On the day of the blind date, I got my certificate from the paranoid richest man.

Chapter 498 Confession
Gu Yanbai knew that at this time, he should tell Du Shengsheng that he truly loved her.

Du Shengsheng is a girl who easily softens her heart. Saying "I love you" might be able to coax her back.

Can……

Gu Yanbai was tired of lying again.

All the choices he made in his life were the so-called "optimal solutions". He had never truly faced his own heart.

At this moment, standing in front of Du Shengsheng, Gu Yanbai thought that this might be the only opportunity in his life to face his heart.

"I don't know." Gu Yanbai lowered his thick long eyelashes and said in a slightly sad tone: "I feel that I should love you, but everyone says that love is the most wonderful thing in the world. , it makes people happy and feels safe...but I have never felt these, I only feel irritability, pain, and doubt."

He paused, then raised his eyes and met Du Shengsheng's hazy tearful eyes: "I don't know how to describe my feelings for you. It feels like I used to live in a very neat and regular place where everything is full of... In a boring room of certainty, and then you came in, and you made the room chaotic. The rules and laws I knew suddenly became inapplicable, and everything was full of uncertainty... Myself I don’t even know what I should do.”

Should I confess?Or should I keep lying?
Should I leave?Or should I grow old together with her?

It hurts to be close to her, but her body wants to be close to him uncontrollably...

All of this was so contradictory and unreasonable. Gu Yanbai didn't understand what was wrong with him. Is this love?Shouldn't love be wonderful and happy?
"I don't know..." Du Shengsheng murmured. She never expected that she would get such an answer.

what is this?Are you kidding her?
"Then why do you want to marry me and why do you want to hold a wedding for me?!" After a short silence, Du Shengsheng suddenly raised his head and stared at Gu Yanbai with splitting eyes. She cried with red eyes and reached out to push him away. Gu Yanbai: "Why did you confess your love to me after the wedding? Are all the words you said lying to me?!"

Looking at Du Shengsheng who was almost collapsed, Gu Yanbai knew that it was time for him to shut up. He could not say any more.

but……

"Well, although it's not 80.00%, but [-]% is a lie to you." Gu Yanbai said, he is indeed an emotionless monster, and even at this point, he can still remain calm, and even his voice does not fluctuate when he speaks. : "The reason for holding a wedding is that normal people will hold a wedding when they get married. Since I want to live a normal life, of course I have to do everything."

In fact, Gu Yanbai had no intention of harming Du Shengsheng. He was just stating the facts.

At that time, he did not fall in love with Du Shengsheng and hold the wedding. It was not because he was gentle, nor because he loved Du Shengsheng and wanted to be good to Du Shengsheng. He was just simple and wanted to follow all the steps of "getting married" according to the rules of the world. , all finished completely.

Now that I have decided not to lie anymore, I naturally have to tell the truth and not beautify any of my actions so that I can escape punishment.

As a redeemer, Gu Yanbai slowly elaborated on the evil deeds he had committed: "As for the confession on the wedding day, I basically lied to you. The wedding oath said that I would never cheat, but in fact the whole wedding was a lie. scam."

"After the wedding, I said that I wanted to form a small family with you, just the two of us. I was also lying to you. I just couldn't take you to review my home. Once I came back, I couldn't hide my true identity, so I had to first I’ve coaxed you so much.”

This was indeed his truest thought at the time.

When he did this, he didn't feel like he was going too far.

He felt that he had no choice. The big hand called "life" had forced him to this point. He could only coax her and lie to her to avoid the final avalanche.But now, when he explained to Du Shengsheng exactly what he had done, he suddenly felt how hateful he was.

There's nothing you can do about it, Gu Yanbai, you are really good at evading responsibility.

You obviously just didn't dare to confess, so you cunningly covered up the first lie with another lie.

It turns out that Qin Zhongyue was right. He is really a selfish bastard with no sense of responsibility and no sense of guilt...

"We had sex after we got married, and it felt really wonderful. I have never felt this way... To be precise, I have never felt anything. Before I slept with you, I only felt one feeling, and that was The feeling of being deprived of life when a knife cuts through raw meat.”

"This feeling is the same as when I eat raw food. It is a feeling very close to death... You normal people should be afraid of death, right? But I can only feel this, so I like to make specimens and eat raw food. I like to use daggers to hurt others...or myself, but it doesn't really matter to me."

When he said this, Gu Yanbai turned his head and glanced at Gu Tianze who was nailed to the wall with a fork.

The moment the fork pierced the palm of Gu Tianze's hand, the feeling was actually very wonderful.

Since being discharged from the hospital, he has seldom harmed living people, living things, or himself. He has almost forgotten the excitement brought by blood and pain.

"Because I can't feel anything, it's easy for me to become addicted to things I can feel." After a brief silence, Gu Yanbai continued to say in his cold, numb tone without any emotion: "This You must be deeply touched, since I first tasted the forbidden fruit, I fell into despair very quickly."

He's not a pervert, it's just that this is the only thing he can feel.

And unlike the feeling of death brought by blood, the forbidden fruit of love brought him whole-hearted joy.

How could he not sink?
"And it was only after we had sex for the first time that I started to feel that you were different from other people." Gu Yanbai frowned, showing a rare expression of doubt, but it was different from when he was pretending. His doubts were ignorant and cute, but at this moment, his doubts were filled with innocent cruelty: "So I don't know, do I like you, or is it because of sex that I am addicted to you?"

Forgive him, he doesn't want to be so cruel.

But he really doesn't understand. The feelings are so complicated and he can't understand them.

Obviously, he can easily find the answer to any difficult question in the real world, but he still can't figure out the "I love you" in the emotional world.

All he could do was to be honest and tell Du Shengsheng truthfully what he was thinking.

Deep down, he actually hoped that Du Shengsheng could give him an answer.

However, what Du Shengsheng felt at this moment was only despair...

(End of this chapter)