I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 430 Summer Night Wind and Love

It's windy in the summer night and the street lamps are shining brightly.

Su Chengyi and Deng Yizhou were strolling by Weiming Lake.

When Ye Ju heard that the two boys were going out for a walk, she naturally raised her hands in protest and said that she was coming too.

Of course, her purpose is obvious, to listen to the president's gossip.

So Deng Yizhou decisively rejected her request to come together, emphasizing that this was a men's game.

In this way, Su Chengyi also thought that he was going to talk about some topics that were not suitable for girls to hear.

But the fact is that the two of them walked around the lake for almost two times, and no one spoke at all.

It was as if they were participating in some kind of walking competition.

And Su Chengyi's temperament is that if others don't speak, he will never speak if he dies.

Su Chengyi wondered for a moment whether he had not finished running on campus or was checking his steps on WeChat.

Deng Yizhou adjusted his temples, feeling as if he was being tortured by the interviewer.

Su Chengyi nodded and followed his footsteps to a deserted area.

The metal can made a crisp sound, blending into the cicada ensemble that sounded in the woods behind me.

"I just picked it up from their event site."

But Deng Yizhou was different from them. He didn't look like he was admiring the scenery or feeling sad about spring and autumn. He was just walking quietly on his way.

"How can I not worry? The road ahead is unclear."

However, he took out two cans from inside and handed one to Su Chengyi.

His eyes were a little cold, and Su Chengyi couldn't help but look at them to see if there were any of his past enemies, the kind who had defeated him in a debate.

Su Chengyi also laughed. This behavior of pretending to be self-serving for public benefit was probably the first of its kind.

Deng Yizhou laughed as he spoke, seeming a little embarrassed.

Su Chengyi asked this question in a tone like an old-timer.

Contrary to his purpose, Deng Yizhou was obviously drinking to drown his sorrows. He drank most of the can in one gulp, and then let out a long sigh.

"Go sit there for a while?"

Deng Yizhou waved his hand to shoo away the mosquitoes next to him, and unzipped the satchel hanging on his body. It was bulging with stuff, revealing the edges of several notebooks of different sizes.

Su Chengyi raised his head and took a sip of beer. He felt his mouth was dry.

"Why are you sighing? When I heard the words of your speech just now, I thought you were very cool."

"What are your plans after graduation?"

Su Chengyi thought for a while, then took the initiative and said:

"I found an internship some time ago, but now I'm very hesitant."

Deng Yizhou shook his head, his fingers tightened unconsciously, and he squeezed the can into a twisted shape.

"it is good."

Su Chengyi took it. The temperature was still ice cold, and it felt cool in his hand.

The kind that might fall on someone's head if your foot slips.

He looked sideways at the lawn by the lake for a while, where many people sitting in the breeze were scattered.

Just thinking about it gives me goosebumps.

The two of them pulled the tab of the can and clinked their glasses in tacit understanding.

The cold wheat juice is very thirst-quenching, especially after walking for a long time.

Most of the people who showed up at the school tonight were graduates like Deng Yizhou, who wanted to see every tree and plant in the school in their last moments.

The feng shui of this location is not very good. The branches of the trees grow thickly and wildly. From the angle of raising your head, you can only see the mottled and scattered night sky.

Fortunately, he practiced archery during the winter vacation and his physical fitness improved a lot. He didn't feel tired even after walking briskly for two laps.

Su Chengyi passed by them and felt some of the sentimental atmosphere of the graduation season.

So for a long time, no one broke the silence.

The more Su Chengyi thought about it, the more he resisted. However, Deng Yizhou had already sat down cross-legged. He couldn't say anything, so he had to sit on the open space next to him.

Yes, not for a walk, but for a walk, walking very fast.

Moreover, it will inexplicably make people feel that there are many caterpillars and other creatures entrenched in the trees.

The final month of this semester at Peking University has basically come to an end, and many students have returned home.

After a long while, Deng Yizhou suddenly said:

"It's just talk, don't take it seriously."

On weekdays, I donate money myself to fund the activities of the debating club.

When he was about to start the third lap, Deng Yizhou finally stopped.

"Law firm?"

Su Chengyi drank slowly.

"No, the court."

Deng Yizhou shook his head and reminded himself that the man in front of him was just a freshman, and there was no need to talk too much about the internship. It would be bad if it made him anxious too.

Unexpectedly, his next words were:

"The legal department of the game company, is the president interested?"

Su Chengyi asked casually.

Deng Yizhou was stunned by his question. Why did he say it as if there was such a position right in front of him?

"To put it this way, I haven't considered it yet. Because if it's a serious big factory, I don't think there is much hope for an interview."

"Then you can think about it and talk about it later."

Su Chengyi didn't seem to care about his answer, his eyes drifting down on the lake.

The moonlight reflected there, glowing with a beautiful silver color, like a jade plate.

Su Chengyi originally thought that Deng Yizhou only brought these two cans of beer to have a drink.

Unexpectedly, a shoulder bag was stuffed full of stuff, and it was indeed a gesture of drinking to drown the sorrows.

After three rounds of drinking, the conversation started to open.

“When I read the manuscript at the event just now, I actually felt a little guilty.

First, I am not sure about my future at all, and I cannot say such impassioned words. "

Deng Yizhou took off his glasses and wiped his face.

Su Chengyi found that this seemed to be the first time he had seen the president take off his glasses.

Without the equipment of glasses, Deng Yizhou's majesty was almost reduced by 99%, and he seemed to have a somewhat frail and scholarly temperament.

Su Chengyi wanted to take out his cell phone and take a photo and send it to the debate community.

However, it is very likely that Deng Yizhou will sink his body in Weiming Lake, so let's forget it.

"What about the second one?"

"Secondly, I didn't actually love debating that much in the first place."

Deng Yizhou wiped the lenses of his glasses with a solemn and serious tone.

Su Chengyi was stunned when he heard this. He didn't expect this answer at all.

And no one would believe it if he said it, and the members of the debating club would definitely think that he was hallucinating.

It is impossible that Deng Yizhou doesn't like to compete in debates, just like Usain Bolt doesn't like running and Tyson doesn't like boxing.

"It's true. When I first joined the debate club, it was with Lu Man."

As soon as he said these words, Su Chengyi's ears immediately stood up.

The smell of gossip.

No, when did you get infected by Ye Ju?
"She and I met at a freshman activity. At that time, I was afraid of society, and I was dark, thin, and dressed in a rustic style.

She was different. She was the freshman representative of that class. The brothers in front of me and behind me were all planning to ask for her contact information. "

When Deng Yizhou talked about these things, he smiled faintly, showing a bit of nostalgia.

Su Chengyi thought about it for a moment and realized that this senior Lu Man was actually very beautiful, with the appearance of a typical engineering college beauty.

The reason why he didn't realize it before was entirely because with Chen Jinzhi and Chu Qingmian Zhuyu in front of him, he was already somewhat immune to human-level beauty.

"After the meeting, I was deliberately left to clean up the scene before I said the first word to her."

Deng Yizhou's heartfelt expression successfully made Su Chengyi curious.

"What did you say?"

"She said: This classmate, let me borrow it for a while."

Su Chengyi: "."

Isn't this just a polite word? Is it necessary to miss my classmates like this? ! Isn't that a little too innocent?
But as soon as he said this, Su Chengyi tried to remember it.

The first words Chu Qingmian said to him date back to when she was very young.

If we count it after rebirth, it was the sentence she came to call him when he was at the subway station:
"Su Chengyi!"

It immediately pulled him out of the state of doubting life and accepted the reality of rebirth.

The first words Chen Jinzhi said to him should have been when they met by chance in the Academic Affairs Office. She took the initiative to say hello to him inexplicably.

"Hello, classmate, my name is Chen Jinzhi."

Of course, the guy explained afterwards that it was because he looked at her so stupidly that she couldn't help but want to come over and tease the idiot.

In fact, it is better not to explain.

At that time, he was just shocked as to why Iris had descended here from the sky. He was definitely not blinded by her beauty!

Su Chengyi thought that it was quite commemorative, and he could understand why Deng Yizhou became so excited when talking about this.

"And then, you fell in love at first sight?"

Su Chengyi asked.

"How is it possible? Only someone who was blind could see me at that time." Deng Yizhou shook his head.

"Later, when the club was recruiting new members, I accidentally saw her signing up for the debating club, so I signed up too."

"accidental?"

".I admit that I spent two hours wandering around Bai Tuan Zhao Xinli!"

Deng Yizhou gritted his teeth, this junior fellow student really doesn't want to save face!

"She is from the School of Engineering. We can only meet her every school-level event. So, I am ashamed to say that the first reason why I work so hard to debate is actually so that I can join the school team and have more opportunities to see her."

Su Chengyi nodded and agreed.

To be honest, this kind of lust is much easier to accept than inexplicable love.

"That was the first time I fell in love with a girl since I was a child. I was stupid. I didn't know how to hide it from anyone I liked. It was like it said "I like you" on my face. So, the whole debate team knew that I had a crush on her.

Later, there was a friendly match with the University of Washington, and I decided that if I won, I would confess my love to her.

Facts have proved that if you set fewer flags, you will lose. "

So when the game against BGI came up later, it was like being given a shot of blood?

Su Chengyi secretly cursed.

“After that, the atmosphere in the whole club was very depressed, and I felt very frustrated on my way back to the dormitory alone.

Unexpectedly, she waited for me downstairs in the dormitory for almost an hour despite the cold wind. Her first words after seeing me were:
I heard from xx that you plan to confess to me after you win the competition?
I thought to myself, forget it, so I just said yes, what's the matter?
Unexpectedly, she burst out laughing and said that in this case, if she lost the game, she would have to do the confession. "

Su Chengyi was frightened for a moment. Good guy, this is another master at swaying the hearts of young men.

It can be seen from Deng Yizhou's expression that at least for now, he still likes him.

"Then?"

"After that, we got together, like most campus couples.

After that, they broke up, just like most campus lovers. "

Deng Yizhou spoke very slowly.

"Why did you split up?"

Su Chengyi frowned.

"It's trivial. Being late for a date or two, the occasional forgotten holiday, not controlling the bad tone during an argument.
It doesn’t sound like a big deal, right? But that's how we broke up. "

Deng Yizhou's tone was understated, but his speaking speed was very slow.

Su Chengyi lowered his eyes and was silent for a while.

In fact, compared to those dramatic breakups where you want to eat the other person alive, this kind of peaceful and peaceful breakup is the most common.

It is also the one with the least chance of reconciliation.

Because there is no unresolved misunderstanding, no hatred, maybe just tired.

However, it does sound a bit regretful.

"Actually, even if we didn't break up at that time, the possibility of ending up with her was very small. She is a local, and her family would never have been able to accept a poor student like me who had nothing.

I think this may be the reason why neither of us tried to save him. "

Deng Yizhou drank the last can of beer and flattened it. There were already five or six such discus scattered around his legs.

"Since then, I have really focused my enthusiasm on the debating club. But she quit the club and reduced contact with all members.

It was only a long time later that I found out that the following year was not going well for her. Her roommates teamed up to isolate her and spread rumors about her. During her internship, she was harassed by her boss, and Bi She was also stuck for a long time. She kept these to herself and didn't tell anyone else. "

After hearing this, Su Chengyi understood why when all the graduates gathered together to take pictures today, she was alone and could only wait for people passing by to take a picture of her.

I also understood where those tears that suddenly appeared came from.

“So, you must cherish the people in front of you.

When you can hold hands while walking on the road, hold your hand more. When you can say you like it, say a few more words. You won’t lose a piece of flesh."

Deng Yizhou lay on his back on the lawn and murmured to himself. Su Chengyi maintained his original posture, and the evening breeze was still gentle.

When the time came, the music club on the roadside also started activities, playing songs to test the sound.

"Many years ago, you had a pair of clear eyes,

Running like a bolt of spring lightning.

I want to see the whole world and go to the farthest distance,
I feel like I have wings that can fly over mountains and oceans. "

Su Chengyi had heard it, it was "You Were a Boy" by SHE. At this time, it should have just been released.

As soon as this lyrics was sung, many people passing by stopped.

"Having a habit of lying means you have become mature?
Can you love others only after you own a house?
I always think that the scars will be healed after success, and the people I missed are buried beside my desires.

When youth is exhausted, all that remains is a hideous appearance. "

"Isn't that right? You can only love others after you own a house."

Deng Yizhou got drunk and started talking to the lyrics:
"Don Quixote is just a fool who challenges the windmill in the end. Adults have to face reality after all."

Su Chengyi listened to him mumbling beside him and thought of his curtain call speech just now.

He said that debate can help him express his shallow opinions and confusion about the world, and it can also help him distinguish right from wrong.

In fact, being so morbidly indulged in the world of ideological debate and confrontation is not an escape from reality.

Su Cheng thought that maybe the days he spent in the library in his previous life were more of an escape than an academic pursuit.

it seems to be like this.

So during the sleepless nights that followed, he looked out the floor-to-ceiling windows at the neon lights and busy world, and felt out of place.

I just feel like looking back at the first half of my life, it’s all devastated and meaningless.

So he was reborn, flowers will bloom again, and people will be young again.

However, his regrets do not include any unexpected love stories.

For Deng Yizhou, it would be even worse if he recalled it in the future. He would have to drink three big whites.

Su Chengyi thought for a moment, took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and asked:
"President, what you just said was to cherish the person in front of you."

"Ah, just say it more when you can say that you like it. Don't believe it, the president is someone who has been there before."

Deng Yizhou was stunned for a moment, and finally remembered what he had said.

"Then look, there are no outsiders here now. She can't hear, so you can still speak."

Su Chengyi silently long pressed the voice send button.

Deng Yizhou's brain was confused by alcohol and had become dull. Otherwise, with his debating brain, he would have detected a fraud here.

"Really? That's good."

He even took a deep breath and then shouted with great energy:
"Me! I just still like Lu Man! Now! Even more than two years ago!"

"call out."

The sound of successful voice transmission.

Ye Ju on the other side quickly sent a series of expressions, most of which were [like] and [smirk].

Obviously she and Lu Man are together now.

It became.

Su Chengyi turned off the phone.

Hello.

Deng Yizhou, who was lying on the ground, realized something was wrong and struggled to get up.

"No way, you kid can't trick me, can you?! You're a twenty-five-year-old boy!"

"How could that happen?"

Su Chengyi stood up while suppressing a smile.

"Thank you, President, for your teachings."

After saying this, he took advantage of the fact that he didn't drink much and slipped out far away.

Thinking of Deng Yizhou's words, Su Chengyi stood still beside the railing by the lake, opened the WeChat chat box, and sent two messages.

"Chen Jinzhi."

"Chu Qingmian."

This time the replies from both of them came quickly.

"What's the matter? Mr. Layer Pastry."

"What are you doing?! Su Chengyi, why are you so serious all of a sudden? Don't scare me!!"

Su Chengyi wanted to laugh a little and rubbed his eyes at the same time to prevent himself from retweeting the message.

But after thinking about it, I chose another path that is easily despised by others.

"It's nothing, I just want to tell you that I like you."

That is to reply directly with the same message!

Chen Jinzhi: "It doesn't count to say such things after drinking. But, I like you too."

"."

Chu Qingmian: "Why are you saying such things all of a sudden! Are you playing truth or dare! Or how much wine have you drunk!!"

"Oh, okay, okay, I like you too, I like you very much, the Invincible Universe likes you to the extreme!"

Su Chengyi lay on the railing and watched the ripples on the lake.

Behind him, people came and went, each heading towards Great Expectations.

This is the eve of the first summer vacation of college.

It's a windy summer night and I'm slightly drunk.

When I first met the world, when I was a boy.

The moment when love is successfully spoken.

(End of this chapter)