You've passed the college entrance examination, but can't you make it in the entertainment

Chapter 138 Actor’s Self-Awareness

"Going to the crew to audition?"

Deng Xuefeng tilted his head and looked at Le Yan, as if he wanted him to put this sentence back.

"Yes, try it out."

Le Yan knew Deng Xuefeng's temper, and asking for leave was like riding on his head, so he only participated in weekend performances or local performances in Kyoto for the "Him in Fireworks" road show, and would not delay his classes.

But there is news from Teacher Huang that he will audition for a youth-themed TV series invested by his company next week. There will be many teachers at the audition site this time, and it is impossible to follow his time, so this leave is necessary.

"What crew? What show?" Deng Xuefeng turned around and looked completely at Le Yan.

This question stopped Le Yan.

Not only did Teacher Huang not give him a script, he didn't even say anything about the name of the TV series. He said that the name of the TV series was not important. Now the policy changes all of a sudden. Maybe the day before it is released, he will order the name to be changed so that Le Yan knows the theme.

"A youth campus drama."

Deng Xuefeng extended his palm to him:

"script."

Half of the strength he had just disappeared in an instant. Leyan lowered his head and said:

"I haven't read the script yet."

Deng Xuefeng slapped the table hard, frightening the teachers chatting next door and scattering:

"You didn't even see the script, so you went to audition?"

"This is what Teacher Huang recommended. Please listen to my explanation——"

I thought that moving out of Huangjie would extinguish some of Deng Xuefeng's anger. Unexpectedly, Deng Xuefeng didn't listen to Leyan's explanation at all, and only expressed his dissatisfaction quickly:

"How many times have I emphasized in class that actors should be responsible for every role they play. Do you understand the character? Do you understand the story? Is the script suitable for you? Is you competent? Can your interpretation be worthy of the audience?"

In Deng Xuefeng's view, Leyan's behavior is very irresponsible.

Actors should appear in dramas to create good characters. They should just go in if they don't know whether they can do it. They should act for the sake of acting.

The atmosphere in the entire office was extremely awkward. Several teachers had not seen Deng Xuefeng lose such a temper in several years. They felt that it was not appropriate for them to stay here under this occasion, so they stood up and left one after another.

Let Le Yan bear this anger alone.

When several female teachers left, they looked at Leyan distressedly.

Poor kid, just be patient and let him vent his anger.

But they didn't expect that Leyan, who was usually taciturn, humble and easy-going, actually opened his mouth to refute:

“How can you know if it’s suitable if you don’t try it?”

Deng Xuefeng didn't expect Le Yan to talk back to him, and asked with a sneer:

"You think what I said is wrong?

Leyan said calmly:

"What you just said is definitely correct under certain conditions, but this right is not necessarily absolute. In my understanding, I can play the role of a student well, but can I really play it well? Same. Li, I don’t think I can play the role of a teacher well, but am I really not able to play the role? You will only know these answers after trying.”

Seeing that Deng Xuefeng was about to interrupt him again, Leyan continued to explain:

"You might say that a good actor must have a clear understanding of his own abilities, but these good actors' understandings are obtained after accumulating a large number of roles. I am definitely not a good actor now, I am just a beginner. I am a college student, but in order to become a good actor, I should speed up and try more. I may not be able to pass the audition of the crew, but I will definitely gain something if I give it a try."

Several teachers in the office who were not afraid of death and did not leave nodded silently when they heard Leyan's words.

Being in school is learning, and joining a film crew is also learning. As long as the scripts are chosen well, the roles are chosen well, and there are actor role models around to learn from, the progress may be faster than in school.

This matter varies from person to person and situation to situation, and cannot be generalized.

Before Deng Xuefeng, there were many students whose ability improvement was affected by indirect dramas during the last semester, but as a teacher, his role should be to supervise and supervise, rather than denying this matter completely.

Teachers should be students' guides and should never make decisions for students.

"You also know that you are a student now? You don't understand what a student should do?" Deng Xuefeng's face turned red with anger.

Le Yan sighed, thinking that Deng Xuefeng had gone around and around and still ended up at this point.

He originally wanted to engage in guerrilla warfare with Deng Xuefeng, but he was afraid that it would be too roundabout and Deng Xuefeng would not be able to understand everyone's mood, so he simply spoke out.

"Students should definitely learn basic knowledge seriously in school, but this world is too cruel. If we miss an opportunity, there may not be another opportunity again. This forces us to seize every opportunity. None can be left behind.”

I studied hard for four years and became the best actor in the whole grade.

But when you look back, you find that a classmate who is much worse than you has already stepped on your head, and in the public eye, he is much more 'successful' than you.

Are you willing to do so?

But this is what can happen in the entertainment industry.

Deng Xuefeng is a good teacher, has excellent acting skills, and is a good actor who gives a thumbs up when mentioned in the industry. But why did he, Teacher Huang and Ge Man take two completely different paths?

Leyan is a layman and most of his classmates are also laymen.

Obviously their pursuits and goals are different from Deng Xuefeng's.

I thought that with what he said so thoroughly, Deng Xuefeng could at least understand his thoughts and communicate well. Unexpectedly, Deng Xuefeng said something that frightened all the teachers in the office.

"It's because of your thoughts that the entertainment industry was ruined."

Le Yan was stunned on the spot.

Hey Hey hey!

Don't say such harsh words!

I'm scared of you being like this.

Deng Xuefeng picked up the scattered chopsticks on the table and wiped them:

"You can go out. Whether you ask for leave or come to class has nothing to do with me."

"This-" Le Yan's eyes widened like bells.

what do you mean?

Want to expel me from the school? !

At this time, the well-meaning script teacher who was not afraid of death came over, took Le Yan and said:

"Hurry up and apologize to Teacher Deng!"

What are you two doing?

Who are you trying to scare by severing ties and not having any contact with each other forever?

Are you putting aside filming idol dramas?

Just as Le Yan was about to speak, Deng Xuefeng interrupted their performance:

"No need to apologize, Le Yan is right. The world is not black and white, and not everything is right or wrong. He doesn't agree with my philosophy, so there is no need to force him to agree."

After saying that, he picked up the already cold lunch and started eating.

The script teacher looked at them both awkwardly, shook his head and left.

Le Yan thought he would panic and sweat profusely at this time, but he had none of these negative emotions.

Looking at Deng Xuefeng's back eating alone, he felt a little sad.

Le Yan thought Bi Xia's words of 'it takes some time' would be at least three to five days, but she didn't expect that she would send Le Yan an address the next night.

Le Yan: "Awesome! I have to treat you to a big dinner!"

Bi Xia: "I'll skip the big meal. If you're tired of eating, bring some more duck necks."

Bi Xia: "Okay, I won't tell you anymore, the vocal teacher and I are going to do manicures."

Le Yan looked at the time, it was only after 7 o'clock.

I also searched the distance between Xie Zhenyuan's home and school. It only took half an hour by car. If I just lay back and forth, I could get back before the dormitory building closed.

So he made a prompt decision and took Qi Rui and Fang Xiaoyu over to visit the patient.

The online car-hailing car parked at the entrance of a community opposite a park.

Xie Zhenyuan often said before that he would stand on the balcony and look at the beauties in the park opposite. It seems that this is the right place.

According to the address given by Bi Xia, we successfully found Xie Zhenyuan's home. The person who opened the door was a middle-aged woman who looked very simple.

"Hello, is this Xie Zhenyuan's house?"

The middle-aged woman obviously showed a vigilant look and was about to close the door:

"No, you found the wrong one."

Leyan quickly introduced himself:

"We are Xie Zhenyuan's classmates."

"Classmate?" The woman left only a small gap and asked doubtfully, "How did the classmate find this?"

Qi Rui is a smart kid. He explained patiently:

"Hello, aunt, my name is Qi Rui, this is Fang Xiaoyu, and that is Le Yan. You can find out if we are his classmates by asking Xie Zhenyuan."

The people in the room obviously listened and said politely before closing the door:

"Just a moment."

A minute later, the woman opened the door excitedly and said anxiously and crying:

"Children, go and see Yuanyuan. He has locked himself in the house for several days."

It was Xie Zhenyuan's mother who opened the door for Leyan and the others.

She doesn't usually live in Kyoto, because Xie Zhenyuan has been in some trouble recently, so she came to take care of her son's daily life.

According to her, Xie Zhenyuan would talk to her on the phone every day after he left home, but after calling the crew, he hung up the phone after saying a few words, and then stopped calling her, only sending occasional WeChat messages.

Her mother asked Xie Zhenyuan several times if something had happened, and he always said it was fine.

But she was worried about her child's condition, so she contacted Xie Zhenyuan's agent. The agent said that Xie Zhenyuan didn't talk to anyone at the scene, and even locked himself up when he returned to the hotel.

This situation became more serious after his scene was completed, and her mother rushed to Beijing.

Such a lively and cheerful child suddenly stopped eating, drinking, and talking. He locked himself in the room all day long. Because the situation did not improve, he took another week off.

After hearing this, Fang Xiaoyu's face changed drastically. While Xie Zhenyuan's mother went to pour water, she whispered to Le Yan and Qi Rui:

"Xie Zhenyuan is possessed by evil spirits?"

Is this something unclean?

"My dad knows a great fairy, and I went to find him in the evening to get his contact information." Qi Rui suddenly clapped his hands, "Young boys are full of yang energy. Let's stay in Xie Zhenyuan's house for a while. By the way, you are still virgins. Right? Just don’t go in."

"Take a break, you guys!" Le Yan frowned and looked at them, "Thankfully you are still college students."

Fang Xiaoyu asked in a low voice while observing the left and right sides vigilantly:

"Then what do you think happened to Xie Zhenyuan?"

"Do you still remember how Xie Zhenyuan described the role he played this time?" Le Yan asked in a low voice.

Qi Rui crossed his arms and recalled.

At the dormitory dinner that day, Xie Zhenyuan talked a lot about this role.

it seems that.

"He said that this time he was going to play a troubled teenager with mental illness. He didn't want to play it originally, but the company said that this movie had the hope of winning awards. It was not easy to get this opportunity to participate, so they forced him to take the challenge. Own."

After hearing Qi Rui's words, Fang Xiaoyu also remembered some details:

"Xie Zhenyuan also said that in movies that can compete for awards, the screenwriter will portray the characters very complexly, and some are even twisted, and his character this time is very twisted."

"So?" Qi Rui and Fang Xiaoyu looked at Le Yan at the same time.

Le Yan looked worriedly towards Xie Zhenyuan's bedroom:

"Xie Zhenyuan is a very hard-working person. Now that he has accepted this role, he will definitely force himself to play him well. I guess he got too deep into the role to complete the role. He has not come out yet."

"Ah? What should we do?" Fang Xiaoyu's expression became more solemn.

Deng Xuefeng often said that being too involved in a drama is a double-edged sword for an actor.

He can make actors become characters and restore all inner logic.

But getting too involved in the drama will cause the actor to lose himself, and in serious cases, he may suffer from mental illness.

And this kind of loss is more likely to occur after playing mentally ill, perverted criminals, prostitutes and other characters with inner pain and melancholy, because after these actors enter the role, part of the hidden personality traits in their hearts happens to be stimulated by the role they play, so they will be extremely painful.

"Let's go back and report this matter to the school to see if we can provide him with professional psychological treatment. If the school's conditions do not allow it, we will find an outside psychological counselor." Leyan stood up and walked to Xie Zhenyuan's room, " I’ll go in and see him first.”

Le Yan did not let Qi Rui and Fang Xiaoyu follow him. The bluffing of these two people was not necessarily a good thing for the current Xie Zhenyuan.

Xie Zhenyuan's mother pushed the room open a small crack, and Le Yan said softly at the door:

"I'm Leyan, I'm in."

Xie Zhenyuan's room was very dark, with the curtains drawn and no lights on. It took Le Yan a few seconds to adjust before he could barely tell his direction.

He saw Xie Zhenyuan sitting at the computer desk, looking straight ahead.

In this environment and atmosphere, Leyan was really glad that he was a virgin.

"Qi Rui and Fang Xiaoyu are here too, outside." Le Yan took a few steps in the direction of Xie Zhenyuan in the dark, "Are you okay?"

Xie Zhenyuan's reaction seemed to have slowed down a lot. He responded more than ten seconds after Leyan asked:

"I'm fine, don't worry, my mother is good at cooking, you can have something to eat at my house before going back."

Xie Zhenyuan's tone was light, not as enthusiastic as before, and his voice was also very erratic.

Le Yan stopped behind Xie Zhenyuan, looked down at him and said:

"Okay, let's go out and eat together."

Xie Zhenyuan's pause this time was not that long, but it was still a few seconds:

"I won't eat, I have no appetite."

"Let's eat together. What are you doing sitting here by yourself?" Le Yan asked in a cheerful tone.

"I'm thinking."

"Thinking about what?"

"Leyan, do you say that people are born with malice? Or does malice gradually appear as they grow up?"

"Why do you need to consider these?" Leyan asked calmly.

Xie Zhenyuan paused for a long time without making a sound. Apparently he didn't want to answer the question, or maybe he didn't want to expose his psychological problems to the outside world.

Le Yan supported the back of his chair:

"I can't say whether malice is innate or not. It's like a social philosophical issue. Do you know the attitude of wise men towards philosophical issues?"

"I don't know." Xie Zhenyuan responded quickly this time.

"Those wise men faced these philosophical issues and emphasized that being tolerant towards things that we don't understand and are uncertain is wisdom, and wisdom can help us deal with all the difficulties in life."

"Are you tolerant of things you don't understand and things you're not sure about?" Xie Zhenyuan repeated.

"Human life is short, but human history and civilization are very long. How can such a small human being know the answers to everything?"

Xie Zhenyuan turned to look at Le Yan behind him.

Because he had adapted to the dark environment, Le Yan found that he had lost a lot of weight, and his chin was covered with stubble.

Is this still the Xie Zhenyuan in his impression?

"But if I can't find the answer, I can't help but keep thinking about it." Xie Zhenyuan said painfully.

Leyan patiently explained:

"You are not 20 years old yet. When you are 40, 50 or even 60 years old, you have seen more scenery and met more people, and you may have the answer when you look back. Why are you so anxious now? ?”

"I can't even think of a question, what else can I do?"

Le Yan immediately interrupted his self-criticism:

"What would you say to me if I had an animal impersonation that I didn't do well in acting class, but you knew I did my best?"

"Don't be discouraged, it will get better and better in the future." Xie Zhenyuan said calmly.

"What would you say if I took a test and couldn't solve a question?" Le Yan continued to ask.

"Write down this knowledge point and learn it again when you go back. You will definitely be able to learn it later."

Le Yan patted Xie Zhenyuan's shoulder and comforted:

"You see you are so tolerant and understanding of me, why can't you be more tolerant of yourself?"

Xie Zhenyuan stopped talking again and just looked at Le Yan blankly.

Le Yan put on more strength, squeezed his shoulders and said:

"If you have a problem that you can't figure out on your own, a few of us will help you figure it out. If a problem you can't solve alone, a few of us will help you figure it out. You still have friends like us. Don't take it all on your shoulders." Be more tolerant and friendly to yourself as you would your friends, okay?"

No matter how bad Xie Zhenyuan's condition was, the first thing he said when he saw Le Yan was to tell them to finish the meal cooked by his mother before leaving.

He has these classmates in his heart.

Similarly, Leyan and the others also have Xie Zhenyuan in their hearts.

Xie Zhenyuan did not come out to eat with them in the end, but before leaving, he came out to see them off.

Seeing Xie Zhenyuan's appearance, Fang Xiaoyu, a big man, almost cried. He kept telling embarrassing jokes that could freeze people to death to relieve his mood.

After leaving Xie Zhenyuan's house, Qi Rui said that he would find a psychological counselor for Xie Zhenyuan soon.

Seeing that Leyan was silent all the way out, they asked curiously:

"Le Yan, don't you have any thoughts when you see Xie Zhenyuan like this?"

Le Yan's thoughts were already expressed when he was alone with Xie Zhenyuan.

He has only one thought now:

Actors must have a clear understanding of their abilities. It is too dangerous to touch characters beyond their abilities.

Xie Zhenyuan is an example.

Cognition must be obtained through continuous role shaping, continuous summarization of experience, and continuous exploration.

This further strengthened his determination to go out of school and practice.

Sorry, Teacher Deng.

There is more than one path to being a good actor.

I will definitely prove to you that good stars can also be good actors.

　There is only one chapter today, no need to wait, I will resume it tomorrow with 2 chapters and words.

　　

　

(End of this chapter)