Extreme addiction

Chapter 35 Release from Bonds

Su Qingfeng frowned.

Pei Jing?

"I haven't contacted or seen you in two weeks."

She is at home every day, and she also works out at home. She orders takeout when she is hungry and rarely goes out.

Even if you go out, you won't meet him.

As long as someone deliberately avoids it, the chances of meeting by chance will be greatly reduced.

Sister Li nodded, her expression a little regretful, but also a little lucky.

"Qingfeng, do you really like him? How about compared with Shen Su?"

Su Qingfeng replied without hesitation: "It's different, Sister Li, it's completely different. For Shen Su, it may be a habit, a comfort that I am looking for myself, or I am looking for someone to appease my heart." Someone you can look at for a long time. Shen Su is good-looking and rich. When it comes to choosing a mate, he has very good conditions and is the best choice for many girls, including me."

"But in many scenes with Pei Jing, my heartbeat would suddenly become faster and tremble. More importantly, he would calm me down, make me lose the anger in my heart, and make me peaceful and calm. It made me think about some things that I seemed to have done wrong in the past, and he subverted a lot of my cognition. This feeling is very strange, and it makes my heart beat when I think about it."

Su Qingfeng smiled as she spoke.

"This feeling is very magical, surprising, and confusing. I feel that I am not that kind of person. I am a very sober person who can get out of love in time."

Su Qingfeng's smile suddenly faded again.

"This is also the reason why we can't get close now. And compared to my weirdness, he seems to be weirder, so weird that he looks at me like that for no reason."

Sister Li asked curiously: "What look?"

Su Qingfeng blurted out, "It's very complicated. Calling it love seems too simple. It's like looking at faith, like looking at the sun in the dark."

In fact, Pei Jing is very good at disguising, and his eyes are normal, but she is a person who is very good at catching other people's eyes. Maybe those eyes disappeared in a flash, so fast that she thought there was no flaw in her eyes.

But Su Qingfeng still saw that she was a very keen person, which was a talent.

Sister Li asked in confusion: "Why? You have only known each other for half a year, and you have not contacted each other for at least three months while on the set. Is it because you are his idol? Fans will love their idols deeply."

Su Qingfeng shook her head, and she whispered thoughtfully: "No, it's not about fans versus idols, it's not right either. It has some attributes of faith, but no matter how you describe it, it feels too shallow. I can't see through it, so I'm even more curious. .”

Also because she couldn't see clearly, she was scared before.

After all, what a ridiculous love for her.

But the six words "love is without reason" touched her.

Let this fear turn into curiosity.

Sister Li suggested: "How about you try again?"

Su Qingfeng shook her head.

"In this world, there are many reasons why you can't get close to someone. At least for now, he is right. I can't bear his love. These consequences must be carefully considered."

"But Qingfeng, love relies on passion. After careful consideration, it will retreat."

Su Qingfeng smiled and shook her head.

She said firmly: "It's different. If that's the case, he won't reject me."

What does it mean for two people to be together with a passion and then separate after the passion?
It's probably a kind of bravery.

But it seems that Pei Jing cannot afford the price of such bravery.

What I learned from my grandma was that he was almost too broken to put back together.

Sister Li sighed.

"Stop thinking so much, Qingfeng, first participate in the love show. If you are destined, you may still have a chance. Maybe you will meet a more pleasant partner in this show, right?"

Su Qingfeng smiled and said nothing.

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Pei Jing opposite was in the toilet, with water droplets rolling down his bangs and face.

He stared at the screen motionless.

Weibo has been blocked by Shen Su and Su Qingfeng.

Pei Jing was holding the sink with one hand and holding his mobile phone with the other. It seemed that his emotions were expressionless.

It was just those red eyes that gave him away.

Two days ago, Weibo official announced that Su Qingfeng had joined the love show. Whenever he was free, people at the hospital saw him checking his phone and could feel that he was in a very bad mood.Fortunately, he has not had any surgeries in the past few days.

Pei Jing's hand holding the phone and supporting the sink had veins popping out.

He caressed Su Qingfeng's face across the phone.

He murmured: "You will be happy, even if that person is not me."

After speaking, Pei Jing's whole body was exhausted. He slowly fell into the bathroom, then lay flat on his back in the bathroom, looking at the hot incandescent lights above his head.

The phone also fell to the ground as he let go, and the screen cracked, but he didn't care at all.

Suddenly a tear flashed from the corner of his eye and disappeared in a flash.

This tear seemed to be an illusion, just like his life, it seemed to be an illusion.

"Pei Jing, I told you not to have any delusional thoughts. This will be good for you and her. The most vicious curse in the world is on you, so just leave quietly with these curses and don't disturb anyone." people."

He slowly stretched out his hand and shielded it from the light.

Suddenly everything went dark.

Pei Jing repeated in his mind over and over again the fact that he was unworthy and that he was trash.

Only in this way can the pain in my heart be alleviated.

After half an hour, Pei Jing stood up.

His lips were a little white, and his body's rapid heartbeat was a little weak due to fear and fear.

He leaned against the sink again.

He can't do this...

Grandma still needs his care.

Grandma's condition has worsened, and he can't go to see her with such a bad look.

Pei Jing smiled tremblingly in front of the mirror.

He tried hard to suppress the redness in his eyes, and then smiled again.

He wiped the water mist in front of the mirror and practiced again.

"Hello... Pei Jing, see you tomorrow..."

That night, Pei Jing took a lot of sleeping pills.

As a doctor, he knew the lethal dose and the dose that would allow him to sleep.

He is getting further and further away from his position as a doctor. Sooner or later, he will no longer be able to go to the operating table.

No matter his psychology or body, no one can support him to become a doctor again.

He will no longer be able to operate on patients.

He will lose everything he has worked hard for in the first half of his life again.

That night, Pei Jing had a dream.

The sky in the dream was blue and the grass was green.

He was lying on the green lawn, the sun was shining brightly, and it was very warm.

In the dream, he was no longer cold.

He just kept lying there, watching the changing reflections in the sky.

There was always the same face in the reflection, that was Su Qingfeng's face.

She was smiling at him.

What a happy moment.

In the blue sky, in Su Qingfeng's eyes, the word Pei Jing was reflected.

and his tombstone

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　The bond between Pei Jing and Qingfeng is not that simple, and there will be clues next.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)