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Chapter 186 Don’t you know you shine in the crowd?

"Thank you!"

Susan took the tissue and wiped the cream from her mouth.

She returned the remaining tissue to Lorraine and said with a smile: "I have never had such an experience. In the past, if I wanted to date a boy, I would become invisible the moment we met on the date."

Lorraine suddenly felt like she didn't know what to say.

So miserable!

"What happened after that?"

"What else can be done!"

Susan took a scoop of ice cream and said, "That boy was waiting for me right there. It was obvious that I was next to him, but he couldn't feel it at all.

"I couldn't answer his phone calls. Finally, he went back angrily and cursed."

Lorraine smiled bitterly and said, "You can't blame him. He probably thinks you are playing tricks on him."

"Yeah, I can't explain it. There were no mutants or anything like that at that time."

Susan said distressedly, "But after this happened a few times, no one dared to date me anymore. After all, no one wants to date someone who always lets others go and doesn't explain afterwards."

At this time, Susan seemed to have opened a chat box, talking about the things that had troubled her so much.

She tried to take the college entrance examination and prepared carefully for a long time, but she became invisible on the day of the exam and was absent from the exam.

She wanted to be an actress, but halfway through each audition, right when it was her turn, her body began to become invisible.

She also tried many, many more, but in the end she was succumbed to this strange disease.

"Anyway, this disease just doesn't please me!"

Susan said angrily, "It's going to mess up my whole life!"

Lorraine had been listening quietly and only then raised her question.

"But I saw your performance just now. It was very good. Where did you learn acting?"

"I'm..."

"Tell the truth."

Lorraine looked into Susan's eyes and said, "The look in your eyes tells me you just wanted to confuse the question."

He does not use any telepathic abilities.

But just being able to read Susan's thoughts.

"Huh... well..."

Susan sighed and told the truth obediently, "I learned it secretly. In order to save money, when I get into this state, I will go to the university's acting class to attend classes."

"Aren't you afraid of suddenly changing back?"

"When I want to change back, I usually feel it in advance."

Lorraine nodded, noting this feature.

At this time, Susan asked tentatively: "Mr. Interviewer, you won't deduct my points!"

Lorraine couldn't help laughing: "There's nothing to deduct points from, and there's no need to be sneaky about this kind of thing."

Susan looked confused and didn't understand what Lorraine meant.

Lorraine explained: "As long as you are natural, you can attend any class in the university. You just won't get a certificate of completion."

She thought about it and it seemed like that was indeed the case.

"what--"

Susan's mood suddenly became depressed, and her whole person seemed to collapse: "I thought this strange disease could finally bring me some benefit, but it turns out that anyone can do it!"

She gulped down the ice cream, as if she wanted to let all her emotions out.

Lorraine silently pushed her share to Susan.

He kind of knew where Franklin's sweet tooth came from.

At this time, he felt a little emotional.

Some people are naturally kind, and even if they gain power that ordinary people cannot imagine, they will not embark on the path of crime.

Susan's ability can easily detect everyone's secrets.

But her choice was just to listen to the class.

"How could it be useless at all?"

Lorraine comforted, "Invisibility is an ability that many people dream of."

Susan's trouble lies not in invisibility, but in the lack of control over her abilities.

But now she seems to be confusing the two.

Or maybe, there are some inside stories that I don’t know.

"Then you really don't understand at all!"

Susan snorted, "This kind of supernatural ability only gives people pain!

“It turned my life into chaos and left me afraid to make any plans for the future.

"Mr. Interviewer, you probably don't know what it's like to be invisible. It's a feeling of being completely isolated from the world.

“Obviously there are many things you want to do, but as soon as you try to experience them, this strange disease will appear and ruin everything.

“You are alone, standing in another world, watching other people live happily, but you can never participate.

"And now that I've been invisible for longer and longer periods of time, there might come a time when I can't go back at all!"

As she talked, Susan's mood was almost unbearable.

She covered her face and sighed.

"I'm really miserable!"

She wants to be an actress, just to make at least one movie, so that if one day she completely disappears, she can still leave traces of her existence.

While listening to Susan talk about her past, countless Susans appeared in Lorraine's mind.

Susan who is admitted to college, Susan who wants to fall in love, Susan who participates in auditions...

They were ready to start a new life, but in the end everything was messed up because of their sudden invisibility.

What disappeared with it was the longing and hope she once had.

"Actually, if I fail this interview, I'm going to accept my fate."

Susan said softly, "There is nothing wrong with a life that remains the same. At least I can still exist in this world."

Lorraine suddenly said: "Are you willing?"

"how is this possible!"

Susan exclaimed, then her mood dropped again.

"But I have no other choice!"

"Actually, not necessarily."

At this time, Lorraine suddenly said softly: "Maybe I can help you control this power."

"what?"

Susan stared at Lorraine blankly, not turning around for a moment.

What does it mean to control this power?

"You just said that I can't understand what it feels like to be invisible."

Lorraine whispered: "You are wrong, actually I can understand."

Susan raised her head in confusion, and then saw one of Lorraine's hands slowly becoming transparent.

She opened her eyes suddenly.

"The specific process is a long story, and I also have some abilities that are different from ordinary people."

Lorraine said slowly, "I always felt that we were destined because the first special ability I used in my life was invisibility."

That seems like a memory from a long time ago.

Lorraine got the role card of [Caller the Prayer] and couldn't wait to release the first spell.

Merit's obstacle is [Ghost Walk].

He was standing in front of the mirror, excitedly watching his figure slowly disappear.

"We're the same kind of people."

Lorraine restored her arm to its original shape, "but it's a little different."

He looked into Susan's eyes, and there was no pursuit of extraordinary power in her eyes.

The other party really just sees it as a burden and never wants to grasp it.

"If I'm not wrong, you can control your abilities by yourself."

Lorraine guided, "The root of all problems is probably the first day you awakened your ability.

"This is the last question of the interview, Miss Susan, what happened that day, can you tell me?"

Susan was silent for a while, thinking back to that day.

The darkest day of her life.

As long as you speak out, you may be able to solve your biggest worries today and allow yourself to live a normal life.

Everything will be at your fingertips.

But to Lorraine's surprise, Susan still refused.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to answer this question..."

She would rather maintain the status quo than speak out about her experience that day.

"Then don't answer!"

Lorraine did not insist, "But I think you will take the initiative to tell me one day."

He stood up and went to the front desk to pay.

ended?

Susan's hands on her knees tightened.

Have you messed up again?

"What's wrong with you, looking so depressed?"

When Lorraine came back, she left a little tip on the table.

Susan raised her head, her eyes full of grievance: "Did my interview fail?"

"No, you behaved very well."

Lorraine smiled and shook her head, "The interview is over, you can wait for the follow-up notification."

Anyway, according to Tony's arrangement, it will probably be you.

"Thank you for your hard work!"

Susan breathed a sigh of relief.

She finally participated in a full audition!

Just wait for the notification later. No matter what the outcome is, she will accept it!

The next step is to find a place and wait quietly for the invisibility to end.

"What are you still doing sitting there?"

Lorraine suddenly asked in confusion, "There will be new guests later, be careful if someone sits on you."

Susan immediately stood up with a groan.

It seems that as long as he wants this state, he is at a loss.

Lorraine asked curiously: "You seem to really hate it when others pass through your body when you are invisible?"

"Not just annoying!"

Susan said sternly, "This is something I will never get used to!"

Ok……

Lorraine could tell that this was probably related to Susan's psychological shadow.

But she didn't want to say that there was nothing she could do.

He looked at his watch and said, "Then you should pay more attention alone. I have to tell Tony the result of the interview."

With that, he turned around and prepared to leave the ice cream shop.

Looking at Lorraine's back, Susan suddenly felt deeply at a loss.

That is an extremely familiar state.

Overwhelmed by loneliness, the whole world no longer has its place.

Yes, Susan remembered.

In fact, nothing has changed in her life.

She was able to talk and laugh just now and pretend as if nothing had happened because Lorraine was by her side.

He can see himself, hear himself, and touch himself.

It was Lorraine's appearance that gave her a slight illusion, thinking that from now on, when she was invisible, she would accompany her through this difficult time.

It's like she's still a normal person.

But now, Susan remembered.

She and Lorraine actually have nothing to do with each other.

He is the interviewer and he is the actor auditioning. When the interview is over, the relationship is over.

Now that he is leaving, his life has returned to its original trajectory.

I am going to be abandoned by the whole world again.

No one can see yourself, no one can hear yourself, no one can touch yourself...

No!

"Mr. Interviewer!"

Susan suddenly stopped Lorraine.

"what happened?"

Lorraine turned around and said with a smile, "The interview is over. You don't have to be so polite. Just call me Lorraine."

Susan's face suddenly turned red.

She didn't know why she wanted to stop Lorraine. She spoke without thinking about it just now, and now she couldn't think of any reason.

"C-can I follow you?"

Susan stammered, "I won't disturb your work. Just say a few words to me occasionally. I will leave when I recover!"

"This is..."

Lorraine thought for a while and said, "It seems like nothing is wrong."

……

Lorraine walked on the roadside with no intention of returning to the interview venue.

Tony has been informed of the interview results via email. Then Tony replied with two words.

Come on.

At this time, Susan followed him, just like she promised just now, without saying a word.

The atmosphere was a little awkward.

Lorraine scratched her head and took the initiative to say: "Miss Susan..."

Susan immediately responded: "Just call me Su, that's what all my friends call me."

used to be.

Susan sighed in her heart. Since graduating from high school, her friends have each had their own new lives.

Only he remains where he is.

"Okay, Miss Su."

Lorraine randomly picked a topic, "What did you usually do when you were invisible?"

"do nothing."

Susan shook her head and said, "Just waiting for the invisibility to end, as you know, I can't touch anything."

"That's horrible."

Lorraine scratched her head and said, "Forget it, is there anything you want to do now? I can go with you."

"Are you dating me?!"

Susan's eyes suddenly lit up, "If you make an appointment, you can't go back on it!"

"what?"

Lorraine was stunned. How did Susan understand this meaning from what she just said?

And look at her barely concealed snicker.

It looked like the conspiracy had succeeded.

Forget it.

"Let me grant you a wish."

Lorraine said, "Hearing that you have never dated normally, I feel a little pitiful no matter how you think about it."

"Then I'm going to the amusement park!"

Susan took Lorraine's hand and almost dragged him forward.

"There are so many things I want to do, but I didn't have the chance before. Now I want to experience them all!"

Lorraine was speechless for a while.

Amusement parks, places like this are used to upgrade relationships.

It has to be at least the second date, right?

But looking at Susan's excited look, he couldn't say anything against it.

Forget it.

Let’s focus on her today.

Susan continued to pull Lorraine forward, and he finally said helplessly: "If you walk over like this, it will be dark by the time you wait."

Susan turned around and said, "How about taking a car there?"

"You grab my hand."

Lorraine waved his hand, and a portal opened in front of them.

"Since you said you were in a hurry, maybe this will make it faster."

Susan walked through the portal almost in a complete daze.

Then came to the amusement park.

"This is……"

She couldn't believe her eyes.

Although she knows that the world has changed a lot now, and she has seen countless superpowers on TV.

Even myself is one.

But when I experienced this myself, it was a completely different feeling.

"This is a new experience, right?"

Lorraine smiled and said, "If you choose to date a wizard, you have to get used to this kind of thing."

Susan nodded stupidly.

"Now you can do what you want."

Lorraine said, "You're already here, let's have fun!"

Susan nodded excitedly: "Yes!"

In fact, before coming here, Lorraine had been curious about what Susan wanted to do.

But later I discovered that it was actually just a very ordinary date.

Even because Susan is invisible to others, there are actually very few projects she can participate in, some of which can even be said to be boring in Lorraine's opinion.

But Susan still showed joy from the bottom of her heart.

Maybe she just wanted someone to accompany her.

After experiencing multiple attractions, it was already dark.

Leaning against the railing, Lorraine handed the cone in her hand to Susan.

This was what Susan had just begged Lorraine to buy for her.

"At night, there seems to be a light show in the amusement park. Let's watch it together."

"Good~"

Susan took the cone and carefully licked the cream on it, her face filled with satisfaction.

"Do you like sweets?"

Lorraine asked curiously, "You ate ice cream and cones today, which can easily damage your teeth."

"No way!"

Susan pouted and showed her two rows of teeth to Lorraine, "Look, they are very healthy!"

Fine.

Lorraine knows that there are indeed some people who are gifted and never get sick, never gain weight, and never become short-sighted.

Susan may be one of them.

Seeing Susan happily eating a cone, Lorraine felt that today was not in vain.

He turned on his phone and prepared to deal with something.

"You eat first, I'll reply with some messages..."

Before he finished speaking, he felt the corner of his clothes being suddenly grabbed by two hands.

Turning around, what he saw was Susan's aggrieved face.

She stared at Lorraine closely and let the cone fall to the ground without paying attention.

"Don't look at..."

"what?"

Lorraine felt a little strange. Wasn't Susan fine just now?

What happened?

"I say……"

Susan wanted to speak loudly, but the moment she spoke, big tears fell down unconsciously.

She could no longer speak.

Lorraine quickly wiped away Susan's tears, but the more he wiped them away, the more Susan cried.

"sorry!"

Susan lowered her head and twisted Lorraine's hand away.

"I don't know what's going on!"

Susan wiped her tears and sobbed, "When you turned your eyes away just now, I suddenly felt very sad, as if I had been abandoned again.

"I'm sorry, I caused you trouble..."

Lorraine smiled bitterly and said, "I'm just replying to the message."

"But you're not looking at me!"

Susan's complaining reply was like a big bell ringing, echoing in Lorraine's mind.

He realized something extremely crucial.

Susan had been telling her past experiences as jokes before, which caused Lorraine to have a misunderstanding.

I thought she was a very optimistic girl.

But now he understands.

Susan is actually not as optimistic and strong as she appears. She is not as optimistic and strong as she imagined.

It was this damn ability that forced her to be optimistic and strong.

In her heart, she was extremely afraid of being alone.

Looking at Susan's aggrieved and evasive eyes, Lorraine suddenly thought of the stray puppy.

They roam the streets and have fun by themselves.

You can leave them alone or take them home.

But I just can’t touch them and then turn away.

Because it will think that it is needed, and then it will always follow you.

Lorraine had read a poem, by Emily Dickinson.

"I could have endured the darkness if I had not seen the sun, but the sunshine has made my desolation a newer desolation."

"Sorry, Susan..."

"Call me Sue!"

Susan didn't care about anything anymore. She vented all her emotions as if she had given up on herself.

"I've told you before, but you still keep calling me Susan. You don't care at all about what I say! I'm sorry, I misunderstood from the beginning!"

Susan's tears fell heavily and she kept backing away.

"I didn't think clearly before. In fact, this is wrong. Do you know that I suddenly had a terrible idea just now!"

Lorraine didn't know why Susan was thinking, and he certainly didn't know.

Because Susan also just discovered it.

She wanted to make many requests to Lorraine, including calling her Su, looking at her all the time, and not thinking about anything other than her.

But why?

Who is she to make these demands?

"I have nothing to do with you, and you are only staying with me today. We will eventually be separated.

“If I create too many wonderful memories today, I’ll never get out of it!”

Susan turned around suddenly, lowered her head and ran towards the distance.

Tears kept falling.

She was leaving Lorraine.

Because I’m afraid I’ll never be able to leave again, it’s best to leave now.

"Wait a minute Su, there it is!"

Susan didn't hear Lorraine's shout. She just lowered her head and ran into the bustling crowd.

The crowd surged, and countless people passed through Susan as if they were passing through the air.

"No, no..."

She hated this feeling, once she entered the crowd, no one would ever find her again.

This scene reminded Susan of that day again.

The same thing happened on the day my mother died.

"do not want!"

She held her head and squatted down weakly.

Let countless people step on her head.

"Woooooo-"

Now she felt like she was completely gone, out of anyone's sight.

Just a person who doesn't exist.

Now only one can find himself...

No, he can't find it either!

Susan bit her lip to prevent herself from crying.

If his mother couldn't be found back then, he would definitely not be able to find himself either...

"Susan!"

Suddenly, a strong hand suddenly grabbed her arm.

"You come out!"

Susan was pulled out of the crowd and saw an angry Lorraine.

"Why are you running? If you hate people passing through your body, why do you still run into the crowd? Do you hate me so much?!"

Susan said blankly: "You...how did you find me?"

Why can you find me but mom can't?

"Is it hard to find you? I saw you right away."

Lorraine frowned and said, "Don't you know you shine in the crowd?"

"what?"

"Ah what? What did you just do? Why did you suddenly glow?"

"I did nothing……"

Lorraine's rebuke made Susan feel wronged, "I was just wondering if you could find me..."

　I have two more updates before going to bed today, so you don’t have to wait.

　　

　

(End of this chapter)