I am reborn and refuse to be a sickly rich woman

Chapter 191 In the next life, I will never be my childhood sweetheart with you again... (Confession.)
Facing the murderous Yao Mingyue.

The temperature in the entire underwear store seemed to be a little lower.

If a boy buys underwear for a girl, unless they are family members, they can only be a couple.

After all, if friends of the opposite sex give these things to each other, then to be honest, the other party is definitely not a good person, unless they are gay.

Yao Mingyue had always felt that something was wrong with Xu Musen today, and it seemed that her attitude towards her today was a little too good.

The good thing is that before abandoning your pets, you will always give the cats and dogs the best canned food.

"Let's go out first."

Xu Musen thought that he would at least complete the task assigned by Aunt Liu today. After buying the clothes, Xu Musen would tell her everything.

But looking at the current situation, it should be impossible to hide it.

Xu Musen didn't want to say this in front of others.

Yao Mingyue didn't want to talk about the two of them in public, but at this moment, she really felt that her emotions were difficult to control.

Xu Musen reached out, grabbed her wrist, and took her out directly.

The store manager was left in a daze.

I was wondering if I... let out something with my mouth?
Xu Musen pulled Yao Mingyue out of the mall.

It's getting dark outside.

Shanghai, a city that never sleeps, only becomes more prosperous at night, with hurried pedestrians on the road, people coming off work, shopping, or just taking a walk.

This became a lively center.

The night is always lively, and the mood is always the most chaotic and active. There is a saying, don't make any decisions at night.

Because my thoughts at night are too emotional.

Yao Mingyue was caught by him. If it were normal, she would happily hold his hand instead, but at this moment.

As if she was about to be dragged into the execution ground, she stared blankly at Xu Musen, who was silent at the moment.

She always felt that the line that had always been tied between the two people seemed to be broken.

Riverside Park.

Xu Musen stopped and was on the other side of the bridge, where he and An Nuannuan expressed their feelings to each other a few days ago.

The night view here is very beautiful. Although it is not as prosperous as the Bund, there is a unique feeling of sitting quietly and watching the prosperity here.

"Xu Musen!"

Yao Mingyue grabbed Xu Musen's arm with her backhand. Her voice was trembling slightly as she looked at Xu Musen.

"What...are you going to say to me?"

Yao Mingyue still didn't express her thoughts directly. She kept thinking that as long as she didn't mention those things, they could continue to get along as before.

Just like an ostrich with its head buried in its feathers, if you can't see it, you won't be in danger.

But she also knew that those were all self-deceiving thoughts.

But until now, she still has the last trace of luck left. Maybe...it hasn't reached the stage she thought it was?

As long as he denies it, the two of them can still get along as before.

"Mingyue."

Xu Musen whispered her name.

It's like a roll call before going to the execution ground.

He looked at the girl in front of him who was trembling slightly. Yao Mingyue, who was eighteen years old this year, was not as crazy and extreme as in her previous life.

Her heart is still so sensitive and delicate.

Xu Musen knew that what he said today would be extremely difficult for her to accept, but the long-term pain was not as good as the short-term pain.

He sighed slightly in his heart, lowered his head, looked into Yao Mingyue's eyes, and spoke slowly.

"Nuan Nuan and I have decided to be together."

The river wind was cold, but not as cold as these words. It was like a cold wave of hail falling in Yao Mingyue's heart.

Her heart seemed to stop beating for a few seconds with this sentence.

Although she had guessed it just now, when she heard this sentence with her own ears, she felt her mind spinning.

The bitterness from all directions is like the night wind carrying mist and cold air by the river, carrying the fallen leaves, withered and yellow, dead...

Yao Mingyue didn't yell or be hysterical. She just felt that her throat was being pinched and she couldn't get a breath out.

The position of her heart felt like it was being squeezed tightly by a big cold hand. It hurt, but she could hardly feel it anymore.

Her body staggered, and the hand holding Xu Musen seemed to have lost its strength at the moment. Her body staggered, as if she was about to fall to the ground because she was unsteady.

Xu Musen went to help her, but Yao Mingyue grabbed the fence next to her. Her eyes were red and her tears were unfulfilled.

"Don't come here!"

Yao Mingyue bit her lip, almost breaking it. This may be the first time in so long that she said to Xu Musen, "Don't come close to me."

Xu Musen's movements trembled and he looked at Yao Mingyue at this moment.

She leaned against the guardrail by the river. The cold wind by the river was like sharp thorns, piercing her heart along with her breath. There were tears in her eyes.

Those red phoenix eyes were full of panic, fear and confusion at this moment, just like the night she lost her father six years ago.

That dark moment of being abandoned by the one you love the most.

At this moment, she was like an abandoned pet, at a loss, scared, sad, confused...

Xu Musen wanted to reach out, but he no longer knew how to comfort her.

Neither of them felt sorry for the other. The debt from the previous life had been written off. In this life, Xu Musen wanted to choose his own life, and neither of them was wrong.

However, even though he said this, when he really saw Yao Mingyue's expression at this moment, Xu Musen's heart could not be as calm as he imagined.

"Why...why, didn't we agree before, you wait for me to slowly find everything I like about you, what you said..."

Yao Mingyue leaned on the railing, and the last hope in her heart seemed to be extinguished at this moment.

"I have told you before, don't waste your time on me. In fact, you are very good, but I am more thinking about my own life now. Maybe I am really not suitable for other identities."

Xu Musen said softly.

"But I have worked very hard to change it!"

Yao Mingyue squeezed out her voice, with tears in her eyes and her hands and feet trembling: "I have worked really hard, I can't bear to think about you, not to see you, not to disturb you, no Go make you annoy me...

Obviously, we have all become very good recently, right? Why...why don't you wait for me a little longer..."

Yao Mingyue's tears rolled down her cheeks, and her heart broke with the pain of breaking, just like the dead leaves that fell in this season, breaking into broken leaves at the first touch.

Xu Musen had actually been telling her not to waste time on him.

But looking at Yao Mingyue at this moment, Xu Musen felt that his chest was feeling tight.

"I'm sorry, but at this point, it's meaningless to say all this. Mingyue, you should also have your own life, and don't let the past keep delaying your future life."

Xu Musen's tone was complicated. When he looked at Yao Mingyue at this moment, he felt that he no longer had the pleasure of getting rid of her when he was just reborn.

On the contrary, there were some indescribable emotions in his heart, running around like headless flies in his heart. "But you are my future!"

Yao Mingyue bit her lip. She suddenly supported her body again. She staggered to Xu Musen. She stretched out her hand and tightly grabbed the corner of Xu Musen's clothes.

She raised her head, her tired eyes were now bloodshot, and she opened her lips.

"Xu Musen...please don't be with her, okay...I can continue to change, I can become better, just wait for me, okay? Let's just pretend that no one has said what we just said...We can still be the same as before, okay?" good?"

Yao Mingyue's words seemed to have no logic, and there was a rare pleading in her tone. She tightly grasped Xu Musen's sleeves and used the most humble tone.

She didn't dare to ask for the two of them to be together now. She even just wanted to go back to the state where Xu Musen ignored her. At least at that time, she always had some opportunities.

Xu Musen looked at Yao Mingyue at this moment, just like that night six years ago, her whole body was trembling, praying for an answer.

It's a pity that this world can't start over again.

"sorry,"

Xu Musen shook his head. He knew that Yao Mingyue had changed a lot. For this proud and sensitive girl, these changes really made her great determination.

But there is actually no right or wrong in some things, and not all efforts will necessarily yield results.

During this period, with the appearance of An Nuannuan, Xu Musen gained many things from her that he was missing.

The kind of freedom that comes from the soul allowed him to confirm his choice.

Yao Mingyue's body trembled, and the last flickering light in her eyes seemed to dissipate. The expectant and humble look on her face turned black at this moment.

She clenched her fist and hit Xu Musen on the chest: "You can't be nice to her! Xu Musen, you go and break up with her now. I'll just pretend that nothing happened and I'll still be with you!"

She roared, her voice hoarse. She hit Xu Musen, but just after she punched him twice, she suddenly put her hand away, and the angry expression on her face became a little at a loss.

She gently touched the place where she hit him just now, and her whole body was like a deflated rubber ball.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...Xu Musen, I really can't live without you, please don't abandon me, okay? You promised me before, you will stay with me for the rest of my life..."

Yao Mingyue's emotions seemed to be out of control, just like duckweed on the water.

Her previous willfulness was because Xu Musen would always silently endure her little temper behind her.

But at this moment, she seemed to have nothing left. The feeling of powerlessness made her like a drowning person, but she couldn't grasp the last straw.

To her, Xu Musen was a ray of light in the dark night, giving her hope to live again.

But now, he wanted to take away this light with his own hands.

How can a person who has seen the light continue to endure the darkness.

"I promised you that I will always take care of you, but Mingyue, even if I stay with you all the time, will you feel at ease in your heart?"

Xu Musen spoke slowly. In fact, he had already discussed this topic with Yao Mingyue several times.

Yao Mingyue bit her lip. Of course she knew, but she really had no way to leave Xu Musen.

She knew what was wrong with her, but Xu Musen was the only medicine that could cure her at the moment. Without him, Yao Mingyue didn't know if she could even hold on to tomorrow.

Xu Musen sighed and put his hand on her head, just like he did six years ago to comfort her.

"Mingyue, I will not break my promise. I will do my best to help you in the future. After all, we are still childhood sweethearts. After all, our two families have long been like relatives. No matter what our identities are, if you encounter difficulties, I will not help you." I will stand by and watch, but I hope that we can all have the ability to solve problems on our own. The problems in your heart always need to be faced by yourself. "

The warmth from the palms on the top of her head gave Yao Mingyue a sense of comfort in her trembling body.

Yao Mingyue pressed her red lips, her eyes filled with bitterness: "I know, I know everything, but I really can't live without you. I know I have problems, but I know better that even if I really Well, I can't live without you, Xu Musen, you can say that I haven't recognized myself yet, but you can't deny that I like you, even if it's not as pure as you didn't say, but I only know that I will only like you. Before Yes, it is now, and it will be in the future!”

Yao Mingyue said, she looked at Xu Musen, she couldn't help but hug him, this warm embrace.

At this moment, the cold night seems to have ushered in the last bit of warmth.

But she knew Xu Musen. Now that he had made such a choice, she knew that she would not be able to save him today.

Her words just now were firm, but she still couldn't help crying, and her tears soaked Xu Musen's clothes.

She hugged him tightly, because she knew that if she let go, she might never have another chance again.

He said that he had always taken care of her, but they were just childhood sweethearts.

Childhood sweethearts…

The identity she was once most proud of, but now she feels that it is more like a curse.

Since ancient times, have childhood sweethearts always been unable to withstand the consequences of heaven...

This identity that she has always been proud of has now become an insurmountable Milky Way between two people.

The river wind blew, bringing a bone-chilling chill.

Xu Musen wanted to push her away, but Yao Mingyue held her tightly.

"It's time for us to start our new lives. You are tired today, so go back and rest early."

Xu Musen didn't know what to say to her. At this time, he could only wait for time to slowly fade everything.

Yao Mingyue was in his arms. She didn't speak. At this moment, she couldn't say a word.

It was as if someone had dug out a part of her heart. She understood everything, but she really couldn't accept it.

She still slowly let go of Xu Musen, but her eyes were empty, as if all the light had been taken away.

She looked at Xu Musen dully, her lips were dry and trembled twice, and the pain of peeling off cocoons made her almost numb to breathe.

"it is good…"

The word escaped her lips.

She shook her steps, and Xu Musen looked at her silently for a while. He turned back to the bench nearby and picked up a bag of clothes he bought today.

"Xu Musen..."

The girl's emotionless voice sounded.

Xu Musen turned his head, but his eyes suddenly widened at this moment.

I saw Yao Mingyue, already standing precariously on the guardrail by the river. This scene was so familiar.

But this time, Yao Mingyue's face was ashen. She looked at Xu Musen, her eyes were blood red, she smiled sadly, and bit her lip with a tiger tooth, as if she was going to bite out blood...

"Yao Mingyue!"

Xu Musen shouted, threw the bag in his hand, and rushed towards her.

But Yao Mingyue just smiled miserably, her bloodshot eyes seemed a little desperate, unwilling to be entangled with Mingwu.

She looked at Xu Musen who was rushing over.

Just like Brother Makimori who would always rush to protect her whenever she was in danger when she was a child.

Childhood sweethearts are destined by God and are the best gift God has given.

However, if one day this gift is taken away, it will be as painful as cramps and marrow sucking.

It is also because of their status as childhood sweethearts that they have gained a lot, but they also seem to have missed a lot...

She was thinking at this moment, if they were not childhood sweethearts, if they could meet by chance like this, would their current results be different?
A complicated yet meaningful smile appeared on Yao Mingyue's lips, and she looked at Xu Musen who had already arrived in front of her.

"If there is a next life, I will definitely not be a childhood sweetheart with you..."

The wind blows and the water splashes...

(End of this chapter)