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Chapter 206 Half lovesickness, half letting go

"Shen Huajiao?"

Chu Yan picked up the tea cup and said the name. Cui Xu nodded. He and she were a matchmaker and a married couple. There was nothing to hide.

Seeing Cui Xu's admission so graciously, Chu Yan didn't say anything more.

"I give you the privilege to exercise it alone. You can investigate matters outside the city. You can also deploy the forward team in the military camp for your use."

Cui Xu is indeed a useful person, so Chu Yan will not use him if he has a grudge against him because of what happened before. Although every time he thinks of Cui Ying stabbing himself for him, he wants Cui Xu to disappear from the world. .

The privilege he gave Cui Xu was indeed very great, which was equivalent to treating Cui Xu as one of his own.

Cui Xu looked at the token Cheng Chong placed on the table, stood up and saluted Chu Yan.

"I have something to ask Your Highness."

He took a deep breath and told Cui Ying's story. Chu Yan didn't even raise his eyes. He replied after a while: "It's over. I will send her away from here."

Chu Yan knew what he was carrying, whether it was his hatred or her hatred, Zhao Shu had done something to his mother, and his father had done something to her family.

There is a lot between them, so much, it's like a chasm that is difficult to cross in this life.

But he also did a lot of wrong things to her, and even in this life he has to pay for the wrong things he did.

Untie the love spell, send her away, and let her live the life she wants. In this way, he will not become like Emperor Qi, a person who sacrifices his lover for his own benefit.

He wanted her to live well, even if the price was to give up himself, he just wanted her to be well.

After Cui Xu heard this, he left here without saying anything more.

After coming out of Wanliu Tea House, Chu Yan went to the small courtyard outside. Before he entered the door, he saw a bird-shaped paper kite floating in the air. He could still vaguely hear the laughter of Cui Ying and Qingxue.

He paused, wondering if he wanted to go in now.

I don’t know if she is conscious at this time or if she is under the love spell.

Even if Cui Ying is sent out, he still can't do it, doesn't want to read it, or doesn't want to.

"Qingxue, look, the kite flew away, so high!"

Saying this with a bit of childish laughter, Chu Yan also opened the door. In the courtyard, which was not too big, Cui Ying held the kite string in her hand and looked up at the blue sky. Paper kite.

She kept retreating as she pulled the thread, and suddenly bumped into someone's arms.

Chu Yan reached out to hold her shoulders, then hugged her and pulled the kite string with her.

"Huaiwei?!"

Cui Ying was very surprised, Chu Yan smiled and said: "Look at the paper kite."

"This paper kite was made with me, Qingxue. Is it amazing?"

She was like a child begging for praise, wanting to be praised by Chu Yan, as if his praise was the power to encourage him.

"Awesome, Yingying is the best."

With Chu Yan's words, Cui Ying became even happier. She turned her head and looked at Chu Yan: "Huaiwei, I wrote something on the kite. Do you want to know what it is?"

Chu Yan listened to her words and rested his head on her shoulder: "I want to know, Yingying tells me, eh?"

The man's final note was like a hook, light and light, but it could easily arouse Cui Ying's heart. The tips of her ears turned red, and then she said: "The kite flies high and far away, and my blessings to Huaiwei are also Will be seen by the gods in heaven.”

"When they see it, they will bless Huaiwei and everything will go well." The paper kite in the sky did exactly what she said. It flew farther and farther away and was almost invisible in the clouds.

Chu Yan's hand held hers, and she held the string of the paper kite. To him, this string was just like the paper kite hidden in the clouds.

Half of it is his lovesickness, and half of it is his letting go.

When he lets go, she can find her own free life like this kite.

"Yingying, during this time, the affairs of the country are complicated and I can't come again. Listen to Lu Bo and take care of yourself, okay?"

This time, Chu Yan didn't ask her to wait for him, because he knew that if they said goodbye this time, they would never see each other again.

She is leaving.

Cui Ying paused her hand, and the kite fell straight down as if it had lost its strength.

"Huaiwei is busy, I know, I will wait for you."

She obviously looked unhappy, but didn't say anything. Chu Yan wanted to tell her that he could stay with her forever, but he couldn't say that and could only push her away. He wanted her to live.

After having dinner with Cui Ying at the mansion, Chu Yan returned to the palace to deal with things.

Cui Ying woke up after noon. Thinking of Chu Yan's words when he left, Cui Ying couldn't help but picture the way he hugged her and left in silence that day at the memorial day of Queen Zhuang Hui.

What exactly happened that day?

She held her head and suddenly remembered that when she first returned to this mansion, the people she saw on the wall were Aunt Pei and her husband. They came to Beijing.

It's just that this mansion is full of Chu Yan's people, and they don't dare to get too close.

She hadn't told them what she already knew about her identity. All these things were piled up together, and she just felt her head hurt.

Chu Yan really wanted to send her away from here, so what should she do to learn the truth about that year?
At night, Chu Yan lay on the bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. Without Cui Ying by his side, it felt like he was back where he started. He didn't go to Yunzhou, and he didn't have these experiences.

He was the only one left in the world.

So lonely that it seems like you are about to be separated from the world.

He sat up, put on his clothes and walked out of the main hall. Cheng Chong, who was guarding outside, was a little surprised when he saw him. It was already this hour, and His Highness had come back and handled so many official duties. Is he still not asleep?

"Your Highness."

He called out, and Chu Yan walked to the study and looked at the peach blossom that was still a seedling, with no branches or leaves growing.

"Your Highness really takes care of what Miss Cui gave you."

Cheng Chong, who followed Chu Yan, walked over and said with a smile. Chu Yan reached for the kettle on the side and watered the peach blossom tree. The sun was shining these days, so the peach blossom tree had to be watered diligently.

"What she gave me was something I had never received before."

Whether it was the words that were half true or false, or the bowl of longevity noodles that she gave him while she was half asleep, the words of good health for her birthday, or the peace knot that saved his life, there were many things she gave him.

He never got these.

He always thought that in this world, he was the only one walking this road of life. No matter the wind, frost, rain or snow, he relied on his strength.

The more others want him dead, the more they want him to live, the more they want to trample him under their feet, the more he wants to live well, the more he wants to stand in the position they don't want him to stand.

I have never disdained such an illusory thing as love, but for the first time I loved someone, I tasted all the bitterness of the world.

I also understand why, even though they know that these things are like moths flying into the flames, and they know that they are just gorgeous fireworks, there are people who are willing to enjoy them.