I traveled through time and became a cute girl, I just want to be a fun person

Chapter 69 It's Too Late
  I have to say that the lyrics of the song "Ruyan" are really in line with Wen Ming's mood, such as "Give me another chance to rewrite the story", "Is there such a tomorrow, live it all over again, let me feel it again, I will not waste the yesterday I squandered, whether in survival or life.”…

After Jiang Yuan's death, Wen Shun discovered that his most profound memory of her was still from the time when she was his deskmate in high school!

How tragic and ridiculous this is!
  How far had he ignored her... was he still a human being?

He beat his chest and cried heartbrokenly at her funeral.

It was obvious that when he fell completely into darkness and was at his lowest point, she was always there to accompany and encourage him. She would never leave him. The "real details" recorded in the diary were like a dull knife. Cut his heart out with one knife!
  When he writes novels in the future, he will definitely include this kind of "real details" in his works.

There is no way, the content in Jiang Yuan's diary is too irritating to him, and if he invites readers to bear it together, they must be able to understand his pain and sadness. He likes to share this with readers. This emotion infects readers.

And Jiang Yuan, who is living happily in reality, will definitely praise his behavior. With such a "humanoid summoned beast" trying every means to deceive readers, why not worry about the pain being worth it!

Slash the knife so hard that even the fourth wall is broken for you, and readers from all over the world are deceived together... Tsk, tsk, the old thief's trap is so terrifying.

Meek, who was crying bitterly, was now in a state of extreme self-blame.

Looking back on the past, he felt more and more ashamed of Jiang Yuan. Why had he said so many venomous words to her? Why are you treating her so badly?

She may not have taken those words seriously on the surface, but privately, she must have been deeply hurt by him!
  It feels good to torture him for a while, chase him to the crematorium, and it belongs to the classic among the classics.

At Jiang Yuan's funeral, Wen Shun also communicated a lot with Jiang Hengyu and learned more about her.

One of the things that made him regret the most was that Jiang Yuan's illness was not terminal!

She is actually more mentally depressed. If she can always maintain a happy attitude, adopt a more positive attitude, cooperate with treatment, and pay attention to physical exercise and maintenance, then she will never be beautiful and miserable. ,die young!
  Of course, if she had always been happy, she probably wouldn’t have been able to write those heart-wrenching, emo songs. The more a creator encounters life hardships and emotional trauma, the more the works he creates can make people happy. Empathy.

But compared to her life, what are her works?

Wen Wen would rather she was not so talented that she would be "jealous of talented people", "beauties have a bad fate", and "die young".

He began to review and reflect on himself.

He believed that she deliberately believed in his poor performance and then left him, which was the straw that broke the camel's back!
  If he could always treat her gently and patiently and make her happy all the time, then her ending would definitely be different!

But, it's too late now...

When he was completely immersed in the world of "writing", his mind was filled with how to write a "magnum opus" and how to become famous. He didn't care about more details about her at all. This was the source of his tragedy!

However, when he truly succeeded, there was no one around him.

If he had always put her first in his heart, listened to her in everything, tried every means to make her happy, and given all the money he earned to her so she could spend it however she wanted, then he wouldn't be in such pain!

As long as she is happy, then he can do anything for her!

In this future timeline, he really owed her too much, and now he clearly has the ability to give her happiness, but he no longer even has the chance to repay her...

If there was an afterlife, if he could go back to the past, he would devote everything he had to protecting her and making her happy forever. He doesn't even want her to be so good to him like this world. This will increase her burden and shorten her life. After all, feelings, especially love, are too hurtful and can easily arouse emotions. Big swings.

But this was fatal to her.

Therefore, she should not fall in love with anyone, she should not give anything to others, she only needs to enjoy others being nice to her, this is what she deserves!
  In the midst of extreme regret and pain, Wen Ming had such extreme thoughts in his mind. It can only be said that he had been tortured to the point of losing his mind.

He is obviously an artistic young man with a strong endurance, but his pain points are being squeezed out. This shows how powerful this system prop is.

But equally, the rewards of meekness are considerable.

After experiencing such an extremely painful period of joys and sorrows, he has quickly grown into a qualified "old thief" best-selling writer, and his writing has become a success!

After returning to reality, according to the system evaluation, his writing skills have been directly upgraded to Lv3 (professional level), which is only one step away from Lv4 (expert level). No matter how talented a writer is, it is impossible for him to be at his age. The level of writing skills has reached such a high level.

This is why Jiang Yuan is so cautious when using this one-time system prop. It is not only a painful prop, but also a prop for growth and awakening. It can greatly exercise a person's mind and make people stronger!

And if you make Meek stronger, there won't be any problem. This is a loyal "humanoid summoned beast". Of course, the higher the level, the better.

His future works can earn her "pain points", so improving his writing ability as much as possible is definitely a profitable thing.

The system bound to Jiang Yuan's soul is obviously on her side unconditionally and knows how to further hone her meekness.

Therefore, even though Jiang Yuan had passed away in this false memory, Wen Wen did not return to reality immediately. He was still struggling in this dream world that was extremely cruel and painful to him.

The extreme regret and pain made him continue to use words to express everything for the rest of his life...

His character determined that he would not use the methods of "sacrifice for love" or "suicide" to end himself. He felt that the late Jiang Yuan did not want to see this scene either.

She chose to leave him at that time, obviously because she didn't want to cause him any more trouble. She hoped that he could remove all the burdens, come out of the darkness again, and live with a positive attitude towards life.

He had indeed been saved from the darkness by her, but her voice and smile only existed in his past memory.

The most painful thing in the world is this.

Missing is the quietest verb, because the sadness that lasts a lifetime is hidden in this quietness.

The clock can go back to its original position, but it will no longer be yesterday.

Time has forgotten memories, and he has forgotten to forget.

Death is not the real passing away, forgetting is the eternal demise.

Next, he decided to write a biography of Jiang Yuan, which was also his confession.

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