I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 557 My freedom is based on my love for you

"Come to think of it, this is my first time in the Northwest."

Chen Jinzhi and Su Chengyi sat side by side on the side of the road. She finally took off her coat and draped it over their shoulders.

"That's right. After all, you were abroad before."

As soon as Su Chengyi finished saying this, he realized a problem.

This is also his first time to the Northwest.

If you count it, I have lived two lives, but the trajectory of my movement is very clear.

I travel between the company and home within 10km, all the same, rain or shine.

In large factories where overtime work has become the norm, holidays are pitifully few and "voluntary overtime" has become an unspoken rule that everyone accepts.

Everyone is like a finely polished screw, working diligently and precisely at his or her post.

Facing the codes scrolling on the screen day and night, Su Chengyi sometimes thought that if his life was also a code, it would definitely be the easiest one to write.

When he was in the second or third grade of elementary school, Su Chengyi flipped through the tutorial book and wrote his own "rock-paper-scissors" game on the computer. Later, it developed into games such as eating gold coins and eliminating games.

Later, Yang Liu accidentally discovered this feat and began to publicize that her son was a computer genius.

Su Chengyi felt very ashamed, so he pushed the programming book to the bottom of the box. At that time, he probably couldn't have imagined that he would really become a programmer in the future.

At that time, Su Cheng thought that his life code was not much more difficult than the small game he played by typing one letter at a time according to the tutorial.

Fortunately, there was a bug in the program, everything collapsed, and he returned to the starting point at the age of seventeen.

That's why he can now sit on this land in the northwest and hug the slender waist of the most beautiful girl in the world.

“After coming here, I felt a little bit unreal.”

Chen Jinzhi leaned on Su Chengyi's shoulder and spoke slowly.

Su Chengyi shook his head, trying hard to clear out words like "code" and "bug" from his mind.

“Why isn’t it real?”

"I have learned about words like desert and Gobi in geography books and seen them in documentaries. But only after I came here did I feel that such spectacular landforms really exist in the world. It turns out that there are many things that cannot be described and can only be understood after experiencing them in person."

Chen Jinzhi looked at the horizon of the desert in the distance and continued:
“It was only after I came here that I understood why Director Caroline insisted on coming to the actual location for the audition. She is a person who loves traveling and adventure very much. She has been to many places in the world and asked me how I felt after coming here.

She asked very sincerely, but my first reaction was to wonder if this was a question related to the audition, so I gave a very official answer as usual. ”

Having said that, she sighed softly.

"Su Chengyi, actually the desert is real, the moon is real, the crew's shots are real, and it's me who is not real."

"But I've seen the real you."

Su Chengyi took her hand and squeezed it with a little force.

Here it comes again, that ethereal feeling on Chen Jinzhi's body. This is probably the reason why she has been uneasy for some time.

Every time Su Chengyi felt this aura from her, he felt a little uneasy, because she acted as if she would suddenly disappear from this world in the next second.

"Yes."

Chen Jinzhi raised his eyes and looked at him without any sadness or joy.

“So no matter how magnificent the scenery is, no matter how exciting things happen, no matter how sincere other people are to me, I can’t give a normal response.

It's strange, I always just think, I wish you were here."

The more free and vast an area is, the more one can feel his own insignificance and meanness, as well as his incompatibility with other people.

"So, Su Chengyi, what if one day you want to leave me?"

Chen Jinzhi suddenly asked.

Su Chengyi was slightly stunned. His mind told him that he should say something like "Why would I want to leave you?" or "Don't let your imagination run wild." However, his intuition told him that he didn't want to hear these words at this time.

So Su Chengyi was silent for a while, and then slowly said:
"I don't want to leave you, but Chen Jinzhi, life is a wilderness."

He had said this to Chu Qingmian before. At that time, he also said that her life was decided by herself alone, and that neither her family's expectations nor her love for him could affect her own wishes.

Because compared to "freedom", all these are constraints.

What binds Chu Qingmian is the responsibilities brought by the family. In comparison, what binds Chen Jinzhi is just himself.

He appeared at the darkest moment in Chen Jinzhi's life, so she naturally regarded him as her salvation and was willing to give everything for him.

For some people, this is a wonderful thing.

Because this can be used to control her. It doesn't matter how much I hurt her, as long as she can't leave.

But Su Chengyi didn't think so. He had been selfish at times, but in the end he truly won the first place.

So, he said:
"You can have many more things in your life besides Su Chengyi. Don't live for me. It doesn't matter if you can't do it now. You can take your time.

You have to think not only about if I want to leave you, but also where you're going to go if you want to leave me."

To be honest, the courage required to say this is no less than jumping off Laojun Mountain.

Because no one in this world can accept Chen Jinzhi's departure.

It was clearly just a hypothesis, but Su Chengyi felt like he was about to suffocate as he spoke. It turned out that this was how Chen Jinzhi felt when he asked this question just now.

"If I wanted to leave you."

Chen Jinzhi repeated his words while thinking.

Su Chengyi felt a faint sense of death when he heard this, and he felt that in the next second he would have to spinelessly take back his great declaration of freedom.

Chen Jinzhi easily noticed his stiff expression, and suddenly lowered his head and smiled.

Obviously, the words he just said were not completely ineffective. At least the fragile and ethereal feeling on Chen Jinzhi's body disappeared.

"Su Chengyi, I will never, ever stop loving you. Even if one day I have to leave you."

She spoke in a tone like she was taking an oath, but her eyes were as gentle as water.

"I am willing to give up my freedom for you, and of course I am willing to become a free person for you. So, as you said, I will try my best to find the meaning of my life besides you."

Her words carried a lot of weight.

Trying to make Chen Jinzhi love this world is as difficult as trying to make Chu Qingmian stop loving this world.

Su Chengyi lowered his eyes and once again realized how much the girl in front of him loved him to be willing to take such a step for him.

"But I also hope you always understand."

Chen Jinzhi moved a little closer and looked into his eyes. Her silhouette in the moonlight was as beautiful as the goddess in the legend who was banished from the mortal world because of her lust for human beings.

"My freedom is based on my love for you."

After she finished speaking, as if to seal her vow, she gently kissed him on the lips.

The moonlight is like frost.

On the way back to the hotel, Su Chengyi was still thinking.

Unable to repay the sincerity of others and unable to integrate into this world, Chen Jinzhi has probably always felt pathetic for himself.

So she needed to ask and get answers from him, her only connection with the world.

Thinking of this, Su Chengyi felt somewhat fortunate for his answer.

Fortunately, his sincerity overcame his selfishness. If he had said something like "Oh, isn't this great? It's OK if I'm the only one in your life", Chen Jinzhi would definitely have done the same.

But if that happened, she would become more and more confused and lose her self.

And your life will become more and more painful.

Su Cheng thought, he didn't want to make Chen Jinzhi feel pain, even if this was irreversible and would come sooner or later, he wanted to try to make it come later or the damage be less.

Immersed in such thoughts, he was absent-minded and didn't respond to the chattering of the other three people in the car. It was not until Xiao Zheng couldn't stand it anymore and honked the horn angrily that he was pulled back to his senses.

"what happened?"

Su Chengyi came back to his senses, looked up and asked.

"What's wrong? What's wrong? Master, what's wrong? We have been discussing this for a long time, but you, the protagonist, haven't said a word?"

Xiao Zheng patted the steering wheel, apparently entering combat mode again.

"The protagonist?"

Su Chengyi raised his eyebrows in confusion.

Chen Jinzhi certainly knew what he had been thinking about all along the way. He had just been helping him to answer the questions. Now he gently pinched his fingers to comfort him and reminded him in a gentle tone:
"Brother Zheng wants to talk to you about the collaborative song with the crew."

"Oh, go ahead."

Su Chengyi nodded casually.

What is going on? It’s just a small matter. What he was just thinking about was a thousand times more important than this.

"I mean, since we're here now, we can go negotiate with Caroline again. Iris has passed the audition, so it's understandable that we want to deepen our cooperation. I don't know how many people are eyeing this hot commodity right now. It's better for us to come early and grab a spot. There's no harm in that."

Xiao Zheng was patient and persuasive.

“The only thing that can convince Caroline is the work, but how can I produce the work before the tone of the entire series is set?”

Su Chengyi asked rhetorically.

"She doesn't want you to compose music for the crew right now, but she needs to see your production ability. Master, why don't you think of a way to show off in front of her? Anyway, we have real talents and skills, so what are we afraid of?"

Xiao Zheng raised his fist with high morale.

"Perform a three-key song for her!"

A three-key song does not, by definition, involve playing with three fixed keys all the time, but rather it is an extended creation based on three notes and improvisational associations based on the understanding of tonality.

This is something that can only be done by people who often improvise, and it also requires the accumulation of classical repertoire and experience in popular creation.

In other words, it is definitely not something Su Chengyi can show off.

"Don't you think this scene is funny? I carried the piano to the man and said, 'Director, please stay and allow me to perform a piece for you.'"

Su Chengyi said speechlessly.

"Hey, opportunities are created by people! We can fight for it."

Xiao Zheng obviously refused to give up and continued chattering about his great plan.

"This way, we have double happiness today! Iris passed the audition, and the song for Young Master's collaboration has also been finalized.

La la la, today is a good day~~ The first month of the year is the New Year~~ Ah ah ah~~~ I congratulate you on getting rich~~~ I congratulate you on being wonderful~~~"

Lulu, who was sitting in the passenger seat, finally couldn't bear it anymore. She pressed the Bluetooth speaker, played a death heavy metal song from her collection, and turned up the volume.

The hoarse and manic roar of the lead singer came out from the speakers, and the wheels of the off-road vehicle sped through the darkness. If there happened to be some brave campers staying the night here, they would probably think they had seen a ghost.

When they arrived at the hotel, the rest of the crew had already arrived a while ago, so they were the only ones left checking in in the lobby.

There are three rooms in total, two single rooms are for Xiao Zheng and Lulu, and Su Chengyi and Chen Jinzhi live in a double room with an exterior view.

"I think your crew seems a little inhumane. It's still early, and you don't even have some team building before disbanding."

Xiao Zheng glanced at the wall clock in the lobby and sighed.

"You just feel it's a pity that you didn't get to meet the director!"

Lulu took the room card and ruthlessly exposed his thoughts.

"What happened?"

Xiao Zheng shook his head and hummed a few times. Although he knew the chances were slim, he still looked around without giving up.

When he looked up, he actually saw an acquaintance.

Although the way this acquaintance looked at him was as if he was looking at a criminal gang that trafficked ignorant girls, and he was about to call the police in the next second.

"Hey, isn't this that guy?"

He excitedly poked Su Chengyi next to him.

Su Chengyi put the room card into his pocket and looked over casually.

There was a person hiding behind a pillar in the hotel lobby. She probably thought she was hiding very well, and was clinging to the pillar and observing them vigilantly.

"Lin Yishui?"

Su Chengyi frowned slightly.

Lin Yishui knew about his relationship with Chen Jinzhi, so there was no need for him to avoid it, but at this moment the girl's eyes were full of hostility for some reason.

"This is Director Caroline's biological daughter, right?"

Xiao Zheng's eyes lit up, he felt that he was truly blessed by God today, it was as if God would always find a way out when he reached the mountain.

"Great! Surely she can ask Caroline out?"

"Go to hell!"

Lulu punched him.

"Please don't let the friendship between Iris and her best friend go sour!"

"What's wrong with introducing your best friend's boyfriend to your mother?"

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Lulu nodded to Chen Jinzhi, then dragged Xiao Zheng into the elevator.

"Don't pull me, I still have something to say! Hey, little beauty over there, what's your mother's name? Are you interested in coming out for a midnight snack?!
No, Lulu, how come you are so strong? You are lifting weights with everyone on your back, right?

Xiao Zheng's unwilling voice gradually disappeared into the closing elevator door.

Chen Jinzhi then suppressed his smile and turned around to look at Lin Yishui who was still hiding behind the pillar.

"Xiao Shui?"

She gently hooked her finger, and Lin Yishui walked out obediently. Her eyes were fixed on Su Chengyi. After a while, she said:

"The book once said."

As always, very standard Mandarin.

Su Chengyi really wanted to laugh.

"Ah, I almost forgot that you two know each other."

Chen Jinzhi said slowly.

Su Chengyi's heart immediately went berserk. To be exact, his first meeting with Lin Yishui could be traced back to the welcome party for Jian Xiao's return to China, and Miss Chu was also in attendance at that event.

However, if Lin Yishui still remembered this, he would have told Chen Jinzhi a long time ago.

Su Chengyi thought about this and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Xiao Shui, don't be nervous. He even voted for you during the 101 competition."

Chen Jinzhi said this with a smile, his tone was very gentle and indirect.

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Su Chengyi suddenly felt a pain in his knee.

I didn't expect Chen Jinzhi still remembered such a trivial matter. Has he been holding a grudge for too long? !

(End of this chapter)