Era: Starting from cave dwellings in northern Shaanxi

Chapter 243 Suicide?
The college entrance examination, in the current era, is an opportunity for everyone to change their destiny. As long as there is a glimmer of hope, no one is willing to give up.

Last time, no one in Shuangshuiwan was admitted to college, which made the old party secretary happy in vain.

This time, a total of thirteen people from Shuangshuiwan and Shapingba took the final college entrance examination. In addition to the educated youth, there were also those who failed last time and were just in time to graduate from high school.

As for those who can't even pass the preliminaries, they naturally have to work when they should, and the rest has nothing to do with them.

"Xiang Yang, how many of our Shuangshuiwan students can get into college this time?"

After the old party secretary said goodbye to those taking the college entrance examination, he couldn't help but ask.

Although one or two college students now can only be regarded as the icing on the cake for Shuangshuiwan, it is an honor after all, and the old party secretary is not to the point of not caring about it.

"I don't know, but it would be nice to have one."

Sun Xiangyang shook his head.

Many people know the illustrious reputation of the third generation, but few people know that the admission rate of the college entrance examination in this era is also appallingly low, only about 6%.

This is the real way of crossing a single-plank bridge with thousands of troops.

Naturally, it is not just ordinary people who can get into college.

In the 1980s and 1990s, it was a big deal to get a college student, and the admission rate at that time had reached more than 20%.

It can be seen how rare it is to be admitted to university in the recent years after the college entrance examination was resumed.

It's appropriate to say something about changing your destiny.

"One? The researchers at the previous institute helped make up a lot of classes, and the materials were all available for purchase, so that I could pass the exam?"

The old branch secretary asked in surprise.

"This kind of thing not only depends on the individual, but also depends on luck."

Sun Xiangyang also has some regrets. Unfortunately, he has not read the college entrance examination papers of these years, but it is useless even if he has, because the examination papers are different in each province, and compared with the difficulty of the college entrance examination questions in later generations, it is not difficult now. , just because of many years of delay, everyone has long forgotten the knowledge in the textbooks.

Many things cannot be accomplished by just reviewing.

"There must be no problem with that name being Xu Fengxia, right? I heard many people say that she has the best academic performance and did well in the preliminaries. Isn't she a sure winner?"

The old branch secretary asked curiously.

"She's sick."

Sun Xiangyang said.

"ill?"

"Yes, she definitely has no problem with mastering knowledge, but she gets nervous as soon as she enters the examination room, and the level of nervousness is far more severe than that of ordinary people. Just like those who are afraid of heights, it is not something that can be overcome, and it can even get worse. The more she cares, the more likely she is to become nervous and perform abnormally. During the last exam, she was too nervous and her mind went blank. Even the knowledge she learned was temporarily forgotten. "

Faced with the old party secretary's confusion, Sun Xiangyang explained.

"Didn't you help her take care of this disease?"

The old branch secretary asked puzzledly.

He knew how good Sun Xiangyang's medical skills were.

"Her illness is mental and psychological. Usually there is no problem at all. It is just related to the individual. Just like some people are not suitable for big occasions. If they are allowed to stand in front of many people and speak, they will not be able to control themselves. As a result, I am stammering, even unable to speak, and there is nothing I can do to cure it.

But I asked Shuting to remind her before that she could take some tranquilizers, which might be helpful. "

Although Sun Xiangyang said so, he was still not optimistic about Xu Fengxia's college entrance examination, because based on her appearance, Xu Fengxia still would not change her fate this time.

In other words, she still couldn't pass the exam this time.

But it was hard for Sun Xiangyang to say this clearly, let alone to Xu Fengxia. He could only give some help.

As for the others, Sun Xiangyang also helped with fortune telling. It can be said that Shuangshuiwan will still be wiped out this time.

What I just said to the old branch secretary was more of a comfort.

"It's a pity that child. She only wants to go to college and leave Shuangshui Bay. If there is a chance in the future, give her a place to return to the city."

The old branch secretary sighed and said.

Not long ago, he went to the commune for a meeting. The superiors had already made preliminary opinions on allowing some people to return to the city first. However, the specific quotas for whom to give were still decided by the production brigade.

But if the other party has a job in the city, they can leave.

"Going back to the city? It may not be a good thing for her. It's a pity that her heart is not in Shuangshui Bay. Otherwise, Sun Qingbo would be a good destination. On the contrary, that Li Qingqing chose to give up long ago and stay in Shuangshui Bay. Bay paper cutting, maybe the future will be better.”

Sun Xiangyang thought for a while and said.

People's fate is sometimes very strange, but choices are equally important. In the eyes of many people, Li Qingqing seems a bit stupid, but in the eyes of Sun Xiangyang, this is a truly smart person.

"Hey, our Shuangshui Bay will not be worse than the city in the future. Now there are so many girls outside who want to marry us in Shuangshui Bay. This was something that I didn't even dare to think about before."

The old branch secretary chuckled and said proudly.

In the past, everyone scolded him as Sun Quede. When the girls outside mentioned Shuangshuiwan, they shook their heads like rattles, as if marrying to Shuangshuiwan would ruin their lives.

But he could understand at that time. After all, Shuangshuiwan was really poor. Among the production teams in the commune, Shuangshuiwan was the poorest at that time. If he had a daughter, he would not marry to Shuangshuiwan.

But today is different from the past. The bachelors in Shuangshui Bay have directly become Xiangmomo.

And all of this was brought about by Sun Xiangyang.

Thinking of this, the old branch secretary's eyes became softer when he looked at Sun Xiangyang.

"You should just relax. Shuangshui Bay will only be better in the future."

Sun Xiangyang glanced across the entire Shuangshui Bay and said firmly.

In the blink of an eye, another two days passed, and people who went to take the college entrance examination came back one after another. Some were happy and felt that they had done well in the exam and would definitely be admitted to university. Others were dejected, having wasted another year and will continue next year.

But the one who suffered the biggest blow was Xu Fengxia.

She originally thought she had overcome her nervousness. After all, she had successfully passed the pre-examination before. Unexpectedly, when she actually arrived at the examination room, she was back to her original state again. Her nervous mind went blank and she was sweating all over. The teacher who invigilated the exam thought she was sick.

Even if Xu Fengxia persisted, she still failed in this exam, far inferior to the previous preliminaries, let alone admitted to university.

After returning, Xu Fengxia was disheartened. Although Li Qingqing persuaded her a lot, Xu Fengxia was still in a daze.

She originally thought that everything would be fine in a few days, but unexpectedly, Xu Fengxia was nowhere to be found today. She neither went to the paper-cut painting group nor was she in the village, so Li Qingqing hurriedly found Sun Qingbo.

"what happened?"

After Sun Qingbo heard the news, he was also very anxious.

Just after the college entrance examination, he found out that Xu Fengxia performed abnormally due to nervousness again.

He didn't know why, but he felt a little secretly happy in his heart. After all, if Xu Fengxia didn't go to college, wouldn't that mean she would still stay in Shuangshui Bay?
Although he knew that his thoughts were a bit shameful, he just couldn't help but think so.

But now, Xu Fengxia was missing, and his heart suddenly lifted.

"She was still there before, but I searched all over the village and couldn't find her. Where do you think she went? Is it hard to think about it?"

Li Qingqing almost burst into tears.

Now she sleeps on the same bed with Xu Fengxia and has the best relationship. Thinking of Xu Fengxia's appearance before, she can't help but worry. "take things too hard?"

Sun Qingbo was startled.

"Don't worry, are her things, clothes, etc. still there?"

"Yes, everything is there."

"Since everything is there, she shouldn't be far away. Don't worry, I'll ask someone to help find her now."

After Sun Qingbo finished speaking, he immediately went to call someone.

Then he himself began to think, if he couldn't figure it out, where would he go?
Not long after, there were many people in Shuangshui Bay helping to search for Xu Fengxia, and Sun Qingbo also searched all the places he needed to look for. Seeing that it was getting dark, Xu Fengxia was still missing, which made him even more anxious.

At this moment, he suddenly saw someone running from a distance.

"Found it, Xu Fengxia found it."

"Where? Where is the person?"

"It's over at the reservoir. She can't think of jumping into the reservoir."

When Sun Qingbo heard Xu Fengxia jumping into the reservoir, his head buzzed and almost exploded. His eyesight turned black and his whole body shook.

Hearing that Xu Fengxia was confused earlier, he went to the reservoir to look for her, but he couldn't find it.

Unexpectedly, the other party was hiding there and even took the opportunity to jump into the reservoir.

In other words, when he went to look for it, the other party had already jumped, and it was only now that he floated and was discovered.

Then, Sun Qingbo also realized what it means to be completely hopeless.

As long as he thought that Xu Fengxia had jumped into the reservoir and died, even he felt like he didn't want to live anymore.

"It's gone, there's nothing left."

Sun Qingbo finally squatted on the ground, tears streaming down his face unconsciously.

"What's missing? Didn't Xu Fengxia find it? As soon as she jumped down, she was seen by people from the brick kiln, and they hurriedly rescued her. She is okay. I just came back to say that she has been found. There is no need to worry about it anymore. found."

The person who reported the news couldn't help but said.

"Damn it, Sun Qingqiang, can you report the news? Can't you speak clearly?"

Sun Qingbo was stunned at first, and then became furious. He got up from the ground and cursed at Sun Qingqiang.

After he finished cursing, he wiped the tears from his face with his hands and ran towards the reservoir.

Not long after, he saw Xu Fengxia, who was all wet and being supported, and almost without thinking, he rushed up and hugged Xu Fengxia.

"Why are you so stupid? You can't think about it. If you don't pass, you don't pass. At worst, you'll take the exam again next year. What will I do if you die?"

After listening to Sun Qingbo's words, not only Xu Fengxia, but also the people next to him looked at him with wide eyes.

Although it is already known to everyone that Sun Qingbo likes Xu Fengxia, it is still surprising to say this in public.

Then, there was a burst of booing all around.

Even Xu Fengxia reacted and struggled to break free from Sun Qingbo's arms.

"What are you talking about? Who can't think about it? My legs are numb and I accidentally fell into the reservoir. I can't think about it."

Xu Fengxia explained with a blushing face.

Not only because of Sun Qingbo's confession, but also because he was hugged by Sun Qingbo in public, and he was all wet.

But her explanation sounded obviously pale to the people around her.

Even though she had explained it before, no one believed it.

After all, everyone knew that she was nervous this time and did not do well in the exam, so it was normal that she did not want to admit it.

In addition, after being on the verge of death, you might still feel scared.

It is common for many people to regret their suicide halfway through.

"That's right, I can't think about it. I'll take you back first and talk about it later if you have anything to do."

Sun Qingbo also reacted and said a little at a loss.

It wasn't until he saw Xu Fengxia alive that he finally breathed a sigh of relief.

God knows how scared he was then.

Then, Sun Qingbo dispersed the people around him and wanted to step forward to help Xu Fengxia, but Xu Fengxia was disturbed by him and no longer needed help. She threw Sun Qingbo away and walked back in a hurry.

Later, Li Qingqing, Chen Shuting and others who came after hearing the news wiped tears again when they saw Xu Fengxia.

Xu Fengxia also once again explained the reason why she fell into the reservoir.

Although she was a little frustrated, she really never thought about committing suicide. Someone was looking for her at the reservoir and calling her name, and she heard it. At that time, she was hiding next to the reservoir, under a big rock, which just covered the top. line of sight, so no one noticed her, and she did not respond to those people, she simply wanted to be alone.

She didn't plan to come back until there was no one there and it was almost dark.

But because I squatted under the stone for too long, my legs were really numb, so as soon as I stood up, my legs stopped working and fell directly into the reservoir.

Fortunately, there happened to be people from the brick kiln not far away who were fetching water and found her in time and rescued her. Otherwise, she would have been forced to commit suicide.

Thinking about the powerlessness and despair she felt while struggling in the water, Xu Fengxia was still a little scared.

She had even thought of dying before, but after this experience, she didn't dare to say anything anymore.

"As long as everything is fine, isn't it just the college entrance examination? It doesn't matter even if you don't go to college. You stay in Shuangshui Bay and we can make paper-cutting. We can earn more than those formal workers in the city."

Li Qingqing hugged Xu Fengxia and said.

"Fengxia, if you really want to go back to the city, I'll tell Xiangyang in the evening. I heard before that there seems to be a quota for returning to the city."

Chen Shuting was also there to comfort him.

"Forget it, what's the point of going back to the city like this? I can't even find a job when I go back. I didn't pass the exam this time. At worst, if I take the exam again next year, I, Xu Fengxia, don't believe that I will never pass the exam."

Xu Fengxia shook her head.

Back to the city?

Wouldn't it be so easy to go back?
In her mind, there was only one way back to the city, and that was to go to college.

Only when you are admitted to college and graduate, will the state assign you a job, and you will even be treated as a cadre upon leaving, and your future development will be better.

As for Li Qingqing's suggestion of staying in Shuangshui Bay to cut paper, even if he cuts paper for a lifetime, what future will he have?
Xu Fengxia does not want this kind of life.

She had sworn long ago that she would go to college. Only by going to college could she change her destiny.

Especially this time she almost died, which strengthened her determination to go to college.

She, Xu Fengxia, will never give up.

(End of this chapter)