On the day of the blind date, I got my certificate from the paranoid richest man.

Chapter 519 Choice
"Alas -" In the lonely night, Gu Yanbai let out a long sigh. He smiled bitterly and asked his non-existent mother: "...What should I do?"

It is to continue to persist, forcing Shengsheng to lose all enthusiasm for life, forcing Shengsheng to become just like his mother, numb and painful, and finally choose to jump from a tall building to end his life.

Or should it be simpler, that he just end his life here, go quietly, no longer disturb anyone, and no longer hurt anyone?
The world is vast and the mother does not exist, so no one answers him.

From childhood to adulthood, his life seems to have always been the same. He can only persevere alone and make lonely choices...

The night passed quickly. Because she slept late yesterday and was physically and mentally exhausted, Du Shengsheng slept until 11:30 noon, then woke up in a daze.

She slept for too long, which was a bit too much. Her head was so dizzy that she couldn't wake up.

Du Shengsheng wore slippers, rubbed her eyes, and came to the kitchen in confusion, using the coffee machine to make herself a cup of coffee.

Du Shengsheng did the whole process of making coffee with her eyes closed. Because she was so familiar with this kitchen, she could make coffee and cook with her eyes closed...

After taking a few sips of bitter black coffee, Du Shengsheng became more awake. She sat down in the restaurant with her coffee cup, and suddenly felt a sense of loss in her heart.

She was so familiar with everything here, so familiar that she didn't even need Gu Yanbai to show up, she was already full of nostalgia and reluctance for this house, this life here, this marriage...

In the past, Du Shengsheng never understood why those married women were so cowardly. Their husbands were violent, cheating, and did all kinds of bad things, but they were still reluctant to divorce. They were cowardly and chose to forgive, and they were forbearing and settled down... What a coward!
But now, Du Shengsheng seems to understand a little bit about those married women who refuse to divorce.

Because habits are really terrible things. Emotional dependence is enough to knock people down, not to mention financial disputes, children's ownership and other issues.

Divorce is never easy.

Today's netizens are too easy to jump to conclusions. In fact, no one has experienced the pain and struggle of the person involved, and no one is qualified to jump to conclusions and criticize her for being cowardly and incompetent.

Du Shengsheng has now experienced the pain of divorce, so she feels deeply about it.

She drank the cup of coffee and then reached out to touch her flat belly. She felt bitter in her mouth and even more bitter in her heart.

What should I do?

Du Shengsheng was also a little desperate. This child came at the wrong time...

Thinking of the fetus that was less than two months old, Du Shengsheng felt even more bitter. Gu Tianze had taught her before that antisocial personality disorder was hereditary, and Gu Yanbai's antisocial personality was inherited from Gu Tianze.

Could it be that the fetus in her belly was also unlucky and inherited Gu Yanbai's antisocial personality?
If that's the case, Du Shengsheng will really collapse...

What should we do?Du Shengsheng was extremely desperate. She actually wanted to keep the child, but from a rational perspective, her best choice was to abort the child.

After all, her relationship with Gu Yanbai was completely over. If she insisted on giving birth to this child, she would have to raise the child alone in the future.

If the child is really unfortunate enough to suffer from antisocial personality disorder after birth, she will have to bear it alone.

Moreover, Gu Yanbai has been entangled with her now. If he knew about the existence of the child, he would be even more paranoid and would not let go.Mrs. Gu also seemed to want to hold her great-grandson. If she knew about her pregnancy, she would probably take action.

Du Shengsheng felt very tired when she thought of this.

In fact, she just wants to live an ordinary life with the person she loves, and doesn't want to be involved in so many disturbances.

But unfortunately, the child in her belly was Gu Yanbai's. From the moment the child was conceived, it was destined to be anything but ordinary.

Sure enough, it’s better to get rid of it, right?Du Shengsheng thought with a heavy heart: After all, leaving it... would cause too many troubles.

"I'm sorry, baby." I don't know if it was due to pregnancy hormones, but Du Shengsheng suddenly became very crybaby. Tears flowed down the corners of her eyes. She felt guilty and apologized to the child who had just been pregnant for a short time: " Mom actually wants to keep you...but...but mom can't help it..."

If the child didn't inherit Gu Yanbai's antisocial personality, then everything would be fine.

Du Shengsheng could bear it. She could bear it, raising her children alone. She could even bear it. The Gu family came over from time to time to snatch the child from her. She could even bear it. Gu Yanbai had been pestering him all his life because of the child... But he alone couldn't bear it. Her The child is also a patient with antisocial personality disorder...

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Du Shengsheng covered her face and said sorry over and over again. Tears flowed down her fingers. She was in so much pain that she couldn't breathe.

Current testing methods cannot determine whether a fetus has a mental illness.

So, this is a probability bet.

Even after the child is born, it is impossible to judge whether he has a mental illness or not. It can only be observed after the child grows up and develops his own personality and character.

This is why it was not until Gu Yanbai was seven years old that his mother discovered that he had an antisocial personality.

Because there is no physical detection method for mental illness, it can only be determined through observation and some psychological test questions, so it is difficult to diagnose.

In the past few days, Du Shengsheng has also checked some relevant information, so she knows whether the child in her belly will have antisocial personality. She has no way to test it, and there is no way to control it.

She could only resign herself to fate. If she was lucky, she would be able to give birth to a healthy baby, but if she was unlucky... it would be hard to say.

It seems that the only choice she can make is abortion...

No one else knew about Gu Yanbai and Du Shengsheng's return to Longcheng. After all, no one informed them when they came back.

At this moment, Gu Yanbai collapsed in the old house where he lived as a child, and Du Shengsheng burst into tears in Yonghe New Town. Both of them were trapped in the most difficult choice, but no one around them could help them.

Gu Yanbai, who had been sitting in the open space all night, climbed to the roof of the villa when the sky was slightly bright.

He stood where his mother had jumped, lowered his head and looked down. His whole heart felt empty.

(End of this chapter)