I was beheaded in the Middle Ages for 20 years

Chapter 213 Pregnancy [Twenty-one days of Riwan]

Xu Siling and Terry returned to the Raya Town Manor.

When Terry learned that the manor was officially recruiting soldiers, he immediately signed up and even complained to Xu Siling in a low voice, but did not tell him on the way.

Xu Siling ignored her brother-in-law's complaints, put away her equipment and luggage, and went to Raya Town to find Feier.

When Fei'er learned that the hardest and smelliest stone in the earldom had been beaten to a bloody head by Xu Siling.

I am willing to pay back all the taxes I owe.

Within a week, half of the money owed will be shipped to Raya Town, and Mayfair does not need to send anyone to pick it up.

Fei'er was very happy that Xu Siling resolved the matter so smoothly, but she was also worried that Xu Siling had used some violent means to coerce Angus.

When the whole process is known.

Faile marveled and felt relieved that her lover and knight still had times when he did not use violence.

Xu Siling just rolled her eyes when she found out.

It’s no wonder Angus is the hardest rock in Raya Town.

His stingy nature is deeply rooted in his bones, and he doesn't care about family ties at all, and he doesn't care about his father after his death.

This kind of person will only be obedient if you beat him to fear and make him fear you.

As for what he is most worried about, just work hard on that aspect.

It's not difficult.

But many times, Xu Siling prefers to use violence to solve problems.

Why waste time and money on things that can be solved with just one fist?

If it weren't for Fei'er, Xu Siling was the lord of the earldom, and he would have forced Angus to pay taxes by force.

Refuse to pay? Okay, I'll find an excuse right away and kill you.

As for what others say?
Xu Siling didn't care at all.

King Philip VI, he must not care what other nobles think.

It's a pity that Mayfair is his lord.

He had to worry about Fei'er's status.

It was almost evening when we returned to Raya Town.

Xu Siling stopped by to visit Blanche.

Blanche was taking a rest not long after she finished teaching Charlie.

Seeing Xu Siling coming, he happily stood up to greet her.

She lives in a house in the inner castle. The environment is not as good as the Paris Palace, but it is the best place that Mayfair can give her.

Blanche didn't care about the nonsense.

What makes her happy is that she can leave Paris openly and be herself.

She didn't have to live for anyone, just for herself, and she could do whatever she wanted, and there was no stopping her.

Apart from missing Xu Siling every day, there was nothing else. I was very satisfied.

Teaching Charlie cultural courses every day, reviewing the past and learning new things is what she loves to do.

Before leaving, Xu Siling and Blanche flirted with each other for a while before returning to the manor.

On the way back, Xu Siling felt a little lucky.

Fortunately, his wife is Ella and not someone else.

If his wife were Chrissy or Mayfair, it would be impossible for him to have so many lovers.

As long as Ella takes care of him and cares about him, she can accept everything about him. If she were to be the wife of any other noble, she would definitely go crazy.

Now he has four lovers in Raya Town, which is scary to think about.

Returning to the yard, leaving Chris and Charlie alone, the five of them ate in the house.

Because the banquet hall was to be built in the inner castle courtyard according to Chris's idea, it was demolished on the spot without caring about the hard work the Frofen family had put in for so long.

During the meal, Ella didn't ask what Xu Siling did yesterday, nor did she care how things went, she just ate quietly.

This once again aroused Chris's dissatisfaction.

Based on Chris's aristocratic family thinking.

As a wife, knowing that her husband comes back from a busy trip, she must care about him and greet him.

How can you be like this who doesn't care about anything, doesn't ask questions, and doesn't even say a single fart?

Not ladylike at all!
Kris once again caused trouble for Ella at the dinner table, but Xu Siling immediately stopped her.

Now he knows better.

It is impossible for Chris and Ella to get along well with each other.

Not only the difference in identity, but also in the way of thinking since childhood, it is impossible for the two of them to coexist.

Of course Xu Siling would not feel that Aila had neglected her.

He even liked this way of getting along.

This is his personal reason.

Ella is a lonely person, and she is also a person who enjoys being alone.

The same is true for Xu Siling.

Xu Siling has lived alone on the hillside for so long. She is used to doing things alone and is used to handling things by herself without disturbing others.

People who enjoy loneliness have one thing in common: they need a little personal space every day.

Ella accepted that Xu Siling would not tell her anything, and Xu Siling also accepted that Ella would sit on the carpentry table and play with her favorite things when she was free.

For his sake, Ella ignored Chris at all.

But that doesn’t mean Chris will let Ella go.

Xu Siling felt a little headache about this.

It seems that I need to find an opportunity to teach this smart puppy a lesson.

The preliminary review of Falina's recruitment information has not yet been completed.

This conscription lasted five days.

After five days, the notice will be torn down and recruitment will no longer be open to the public.

In five days, the families of the manor coordinated their own efforts to recruit personnel to participate in the recruitment.

Time passed quickly.

During this period, Xu Siling didn't do anything.

Get up every day to train in the yard, and then give Charlie a sparring session.

Charlie's physical strength has improved visibly now. In a few days, Xu Siling will prepare to add some other training courses to him.

Many people in the manor family are good at blacksmithing, and Xu Siling paid for them to start making two types of fish scale armor.

After conscription, these family soldiers do not need to bear food, accommodation and equipment.

He needs to bear the armor of the soldiers.

Compared to expensive chainmail robes, Xu Siling prefers Zhajia. In comparison, Zhajia should not be too cheap.

Not to mention that in terms of protection, fish scale armor is also better than chain mail. Except that it cannot withstand thrusts from the bottom up, in terms of other protective properties, it is much better than chain mail.

The only advantage of chain armor is that it is close-fitting and flexible, and can easily resist some light blows.

The main thing is flexibility. Apart from putting a lot of pressure on the shoulders when wearing a chainmail robe, there is no difference in movement.

On the contrary, chain mail will look bulky, and many movements are not as easy as chain mail robes.

But you can’t have your cake and eat it too.

Affordable and practical fish scale armor is Xu Siling's first choice.

During the recruitment process, Xu Siling began to purchase grain and timber on a large scale.

The soldiers' food must be uniform and standardized to ensure that everyone is strong, and a wooden tent must be set up on the outermost edge of the manor to serve as a dormitory for the soldiers.

Off-duty soldiers must be isolated from the family members of the manor and strictly regulated.

Only in this way can soldiers concentrate on training.

Xu Siling's high-volume purchase of iron materials also made the iron materials in Raya Town insufficient.

Fei'er knew about this and knew that Xu Siling was going to start forming his own army. She had no reason not to support it, so she immediately took out a lot of iron materials from the warehouse in the inner castle and gave it to Xu Siling.

The estate is constantly changing, but that doesn't mean nothing is happening in Raya Town.

Angus from Alston Town didn't really follow Article 7 before delivering the taxes. On the fifth day, the carriage carrying the taxes was transported into Raya Town under the escort of knights.

After taking a careful inventory, it was determined that the amount was correct, including half of the tax owed, and Fei'er happily accepted it.

This behavior in Alston Town also completely opened the minds of many nobles in the earldom and no longer blocked them.

Many nobles who had long wanted to establish a good relationship with Mayfair sent people or wrote letters to Raya Town to indicate when they would pay their taxes, all expressing their loyalty.

Fei'er is even happier about this situation that is developing in a good direction.

Of course, there are many nobles in the earldom who remain unmoved.

Either he has some grudges with Mayfair, or he really has no money.

Not every noble could recover from the Black Death, but Faile didn't care. She paid as much as she could. This was her sincerity.

Lords from the entire earldom came to Raya Town and Xu Siling's manor to buy MSG.

Who buys more and who buys less, Fei'er knows it well.

Can’t afford to pay taxes, but have money to buy MSG to enjoy delicious food?

As for those who have grudges against Fei'er, Xu Siling knows these things.

Partly because they had a good relationship with Khamis, Hamis's death made it difficult for them to accept Mayfair.

But more importantly, it is the hatred of the ancestors and fathers of the Raya family.

But now is not the time to suppress them.

The lords of the earldom are showing their favor to Mayfair. It is a good time for development.

Even if we want to suppress this group of foolish nobles who don't know the heights of their existence, we still have to wait until most of the tax revenue is collected.

Not to mention that Xu Siling was busy with the manor soldiers at this time and had no time to deal with these people.

When he has free time, it will be time to teach these people a lesson.

In five days, the manor family was also changing.

Many families themselves just seek a peaceful place to live.

After moving to Raya Town under the name of Xu Siling.

Don't live a good life.

Family members can enter and leave Raya Town at will, and drink with other civilians in the taverns of Raya Town without suffering discrimination.

Members will not be looked down upon if they do any work or engage in any career in Raya Town or the manor.

In their eyes, Xu Siling is the legend of the executioner and the idol of many family members.

Since he is an idol, what Xu Siling does will be imitated.

For example, Xu Siling asked Ella to help make specially made clothes. Many family members secretly approached Ella to seek the design drawings of the new clothes.

With Xu Siling's tacit approval, Ella handed the drawings to everyone in the manor.

This set off a trend throughout the estate.

The first to wear this suit were the children of the manor.

Of course they don't have a flag to drape over their left shoulders, but that doesn't stop them from playing around with their hoods on.

The specially made hood can cover your face without blocking your vision like other hoods and cloaks.

When wearing it, the children all felt like they were Xu Siling in the future.

This is true for both men and women.

Even women are suitable to wear this outfit when going out.

Family members on the estate scrambled to make clothes and wear them.

The people of Raya Town, after noticing the different trends of the people in the manor, also wanted to follow the trend.

But the family members had no intention of spreading the drawings.

You can wear it if you want, but you have to spend money to buy it from the manor.

This, to a large extent, ensures that new clothes are not flooded.

But I believe that the proliferation of clothes is only a matter of time.

The family members who make the clothes all keep the flag's lace strip on the left shoulder.

Everyone is looking forward to one day representing the Siling Family and wearing the heraldic flag of the Siling Family.

The most likely possibility is to become a soldier.

Becoming a soldier makes it possible to wear the heraldic flag of the Spirit family.

After the men signed up, they all waited anxiously for the notification.

At this time, Xu Siling was slowly checking the information of each member who signed up to join the army.

The outer soldier camps were still under construction and would not be completed soon. The storage of food was still in progress, so he was certainly not in a hurry.

Farina assisted, standing next to Xu Siling, and slowly explained the characteristics of each member.

Xu Siling took the lead in screening out some members who were too thin.

Including some bad habits that are too serious.

For example, a certain member must drink alcohol every day. If he doesn't drink, he will feel itchy all over.

Xu Siling cannot keep such people.

The current manor is still recruiting new executioner families.

The number of people in the manor has frighteningly reached over 800 people.

You must know that it has only been a little over two months since the manor was established.

It's not easy to gather such members of the executioner family right away.

This was only the case after Ella worked hard to review and screen.

If all the families were to be accepted, then this mountain would not be able to accommodate so many people.

Xu Siling still had expectations for the number of conscripts.

Only one hundred and fifty people.

You cannot ask for more than one.

Very simple.

Xu Siling doesn't want to raise so many soldiers at the moment.

His MSG business is already open.

Through the affairs of Tamubao, the nobles of the earldom would come to him regularly to purchase MSG.

Coupled with a trip to Paris, his MSG completely became famous.

Nobles throughout the kingdom knew that MSG came from him.

MSG is not pineapple.

Pineapple is the face of noble banquets.

But MSG is a more practical spice. After eating food flavored with MSG, eating food without MSG flavoring is no different from swilling water.

As a result, the nobles of the kingdom can no longer live without Xu Siling's MSG.

These nobles from remote areas come to Raya Town Manor to purchase MSG, not just one or two bottles, but in large quantities.

Even many businessmen would buy a bottle from Xu Siling and go all the way to sell it at a high price.

If it weren't for the stable income from MSG.

Xu Siling may not be able to support a troop of twenty soldiers, not to mention a troop of one hundred and fifty soldiers.

If Xu Siling really wants to spend a lot of money to recruit troops, he will not be able to do so if he is too cruel.

In other words, as long as he is willing to take charge of the food and housing of the soldiers, his salary can be kept very low.

With a wave of his hand, he recruited troops from Tamubao and Raya Town. Many men who were unwilling to ask for salary were willing to serve as his top soldiers.

But this is not what Xu Siling wants.

Xu Siling established these 150 soldiers to prepare for future troops.

As long as these one hundred and fifty people are well trained, these people can help him train other newcomers.

If you bring one soldier now, in a year or two, this soldier will be able to help him bring out ten soldiers.

Xu Siling's vision cannot only be focused on the present. It is unrealistic to become fat in one bite, and his power alone is limited.

The good brains of these family members must be brought into full play.

There are more than 800 people in the manor, excluding women, children and the elderly, there are still about 400 men who meet the age requirements.

As for the approximately 400 men, excluding some who had to maintain their family income and work in business, basically all of them signed up to enlist in the army.

Xu Siling wanted to carefully select 150 men among the nearly 400 family men.

He raised one hundred and fifty people and made many mistakes.

Falina often wanders around the manor. Because she is Xu Siling's lover, everyone in the manor family is extremely friendly to her.

Not to mention Falina's good nature, she would never take the initiative to turn against others.

Therefore, she has met many people in the manor. She knows a lot about who has some temperament problems and who is literate.

With the help of Falina, Xu Siling finally finalized the list of one hundred and fifty people.

Then let Farina find someone to post the list on the manor's bulletin board.

Before the names on the list were written, the news had already spread from the yard.

The men in the manor were all very nervous when they learned that a list of those confirmed to enlist would be posted later.

It didn't take long for the announcement board in the center of the manor to be filled with people.

Everyone is waiting for the list to be posted.

Everyone hopes that they can join the army and become Xu Siling's soldiers.

As for the so-called full package of food, accommodation, equipment, and generous salary, they don't care at all.

They just want to be Xu Siling's soldiers.

As more and more people gathered around, the surrounding area became filled with water.

The yard servant who brought the confirmation list shouted for a long time before making way for her.

The servant posted the scroll list, and before she could run out, she was squeezed out again.

Many people gathered around to look at the list.

"Landry Carey, damn, that brat is on the list!"

"Hey, everyone, those in front of you, did you see my name in it?"

"Hey, everyone lower their heads, I can't see the words!"

"I knew that guy Terry would definitely enlist in the army!"

"Why wasn't I chosen? Damn it, I'm no better than that guy Landry!"

"I didn't choose a brother either, don't be sad. I'd rather not have a salary and bring my own equipment. I want to be a soldier for Master Siling."

"That's what you think? Who wouldn't want that?"

The bulletin board was noisy.

Fortunately, no one pushed and caused an accident.

After two hours, the confirmation list was finally concluded.

When I saw my name on the list, I jumped for joy and ran back to congratulate my family.

Those who didn't see their names stayed on the announcement board and read it several times. Only then did they realize that they had not been selected and left lonely.

It's not a smart person who finds a problem.

"No, Lord Siling only has one hundred and fifty people on his list this time, and there's not even one more."

"Yes, Master Siling obviously can ask for more people."

Many people who were not selected used various channels to inquire about the people in the yard.

Only then did I know that Xu Siling selected soldiers very carefully.

Those with many bad habits, such as alcoholism, domestic violence, etc., will be marked with an X number.

Even if this group of people were screened out, there were still far more than 150 people, so Xu Siling chose the ones with better characteristics.

For example, literacy, hard work, etc.

After knowing the joints, many men were convinced.

Those who were not selected because of their bad habits were criticized after returning home, and the men vowed to change!
Overnight, many good men appeared in the manor.

After confirming the list, the tents and dormitories outside the manor have not been built yet, and it will take at least five days.

Xu Siling also spread the news that after entering the camp, they would not be able to leave at will and asked them to deal with everything that should be dealt with within five days.

The manor is about to lose some men, and the construction of the yard is therefore delayed.

Seeing this, Chris had no choice but to go to Raya Town to hire people to work at the manor. Fortunately, she could handle it. The whole yard was busy.

On the last day, when Xu Siling was about to move to the camp dormitory to live together, Feier brought him news that made his head spin.

Blanche appears to be pregnant.

This incident made Xu Siling dizzy and hurried to Raya Town.

When Blanche saw Xu Siling coming over, her beautiful face turned red with embarrassment.

Fei'er stood aside, looking at Xu Siling with a little gloating.

Only after careful inquiry did I find out.

Blanche's appetite has not been particularly good recently, she often retches and likes to eat small snacks.

You know Blanche never liked these snacks.

At first she didn't care about this physical reaction.

She has never been in good health, and it is normal to feel unwell occasionally.

But the discomfort has never lasted as long as it has now.

After a simple check, Blanche got an answer.

That means she is pregnant.

As for whose?
Needless to say?

Blanche remembered that she and Xu Siling were struggling every day and every night on their way back from Paris to Raya Town. It was not surprising that she was pregnant.

Blanche was both happy and nervous at the thought that she might be pregnant with Xu Siling's child.

No need to explain too much about being happy.

The tension is more about identity issues.

She is not Xu Siling's wife, but now she is pregnant.

If a son is born, it will have a huge impact on Ella.

Blanche didn't pay much attention to Xu Siling's wife's identity.

She believed that she was able to be saved and escaped from the Paris Palace thanks to Xu Siling.

She couldn't expect too much, just being able to stay by Xu Siling's side was enough.

I am very happy to be pregnant, but I am also afraid that my child will bring trouble to Xu Siling.

Fortunately, Xu Siling didn't care about this. He stepped forward and cared about Blanche's health seriously, and didn't care too much about the child's problems.

As far as Xu Siling is concerned, whether it is a child, it can be a boy or a girl!
Anyway, as long as it's his and Blanche's child.

As for the title and territory?

He doesn't care.

If there is a title in the future, if you want to give it, try to give it to Ella's children.

But it doesn't mean that he can't give it to other children.

It’s just that I can’t give the child a birthright.

But that doesn't mean he can't give others.

What if his son wants to be a naughty old man, just wants to reach out and enjoy everything without having to work hard on his own?
He won't accept it.

Xu Siling stroked Blanche's belly affectionately and began to think.

"It seems that I need to think about what names the boys and girls should be named in advance."

Blanche didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and gently held Xu Siling's big hand.

"Whether she is pregnant or not, I haven't confirmed yet. Miss Raya is too nervous, otherwise I would like to wait for a while before telling you. Obviously, your training of the troops is just around the corner."

Xu Siling shook his head: "Your business is important. You should work less these days and have a good rest."

Fei'er teased: "Xu, your expression now looks like you are in a fight."

Xu Siling was helpless: "It would be great if it really was a war. I'm not so nervous about a war. I'm going to be a father. Can I not be nervous?"

Blanche raised her slender hand and stroked Xu Siling's eyebrows, as if to soothe his tension.

"Don't let my affairs affect you."

"It doesn't affect it."

"Including your wife, I hope to gain her understanding."

Only then did Xu Siling remember that he would have to tell Ella about this later.

He could imagine how indifferent Ella's expression would be, but how jealous she would be inside.

"I'll tell her."

"Xu, please don't let me create a gap between you."

"Will not."

Xu Siling nodded seriously: "I'll ask her later how to name boys and girls."

Blanche burst into laughter upon hearing this.

"Blanche, I will come over to see you from time to time."

Xu Siling could only trouble Fei'er and let Fei'er take care of Blanche. After getting the promise, Xu Siling hurried back to the manor.

The yard is still as busy as before.

Only after the Frofen family no longer had the power to handle matters in the manor.

All affairs of the manor fell into Ella's hands.

Ella also became busy.

Falina is helping Ella handle things at this time.

When the two of them saw Xu Siling coming back, Falina saw that his expression was unusually nervous, so she went to bring a bowl of hot water to Xu Siling.

"Ella, I have something to tell you."

Seeing Xu Siling being so serious, Ella couldn't help but stop what she was doing and looked at Xu Siling expressionlessly.

"What's wrong, my husband, you look a little strange."

Farina handed the hot water to Xu Siling: "Mr. Siling, if you talk about things, Farina will stay away first."

"Farina, you should stay too, you should know this too."

"Ok."

The three of them sat down, and Xu Siling hesitated for a while before slowly opening her mouth.

"Ella, I might be going to be a father."

When Falina heard this, her head suddenly failed to react, and she tilted her head without understanding.

Ella's gray eyes suddenly narrowed, her expression unchanged.

Xu Siling endured the torture of Ella's gaze.

"who?"

"The princess's is still Chris's."

"Still, I don't know which woman is out there."

Ella asked three times in succession.

After asking this question, Falina finally reacted and exclaimed.

"Oh my God, Mr. Siling is going to have a child?"

Xu Siling coughed awkwardly: "It belongs to Blanche."

Ella nodded lightly: "That's right. If you want to get pregnant, you'll have to wait until the right time to get pregnant."

Xu Siling looked at Ella's indifferent expression and apologized helplessly.

"Excuse me."

"Husband, there is no need to apologize. I have already suspected this."

"Well"

"You've slept with Farina, you've slept with Chris, you've slept with the princess. To be honest, I'm still wondering why they aren't pregnant yet."

Falina blushed: "Ella, how could you get pregnant in one go?"

Ella shook her head: "That's because you didn't work hard, and you've only slept once until now."

"I don't have any chance."

"You dislike me for occupying my husband every day?"

Falina shook her head shyly: "How could you think so."

"You should also give birth to a child for your husband and leave some time and space for you tonight."

Falina was surprised: "Real or false."

"real."

Xu Siling frowned and raised his forehead. He had noticed something was wrong with Ella, but he didn't know how to speak.

Ella was extremely serious: "It's best tonight, otherwise my husband will have to move to the outer soldier camp tomorrow. According to the rules of the soldier camp set by her husband, you can't come in and out at will. You won't have time then."

Falina also became serious: "Then I have to think about it carefully and go back to take a shower later. I heard from my aunt that there is some kind of medicine that can make it easier for women to get pregnant!"

"Ella, Falina, let me interrupt." Xu Siling had a headache, "Is now the time to talk about this?"

Ella nodded: "My husband is right, it is indeed not the time to talk about this."

Xu Siling breathed a sigh of relief.

Ella said seriously: "I suggest taking the princess to live in the manor."

Xu Siling's jaw dropped: "Huh?"

"When you are pregnant with your husband's child, you must take good care of her and not put her in any danger. I think it is better to carry her in the yard of the manor. I can always take care of her."

Xu Siling said to Farina: "Farina, can you leave some space for me? I want to talk to Ella."

"No problem, Mr. Siling, I'll go find my aunt first!"

Falina was also anxious, and she took Ella's words seriously.

This is not surprising.

Farina and Ella have been together for a long time.

Knowing that Ella can't even joke, if she says it, it will be true.

As for why Ella supports her pregnancy with Xu Siling’s child?
She didn't care at all.

There were only two people left in the main house.

Xu Siling directly picked up Ella from the chair and placed her petite and slightly grown body on his lap.

"Are you crazy? What did you just say to Farina?"

"Why does my husband think I'm crazy?"

"How could you support Farina and follow me tonight?"

"If I don't support it, will the princess not be pregnant? Will she not give birth to your child?"

Xu Silington was speechless and didn't know what to say.

"My dear husband, after I knew that you slept with them, I was already prepared for the possibility that they would be pregnant. I know that my husband cares about me, but even if he cares about me, I have to face this matter squarely."

Just when Xu Siling was about to say something, Ella's gray eyes under her black hair showed a hint of determination. She stretched out her finger and pressed it on Xu Siling's lips.

The facial features are extremely delicate, and the face is so delicate that it can be broken by a blow.

Ella has a face that is enviable to many women.

"Husband, no one is perfect, and there is no need to insist on perfection in life."

"For Ella, being able to hold your hand and grow old, or depend on each other for life and death when something goes wrong, this is life and can reflect the affection between us."

"I once said that human dependence is an absolute thing, no matter whether you are a man or a woman, whether you are strong like Raya or weak like me, whether you are Chris's 'smart' or Farina's 'stupid'. No matter who you are, most people will subconsciously seek help when they face difficulties that they cannot face. I am no exception, and you, husband, are no exception."

"I don't mind my husband relying on me, just like I have always relied on my husband."

"If we don't need to rely on each other, then why are we holding hands together?"

"The so-called feelings are complex yet very simple. It's just the word 'like'. If you like someone, you should like everything about him, including his shortcomings."

Ella touched Xu Siling's face, her expression showing tenderness.

"A husband in my eyes is never perfect, so don't blame yourself in front of me because you have become an imperfect husband."

Xu Siling's brown eyes were filled with tenderness.

Indeed, Ella is absolutely right about this.

He has no baggage with Farina, Chris, Blanche or Mayfair.

He didn't care what they thought of him, because he knew very well that he had done nothing wrong.

But in front of Ella, he has a burden.

As a wife, Ella did too well, causing him to be obsessed with the idea of ​​being perfect as well.

In Xu Siling's heart, Ella is a perfect wife.

Then what he should repay is to become a perfect husband.

But he couldn't do it.

He has never been a perfect husband since he had a lover.

For this reason, he would occasionally feel a little embarrassed after making mistakes in front of Ella.

This is also why I became nervous coming back from Raya Town.

"Still very sorry, Ella."

The corners of Ella's mouth rarely raised, and she smiled.

"Most people say that human nature is kind, and some people say that people are supposed to be greedy."

"Husband, I don't know which statement is right, but I know that I am very greedy, but I know very well that other people's happiness is also happiness, and those happiness that have nothing to do with me did not fall from the sky for no reason. of."

"It's like Farina poured her happiness into her husband's heart. What I felt at the time was called greed and jealousy."

"But who am I to destroy other people's happiness? Just because I am your wife?"

"I should cherish my own happiness. Shouldn't I care about happiness that has nothing to do with me? Am I not responsible for the happiness that others lose because of me?"

Ella sighed: "To be honest, husband. I am a cowardly person, and I am not strong. I don't want to, and I don't dare to bear this kind of responsibility. It's like I've always been willing to stay and don't care about other people's opinions. Very timid.”

Xu Siling held Ella's hand and fell into guilt. Maybe he still didn't understand Ella too little.

He knows that Ella loves him very much and cares about him very much. For her own sake, Ella can always wrong herself.

But why Ella was able to do this, Xu Siling never knew. Since he didn't know, he just let her go on like this.

Until now, Xu Siling finally understood.

"Ella, you are my wife and you deserve everything."

"I understand, husband. But"

Ella begins her confession again.

"To put it simply, what I said before is the difference between 'understanding' and 'understanding'."

"Remember the day Farina came down from the mountain and moved into the house."

Xu Siling nodded: "I remember."

"That night, when the three of us were having dinner together, my husband's eyes were dishonest. Farina knew that you were always peeking at her, but she never exposed you, and even deliberately prevented you from noticing, and then tried her best not to offend me. Under the premise of doubt, work hard on your sitting posture to satisfy your husband’s little hobby to the greatest extent.”

After hearing this, Xu Siling recalled it and couldn't help laughing: "Yes, you told me this."

"If it were me, would I do what Farina did? I don't think I would."

"But I will pull you into the room. It's just the two of us. I can take off my clothes and let my husband watch as much as I want, but the atmosphere during the meal will be gone. And that means telling you that I know you have been stealing." Look at her."

"This is how I understand you but don't understand you. It is the inevitable result of my bad character decision."

"I understand my husband's temperament, but I can't understand what he does sometimes."

"I think a wife should serve you well, love you well, and support you well forever."

"But I know my husband, but I often don't understand. Is it inappropriate for my husband to do this? Maybe if my husband does this, will it hurt our relationship? Will he get tired of me?"

Only then did Xu Siling remember that Ella's character was chaste.

She is chaste, keeps herself clean, will not remarry, and will never waver in her convictions.

But because of her chastity, she could not understand Xu Siling's behavior of having a lover.

Not understanding it doesn’t mean Ella doesn’t accept it, it doesn’t mean Ella doesn’t understand it.

As a result, Ella fell into a contradictory thinking struggle.

Xu Siling felt helpless. He could only hold Ella's hand, hold her in his arms, and comfort her as much as possible.

"But fortunately, after my husband came back from Paris, I knew that you loved me. You never hated me. You would hold me to sleep every night. You never disliked me, just like you never disliked me for eating too much. No matter what I do, you will support me."

"Then what Ella has to do is to always support her husband. But"

"Husband, if I live in your heart and sleep in your arms, anything less will not be the home I want. If anything less, I will not feel happy."

Xu Siling looked at Ella's gray eyes, which were no longer as dull as before.

Instead, it was filled with emotion.

The depths of the gray pupils are no longer as deep as the lake.

What is replaced is calmness and happiness.

She had never blamed Xu Siling for having a lover.

All she wants is a home and a husband who loves her.

"Husband, as a wife, I will not spare you."

"I will kill you."

"But not with a knife, but with time."

Xu Siling couldn't help but kiss Ella.

Ella was also rarely moved.

She hooked her hands behind Xu Siling's neck.

They have never been like this since they became a couple.

Perhaps this is something Xu Siling didn't dare to think about.

This is what Ella has been looking forward to.

Ella was looking forward to it all the time, but she didn't dare.

Her temperament is always so timid and cowardly.

But no one ever noticed.

Even Xu Siling.

The two hugged each other for a long time, until Ella was panting, her eyes were a little fascinated, and her gray pupils were full of lake water that was made ripples by raindrops.

"husband."

"What's wrong, my wife?"

"I seem to have grown a bit recently. Can you check it for me?"

"May I?"

"If the husband can't do it, then who else in this world can."

Ella took off some of her clothes, covering herself shyly.

Her eyes were evasive, but she was firmly in front of Xu Siling.

"Husband, do you hate me like this?"

Xu Siling regarded it as a treasure and couldn't help but shook his head: "How could it be?"

"Am I still too young?"

Without waiting for Xu Siling to answer, Ella quickly blocked Xu Siling's mouth.

"Husband, even if I am still young, what I want and my greed are not small at all."

"I really want to have a baby for you."

"Kiss me. Even if you can't have me, I still want to have traces of my husband on me."

It's nothing great to fall in love, but it's great to continue to love.

Xu Siling told herself that he was cheating, but love itself is a lie.

Then Xu Siling told herself that he was depriving her, and cuteness itself was a kind of control.

So Xu Siling told herself that the way he felt now was like taking drugs, but the feeling of falling in love was no different from the feeling of taking drugs.

How many people go through their entire lives without even tasting the taste of this drug.

Xu Siling told herself to love rationally and with restraint.

So he loves cowardly.

More cowardly than timid Ella.

(End of this chapter)