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Chapter 257 I Want to Keep You, But I Don’t Want You to Be Unhappy

Cui Ying looked into his eyes and saw many things in them that she dared not respond to. She withdrew her gaze, picked up the wine glass and drank it in one gulp.

By the time the banquet was over, Xie Weixing and Cersei were already drunk and hugging each other. Cersei was better and not as unconscious as Xie Weixing, but she started talking nonsense.

Xiao Fengan picked up Xie Weixing and took her away, while Amyra carried Cersei on her back and left. Only Ke Chao was left, and he returned to his room in a daze.

Cui Ying shook her head helplessly and stood up as well. However, she didn't expect that the wine was so strong that she felt dizzy even though she could drink a thousand cups without getting drunk, and she almost fell down.

Chu Yan behind her reached out and supported her: "Be careful."

"I don't need your help, I can walk by myself."

Cui Ying pushed him away and put her hand on the table. She blinked and looked at the moon not far away which seemed to have split into three or two.

Chu Yan listened to her drunken words with a smile on his face. He didn't drink any alcohol just now, but he became the most sober person among all the people present.

"Yingying."

"Shh, don't talk."

He had just opened his mouth to call her name when he heard her say this.

"I don't want to hear those words, Chu Yan, please don't say them, okay?"

She turned around and tilted her head to look at him. Even though her mind was a little unclear, Cui Ying could still understand what Chu Yan wanted to say.

"Okay, I won't tell."

Chu Yan reached out and held her hand to prevent her from spraining her ankle and falling down the stairs. Then, despite Cui Ying's reluctance, he carried her on his back, just like he did that day in Wancheng.

He admired the moon with her back to him and said that this cold moon was not half as bright as his.

A breeze blew up the sleeves of both of them. Cui Ying's hands dropped down and crossed in front of him. There was still a sweet smell of wine in her mouth. She blew into his ears and said, "Go back to Shangjing, Chu Yan."

"You are the emperor now. You can't be so willful and ignore the civil and military officials in the court. Go back."

Cui Ying hooked her fingers up and down and hooked the accessories on the man. He didn't reply, and Cui Ying sighed.

"I will go back after Caizhu'er's 100-day banquet."

This time, he didn't talk about other things and answered Cui Ying directly. Cui Ying, who had been leaning on his shoulder with her eyes closed, slowly opened her eyes and hummed. "Go back and don't come again."

"Just like I've never known you."

Her words were so cruel, but Chu Yan smiled after hearing them: "You know, I can't let it go. If I could let it go, I wouldn't have come here."

"I want to keep you, but I don't want you to be unhappy. Even if you never plan to forgive me in this life, it doesn't matter."

Chu Yan stopped walking, the cold moonlight fell on the two of them. He turned his head and looked at Cui Ying: "I wanted to do this."

He didn't care whether Cui Ying loved him or not, or whether she had him in her heart. Now that he saw she was still alive, he was already satisfied.

Cui Ying was stunned and avoided his gaze.

The man's eyes were bright and full of tenderness. Just as he said, it was his choice to do this, so he wouldn't mind whether she loved him or not.

Cui Ying's heart beat faster and she closed her eyes.

If you ask her heart, she actually doesn't hate him that much anymore.

She just couldn't get over the hurdle in her heart. How could she convince herself not to care about what had happened? Or, was she willing to go back to Shangjing with Chu Yan?

Of course she knew that as long as she wanted, Chu Yan would bring everything in the world to her.

But the red walls and green tiles, and that deep courtyard, had trapped many people. His mother and her aunt both died there. Was she going to go in too?

Give up this hard-earned freedom and give up her current stable life.

she does not know.

Chu Yan turned his head and did not expose Cui Ying. He carried her back to her room, put her on the bed, took off her shoes, and covered her with clothes.

He squatted down, held her hand across the quilt and said, "Don't think about how to answer me, Yingying. I don't need your answer. This shouldn't be a burden to you."

"Get some rest."

After saying this, Chu Yan stood up and left.

My dears, my hands are much better now, but my fingers and base of the thumb are still not feeling well. I didn't mean to delay the update. I promised to finish it, and I will finish it well, don't worry~