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Chapter 218 Night on the Barren Mountain (Part )

Lucio didn't understand why Pfister deliberately chose this time to publish this work. Did he want to deliberately humiliate himself? Is he deliberately showing off his talents?

Or... was it just an unintentional move?

Just like people don't pay attention to ants on the road, even if they are trampled to death, they are completely unaware.

"Ha...haha!" Luzio felt suffocated.

He finally realized the truth that he had been avoiding all this time, that is... the life he worked hard to achieve has no meaning.

I will leave nothing behind. I am not the protagonist. I am just like those little characters in fantasy novels who only talk trash and were born to serve as a stepping stone for the protagonist. It doesn’t matter whether they have appeared or not.

Luzio felt that there was no difference between him alive and dead, but when he thought about his own death, he felt extremely frightened.

Therefore, Lucio once again relied on the power of God. He needed a reason to live.

Lucio regarded Pfister as a trial given to him by God. He thought that it was the gift from God that allowed him to embark on this period of life. After that, he naturally suffered various setbacks.

Because God is fair and will not be partial, if you want to gain something, there will inevitably be trials that accompany it.

Pfister was the trial given to him by God... Lucio must think so.

At the same time, Luzio also thought that since God is fair, then... He gave Feist such a talent, and he must also have given him a greater trial.

So, Lucio began to investigate Pfister's life, and then...he discovered that Pfist had a happy life without any troubles!

It's different from spending your whole life trying to please others, trying desperately to maintain your disguise, forcing yourself to do things that make you feel disgusted, and persisting step by step, you finally have a foothold.

Pfister has not experienced any big storms, and he doesn't even study that hard, but he can almost instinctively write stories that he will never be able to achieve.

It was as if... God was favoring him.

Lucio once respected God very much. He believed that his current life was given by God. However, God did not give him the talent, but gave the talent he desperately desired to this guy who had a terrible personality and even made many disrespectful remarks in public.

No, think about it carefully, isn’t everything you have obtained the result of your own efforts? What does it have to do with God? Who is He? Who is he?

In other words, is there no God in the world?

After that, Lucio abandoned the god he believed in.

It was also after that that Luzio began to feel jealous...and hateful towards Feste.

Otherwise, he couldn't think of a way to survive.

Then, Luzio heard that people in the association were unanimously preparing to suppress Feist.

Because those people came to Luzio specifically, hoping that Luzio could take up the banner of this operation, and they were also willing to save Luzio's face!

They seemed to think that Luzio would be willing to obey their arrangements after being humiliated like this by Feist.

But Luzio knew very well that the reason for this incident was because these people...were afraid of Feist.

Because Feist can live freely without worrying about the world... No, he can live freely without abiding by the rules left by his predecessors.

How could they not be afraid? They had to eat so much feces to survive. How could they tolerate such an existence as they were used to the stench.

That’s why they roar like wild beasts in their hearts:

Why can you, a latecomer, not abide by the rules that we all must abide by? Why! ?

The fear of a genius who transcended common sense turned into a desire to strangle him. But they don't want to get their hands dirty themselves, they need a tool so that if something goes wrong, they can get away with it.

Although he knew this, Luzio still nodded in agreement.

He knew very well that he was not a genius, but a mediocre person who could only survive in a mediocre way and could only follow the rules.

Moreover, Luzio doesn't think that he can kill Pfister by suppressing him, because he is a genius! How could those ridiculous ignorant people restrain him!

Of course, there is another reason for Luzio to do this...this is exactly what he wants to do.

After wrapping himself in kindness for so long, he was finally able to vent his anger under the banner of righteousness.

The behavior that once made him feel disgusting was so satisfying when he did it himself.

Therefore, Lucio did not hesitate to criticize Pfister in public, showing his bad side as a human being to the world, and, under the arrangement of the association, he reluctantly criticized his works.

The reason used is...the three views are not correct.

However, Luzio is still too overestimated...in every aspect.

The reason for having incorrect outlook on life is too lethal. It's like Pandora's box, once you move it out, things will become completely uncontrollable.

Pfister was criticized by the entire society, and his works were devalued as worthless and completely banned.

Even his life was affected. He was beaten by righteous people, his home was smashed, and his parents were injured and sent to the hospital.

Because he had incorrect views, he deserved whatever treatment he received, so... naturally no one was responsible for the loss of their family.

Pfister was originally from a very ordinary background, and since he didn't know how to please others, naturally no one was willing to help him.

After this incident, he not only became impoverished, but was also cast aside by the entire society.

Lucio regretted it, no doubt.

He really didn't expect that even the greatness of genius could not move those people. No...it's because he is too selfish. He selfishly thinks that other people will be impressed by that greatness just like him.

In the end, it seemed that only Lucio could understand that greatness.

After that, Pfister stopped creating. Of course, he had no better solution.

However, Lucio also understood that Pfister gave up in disappointment because he found that his story could not touch people's hearts and could not change anything.

He completely gave up creating.

It was Lucio who personally ruined Pfister's creative path. As an ordinary man, he successfully killed the genius.

At this point, the situation was beyond his ability to change.

I have undoubtedly committed a huge sin, so what should I do?

For some reason, Luzio subconsciously looked at...the fruit knife at his home.

He had the intention to kill in his heart, the intention to kill his disgusting self.

But at that moment, what Luzio never expected was that Pfister would take the initiative to contact him!

The reason Pfister contacted him was simple... Pfister needed money.

No one was willing to help him, so he could only humbly ask everyone he knew or didn't know.

Luzio understood that there was still something he could do, and he agreed without any hesitation. However, he still wanted to protect his own safety, so he did not transfer the money directly and asked Pfister to quietly come to his house to withdraw the money in private. This was not Records will be left.

Then, Luzio met Pfister again.

It didn't take long, but Feist seemed to have changed. He was no longer as bohemian as before, and he had the ease and ease of a genius. There was an... ordinary feeling all over his body.

Seeing Luzio, Pfister actually showed a look of respect.

"Hello! Mr. Luzio! Regarding the money you mentioned..."

However, his appearance made Luzio feel angry.

The genius...actually showed a humble expression like a mortal!

"Get out!" Luzio roared angrily: "Get out of here!" At that time, Luzio saw doubts in Feist's eyes...as well as sadness and helplessness.

But soon, Feste's eyes became clear, and he seemed to understand something.

"You... don't become a character in the story." Feist didn't ask any questions, leaving only one sentence and left in dejection.

"Make it seem like you know everything!" Luzio growled, but there was no anger in his heart, only regret.

At the same time, he felt disgusted with himself again.

It was obvious that all his tragedies were caused by himself, so what right did he have to be angry?

Luzio couldn't stop vomiting. He felt extremely disgusted by his own existence!

Then, Luzio instinctively tried to slit his own throat with a knife, but was stopped by the family servant.

After calming down, Luzio realized that he could not die yet, he still had to take responsibility for his actions, and he still had to atone for his sins from Feist.

However, Luzio was shameless and did not dare to face Feist again.

He could only help Pfister secretly, entrust others to support Pfist in the name of borrowing money, and go to the hospital privately to pay off all the medical expenses of Pfist's family.

But these were all rejected by Feist. He didn't realize that this was Lucio's doing and refused, but refused all help from others.

Meanwhile, Lucio hears that Pfister plans to continue publishing books, and he seems intent on using some genius to save the situation.

The genius seems to have found his own arrogance.

This made Lucio very excited, and he was looking forward to seeing Pfister's new work! Therefore, he privately contacted a publishing house that was unwilling to accept Pfister, and through hard work, he finally made them willing to publish it.

However, the sales of the book were not satisfactory for the simple reason that it was the work of Pfister.

And there is another reason why Pfister's works have a small audience.

Generally speaking, disgusting characters are used to kill in works, so that readers can vent their accumulated emotions in life. But Pfister often makes this kind of character the protagonist, which only makes people feel sick.

Moreover, Pfister's stories always end with the protagonist killing the person he loves the most, the person he respects the most, and the person he cares about the most. The reason is not for other reasons, but precisely because of the protagonist's profound The nature buried in the heart.

It was the nature that everyone wanted to hide that made him kill people subconsciously.

In the end, the protagonist ends up in suicide or endless pain, which is impossible to let go.

Naturally, no one is willing to pay for such a work.

But Lucio liked it very much because he could understand the deeper meaning, which is... the truth that people have been avoiding.

People are accustomed to judging the same phenomenon according to the results they want and giving different explanations to the same phenomenon. That is, using the extreme opposition between good and evil to judge, which is not unreasonable, but just for their own convenience. way to solve it.

People naturally use their own reasoning to explain all phenomena. Therefore, people subconsciously do not allow phenomena beyond their own cognitive scope to occur.

However, Feist believes that distinguishing people by good and evil is too extreme and heartless. He hopes that those who have been cut off across the board can also have their own living space. So He lovingly reveals this.

People couldn't understand and could only see disgust and frustration, so they belittled and insulted his works.

Lucio understands Pfist's works better than anyone else, which is why he hates, fears... and pities Pfist so much.

Although Luzio liked it very much and bought hundreds or even thousands of copies privately in the names of different people, it was ultimately a drop in the bucket.

During that period, Pfister wrote the book crazily, and the book was even ready to be published in about ten days! He needs money!

What surprised Lucio was that even under such circumstances, the quality of Pfister's works not only did not decrease, but instead became more profound and charming!

Even if you encounter such a tragic experience, you can turn it into nourishment to take yourself further!

Is this genius?

Lucio felt a sense of fear coming from the depths of his soul towards Feist.

But strangely, after that day, the number of characters in Pfister's works died less and less. Moreover... there are more and more endings where the protagonist who has committed a crime is relieved in the end.

Only this point made Luzio feel a little dissatisfied. He had obviously committed a crime, so why could he be relieved? You should be tortured by sin forever!

However, Luzio was still very happy. He just indulged in the story written by Pfister, and then... completely ignored Pfist's own situation.

After several days of intense writing, Feist's body and soul were drained dry.

When Lucio saw Pfister again, he didn't even recognize him! Pfister was like a corpse that was still alive.

Lucio met Pfister by chance when he came to the publishing house to submit a new work. Then, after receiving a phone call that his parents didn't survive, Pfister also lost strength and collapsed.

Luzio hurriedly wanted to send Pfister to the hospital, but Pfister begged and said after seeing Luzio for a long time:

"Please, Mr. Lucio, please let me go home... I still have one last work to complete, and that is the only work I must complete..."

"I..." Listening to Feist's feeble plea, Lucio finally sent him home.

But at the same time, Luzio also called a doctor for him.

After returning home, Pfister hurried to create, and what he was creating at the time was "Flash".

Lucio knew Pfister's condition, so he took Pfist's pen away, forced Pfist to lie down and rest, and left after the doctor came.

However, after that, Luzio received the news.

Pfister is dead. His life has come to an end.

But the work he said must be completed was never completed.

Luzio completely failed to notice Pfister's situation, and once again... regretted it.

Lucio knew very well that the cause of Feist's death was undoubtedly his own and his own selfishness.

Like Pfister's characters, he kills the person for whom he is supposed to atone.

Luzio regretted it again, and once again regretted it because of his selfishness.

Life will never give him a chance to regret. He can only survive with the crime of killing Feist and the genius.

However, no one blamed Luzio. On the contrary, they cheered loudly for Feist's death. This made Luzio feel that the humans living in this world were really ridiculous.

How could you be...stupid and selfish to this extent? Sure enough...man is born guilty.

However, the deceased is dead, what else can I do?

Lucio recalled Pfister's works. In his stories, the protagonist always fell into endless grief after helplessly killing the person he loved, and then... the story ended there. As for the outcome, it was just blank. , never written.

Maybe... my life only deserves such an ending.

After thinking about it, Luzio wrote the story of his life, and planned to use his own death to draw the world's attention to this matter after the book was published, so that the truth could be known to everyone, and let himself, the hypocrite, The murderer's guilt is made clear to the world.

Luzio himself knew very well that although this was his arrogant, self-righteous and selfish idea,... this was the only thing he could do.

Therefore, this work is both a suicide note and a confession.

Lucio named the story of his life - "Night on Barren Mountain".

(End of this chapter)