After the eldest lady lost her memory, her exes turned back one after another.

Sometimes he really wanted to kill Shen Qingjia, but every time he was so angry that he wanted to do it, he couldn't do it.

After all, he couldn't bear it.

Gu Dingzhi looked at her delicate neck and gently raised his hand to hold it. As long as he used some strength, she would not survive.

Gu Dingzhi's eyes changed when he saw her white neck and her half-opened clothes due to her struggle.

It would be too easy for her to die.

Why should she die?

His purpose was never to kill her, but to get her.

"Gu Dingzhi! What are you doing?"

Gu Dingzhi took her to bed and immediately covered her with her.

"What? What did you say you were doing?"

Gu Dingzhi thought to himself, why should he ask her to bow her head? So what if he doesn't bow his head? It’s not just that I can only hold it in my own hands, everything can only be controlled by myself.

As long as you get what you want, you'll be fine, right?

"Gu Dingzhi, get out! You are so disgusting!"

The more excited she became and the more she struggled, the more excited Gu Dingzhi felt. His admiration for Shen Qingjia had changed beyond recognition, and now he only had paranoia and possessiveness.

It was Shen Qingjia's fault that she became what she was now.

He got Shen Qingjia as he wished, and the unsatisfied vacancies in his heart seemed to be filled a little, while his paranoid desire for her became more and more intense.

He was no longer satisfied with the occasional meeting, he wanted Shen Qingjia by his side, he wanted to possess Shen Qingjia completely.

He hugged Shen Qingjia tightly and whispered into her earlobe: "Follow me out of the palace! Follow me!"

His words were not a greeting, but a decision.

Shen Qingjia, who was still half asleep, was awakened by his words. She said angrily: "Don't even think about it!"

"I can't help you!"

If he wants it, he will get it.

But when taking her out of the palace that day, something unexpected happened.

When he gave Shen Qingjia the fake death drug, Shen Qingjia vomited blood during the dispute.

The blood stained his clothes and made him panic.

Gu Dingzhi supported her and called the imperial doctor, and asked her very unhappy: "Are you so unwilling to follow me?"

He thought that he treated her well enough, even if she always treated him coldly and said nasty things to him, he still tolerated it.

The only thing he did wrong to her was that he lowered her food and clothing expenses a little when he was first in the cold palace. But now her treatment in the cold palace is comparable to that of a concubine in the imperial palace.

However, Shen Qingjia still looked down upon herself.

"You hate me so much?"

I was so disgusted that I was so angry that I vomited blood.

"Let's live a good life from now on. Wouldn't it be better if we stopped making trouble? We have forgotten what happened in the past."

He had lowered his head, but Shen Qingjia still ignored him.

Gu Dingzhi stopped talking. Even if she didn't agree, he had plenty of ways to keep her with him.

Gu Dingzhi only thought that she was acting like this because she was excited, but it wasn't until the imperial doctor came and diagnosed a terminal illness.

Gu Dingzhi didn't believe it: "Try me again!"

The doctor examined her, but the answer was still the same.

Gu Dingzhi still didn't believe it. He was obviously fine before.

Gu Dingzhi found several doctors for diagnosis, but the answers were all the same.

"How can it be……"

How could it be a terminal illness?

I saw that I was about to get what I wanted, but God made such a joke on me.

God is so unfair! Some people can get it easily, but they have to work hard. But when they work hard to get it, God will take it back.

Why? Why?

He didn't want Shen Qingjia to die, so he still transferred Shen Qingjia out of the palace and treated her secretly.

However, Shen Qingjia's body still began to decline day by day. Seeing his beloved slowly dying, Gu Dingzhi felt very uncomfortable.

Shen Qingjia still treated her with cold words, but now it was hard for him to get angry or punish her.

"Shen Qingjia, can't you treat me better? What do you want from me?"

What do you need to do for her to look at you?

Even if he was deeply in love, her eyes were cold and without any warmth.

At that time, he understood that what he had been missing was the past.

He misses the old Shen Qingjia whose heart and eyes were full of him. If he wants to get Shen Qingjia, he just wants the past.

But how can people get their past?

Even he is completely unrecognizable now. What Shen Qingjia likes has always been those innocent young men, right? But now he is only full of calculations.

After thinking about all this, he began to imitate his former self. Even if it was only the last time, he wanted to spend it with Shen Qingjia.

Shen Qingjia seemed to have noticed the changes in herself, looking at him with those cold eyes and frowning slightly.

"What's wrong?" Gu Dingzhi asked her.

Shen Qingjia looked at herself and said, "You make me unhappy!"

Gu Dingzhi smiled. It was rare for her to talk to him, so he asked: "What makes Qingjia displeased? I will change it!"

Shen Qingjia took a deep breath and said, "Gu Dingzhi, don't pretend in front of me. No matter how much you pretend, you won't be the same person as before."

Even if they pretend to be alike, all this has happened, their moods are different, and they can never be the same as before.

Only at that specific age, at a specific moment, with a specific mentality, will you like and admire someone. As long as there is a slight deviation, it is impossible to like someone.

Just like Shen Qingjia in the past, if she saw Gu Dingzhi now, no matter how beautiful and successful she was, she wouldn't like it.

The smile on Gu Dingzhi's face disappeared, and he understood what Shen Qingjia meant.

But why?

Why doesn't Shen Qingjia like herself?

No matter it was before or now, he has not changed. He has always liked her.

And she! Change as you say.

"Gu Dingzhi, I was the one who felt sorry for you in the past, but now we owe nothing to each other. If you still have some conscience, just let me go!"

"I won't let go!"

Gu Dingzhi replied stiffly.

Even if I die, I won't let him go.

Even if Shen Qingjia doesn't like him, he still wants to be with her.

"Qingjia, what's the difference between the two? Once you provoked me, you couldn't get rid of me."

"So I regret it."

Gu Dingzhi froze.

"What do you regret?"

He asked her many times if she regretted not choosing him.

Now when I heard her say she regretted it, I felt a little nervous, but when I turned around and thought about it, I felt something was wrong.

"Stop talking!"

He didn't want to hear it.

But Shen Qingjia insisted on saying: "I regret meeting you then and provoking you. If it hadn't been like this, we wouldn't have been so involved, and you wouldn't have hated me so much."

"No! I don't regret it! Shen Qingjia, take these words back!"

How could Shen Qingjia say she regretted it? He didn’t even regret it!

Sure enough, she never said what she wanted to hear.

What do you want to hear?

I want to hear her call me affectionately: "Definitely."

I want to hear her always chirping about what happened to her.