I am reborn and refuse to be a sickly rich woman

Chapter 127 Yao Mingyue’s confession, my sweetheart. (Xiaowan please subscribe!)

As night falls, there is still a touch of golden light in the sky.

Under the spotlight, Yao Mingyue was dressed in a white dress, which made her slim figure look even more perfect, and her white skin was as hazy as the moonlight.

Her delicate hands caressed the piano, and a faint melancholy tune floated melodiously in the air...

"Dandelion Promise"

This song has "promise" written throughout it, but "regret" everywhere.

"The dandelions beside the primary school fence are the scenery with flavor in my memory..."

Yao Mingyue's voice was full of reminiscence in the first two sentences, which seemed to bring the two of them back many years ago.

The two families have lived across from each other for as long as they can remember.

Xu Musen and Yao Mingyue were born three months apart.

It made the two families burst into laughter. On that day, the two families were talking about whether they wanted to arrange a baby wedding or something like that.

As a result, Yao Mingyue lay on the ground with the bottle and looked at it for a long time. She didn't choose anything, but wandered to Xu Musen who was watching on the side.

Of course, it's more like children playing house.

Just like this lyric, before graduating from elementary school, it was the most comfortable and happiest time in her life.

Later, after entering elementary school, Yao Mingyue became more and more beautiful, and the child actually knew a lot of things when he was in elementary school.

Yao Mingyue liked flowers when she was a child, so she would pick some small yellow flowers, foxtail grass, and dandelions that would scatter when blown by the wall of the elementary school.

Xu Musen silently looked at Yao Mingyue, who was sitting under the spotlight and playing the piano. She had bright eyes, white teeth, and beautiful eyes.

However, all this beauty seems to have stopped in the summer after graduating from elementary school...

So when they were at school, Xu Musen would always pretend not to be familiar with each other.

Yao Mingyue liked to wear a small skirt and asked Xu Musen to hold her schoolbag for her. Then she picked up a dandelion and blew it away in front of him.

It still sounds good after so many years..."

Someone has a crush on someone, and many of the "seniors" in the fifth and sixth grade have already begun to fall in love secretly.

If the child catches one of them, the family will cultivate her hobby in this area.

After all, there were no contact methods such as QQ at that time. As my parents' jobs changed, they both went to other cities.

“The sound of cicadas came from the nap playground.

It seems that I always want to find myself among the crowd.

The four lyrics bring people into those beautiful childhood memories, just like a dandelion seed from childhood, now falling in my heart.

After all, he is still a child.

At this time, Xu Musen and Yao Mingyue already felt that they were not able to deal with each other.

She had to follow Xu Musen no matter what. Xu Musen was actually very naughty at that time and would sometimes bully her from time to time.

I heard from my mother that when Yao Mingyue was one year old, she was asked to draw lots at home, and there were abacus, paintbrushes, musical instruments, etc. on the floor.

For children who have just entered elementary school, their little hearts cannot hold so many things.

Yao Mingyue's voice contained some sad memories.

“Send your wish origami airplane as a letter

And that day happened to be the night before Yao Mingyue's birthday.

Maybe many people still don’t even remember their names.

Moreover, because the two were childhood sweethearts, children who lived near each other often called Yao Mingyue her child bride and Xu Musen her child bride.

After all, when they go to elementary school, boys and girls have awakened their secondary consciousness and feel that it would be too childish to play with each other again.

Seeing him sneezing itchy, she jumped happily and ran ahead.

He grabbed Xu Musen in one fell swoop, babbling as if he was talking about something, and never let go.

Because we can’t wait for the meteor..."

Yao Mingyue would also lean against the tree with him, and hum some songs in her mouth, which were particularly nice to hear along with the chirping of cicadas.

At school, during physical education class, Xu Musen would lie down in the shade of the lawn and take a nap lazily, listening to the chirping of cicadas and the breeze.

Sometimes I feel “it’s quite embarrassing.”

The summer after they graduated from elementary school, Father Xu and Father Yao drove to discuss business, but there was a car accident on the road.

But when school is over, the two of them always go to and from school together in perfect harmony.

Of course, that means pinching her face, or grabbing her snacks.

In fact, most people have their childhood sweethearts when they were young, but most of them have faded into memory.

Memories of the past came flooding back, and they were also beautiful memories that he could never forget.

Even Yao's father's car contained carefully prepared gifts for Yao Mingyue.

Later, the two went to kindergarten together. In fact, at that time, Yao Mingyue was the follower.

Father Yao is a very gentle man and treats Xu Musen very well, just like another father.

For Yao Mingyue, her mother is as warm as the sun, and her father is like the stars in the sky. His shadow silently accompanies her wherever she goes.

However, after that night, the brightest star streaked across the night sky like a shooting star and disappeared from sight.

For a child who has just graduated from elementary school and is about to celebrate his twelfth birthday.

The pain of losing a loved one is enough to crush a person.

That summer vacation, Yao Mingyue spent her first birthday without her father helping her put candles on her birthday cake, and also the first birthday she spent in the hospital.

A day that made her hate her birthday so much for the first time.

From that day on, Yao Mingyue's personality quietly changed. Her father passed away, and her mother had to leave her to travel around in order to support the family.

A twelve-year-old child spends every day in an empty home.

The compensation saved her from the embarrassment of life, but her inner loneliness and pain were unimaginable.

From that day on, she didn't like to laugh that much. She always felt that everything would leave her...

On the stage, Yao Mingyue recalled these scenes in her mind. There was sadness that had been hidden for a long time in the depths of her eyes, and there was some confusion in her voice.

“Toss the coin of fate carefully.

But I don’t know where to go…”

She at that time.

Like a discarded kitten that has just been weaned, she can only curl up in her cat's nest every day, with the wind and rain outside, and she meows softly, hoping to get a response from her parents.

However, the only response she received was the echo of her own meow...

It's like standing on a crossroads, not knowing where to go.

That kind of confusion, sadness, and some despair and powerlessness turned into singing and spread in every corner of the playground at this moment.

Many people have sad emotions in their eyes, who didn't have a few sad past events when they were young.

Just like two sides of the same coin, people always hope that the coin can give its own answer.

But the moment the coin is thrown into the air, you actually already have the answer in your heart.

However, most of us are not willing to face such an ending.

Xu Musen looked at Yao Mingyue quietly. He could not forget that night. From that night on, the relationship between the two quietly changed.

Both Yao's father and Xu's father were rescued in the hospital. During those few days, Liu Rushuang and Xu's mother were very busy.

There was no time to comfort the two children.

Xu Musen and Yao Mingyue were sitting on the bench in the hospital corridor. Yao Mingyue had cried dryly.

She hugged her body and huddled on the bench. It was the most helpless moment in her life.

The prepared birthday cake was also thrown aside, just like she was abandoned.

At this time, it was Xu Musen who gently held her in his arms and gently stroked her trembling head.

"And me, I will take good care of you for Uncle Yao, forever..."

Children never understand how far away they are.

But Yao Mingyue is really remembered forever.

She hugged Xu Musen's arms tremblingly, and the tears that had dried up fell again.

Xu Musen, who was also twelve years old, had a not-so-forgiving embrace, but it became her only safe haven at that time.

A small seed was planted in her heart.

Afterwards, Xu Musen picked up the cake that fell on the ground, and the adults had no time to care about them.

Xu Musen pulled Yao Mingyue, and in the corridor of the hospital, Xu Musen helped her put twelve candles on the incomplete cake.

"Make a wish..."

Xu Musen comforted her softly. Although he was only twelve years old, as a little man, he had to take good care of her.

Yao Mingyue made two wishes.

One failed, but the other became the courage to keep her alive.

She will never forget that Xu Musen cut a cake for her at the corner of the cold hospital stairs.

Holding it in front of her: "Xiao Yue, I know you are sad, but your future life will definitely be like this cake, getting sweeter and sweeter. Let's pull the hook..."

At that moment, Yao Mingyue imprinted the words "I will always be with you" on the person in front of her in her heart.

The two people's fingers hooked together like the most reliable contract in the world.

It was like a beam of light in a desperate situation, illuminating the position in her heart, and making her extremely afraid of losing this only beam of light.

The seed of worry about gains and losses still began to take root in Yao Mingyue's heart.

Her fingers caressed the piano, and the sound was like light emerging from a crack in the darkness.

"A promise to grow up together.

It’s so clear and I’ve checked the box, I believe…”

Her voice had the power of the morning sun, but it also had a sense of sadness about gains and losses, and there was a trace of tears in her eyes.

Xu Musen naturally remembered that day when he and Yao Mingyue made wishes on the broken cake, but neither of them had much appetite.

Yao Mingyue was called away by Liu Rushuang, and the doctor asked her family members to go to the intensive care unit.

Xu Musen looked at the remaining cake.

He naively believes that his birthday wish can only come true if he eats the birthday cake. If one more person eats it, there will be more blessings.

He went along the ward and sent cakes to many people to cheer them up.

I just hope her wish will come true.

They both hope that they can become each other's support.

Xu Musen lowered his head and looked at his little finger.

A promise that I once ticked off...

In fact, neither of them broke their promise, they just took a crooked path, just like choosing the wrong path. The harder they walked, the farther they pushed each other.

Xu Musen didn't notice that at this moment, An Nuannuan's peach blossom eyes were full of emotions, which was the expression she always showed.

There seemed to be a picture in her mind, a pale hospital ward filled with disinfectant, and that figure that suddenly appeared...

She couldn't help but quietly moved closer to him, and looked towards the stage.

Yao Mingyue's voice also carried a change that was revitalized.

“We agreed to move forward together.

This is the only willfulness you insist on now..."

At this moment, the piano music is like a new life, but also like melancholy and confusion.

After that day, Yao's father finally left.

In order to support the family, Liu Rushuang traveled to various places all year round. Yao Mingyue's daily life was almost at Xu Musen's house.

The relationship between the two people also began to change a little bit.

At that time, Xu Musen's kindness to Yao Mingyue came more from the kindness of a childhood sweetheart, like a brother who takes care of his sister.

After all, we have been together for so long, so we are so familiar.

The excitement of puberty is actually just one or two moments.

Xu Musen didn't realize what he liked, and he even got along well with a girl in his class at that time.

There is even a slight hint of it.

But with the huge changes in Xu Musen's family conditions, the girl ignored Xu Musen because he didn't have money to buy snacks for her.

She even said bad things about him in front of the class.

It was Yao Mingyue who showed up to help Xu Musen. She directly grabbed Xu Musen's hand.

He spoke in front of the whole class.

"Xu Musen is the most important person to me. I will beat anyone who bullies him!"

At that time, Yao Mingyue was really like a crazy little lion, the kind that would really hit people. The changes in her family made her inner fragile, but at the same time, it also gave her a shell full of thorns. .

Xu Musen is her last support at this moment. She has lost a lot, and he is her last and only one.

From then on, Xu Musen had some strange feelings towards his childhood sweetheart.

Because when she is around Yao Mingyue, others will look at her with envy, and the little boy's vanity is also satisfied.

Yao Mingyue also became wary. She also realized that Xu Musen had reached the age where he would be interested in girls.

Girls actually mature a year or two earlier than boys, and Xu Musen has always been quite handsome in appearance. Many girls liked to surround him in the past.

After this incident, she suddenly felt a sense of crisis. What if this girl hadn't rejected Xu Musen.

What if the two of them really get together?
Does that mean that even his last support will be taken away?

In Yao Mingyue's heart, the extreme lack of security gradually began to get out of control.

She was worried that one day Xu Musen would be snatched away by someone else, and this worry about gain and loss gradually turned into possessiveness.

The two began to get along with each other with different thoughts, and entered high school together from junior high school.

This is also an important turning point in their lives.

Because, starting from high school, Xu Musen finally changed her love from childhood sweetheart to a girl.

Yao Mingyue's singing continued.

"I was forced to stand in the corridor and slap my palms.

But we pay attention to the dragonflies by the window.

You follow me closely wherever I go..."

There was a hint of joy in the memory in her voice, because it was the day before Xu Musen's sudden change in personality.

In fact, the two of them have been getting closer and closer.

Because of the changes in his family, Xu Musen was inevitably affected, and his grades were not maintained very well, making him feel like he was being ignored by everyone.

Yao Mingyue's family has improved little by little, and her grades are also among the best.

The most important thing is that she is getting more and more beautiful, shining with envy and admiration wherever she goes.

The gap between the two seemed to be getting bigger and bigger. Xu Musen was the first to panic, especially when he saw some outstanding boys starting to pursue Yao Mingyue.

Because of their status as childhood sweethearts, he would always go with Yao Mingyue.

He would always be in the same group as Yao Mingyue during lunch, physical education classes, and even cleaning. Even when handing in homework, he would carefully paste his and her homework books together.

Sometimes in class, Xu Musen would look at Yao Mingyue's back in a daze. The teacher would catch him distracted and send him to the corridor. If he couldn't recite the book, he would slap his palms.

But he always smiled and was not afraid of pain at all. When Yao Mingyue sat in the classroom, she would turn her head and look at Xu Musen who was being slapped on the palm.

I just feel that this moment is so beautiful... Xu Musen finally couldn't hold it anymore, and began to show his affection to Yao Mingyue little by little. When he was divided into classes in the second year of high school, Xu Musen handed over his first love letter.

It's not that Yao Mingyue has never considered being with him, but most of her romances in high school were based on whims.

The separation and reintegration happened too quickly.

If the classmates around me are in love, if it lasts for more than a few months, it is considered a long time.

And once these people break up, they can't even be friends, and they will even deliberately avoid them when they meet.

It's funny, two people may be together for a long time, but it only takes a moment to break up.

Most people may think this is normal, but for Yao Mingyue who has already lost everything once.

She can't accept any more loss, and she can't bear the consequences of breaking up.

Unless... two people can guarantee that they will never be separated for the rest of their lives.

Yao Mingyue did not reject him, but silently did not respond, but Xu Musen chased her harder and harder.

Xu Musen just wants to tell everyone and let these people retreat in spite of the difficulties.

But in her eyes, Xu Musen, who worked so hard to be with her, played into her hands.

It gave Yao Mingyue a great sense of security, which made Yao Mingyue seem to have found a way to be with him forever.

Anyway, in the end, as long as they are together, whatever they once owed him, they will slowly make up for it... As long as they have each other, it is enough.

This thought was still the same as of two months ago.

But everything changed completely with Xu Musen's sudden change.

He seemed to have changed overnight, and even when he looked at himself, there was an indescribable... deliberate alienation.

Yao Mingyue's heart felt like it was being grabbed hard, squeezing out all the sense of security she had accumulated over the years.

Especially when the girl named An Nuannuan appeared and took away the positions and preferences that should have belonged to her...

We used to go shopping together, eat together, watch movies together, go to and from school together, and do many, many things together...

His life seemed to have stayed the same, but the person following him was no longer her.

At this moment, she seemed to have become a dandelion, swaying in the wind, not knowing where to float.

“Fold your wishes into paper airplanes and send them as letters, because we can’t wait for the shooting star.

I carefully cast the coin that determines my fate, but I don’t know where to go..."

Yao Mingyue's voice was sour, and tears were shining in her eyes. An unspeakable emotion brought everyone into it.

Everyone looked at the girl who was under the spotlight at the moment, wearing an exquisite dress and looking like a white swan.

She should have been the most shining, the most precious treasure that should be held in people's hands.

But with these two sentences, she felt like a kitten about to be abandoned again. She couldn't wait for the arrival of her master, nor could she wait for the shooting star to make a wish.

Wandering around the intersection, not knowing where to go...

This girl who has been strong all her life is actually more fragile than anyone else. It seems that she has many choices.

But in her world, there seemed to be no multiple-choice questions, only an opening essay about longing for a sense of security.

"Damn it! Whoever makes such a girl sad should be damned!"

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu It sounds uncomfortable to me. What on earth has such a good girl gone through..."

Many people in the audience looked at Yao Mingyue, who seemed to be in tears under the spotlight.

It seems that I have imagined a childhood love drama with a tragic and regretful ending.

Xu Musen was silent. He looked at Yao Mingyue, her heart sealed by cement seemed a little uneasy.

Yes, I have the memories of my previous life, and I feel that I no longer owe her anything, and I can leave the scene in style.

But what about her?

What would happen to her if she left?
Xu Musen looked at her for a long time.

He won't gamble with the outcome of his life, but maybe he can find another path that is good for both of them...

Just like this lyrics.

"The promise of growing up together is so clear.

I believe it if it's checked.

The agreement to travel together is the only willfulness you insist on now..."

No matter what, when two people cuddled together and became each other's support, the sincerity was the purest and purest.

Before this happened, the two families would go on trips together if nothing happened.

But after the bankruptcy, the family was in embarrassment. During the summer vacation, Xu Musen would go to the house to help.

Although Yao Mingyue has time and money, in her heart, only Xu Musen is safe.

So she rarely went out, and Xu Musen was so stupid that he envied Yao Mingyue why she didn't go out for travel even though she had money.

He also said that when the two of them get rich, they will hang out together.

The two of them dreamed of going to many places together, and the one they wanted to go to the most was the seaside, so they went to Shanghai University together all their lives.

But now...

Yao Mingyue felt sour. Just yesterday, she wanted him to go and see the riverside on the Bund, but she had to meet certain conditions.

What was once within easy reach is now farther and farther away from her...so far away that she seems to be unable to see clearly.

Those promises that were made in the past are like blown dandelions at this moment. When the wind blows, they dissipate...

Yao Mingyue did not gain nothing.

She could feel that Xu Musen still had her somewhere in his heart.

He was worried about something happening.

Thinking of what Xu Musen said to her.

If the two of them are really together, even if they are really married, can they really get the sense of security they want?
Can two people really get the happiness they want when they are together?
As he said, in fact, neither of them understands love.

Being a childhood sweetheart is both a source of confidence and a curse.

It's like guarding a golden mountain, but there is no key to correctly open the door to the golden mountain.

In fact, there are many keys to open the door of love.

"Appearance", "Character", "Family", "Dependence"...

Maybe they already have these factors, but these feelings are mixed together.

They go shopping together, eat together, go to school together and go home together, watch movies together, spend every festival together, even New Year's Eve together, and sometimes live in the same room and bed...

They already know each other better than some couples.

In many cases, they even care about and like each other more than lovers.

However, they can no longer tell whether it is the promised friendship or the vague love between them...

But these seemed to be slowly leaving her and them.

Just like the petals on a dandelion, they were hugging each other tightly, but when a gust of wind blew, they scattered.

Yao Mingyue's heart felt tight and throbbing, and her voice trembled.

"A promise to grow up together.

So sincere.

I can’t finish talking to you about the past…”

She will always remember what he said while holding her that night in the hospital.

I will always be with you, forever...

Unexpectedly, this eternity turned out to be only more than ten years.

Yao Mingyue doesn't blame anyone, because she also knows that Xu Musen does not owe her anything.

He had already fulfilled the promise he made, but she was too greedy.

She also thought about what she liked about him?
Many keywords flashed through Yao Mingyue's mind.

But when it came to my mouth, I seemed to understand that those things seemed to be a kind of habit and dependence.

Yao Mingyue regarded Xu Musen as her dependence, as the last life-saving straw, as the only person she had to choose in her life, as the person who would never leave her...

She likes the sense of security that Xu Musen gives her, likes Xu Musen's gentleness, likes that he will be jealous for her, and likes that he will always appear when she needs him most.

But these likes and habits are equally suitable for childhood sweethearts.

Xu Musen gave her a sense of security.

But as for myself, it seems that I have never given a reason to like him.

One is not a childhood sweetheart, not a neighbor for many years, not a so-called brother and sister, but a reason only for "Xu Musen" and "Yao Mingyue" to be together.

Let's start again.

Yao Mingyue's fingers gently fell on the piano and gently played the last note.

"And I can't tell the difference anymore

Are you friendship, or am I missing love..."

Yao Mingyue's voice was like a floating dandelion that had finally shed its last seed.

Whether it is friendship or love, for Yao Mingyue, these are the memories that belong to her and Xu Musen in the past twenty years.

No one can take it away, and no one can replicate it...

The audience was silent, and as the last few notes were played, the audience burst into applause.

Whose youth has no one who cannot love but cannot be loved? At this moment, like this song, it turns into dandelions falling from the sky...

Yao Mingyue's eyes looked at the crowded auditorium, and some feelings, even if she didn't express them clearly, would transcend the distance between people's hearts.

At this moment, she seemed to finally understand what true security meant.

Even if they are not together, even if others don't know their past, everyone will still applaud and cheer for their agreement.

It was even more passionate and sincere than other people's confessions just now.

Perhaps this is the real sense of security.

Identity and sincerity.

Yao Mingyue finally understood something.

At this moment, off the stage, both Zhou Hangyu and Li Rundong felt their eye sockets sore.

"How come Xu Musen, this bastard, is so lucky? Why don't you cherish having such a childhood sweetheart with you since childhood..."

Even Lin Daiyu couldn't control the tears in the corners of her eyes, she wiped her cheeks.

I wanted to say something, but in the end I just sighed.

There are rarely winners in relationships, most of them are just mutual redemption...

Zhao Liimai silently looked at Yao Mingyue who was shining on the stage at this moment, and in the end he just shook his head slightly.

At this moment, Xu Musen and An Nuannuan were silent.

Xu Musen's heart is far less peaceful than his appearance. His childhood sweetheart of nearly twenty years cannot be easily forgotten.

This song suits both of them.

Friendship or love...

Who can distinguish it clearly, or... is it really necessary to distinguish it so clearly?
An Nuannuan pursed her lips, her peach blossom eyes filled with complex emotions that she didn't usually have.

She wanted to reach out and hold Xu Musen, but she retracted timidly, fearing to disturb his mood at the moment.

He Qiang looked at Xu Musen, Yao Mingyue, and An Nuannuan, who was cautious at the moment.

As an outsider, he felt very entangled at the moment. He always felt that his brother's love life would not be dull in the future.

Oh, what do you mean by falling in love?
It is better to go fishing and catch as many fish as you want.

Yao Mingyue picked up the microphone on the piano and slowly walked to the middle of the stage.

Her eyes moved among the crowd, and she raised the microphone, her beautiful cheeks and tearful eyes shining in the spotlight.

With a smile, she stood in the spotlight: "This song is for me to give to the boy who is most important to me in the world right now."

As soon as she said her words, the whole place immediately erupted into excitement, with the boys wailing.

"It's over, it's over. I really came here to express my love. Damn it!"

"My goddess, wuwu...which bastard had his beard cut off?"

"Goddess! Do you really have a boyfriend?"

"I said...she won't really come to confess her feelings."

Zhou Hangyu and Li Rundong swallowed their saliva. In addition to envy and jealousy, they also felt that if she said Xu Musen's name today.

It is estimated that Xu Musen will become famous in the entire university forum tonight.

This sentence "the most important" is really touching.

Isn't this more lethal than "I love you"?
At this moment, Xu Musen was also moving slightly, looking at Yao Mingyue, it was not surprising that this little yandere could do anything.

but.

Yao Mingyue faced waves of cheers from the audience, but she smiled and shook her head: "It's not my boyfriend. Now... I am chasing him."

Yao Mingyue's words were so candid that the boys below were even more shocked.

Are there any men that such outstanding girls can’t get?
People are so irritating!

Lin Daiyu, who had always disliked her, actually felt a little admired at this moment.

At the very least, she really dared to put down all her reserve to express her feelings in front of so many people.

She doesn't have such courage...

An Nuannuan's small hands were tightly holding the handle of the wheelchair at this moment. She also had a feeling at this moment, as if her precious things were about to be taken away again...

Yao Mingyue looked at the crowd again, she took a breath slowly and smiled.

"However, I can't say his name." Yao Mingyue avoided the name.

This made Xu Musen a little bit unexpected, if she had the same yandere mentality as before.

Now I will definitely say it at all costs.

But now...

On the stage, Yao Mingyue looked around with beautiful eyes.

“But I still want to tell you today, I remember what you told me.

I hope one day I can truly learn to like other people's feelings.

I will find that feeling, but I have a small mind and I cannot learn to like so many people. It is enough for me to like you. "

Yao Mingyue's eyes searched the crowd, and she seemed to be looking at Xu Musen across the space.

There were still regrets and tears on her beautiful cheeks, but they still couldn't hide her excellence and innate pride and confidence.

"My dear Mr. Zhuma, thank you for waiting for me and doting on me for more than ten years.

In the coming years, it will be my turn.

Please wait for me again, I will say to you, I love you. "

After Yao Mingyue said that, she bowed slightly, as proud as a white swan.

At this moment, for the first time, I bowed my head slightly in front of everyone.

However, when a swan bows its head, it does not mean admitting defeat.

But for the next time to spread your wings and fly high.

(End of this chapter)