I traveled through time and became a cute girl, I just want to be a fun person

Chapter 63 That’s not my moon

"Hearing the departure of winter, I woke up in a certain month of a certain year. I thought, I waited, I looked forward to it, but the future cannot be arranged accordingly..."

In the song "Meet" played and sung by Jiang Yuan, the system props she used on Wen Wen also began to work.

Meek but knows nothing about it.

He will begin to simulate a false future life during the time of this song.

However, he certainly cannot tell the difference between true and false. This is just like the "brain in a vat" hypothesis. Who can confirm that he is not experiencing a "brain in a vat" experiment? Maybe the real world is virtual. , all simulated by computers.

At this moment, in the simulated memory——

Wen Shun didn't even finish listening to the song "Meet" before he stood up and said indifferently to Jiang Yuan: "Don't bother me anymore. I have completely seen through life. For the next journey, I only want one person." When people go on, they don’t need any love or friendship, let alone the pity of others!”

He feels that he is the strongest when he is alone and will never be hurt.

Jiang Yuan is indeed a very nice girl, but he is not qualified to accept her goodness, so he might as well have a bad attitude and tell her to go away and not get involved with unfortunate people like him.

Thinking so, when he actually did it, he felt even more heartbroken!

[System prompt: Pain value from meek+++]

Since the ultimate purpose of this memory is to extract a large amount of "pain value" from Meek, all the choices he makes in the memory will be subconsciously in the worst direction.

In fact, the most important thing in a person's life is choice.

As the saying goes, men are afraid of getting into the wrong profession, and women are afraid of marrying the wrong man. This saying simply illustrates the importance of choice.

After leaving meekly and indifferently, he returned to the classroom, took out the notebook he specially used for writing essays and diaries, and wrote on it——

No matter who you are too enthusiastic about, it increases the probability of not being cherished. If there is no excessive joy, there will be no extreme sadness.

This is what he realized just after falling out of love.

As a literary young man who loves to write poems to express his inner emotions, although he appears to be very decisive on the surface, in fact, of course it is impossible for him to come out so quickly.

Broken love also provided him with creative material and inspiration, so he wrote such a poem——

I'm glad that in those days when you were not involved, there was still some light falling on my shoulders, sometimes tenderly, sometimes violently.

Just like you gently holding the oar of the years, rowing through the spring, the embankment where I have been sitting for a long time
  A thousand times I imagined that you were sitting across from me, happily drinking a cup of morning tea with me.
  In another winter when we suddenly shed tears, we caught a glimpse of the fine snow slowly falling in each other's hearts.
  In many, many dreams, my heart shakes for you alone

Many years later, sad flowers will grow there

It’s the regret that we can no longer bear to touch
  It is clear that this modern poem, like the ones he wrote before, is still addressed to the girl who deeply hurt him.

But he will no longer expect to write this kind of poetry on the fragrant pink letterhead with the most serious handwriting, and then secretly stuff it into the girl's desk hole...

He writes such literary and sentimental things simply to vent, which can also be regarded as a kind of "self-healing".

After that, he began to completely degenerate. Learning was impossible. He had to devote himself wholeheartedly to writing and prove himself directly from another track!

He wants to write articles and submit them to magazines, imagining that he will become a successful writer, famous and wealthy. This can always give others a sense of security, right? He seemed to have completely changed. He used to be a talkative person who loved chatting with others. He was enthusiastic and cheerful, with a patient and gentle temper.

Now, he has completely frozen himself. He is taciturn, self-pitying, and his temper is even more unstable. He began to like to read works depicting the dark side of society, and then became more and more angry and hated the world.

His words no longer felt warm, but became sharp and cold, full of negative energy.

What can be expected is that if he uses such words to submit a manuscript, it will be almost impossible for it to be published and there will be no market at all. This is not the awakening era. Readers love to read words that pierce the darkness. Now everyone likes nipple music. , even if you want to write about abuse, you have to write about love.

The classmates around him also began to subconsciously stay away from him. After all, a cold and angry young man who always carried negative energy was not gregarious at all. It was too uncomfortable to get along with such a neurotic person.

The most important thing is that Wen Wen's grades began to plummet, and he even deliberately wrote an essay "criticizing the education system" in the examination room. Wasn't this just a zero-point essay?

But he didn't care at all, and shamelessly wrote this sentence - Five red lights, light up my future!

But in his heart, he is far from as free and easy as he appears on the surface. After all, "pain points" are being continuously produced...

I have long said that poor grades are the original sin in Jiangzhou No. 1 Middle School, which is "grade-based". If you have good grades and have a weird personality or behavior, no one will care. If you are a top student, you can be willful. .

Now that you have become a bad student and have an unlovable personality, everyone will naturally isolate you subconsciously.

He didn't take it seriously, thinking that he was practicing the belief that "loneliness makes people strong", but in fact he was still trying to stimulate Liu Ya in this way.

Yes, he still still has her in his heart. How can the influence of "White Moonlight" be eliminated so easily - A is always A, and B can be anyone.

Maybe it was because he was deeply hurt by her and never got close to her again, which made his imaginary image of "White Moonlight" even more perfect. He had the characteristic of "never give up despite being tortured".

The childish and devoted boy also likes to use "self-inflicted abuse" and "self-abuse" to increase his sense of existence. He also fantasizes that one day Liu Yalai will feel sorry for him and even actively expressed that she wants to be with him, but then he flatly rejects her. Such a "cool" drama.

Obviously, his excessive self-awareness did not irritate Liu Ya at all. Instead, it made Liu Ya even more disgusted with this young man with neurological problems. It was just a failed secret love. Is it necessary to be so exaggerated? Sure enough, she had a good sense. This boy, let alone giving her a sense of security, would only bring a sense of danger.

His best friend Gu Yongming couldn't stand this guy who gave up on himself to the extreme. He was so meek and would often tell Gu Yongming to break up with him and go away. He doesn't need friends. It will only make him weak!
  Wen Wen feels that he has become something that is hated by people and dogs. Anyone who comes close to him will become unfortunate. He does not want to drag down a friend he truly recognizes like Gu Yongming.

Gu Yongming did not break up with Wen Shun, but he still chose to keep a distance from him. The identity of "Meek friend" does come with its own debuffs, and he is prone to encounter strange eyes and may be isolated. He is rational, I don’t want my three years of high school to become a mess.

But even in such a situation, there was still a girl who did not give up her meekness.

She is Jiang Yuan.

A delicate girl with a pale face, thin body and many diseases.

Wen Wen didn't know when he wrote something about her in his notebook——

She always wears a school uniform, standing cleanly in my dim youth.

It was not my moon, but for a moment, the moonlight did shine on me.

It's a pity that passionate love only happens once, and then I always make comparisons. I will never like her. It's too late.

The order of appearance in life is so important. There are ten years between the age of six and sixteen, and there is a whole life between the age of sixteen and twenty-six.

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