I am reborn and refuse to be a sickly rich woman

Chapter 263: Past and present life, are they that important?
Since when, many fragmented memories always emerge in Yao Mingyue's mind.

Especially after jumping into the glacier last time, those memories gradually became clearer.

She saw many things in a trance and understood many things...

She let out a slight breath.

The haziness of drunkenness could not overcome the complexity in her heart at the moment.

She looked at An Nuannuan, and she knew that if she told her about her past and present lives, she would definitely not believe it.

Just like what Xu Musen said to her at the beginning...

In fact, even she herself was not sure whether it was just an overly realistic dream.

But she knew that she still had to say it, otherwise she might never have another chance in the future.

She looked at An Nuannuan, and the stumbling figure in her vague memory seemed to slowly overlap with her.

"An Nuannuan, I want to tell you a story..."

An Nuannuan looked at her red eyes, and she nodded gently, sitting beside the bed, just like a pair of close friends.

Yao Mingyue took a sip of water, her voice still a little hoarse.

"An Nuannuan, if I told you that Xu Musen and I were actually married in our previous life, and that we got a marriage certificate and lived together for many years, would you believe it?"

Yao Mingyue kept watching An Nuannuan's reaction.

If other girls heard someone say that she and her boyfriend were husband and wife in their previous life.

Either I'm angry or I find it ridiculous.

But An Nuannuan blinked slightly, as if she was not too upset: "And then?"

Then what……

Yao Mingyue was speechless for a moment.

After a few seconds, he said, "Don't you want to ask me why I said that?"

Although this kind of thing may sound ridiculous to others, it shouldn't be completely unresolved.

"Because the things in the past life are all irrelevant. No matter what happened, it doesn't matter anymore. I just want to live a good life with him."

An Nuannuan's voice was gentle yet firm.

Yes, no matter whether there is such a thing as a previous life or not, she and Xu Musen are together in this life.

That is something that no one can take away from you.

Yao Mingyue remained silent for a long time, although she had already accepted this reality in her heart.

But every time she heard these words that seemed to demonstrate sovereignty, she still felt a little depressed.

She took another sip of water.

"What I mean is, if it weren't for... some reasons, we would have ended up together, from childhood sweethearts to old married couple, from birth to the day when we die. I like him, and he won't really forget me."

Yao Mingyue's words were not as sharp as in the past, but the weight of her words was still enough to put heavy pressure on people.

This is her advantage as a childhood sweetheart, a bond known as fate.

"In my previous life, I really didn't know how to love someone. I could never fill the panic in my heart. I was always afraid that he would leave me, so I always kept him by my side. But these could not fill my own pain, and he suffered for so long in vain. In fact, in the end, I also thought that if I could do it again, maybe I would love him in another way, just like he loved me before."

Yao Mingyue said slowly that the way she had loved him might have been wrong.

But her love for Xu Musen never wavered for a moment.

An Nuannuan didn't say anything, but just looked at Yao Mingyue quietly.

Yao Mingyue also looked at her, chuckled and said, "I really hated you at first... From the perspective of a love rival, I even hated you.

But later, I slowly realized that what I hated was not you, but the disappointing me in the past. "

Yao Mingyue laughed at herself. She was drunk, but her eyes were still red. "I used to secretly scold him. I scolded him for being childhood sweethearts with him for more than ten years, but he was snatched away by someone who suddenly appeared in less than half a year. He was such a scumbag..."

Yao Mingyue looked at An Nuannuan: "I still remember what you said to me in the milk tea shop before.

I don't care whether I can get him or not, but I want to be someone he likes.

That day I suddenly realized that it was not that he suddenly gave up the relationship of more than ten years of childhood sweethearts, but that in these more than ten years, I never really gave him what he really wanted.

I always feel, I think, I need, and I am also afraid, afraid of losing him, afraid that I will not be able to keep him, but I have never considered what kind of sense of security I should give him.

I always thought that I would be able to give him everything twice as much in the future, but I overlooked that if I didn’t get what I wanted when I was 18, even if I got it when I was 28, I wouldn’t have that feeling anymore.”

Yao Mingyue's eyes sparkled, and she looked at An Nuannuan: "So, I hate you, but maybe I should thank you more for letting me experience what it feels like to really like someone."

An Nuannuan looked up at her. The tears in Yao Mingyue's eyes made her silent.

After just a few seconds, she took a wet towel and gently wiped her eyes, but she said, "I kind of hate you too..."

Yao Mingyue was stunned for a moment, but they were love rivals after all, so it was reasonable for them to be hated.

But after An Nuannuan wiped her eyes, she said, "I hate you because you wasted so many opportunities for him to like you. What you once had at your fingertips may have been what others have been looking forward to for a long time. In fact, what you said is not wrong. If you like someone, you will of course try every means to get that person.

But this is actually a sign of liking yourself, because liking someone means that you hope that being with him will make him happier and more fulfilled, rather than simply making yourself more "perfect", because he is a person, not a toy. "

An Nuannuan's voice was equally gentle, but she no longer had that silly look she usually had. Her big eyes seemed to sparkle with a seriousness that belied her age.

These words were like a knife of truth, stabbing Yao Mingyue's heart with pain.

Her face turned pale and she lowered her eyes slightly.

An Nuannuan was also murmuring.

“In fact, I hate myself too… If I had been braver before, maybe we wouldn’t have to wait until now.

Actually, I used to envy you too. You were childhood sweethearts, your families had such a good relationship, and he always liked you so much. I didn't dare to disturb you, but I couldn't let go. I could only watch you two secretly, but later... I also understood.

Liking someone has nothing to do with these things. As long as I know that I like him, that's enough. Even if we don't have the status of childhood sweethearts, even if our families don't know each other, and even if he may not remember me, but what does it matter? As long as I like him, that's enough. I think... he has always been looking forward to someone who can like him well. Fortunately, I finally waited for it. "

At the end, An Nuannuan's mouth corners slightly raised.

She felt proud that the bravest thing she had ever done was to confess her love to Xu Musen before he opened his mouth that night.

Yao Mingyue raised her head and looked into An Nuannuan's eyes. She was a little dazed for a moment.

Some people discard me like a weed, others cherish me like a treasure...

No wonder Xu Musen always puts her first now. Since she is treated like a treasure by others, how can he not treat the other person as a treasure?
Yao Mingyue recalled every little detail of the past in her mind. When she was sick, sad, and helpless, he was always by her side without complaint.

The repeated confessions and the sincere expressions he gave were also draining his heart.

As for those vague memories, she always seemed to be asking for things. She always thought she could make it up to him in other ways, but in the end she ignored the most important thing: that two people liked each other.

She understood now, but it seemed... a little late.

Yao Mingyue looked at An Nuannuan and recalled the day when she stumbled into the ward and threw herself beside Xu Musen.

It was hard to make the two figures overlap, but Yao Mingyue would not be wrong, that person was her current self.

She bit her pale lips. She knew Xu Musen's temper well, and it was impossible to ask him to give up An Nuannuan.

However, it is also impossible to ask her to give up Xu Musen!

She calmed her breathing slightly and loosened her tightly bitten lips, and you could see some red teeth marks on her pale lips.

She looked at An Nuannuan's clear and deep eyes at this moment, her heart was in a trance, and suddenly an idea came to her mind.

"An Nuannuan, do you... also remember... what happened in the past?"

She had been closely observing An Nuannuan's expression. Just at that moment, she seemed to have caught the emotion that flashed across An Nuannuan's eyes.

That was the emotion of rekindling hope after it had been shattered. Yao Mingyue knew this because she had felt the same way in her previous life when she watched Xu Musen slowly fall into her arms.

But An Nuannuan's eyes did not change at all, they were still clear and bright.

"Is it important? I just need to know that I like him the most now and he treats me well, and we will be good to each other forever."

Does it matter?

Yeah, does it matter?
Yao Mingyue smiled bitterly and shook her head. She was still holding on to it. Wasn't she wasting this opportunity again?
She looked at An Nuannuan, the girl who seemed never to get angry. According to her memory, the only time she was angry was because of Xu Musen.

It wasn't because she was jealous, but because she didn't take good care of Xu Musen.

Yao Mingyue felt that she and she were really similar sometimes, but they were two extremes.

Yao Mingyue is attached to the feeling of being liked by Xu Musen, and she wishes she could control everything about Xu Musen. But An Nuannuan wants to be liked by Xu Musen, and she wants to bet everything on him.

Yao Mingyue thought narcissistically, maybe... this girl named An Nuannuan that Xu Musen liked, could actually be another "Yao Mingyue" that he liked.

After thinking about it carefully, didn’t An Nuannuan’s appearance just fill in the gaps that Yao Mingyue lacked?
Cute, innocent, silly and naive, she can perfectly satisfy Xu Musen's desire to turn slaves into landlords.

But looking at An Nuannuan's tone and expression when she was talking to her, she was not stupid at all.

Perhaps, this is her way of slowly "healing" Xu Musen.

In An Nuannuan, she also seemed to see the shadow that once belonged to Xu Musen himself.

"An Nuannuan, thank you."

Yao Mingyue thanked her sincerely. She didn’t know why, but she just wanted to thank her.

"Even if you thank me, I won't give Xu Musen to you."

At this moment, An Nuannuan seemed to have instantly returned to her usual naive and serious self.

Yao Mingyue was stunned for a moment, then smiled.

The smile showed a sense of relief and enlightenment.

"What a coincidence, me too."

Yao Mingyue also raised the corners of her mouth, returning to being the noble and cunning little fox she used to be.

Yao Mingyue looked at An Nuannuan: "I won't give up on him either. I don't care what others think. I've already lost him once. This time, it's my turn to love him well."

Yao Mingyue had already stretched out her golden hoe in front of her, ready to pry her away.

An Nuannuan just looked at her and nodded slightly: "Oh."

"Oh?"

Even though Yao Mingyue was already used to her style, she still couldn't help but be stunned. At this time, you shouldn't just sneer.

Then he said disdainfully, "How dare you, little vixen, be my opponent!" or something like that?

"I don't care who likes him. He can be liked by so many people and he still likes me. Doesn't that prove that he likes me more?"

An Nuannuan, however, looked at it from another perspective: "I don't want to quarrel with him just because someone likes him. That's the other person's fault, not his. If someone else likes him, I will like him twice as much!"

Many young couples are like this. They will get angry with their partners just because someone else likes them.

Although flies don't bite seamless eggs, what's important is that they can firmly choose each other. What's there to be afraid of?
Yao Mingyue sighed silently, and at this moment she replaced herself with Xu Musen and thought about it.

No wonder...

"woke up?"

At this time, the door was knocked open.

Xu Musen held a bowl of sobering soup in his hand and walked over to the two people staring at each other.

"Have a headache?"

"No...I'm fine now."

"Drink some soup if you have nothing to do to replenish your water. Remember to drink less alcohol in the future."

Xu Musen put the soup away and subconsciously gave his son a few words of instruction in the tone of an older brother.

"Nuan Nuan, you should go and have a drink too."

Xu Musen touched An Nuannuan's head again.

"Uh-huh!"

An Nuannuan nodded obediently, turned around and left the room.

Yao Mingyue watched An Nuannuan's back as she left, and she sighed in her heart... If she was really pretending, then this opponent was too terrifying.

"very nice……"

Yao Mingyue couldn't help but shook her head.

"Are you okay? You look drunk, like you should be running away."

Xu Musen said this unhappily and fed her the soup.

Yao Mingyue raised her eyes and looked at him, opened her mouth and took a sip of the sweet soup, and her stomach immediately felt much better.

"I just chatted with Nuannuan for a while."

She said it suddenly.

"What are you talking about?"

Xu Musen looked at her in a mysterious way.

Yao Mingyue narrowed her eyes and suddenly smiled: "Talk about you being a scumbag."

"Tsk! My character is obvious to all, stop slandering me."

"At least two beautiful girls like you at the same time. You might be flirting with other girls outside. Isn't that a scumbag?"

"Is it my fault that I'm so handsome and popular?"

Xu Musen is shameless and boastful.

"How shameless..."

Yao Mingyue said this to him, but she was thinking in her heart that it really coincided with some of her answers just now.

"What on earth did you guys talk about?"

Xu Musen still cared a little.

"Go ask her."

Yao Mingyue didn't say anything, and Xu Musen didn't ask any more questions and just finished drinking the soup.

"You can rest here today. Don't let Aunt Liu worry. We will go back first."

"hotel?"

"School!"

Yao Mingyue chuckled twice. She looked at Xu Musen, and there was still a bit of sourness in her mouth: "An Nuannuan, she is a good girl..."

Before she finished her words, Xu Musen looked as if he had seen a ghost and touched her head: "You don't have a fever!"

"I don't have a fever!"

"You still praise others when you don't have a fever?"

Especially girls?

Xu Musen clicked his tongue.

Yao Mingyue was a little angry and embarrassed, but it was true that she used to be very arrogant. She looked down on ordinary girls and would fight with those who threatened her.

Praise?

almost impossible!
She looked at Xu Musen, and after a long while she gritted her teeth and snorted, "I don't want to bother with you! Go away!"

Yao Mingyue pulled the quilt over her head.

Xu Musen smiled, put away the soup bowl, and finally patted her gently through the quilt: "Have a good rest. It's cold at night, wrap yourself tightly in the quilt, and don't kick the quilt off when you sleep poorly."

After saying that, Xu Musen turned and left.

Yao Mingyue then poked her head out and looked towards the door.

He is the only one who understands best that I have a bad sleeping posture...

Yao Mingyue's face turned slightly red, and her expression was a little complicated, but she also felt relieved. Yes, there was still a chance after all.

Just because she is a good girl doesn't mean she can give you up completely.

Yao Mingyue's turn has just begun.

(End of this chapter)