The European Emperor’s character remains standing

Chapter 12 Extra: Lin Shilu’s Confessions
  I hid all my surliness and behaved harmlessly. I gradually developed a side that I didn’t want you to know because I didn’t want you to hate me.

In fact, I am selfish, cold-blooded, and indifferent to everything, but I cherish the people I love very much. No one can take them away from me. This is the truest thought in my heart.

A'ya, I really didn't expect to see you again, so why did I leave anyway? I can probably guess the reason. It was because you left too suddenly, and all that was left to me was a string of bracelets and sachets you gave me.

Although you once said goodbye to me, when I discovered that all traces of you will gradually disappear in other people's memories as time goes by, my originally peaceful heart began to stir.

At first, I could keep calm and pretend not to care, so I could ask Sister Aci and people in the community, but in their eyes, I was just going crazy and I was just asking an imaginary person.

One time I caught those kids talking about me, because those kids my age thought I was crazy. Later, I acted like I was harmless because no one remembered you. I asked Sister Aci, she Said: "You can't say, but you will see her one day."

I have calculated countless times, and the result is that one day in the future, we will meet again. Seeing this result, I became more and more frightened. Because I am afraid that when we meet again, you will be old and no longer recognize me. Our reunion will just pass by, because we can meet again without knowing each other.

With this idea in mind, I spied on Tianji several times, and what I asked the most about was your whereabouts and status. In the beginning, I was able to get your whereabouts, but every time I got you, you were in a place where no prying eyes could be seen and you were in good health.

Although it has not been leaked, such a crime is still unforgivable, so I suffer from energy deficiency syndrome. First, it is because of excessive snooping, even if I am the darling of heaven. The second reason is naturally because of excessive use of energy. resulting from this.

Then, Sister Aci banned me from using my ability to divination, and I can no longer know your situation.

At this point, I had completely hidden my truest side, and I became someone else's child again.

Ah Ling, I really miss you. Since you left, I have no playmates. Whenever I have free time, I stay in the training room and study room.

Because I was still able to know your traces at first, and I was learning new interests every day, just to divert my attention and stop thinking about our first time from time to time. After seeing my transformation, sister Aci was also very happy because you left. After that, she always looked worried. She didn't say it, but I probably guessed it, but I still missed you a little.

A month later, there was no trace of you, and I could no longer cover it up with busyness, so I searched for you like crazy and posted missing person notices everywhere. Even though I vaguely knew, I just couldn't control myself.

After I suffered from energy deficiency syndrome, in order not to worry Sister Aci anymore, I stopped making predictions. By this time, things had reached a point where I was out of control.

Originally, I asked people in the community and they found out that the girl originally lived next to my house and later left. After I got sick, they completely lost their memory of you. It was just vague at first, but then it disappeared completely.

The only remaining items of yours are the sachet and the bracelet. To be honest, I am really unwilling, but there is nothing I can do about it.

By the way, A'ya, today is March 3th, my first birthday after you left me. It's been half a year since you left. I really want to seal up my memories until I meet you. seal up. Ah Ling, a girl of the same age as me came to where you originally lived. She is just like us, but Sister Ah Ci said that her heritage is more complete than mine.

I feel like all this is a coincidence, a gentle town specially built to fill your vacancy.

She is different from others. She likes cats but does not keep them. Her surname is An and her name is Zhe Er. She is a very cute girl. Her luck is a little lower than mine, but she will not get lost. She also believes that there was you before her. existence, and the only evidence I can produce is the bracelet and sachet you left behind. Even though this seems like a fantasy, she still chooses to believe me.

The person who adopted her is one who is gentle and the other is domineering. If you are here, I think you must say that the one who is domineering must be a woman, because since you were a child, you have admired the heroines in the ancient world. I want to say , you are right.

Her name is Fu Hongyi, she is very domineering, but sometimes she is also gentle and considerate. Her other half is called Chen Sizhui, and the name gives off a sense of elegance. Sizhui also has a younger brother named Siyuan, who is better than me and An An. bigger.

3.17
  Aya, another year has passed. Because of the explosion of technology, it has now entered the semi-interstellar era. Most people call the past an old era.

I transferred to another school and went to the newly built Xuanmeng College with An An and Siyuan. What I didn’t expect was that Sister Aci, Sister Fu, and Brother Siyuan also taught in the college, but I didn’t see them often. They, they don't go to work often, according to them, it's just part-time, occasionally helping out when there's a shortage of staff.

Today An An and I were assigned to the same class, and I also met a new friend named Su Heng. He was quite naughty and always liked to cause trouble in experimental classes, which made the class teacher very distressed.

In fact, I occasionally make trouble with Su Heng, but I don't make much noise. More often than not, he takes the blame for me. Somehow, Su Heng and Siyuan became close friends as soon as they met each other after school. I feel like the friendship between boys is so strange!

But I don’t understand girls’ friendship very well. I miss you, A Ling, when will you come back?

Su Heng is also in our community, but he lives far away. Almost half of my peers in Xuanmeng College are from our community. After all, the community has become bigger in the past two years because it has been expanded after you left.

Ah Ling, I am in the third grade, and the school has added a few new courses. I feel that when you come back again, you will directly change from a top student to a bad student, but it is probably unlikely. After all, we The learning ability of several of them is pretty strong, because as long as they are... their learning ability is not bad.

I don’t know if it’s a coincidence, but in this short year, I seem to be surrounded by people of the same kind. With them, I no longer feel alone, and with them, I also have many interests, but late at night , I will still think of you.

It’s just that I still miss you so much, A-ling. When will you come back? After you come back, will you still remember me? Will we just pass by each other as I thought, and we will not know each other directly? !
  I'm a little afraid of what will happen after we meet. A'ling, will you come back? How should I face you after you come back?

　Because today Kawen has added a small extra chapter, almost more than 2,000 words, which can be read as a diary. It always feels like today’s main text is like an appendix.

　　
  　
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