I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 500 When I Overcame All the Depression

The nights in Qinghe District are not polluted by neon lights, and have the unique tranquility of an old city. There are traces of food stalls closing down on the ground, and melon seed shells and crushed beer bottle caps are scattered in the cracks between the tiles on the sidewalk.

Chu Qingmian looked up at the street lights that were flashing in some strange pattern, and couldn't help but poke the arm of the person next to him.

"Su Chengyi."

"Ok?"

"Don't you think it's a bit scary? This is the first broken street light we've seen along the way."

As soon as Chu Qingmian said this, she shrank behind his shoulder in fear.

Su Chengyi was a little distracted just now, and when he heard her say this, he noticed the street lamp above his head that was broken but not completely broken.

This is a very common phenomenon in the old city. Many of the infrastructure here are probably older than Su Chengyi, so it is likely that the street lamp lines are aging and the contact is poor.

Miss Chu is as timid as a mouse. She becomes suspicious whenever she walks at night, and she lacks common sense in this regard, so she can't help but think of some supernatural events.

"Are you trying to scare me with a ghost story or something?"

Su Chengyi paused and looked at her with raised eyebrows.

"No way!"

Chu Qingmian stamped his feet, nervously raised his finger and made a "silence" gesture.

"Sh ...

"Alright, alright, nothing happened. Remember, I didn't ask anything and you didn't answer anything."

"No offense, no offense!"

Chu Qingmian started to push him forward while muttering to himself.

Cover your ears and steal the bell.

Su Chengyi curled his lips, looked at the road ahead, and said casually:
"See that alley ahead?"

"I saw it."

When Chu Qingmian heard him ask this, he leaned forward and took a look, and sure enough, he saw an alley not far ahead.

There seemed to be no lights inside, and it was pitch black at first glance. She retracted her head warily.

"In fact, when I was in junior high school, I always went home through that alley. It was a shortcut."

Su Chengyi said slowly.

"Then why didn't you leave?"

Chu Qingmian asked curiously.

Su Chengyi couldn't help but think that Miss Chu was really the person most suitable to listen to ghost stories.

Because although she is very timid, she is very curious and cute.

Until the very end of the story, when the truth was revealed, she didn't realize that there was a trap ahead.

"There were no lights in the entire alley. I had to walk to the end in the dark and then turn out to see the lights of the convenience store. I was still young at the time and was a little nervous.

So every time I walked into the alley, I would start singing quietly to give myself courage.”

Su Chengyi frowned slightly, as if he was lost in some memories.

Because they wanted to tell a story, the two of them stopped at the entrance of the alley.

Hearing this, Chu Qingmian's eyes lit up and she pulled his arm and shook him back and forth.

"Wow! Su Chengyi, you're the same as me! When I was a kid, I was afraid to sleep alone, so I ended up singing to myself to sleep!"

Su Chengyi said "hmm" and asked again:
"What do you sing?"

"I sing all kinds of songs. Generally speaking, they're the kind that my nanny would sing to me."

Chu Qingmian thought about it and hummed a few words.

"Insects fly, flowers sleep, pairs are beautiful, no matter if they are tired or not, no matter east, west or north!"

Su Chengyi wanted to laugh after hearing this, but laughing would ruin the atmosphere, so he just nodded seriously.

“The song I would sing at that time was”

"Big Rabbit is sick, Second Rabbit, please take a look.

Three rabbits buy medicine, four rabbits boil it.

The fifth rabbit died inexplicably, and the sixth rabbit carried it.

The seventh rabbit is busy digging the hole, and the eighth rabbit is here to bury it."

Su Chengyi's voice when singing this song has no ups and downs; it sounds more like he is reciting a jingle than singing.

But Chu Qingmian inexplicably got goosebumps when she heard it, and she just wanted to cover her ears and tell him to stop singing, please, please, please!

Su Chengyi's singing did come to an abrupt halt, and he continued as if nothing had happened:
"Every time I finish singing this song, the alley ends."

He raised his chin and motioned Chu Qingmian to look into the alley.

"This alley is actually very short, right? But when you stand on this side, it always feels like you can't see the exit on the other side."

Chu Qingmian listened to his words and mustered up the courage to look into the alley.

In the dark night, such old alleys are like black holes, as if they will swallow everything.

Su Chengyi looked at her nervous expression and then said:

"But one night, I walked down this alley again, and I started singing as usual."

Hearing this, Chu Qingmian was so nervous that his heart was in his throat. He was scared but also wanted to know what had happened.

“But, that night, I finished a whole song and found myself still standing in the middle of the alley.”

Su Chengyi said calmly:

"The small tombstone in the dark forest is the cold corpse of a rabbit.

The screams and cries were long gone, and the sun slowly climbed out.
That night, I sang it many times, but I still couldn’t see the exit of the alley. ”

"Ahhhh!!!"

Chu Qingmian was so frightened that his soul almost left his body. He felt as if something terrible was going to come out of the alley and take them away in the next second, so he grabbed Su Chengyi and ran away.

Su Chengyi was trying to hold back his laughter as she dragged him to run without any explanation, and he almost couldn't breathe.

Miss Chu's physical strength has never been so good. Su Cheng thought of her running 800 meters sideways before, like a wobbly little penguin.

It is true that human potential is unlimited. As the saying goes, there is no lame man when a tiger chases you.

"Ghost Wall Ghost Wall This must be a ghost wall. It's so scary. It's so scary. Su Chengyi, you actually dare to walk this road. You are so brave. You must stay away from here in the future. It's too scary. I can't stand it. Help!"

She could even run away while mumbling without stopping.

Su Chengyi saw that this potential long-distance runner was about to drag him away from home, so he had to slow down and pull her back.

"Stop, stop, stop, I'm kidding."

"Run, run! RUN! Why don't we go to the temple to sleep tonight? What if something scary follows us? Oh my God, why are we the ones who are unlucky?!"

After Chu Qingmian realized what he said, he immediately turned around and widened his eyes.

Su Chengyi raised his hands in a gesture of surrender and said with a smile:

"What I just said was actually the plot of the comic book "Lighting Store", Private Marseille."

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Chu Qingmian was silent for a while, then began to look around.

"What are you looking for?"

"See if there is a weapon that I can use to beat you, the liar, to death."

"Look, what's scarier than ghosts is women."

Su Chengyi laughed and rubbed her angry head, which resulted in an angry rebuttal.

"What's scarier than a woman is a disgusting person!" Although Su Chengyi confessed that he was making up stories to scare people, Chu Qingmian was still quite frightened.

She was crouching and sneaking all the way, wishing she could wrap herself around him like an octopus.

Su Chengyi looked at the shadows of the two people under the street light and thought silently that if an innocent passerby came over at this time, he would definitely be scared to death by this weird-looking Cthulhu creature.

Moreover, this also greatly affected the two people's moving speed.

Su Chengyi raised his wrist and saw that the luminous hand of the diving watch was pointing to ten o'clock.

Miss Chu announced that she wanted to stay at his house against everyone's opinion. Uncle Gao hesitated for a long time but couldn't persuade her and had to agree. However, he said that he would come to pick her up at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning and reminded them to "go to bed early and get up early."

Thinking of this, Su Chengyi simply quickened his pace, took two steps forward, and squatted down.

"Come up."

Chu Qingmian said “Huh?” in surprise.

Su Chengyi didn't answer, but just tilted his head to indicate.

Chu Qingmian's eyes lit up, and she lay on his back and put her arms around his neck.

Su Chengyi put his hands around her knees, weighed the weight, and easily stood up carrying her on his back.

Chu Qingmian shook her legs excitedly like a kid playing the game of lifting high for the first time, and then leaned close to his ear and asked softly:
“Will it be heavy?”

"will not."

Su Chengyi shook his head.

Rather, I still feel that this guy is a little unbelievably light.

Chu Qingmian was just repenting for the few small cakes he had indulged in during midnight snacks recently, and he felt relieved after hearing his answer.

So, feeling the warmth on his back, she suddenly felt that this night road was not scary at all, and she even hoped to walk longer and longer.

"Su Chengyi, what are you thinking about?"

Chu Qingmian asked, leaning on his shoulder.

"I didn't think anything of it."

Su Chengyi answered without even thinking.

"Liar!"

Unexpectedly, Chu Qingmian's answer was more confident and he looked very sure.

"You've been like this since we came out of the KTV, so absent-minded. Tell me what you're thinking about.

How can a boy like you have so many little secrets? I have no secrets from you!"

Chu Qingmian curled her lips and bit his shoulder lightly.

“Not fair, not fair, not fair.”

"Good good."

Unable to persuade her, and also because of other more difficult secrets, Su Chengyi gave up the idea of ​​​​getting away with it.

"I was actually thinking about Zou Lian."

"What he said tonight made me feel that he was quite brave. Compared to me, he is more like the real victim of the grievances of the previous generation."

Su Chengyi thought about it and continued:
“If I were in his position, I obviously wouldn’t be able to do what he is doing now.

At the end of the day, I'm just a person who believes in escaping shamefully but usefully."

After all, without rebirth, the only way he could do was to escape.

Covering one's ears to steal the bell will only trap oneself.

"Why do you think so?"

Chu Qingmian reached out from behind and patted his face gently.

"Why would you think of making such a comparison with him? It's not the same thing at all."

"It's the same when compared to others, like you. You're also very brave."

Su Chengyi used both hands to lift the person on his back up and answered casually.

"Me? I'm not brave at all."

Chu Qingmian's cheek was pressed against his ear, with a warm heat, and her voice became closer.

“In fact, there were many times when I wanted to escape.

Oh, you don’t know. When I was a child, my family often told me that my younger brother couldn’t be born because I was born, and that my younger brother couldn’t come into the world because of you. You were able to survive because of your brother’s sacrifice.
I was not a well-behaved person at that time. Whenever they said such things, I secretly retorted in my heart, saying that I didn't want to be born.

It sounds like being born is a good thing, but what is good about this world? If I could choose, I don’t want to be the ‘lucky’ kid. ”

"But now, I feel that I am very lucky, super lucky to be born into this world. Because there are friends and family, cute cats and dogs, hot pot and barbecue, and matcha chocolate ice cream in this world.
Of course, the most important thing is Su Chengyi!"

Chu Qingmian muttered to herself, the ends of her hair that had accidentally fallen down rose and fell with Su Chengyi's steps, and were reflected thinly on the ground by the light from the street lamps.

Su Chengyi looked down at the swaying shadow, and heard her sweet voice with the flavor of mint liquor.

"Even so, I'm still very timid. You see, I've liked you for so long, but it wasn't until graduation that I felt anxious and had to tell you.

If there were senior four, senior five, and senior six, I might have delayed it for a long time!"

Hearing this, Su Chengyi laughed, shook his head and denied it:

"You've been able to persist in your secret crush for so many years, which in itself is a very brave thing."

"But you gave me this courage."

Chu Qingmian rubbed his neck, with her cheek resting in a soft arc.

"So don't think like that just now, okay? As long as the courage of the two of us is added together, it is enough to deal with the whole world.

Because every time I feel it’s hard and I can’t hold on any longer, I think of your existence in the world, my love for you over the years, and the things we might do together in the future, and I will become brave again.”

"Like what?"

"So many things! I want to climb a super difficult mountain, watch a spectacular meteor shower, and see clumsy humpback whales swimming."

It seems that Chu Qingmian has been planning this for a long time and he speaks very clearly.

Su Chengyi was finding it a little funny what he thought of the "stupid humpback whale" when he felt her voice become softer, but still clear and firm.

"I want to marry you."

Su Chengyi was slightly stunned, and felt that the summer night breeze at this moment became very gentle because of these words.

Chu Qingmian might be a little shy, but she did not regret blurting out these words. She cleared her throat in an attempt to cover up her mistake and began to speak again:
"Okay, okay, let's think about the future later. Mr. Golden Age, do you remember that sentence?"

"Which sentence?"

Su Chengyi's heart was still pounding because of what she had just said. It took him a while to calm down and he asked back as calmly as possible.

He didn't mind the nickname "Mr. Golden Age". Ever since his speech at the Hundred Days Oath-Taking Rally, this group of people had been making fun of him for it.

"Think about it, what should you read at this time?"

Chu Qingmian smiled, her eyebrows curved, and the tips of her eyelashes rubbed against his neck, causing a slight itch.

Su Chengyi was somewhat distrustful of her attitude.

"Don't you have any correct answer in your mind at this moment?"

"Who said that!"

Chu Qingmian snorted in dissatisfaction, and deliberately stretched out the tone and said:

"When I--"

The test was successful, and I had the same idea as expected.

Su Chengyi lowered his eyes, with a hint of smile in his tone.

"When I cross all that is sinking and fight towards eternity, you will be my banner."

(End of this chapter)