highest definition of a relationship.

Chen Jinzhi adhered to such bottom line and principles and walked a long way alone.

Until the day I met Su Chengyi.

In fact, the reason why she insisted on living until that day was very simple. She felt that life should not be like this. She did not work so hard to survive to endure this.

This is indeed the case, like a fish that has been flopping and struggling on the shore for a long time, and finally saw the boundless sea at the last moment of its life.

Chen Jinzhi thought, is this redemption?

You saved me and I redeemed my whole life for you.

Therefore, how could she have other regrets in her life? He was the only one she cared about.

The bright moon is good for loving him, and being haggard is also relevant.

Chen Jinzhi looked at the crescent moon in the night sky. In the city, it was a luxury to see such a beautiful moon.

In fact, this kind of relationship is still a bit morbid. She wondered if she would feel pressured.

But there is no way.

No one taught her what true love is. During her learning process from childhood to adulthood, she thought that she had long lost the ability to love.

That's why when you fall in love with someone, your reason and emotions are so imbalanced that you can't get out.

Before a moth throws herself into the fire, she actually knows that she will be wiped out.

When the moon was shrouded in clouds, Chen Jinzhi typed out the answer on the screen.

"Okay."

"If Teacher Su wants to."

(End of this chapter)