Reborn 1980, Dr. Su became popular in the XNUMXs

Chapter 371 Self-doubt

Su Xiaoli felt relieved.

Dr. Zhang raised his head and smiled, got up and pushed his wheelchair to a place with the most comfortable light, and turned on a piece of soothing light music.

"What can I do for you?" Dr. Zhang smiled gently.

Su Xiaoli sat firmly in the wheelchair and calmed down for a while.

After a long time, she asked: "I...can we talk about anything?"

"Of course. No matter what, I will keep your secret." Dr. Zhang's voice was very soft and soothing.

Su Xiaoli glanced at the professional qualification certificate on the wall, nodded, and then closed her eyes.

The fear of that night... came over me all at once.

She was suddenly pushed into the dark sea again, and the icy cold water and unbearable pain enveloped her again.

Looking at pain is, to a certain extent, secondary trauma.

Su Xiaoli's heart was deprived of oxygen and swollen with pain, as if she was being pressed down by a boulder and couldn't breathe.

After a period of confusion in her mind, she began to endure the trembling as much as possible and said, "I experienced it once..."

Dr. Zhang seemed shocked and moved as if he had not heard this kind of story often.

An hour flew by.

Su Xiaoli opened her eyes from the memories, wiped away her tears, and waited until she was no longer so excited, then slowly stood up and said goodbye to Dr. Zhang.

She made her next appointment at the front desk.

She has been there three times so far.

At this moment, Su Xiaoli was sure that she could no longer escape. She looked at the sea outside the window.

While her heartbeat was already speeding up, she tried to recall the method Dr. Zhang taught her:

——"If you can do it, you can invite fear generously and see how the fear appears in your body. Notice where in your body the fear is felt most strongly."

It's...the heart.

Her heart was throbbing violently.

— "Confront that fearful situation head-on and ask yourself: 'What is the worst part of this situation? What am I afraid of?'"

She struggled before the gate of hell, but death was no longer enough to scare her.

And the worst thing is...

She was afraid because the eyes of another person flashed in her heart from time to time.

When she had no strength to fight against the darkness that night, it was Ling Yicheng who pulled her up, and that strength would give her a feeling similar to dependence.

Dr. Zhang said she now has severe self-doubt.

Su Xiaoli was not sure whether it was love.

She repeatedly experienced inner collapse and confrontation.

Time flies by.

Gu Feihan knocked on the door and came in, and saw Su Xiaoli looking at the sea again, as if her soul had flown elsewhere, leaving only a body.

His heart seemed to be hit hard by gravity, and his brows furrowed.

Since Xiaoli came back, he likes to look at the sea when he has nothing to do. He can't understand the things in her eyes, and he is afraid of understanding them.

As the person who knew this girl best in the world besides Su Xiaoli himself, Gu Feihan was only panicked when he saw her like this.

She is no longer the Su Xiaoli he first met.

She used to be smart, cute, well-behaved and frank, full of whimsical ideas, and also had a bit of a temper...

Even if it has small teeth, even if it bites someone when it is angry, it will only be a slight itching and pain.

Those slight itches would only make him want to come more, making him pamper her, love her and care for her even more. And now Su Xiaoli... her fangs and claws have grown vigorously. If anyone is "bitten" by her now, even if they don't die, they will be close to death.

Of course, such changes are not what worries Gu Feihan.

As a man who grew up in New China and received an education of equality and freedom, his mother, sisters, and sisters-in-law can all hold up a sky. If a woman is strong, especially if his own girl is strong, he will only be proud of her.

It's just that it's one thing to be proud of Xiaoli. She always needs to be taken care of by herself.

More importantly, the relationship between the two also needs to be taken care of.

What really made him fear and panic... was that there was another person hiding in Xiaoli's heart.

He also felt Su Xiaoli's struggle.

It's not that I don't want to forget that person, but I can't forget it. It’s not that we don’t have contact, it’s that we can’t contact.

He didn't know what the relationship was between her and Ling Yicheng.

Maybe... Xiaoli herself doesn't know.

But Gu Feihan knew that the little bastard, like himself, regarded Xiao Li as the light of the spiritual world.

Xiaoli is like a knife in spring, helping the little bastard to remove the wounds of cold winter and bringing the bloom of spring.

Such a beauty is a fatal dependence for any man, and there is no end to his desire.

But it was destined to be a time bomb between him and Xiaoli.

"It's going to rain again." Gu Feihan deliberately suppressed his panic, worry about gains and losses, and even suspicion. He took a deep breath and whispered slowly.

This sentence suddenly brought Su Xiaoli back to reality from the memory of floating on the sea.

She nodded silently and asked after a long time in a calm voice, "Is Ling Yicheng awake too?"

Gu Feihan seemed to be tapped on an acupuncture point. After a long pause, he finally nodded.

Su Xiaoli secretly let go and took a long breath.

The kid is always lucky. People in the world lick blood with their swords. If you can survive, you have already earned it.

No matter what, the fact that he is still alive is not the worst news.

Gu Feihan frowned slightly, "He... is considered a tainted witness. Although he made meritorious service, he made such a big mistake..."

"Even if you have a lawyer to defend you, you will have to go in and squat for several years before you can actually get ashore."

It's hard to say how many years the sentence will be. It depends on how much inside information the little bastard has mastered and how much more he can spit out.

In any case, his adventure of walking in black and white has brought him great benefits, and he finally has hope of living an upright life in the future.

But... what happens after you get out of prison?
Gu Feihan thought of the scene when he saw the two of them at the beach.

The two men's hands were held tightly together, and their wrists were tied together with a red rope.

The two of them lived and died together on the sea.

Su Xiaoli was silent, a bit frighteningly calm.

The surface of the sea is calm and the bottom of the sea is generating waves.

Gu Feihan felt a dull pain in his heart, and the rising resentment suddenly turned into vulnerability.

He squatted down subconsciously and stared at her face worriedly, not daring to let go of even the slightest ups and downs.

He was afraid of her silence, afraid that her memories that he could not understand would become eternal puzzles and a wall. On the other side of the wall, Ling Yicheng and Xiao Li were locked and tied together.

"Xiao Li...don't leave me again." His tone was almost pleading.

Gu Feihan pressed her two cold little hands tightly to the side of her face, her mouth was full of words, and her low and hoarse voice was filled with a bit of morbid madness.

The man tried not to be swallowed up by the surging frustration, and his face showed an expression of frustration and loneliness that he had never seen before.

Su Xiaoli could even understand Gu Feihan's mood.

Because...the fears of both people are the same.