I am not mentally ill, I am the actor with a thousand faces

Chapter 438, Patient

When Li Yun came to the crew.

Everyone's first reaction was
young.

A strikingly youthful gesture.

This astonishing youth is in stark contrast to his identity as the screenwriter, director and actor of the film.

Such an amazing contrast.

One can't help but feel shocked. It's amazing how powerful it is that this young body has achieved such results.

Time will give a person talent.

Talent.

Most people need to rely on long-term accumulation to achieve something, but Li Yun accomplished it in a short period of time.

How can one not admire this?

Even Eddie Peng had to admit that Li Yun as an actor was the person she was pursuing.

Then in the field of entertainment, I am completely incomparable.

Acting is only part of his talent.

But that’s not all he is as an insider.

The director's talent as a screenwriter is enough to make people admire him.
Starting from "The Crucible", to "Let the Bullets Fly", and now "Dying to Survive".

This is Li Yun’s third independent project, which he wrote, directed and starred in.

Completely independent, self-written, self-directed and self-acted.
"The Crucible" won the Asian Film Window's Uncrowned Award.

"Let the Bullets Fly" won both box office success and awards, and it can be said that it brought Li Yun to the position of a first-line director and a top-tier actor.

He is as good as Jiang Wen and Ge You, the movie superstars.
The trinity, Li Yun is now a figure that cannot be ignored in the Chinese film and television industry.
Generally speaking, it should be halfway up the mountain, and you can see the outlines of those people at the top of the mountain.
The outline of the mountain top!

How many people spend their entire lives just to be able to see halfway up a mountain?
Where is Li Yun? Can he stand here and see the outline of the peak? Even Peng Yuyan was thinking, if Li Yun could really raise his camera and take a look at the scenery on the top of the mountain, what would it be like?
Maybe ten years, maybe twenty years.

But it is undeniable that Li Yun is the most outstanding one in the new generation of film and television industry.

none of them
His opponents are all veteran film and television people.
"However, that is also his overall achievement." Peng Yuyan thought slowly as she looked at Li Yun.

People are strong but poor.

Eddie Peng believes this. Today, Li Yun seems to be focusing on filming and script writing. As an actor, he will not move forward.

As for me, I am focused on the path of being an actor, a path that I will never deviate from.
Peng Yuyan is very clear about the path she will take and knows the principles she should follow.

Li Yun, when given a script, he will act and do whatever he is told to do. This is his responsibility as an actor.

It doesn't matter even if the script is a bad one.

There are no bad scripts, only bad actors. Even the worst script can still have excellent actors and the acting skills presented by excellent actors.

Especially "Dying to Survive" has an arty feel to it and has good character creation.

There is definitely room for acting skills to be brought into play.
At this time, Peng Yuyan looked around
Liu Xixi, the acting skills of male and female actors are not evaluated according to the same standards.

Wang Chuanjun and Li Yun
This is the one who acted in "Love Apartment".

It’s not that Eddie Peng looks down on actors who only perform in TV dramas. They come from urban sitcoms. Isn’t this just a big variety show?

The sitcom used to have a bit of a stage play feel, but now it feels like a pure variety show.
Asking variety show stars to act in movies - this seems a bit funny.

But it doesn't matter.

Peng Yuyan was only looking at Li Yun at this time. This time, his main opponent was Li Yun, who was also the person he could foresee as his rival.

"Let me see your strength."

At this time, in the capital.

Wang Jinghua of Chengtian Jiahe was once the founder of Bajiu Brokerage Culture Co., Ltd. and is now the executive president of Chengtian Jiahe.

He is a legendary agent in the industry, holding half of the Beijing circle. Now he has integrated the 89 Economic and Cultural Company and merged it into Chengtian Jiahe, becoming one of the largest capitals in the entire Beijing circle.

Back then, she had to look up to the Li family and rely on the title of role model of the times.

It's different now. She has more resources and a bigger backer, the backer of the top four people in Beijing. So she can control half of Beijing.
Looking back on my life, I still have two regrets.

One regret was that she did not recruit Li Yun back then - she thought she was the one who discovered Li Yun's potential very early on.

Later, after Li Yun's potential was realized, she felt that it was no longer cost-effective to recruit him again. However, the stamina shown by Li Yun later slapped her in the face time and time again.

There seems to be endless power in this young body.

Every time it bursts out at the right time.
Suddenly he realized that he had become someone who could enter the vision of his backers, relying on his own abilities.

This Li Yun.

Not an ant.

But a tiger.

The tiger coming out of the mountain!

What makes people curious now is how far this tiger that has just come out of the mountains can go. This is indeed something that makes people curious.

"What's wrong, Mr. Wang? You have reached your current position, do you still need to care about a fierce tiger?" The person next to him was Tang Min from the Tang people.
These two strong women who admire each other often get together to discuss the situation of domestic entertainment.
One is a white glove in the Beijing circle, and the other is a strong woman in the Shanghai circle.

"I always feel like there's someone missing at our table," Tang Min touched his chin.

"Who?"

"Thank you Qingya."

"Oh, that high and mighty young lady." Wang Jinghua also thought of this famous ice beauty in the circle.

"She is not arrogant, but the path she takes is too difficult and too stubborn. Actually, she is a pretty good person." Tang Min smiled.

She absolutely doesn't mind taking shortcuts, whether it's promoting popular stars or something else, as long as it's profitable, it doesn't matter.

This is the consensus of Tang Min and Wang Jinghua.
However, this is not what Xie Qingya wants to do. Her wish is to support works that can compete with Hollywood.
Tang Min and Wang Jinghua both felt that this was impossible.
It is already very good to be able to explore and find one's own living space in a limited market.

Her dreams are great, and she is indeed a good 'dreamer'.

But this world is not driven simply by dreams.

"Dreamers. People like this are really hard to deal with."

Wang Jinghua thought of something and said with a smile: "But it reminds me of someone."

"Who?"

"Do you still remember the young man who acted with you in "Chinese Paladin 1", Eddie Peng?"

"Oh, I remember Tang Yu Xiaobao. He was quite popular at the time and was considered a pretty good young actor. He's also doing pretty well now."

Tang Min knew about them: "Operation Red Sea", "Evil Never Dies" and "Operation Mekong".

As the leading actor in three first-line films, his position should be secure.

It’s definitely not just because of his connections in the Beijing circle, but because he has the strength to match it that enables him to get these roles.

"He is also an actor driven by his ideals. His ideal is to become a star in the sky like Cheng Shilong and Zhou Xingxing, who is truly loved by others."

"To be honest, I used to think that it was a bit of a pipe dream for this young man to take this path in today's era. But it seems that after he starred in "Insidious", he was determined to take this path and has come to where he is now. Along the way, I denied him many times, but he just walked through it."

At this time, Wang Jinghua also felt incredible
Some admiration too.
"Isn't that great?" Tang Min said jokingly, "We've found a treasure. This is the potential to be a mainstay of the show."

Although Tang Min is in the traffic business, she knows what kind of people can make a company survive for a long time.

Everyone longs for a real talent to be their 'chief'.
"I terminated the contract with him, and I didn't take any compensation. It was a peaceful termination."

"what?"

This was something Tang Min had not expected. Wang Jinghua, who was always known for her sharp eye for people and her eagerness for talent, would actually let go of a real talent that was visible to the naked eye.

That's just not her style.

"Can you tell me the reason?" Tang Min lit a cigarette for Wang Jinghua with interest, wanting to hear her reason.

"Maybe when we first entered this circle, our original intentions were completely different from what they are now. Maybe, I also want to see how far he can go if he remains the same as he was at the beginning. This can be regarded as a good thing I have done for this circle."

Wang Jinghua lit a ladies' cigarette and looked at the smoke.

No matter what the script of this I Am Not a God of Medicine is like.

She inexplicably believed in the devoted Peng Yuyan.

Definitely the most outstanding one.

At this time, Li Yun looked at Peng Yuyan, who was skinny and haggard.

No more abdominal muscles.

The figure he was proud of, the thing that fascinated thousands of girls, was ruthlessly abandoned by him.

Abandon it without any hesitation.

In the past, Li Yun's impression of Peng Yuyan has always been the word "charming".

Its lethality to women has definitely reached a very terrifying level.

In his previous life, he was able to kill people of all ages.

She can do this simply by relying on her figure and looks.

He is a person who is blessed by God.

At this moment, his body was filled with a feeling of weakness.
It's not a weakness of temperament, but a weakness of body.
"You look quite weak."

"If you lose weight by dieting, you will feel weak." Peng Yuyan grinned. He has 10,000 ways to lose weight, but he chose the one that makes people feel the most 'weak'.
A feeling of weakness that starts from the body.

"sharp."

Li Yun gave him a thumbs up and expressed his admiration for his dedication to his acting career.

How cruel.

At this time, Peng Yuyan grinned.

"Thank you. This little effort is worth it in order to play the role well."

Wang Chuanjun next to him looked at Peng Yuyan and kept swallowing his saliva. His impression of Peng Yuyan also changed.
Since you can't find the feeling of 'weakness', then make your body 'weak'.

A feeling of weakness coming from the flesh itself
but
At this time, Li Yun was looking at Peng Yuyan, who seemed somewhat complacent, with a slight smile.

“It’s still a little bit behind.”

The smile on Peng Yuyan's face disappeared
"Please advise me."

"Yeah" Li Yun didn't say anything.

ten seconds.

Twenty seconds.

Thirty seconds.

Enter the play.

'Sickness'

The feeling that illness brings.
Pain, weakness.
For this feeling, Li Yun doesn't need any acting skills at all, because I have actually experienced this before.
From despair, madness, irritability upon discovering the disease to calm acceptance.

From escaping reality, to active treatment, and then to the desperate scald bed, all I could hear was the twitching sound of the ventilator and the doctor's cold evaluation of my condition, as if he was evaluating a piece of pork.

And this piece of pork is dying.

Painful limbs and dizzy feelings are contrary to the desire to survive.

I want to live.

But the pain in his body made Li Yun cry out from the bottom of his heart - let me go, I want to be free.

I want to live.

I want to die too.

I don't want pain.

Don't want pain.

Death is a feeling that time cannot erase. The wear and tear brought by time will not take away that feeling.

It still feels like dying of illness.

The body went from strong to weak, to being unable to control oneself, to being tortured, to the feeling of being unable to live or die.

Li Yun had experienced it all - even now, when he thought about it, he could still relive the feeling of near-death.
This is definitely not something worth remembering.
Right
This is instinct. As a human instinct, avoiding death is a natural thing.

Li Yun also hated this, but if this could add something to his movie.

damn it.

Even I think I'm crazy.

"Have you ever died?"

Peng Yuyan asked this somewhat ridiculous question out of the blue.

Even he himself found the question particularly ridiculous.

But he clearly felt the taste of death from Li Yun.

The expression of eyes just now.

The body weakens gradually, struggles, despair, and then dies.

These emotions change within a minute.

Finally, it turned dim and died.

I have struggled and tried to survive.

But it's no use.

really.

Eddie Peng felt ridiculous. She thought she had been cruel enough to herself by starving herself to the point of physical weakness.

But there is a result here. He knows that he will not die. He knows that he is alive and healthy, so that feeling is always a little bit worse.

He could never find the feeling of death, could never find the taste of fear.

Now he sees it.

On Li Yun.

I saw the taste of death and fear intertwined.

The fear that comes from the end of life is fully displayed in Li Yun.

It gives people a sense of...

It definitely feels like he's dealt with death.

And it’s immersive.

Is he a monster?
Can this be acted out?

Li Yun became the object of observation for the patient group in "Dying to Survive".

By observing Li Yun, he plays the role of a weak patient.

In every move.

Li Yun seemed to be suffering from a terminal illness and even holding a glass of water was difficult for him.

Such weakness, the kind of weakness that comes from the soul, seems to be in Li Yun's every move.

He really is that weak.

He was so weak that everyone wondered if our director was really suffering from a terminal illness.

Otherwise, you can't act out this feeling.

There is absolutely no way this feeling could occur.

Li Yun as a "patient".

Everything you say and do here, even the act of drinking water.

They all showed signs of weakness until the time came for the machine to start up.

When Li Yun was holding a glass of water, he was too weak to lift the glass, so the glass naturally fell to the ground and broke into pieces.

The complexion and eyes were both gray and deathly.

All of these characteristics are telling others.

Li Yun is about to die, and his life is coming to an end. This film, I Am Not a God of Medicine, may become Li Yun's posthumous work, and his last work before the end of his life.

Correct.

He is going to die.

Li Yun is about to die.

This matter seems to have become a strange consensus among the crew.

A real patient for the entire crew to observe.

He is about to die.

Is it acting?
how is this possible.

How can the acting be so bad?

"What do you think will happen to our movie if our director dies?" Tan Zhuo, who played the single mother Liu Sihui, whispered to Liu Qianqian.

"These are just acting." Liu Qianqian said with a smile, but there was still a hint of worry on her face.

"It's not an acting. I've seen terminally ill patients in the same state as him. They were dying, with their energy and spirit drained out. I'll never forget that look in my life."

Tan Zhuo seemed to still have some lingering fears.

I'm afraid I really don't want to recall this kind of thing.

He is going to die.

Liu Qianqian was a little dazed at this time and had been out of shape the whole day.

What if Li Yun really has a terminal illness?
If he really wants to leave me.

I couldn't listen to his jokes anymore, or talk about his favorite movies and characters.

There was no way I could watch his fireworks.

It’s impossible to cook a table full of dishes and ask him to judge which one is the worst.

Many of the things I wanted to do with him became castles in the air.

Many promises turned out to be empty bubbles.

But today Li Yun seemed not to have come to the crew.

This also confirms this point.