moonlight lure

The two were chatting and laughing. When they arrived at the gate of the community, Ji Yanchen let her down. Following her instructions, he went to the guard room to get a courier and asked casually: "Whose is it?"

Song Shiwei shook his head: "I don't know either. He called me and delivered it this afternoon."

As he walked, he identified the somewhat dirty express note on the box: "The sender is Cheng Mei."

Song Shiwei paused after hearing this: "He was a friend of my mother's before she was alive."

She walked into the elevator, took the box and murmured to herself, "I haven't contacted her for many years, why would she suddenly send me something?"

Ji Yanchen touched her head: "Maybe it's a wedding gift."

Song Shiwei didn't respond, and she had some vague suspicions in her mind.

After arriving home, she used a paper knife to open the carton at the entrance. Inside was a tightly wrapped delicate wooden box. When she opened it, there was a bottle of red wine inside, with the date being the year she was born. There is also a letter next to the bottle. The paper is very smooth and flat, but the yellowing and age can be clearly seen. The writing in the middle of the envelope is bold and clear: [Dear Weiwei, personally addressed].

It's Ms. Jiang's handwriting.

Song Shiwei held the envelope, her face a little gloomy. Ji Yanchen understood instantly and gave her a separate space on the pretext of walking the dog.

She returned to the living room with the wine and envelope. After sitting on the sofa to calm down a little, she opened the envelope and flattened the letter paper:

"Weiwei, long time no see.

By the time you read this letter, you should be a grown up girl. twenty five? thirty? Or later, no matter what age you are, because choosing a life partner is a very careful thing, and it requires you to have enough experience and time to see clearly the true nature of a person.

First of all, congratulations to you. You have been very independent and cautious since you were a child. I believe you must be completely sure about this person before you are willing to spend the rest of your life with him. Regarding marriage, you also know that I have no successful experience to teach, but there are some lessons from failure that can be avoided. In summary, it is matching before marriage and communication after marriage.

Matching is the foundation of this relationship. The two of you need to have consistent values ​​and life goals. You must recognize and support each other's social identity, and at the same time have a common understanding and pursuit of life. The most important thing is that you move forward. The pace and speed must be consistent, otherwise you will become farther and farther apart over time, just like your father and I did.

Communication is the guarantee of this relationship, and self-esteem is precious, so don’t abuse it on those closest to you. When a conflict occurs, always remember that it is not a confrontation between you and him, but a confrontation between the two of you and the problem. Calm and effective communication can solve at least 90% of the problems, and the remaining 10% Ten, you need to spend time in the future to get used to it.

Secondly, it is about another layer of identity that you may add in the future, mother.

I always thought I was a good lawyer, but not a good mother. When I was young, I always regarded my career as my pursuit of life, so I neglected and owed you a lot in my family. When you needed my company most, I gave you not time but material things. This is my biggest regret so far. thing.

I am not saying this to ask for your forgiveness, I am just analyzing myself as a case. I don’t mean to warn you not to pursue a career. Career and family are your options in life. You have the right to choose and prioritize freely. But if you make the same choice as me, you must be prepared to bear the consequences. Prepare. And if you choose a family, don't make the same mistakes I made again: neglecting companionship, not knowing how to listen, being overconfident, and lacking communication.

Sorry, daughter. "

Song Shiwei's eyes suddenly became wet, and she restrained herself with all her strength.

She held her breath and turned to the next page. There were a few faint blood stains on the letter paper that had been wiped. The paper was slightly hard because it had been dry for too long. The moment her eyes touched it, she could no longer hold back and burst into tears. . She recalled the last days before Ms. Jiang left. At that time, her body was already very weak and she was in a state of coma and nosebleeds anytime and anywhere. No one knew how sad and scared she felt at that time when facing her increasingly thin and pale face, and no one knew how helpless and desperate she felt when faced with the critical notices from doctors time and time again.

She covered her face and endured it for a long time, her fingers were wet with tears. After a long time, she sniffed heavily and continued reading.

“And finally some words that I’ve never said to anyone.

When your father and I were negotiating for divorce, we had some differences regarding your custody rights. I hope you can live with him, firstly because of my job, and secondly because compared to my poor life skills, his character can take care of you more carefully. But from his point of view, he also had his concerns. He believed that it would be more appropriate for a girl to grow up with her mother. On the other hand, his job at the time was facing expatriation, and there were many uncertain factors.

After the final agreement, I decided that I would take care of you. After that, I worked hard in my career for another ten years, and when I thought I could work hard for another ten or twenty years, I encountered an accident and was forced to stop working, and at the same time I received a physical examination report.

During that time, I was devastated. The double blow from inside and outside made me realize for the first time how vulnerable I was. I was suddenly confused and didn’t know what value my life had. Until I went to the office to pack my things on the last day, I received your Mother’s Day gift.

That day I sat alone in the room for the whole afternoon, and I decided to take you to Huping.

The doctor said that if I take active treatment, the most optimistic view may be seven or eight years. I want to use all this time to make up for my debt to you over the years. I imagine that we will slow down and live in Huping and leave beautiful memories. In the future, I will follow you to the city where you studied in college and accompany you there. In the next stage of your life, if you are lucky, maybe I can see you meet the right partner and attend your wedding.

I thought about it a lot and far away, but unfortunately, when I went to the hospital for the second time, it deteriorated faster than anyone expected.

I don't have time anymore.

I hope you never experience this regret.

That’s it for this letter. I actually wanted to make it longer, but it’s not long enough no matter how many words I write.

I have often dreamed recently that you were so bright and smiling when you were little. Everyone who saw you liked you very much. Every time I carried you out, I proudly told them that this is my daughter.

But then that smile became less and less on your face.

I hope that from now on, my Weiwei will always be happy and healthy, and live the life you want.

I love you much.

Happy wedding.

mom

November 2014, 6"

Song Shiwei put down the letter, slowly raised her face, and stared blankly at her reflection on the TV in front of her.

After a while, she calmly wiped away her tears and called her aunt to thank her.