If I want to run away from the outer chamber, I will criticize the prince madly and take me into the

Chapter 69 I seem to have fallen in love with you a little bit.

Cui Ying didn't dare to wake up or face him, so she fell asleep in a daze. It wasn't until the middle of the night that he held her wrist tightly and called her "Queen."

Only then did she open her eyes and look at Chu Yan. His eyes were closed tightly, as if he was in a nightmare.

"Mother, Huaiwei misses you."

His voice was a bit lonely, and it was trembling and about to break. What made him like this was probably the ten years he spent in Dongyi Kingdom.

Those ten years were so painful and oppressive, and so humiliating that I wanted to die.

Cui Ying broke away from her hand, hesitated for a moment, and finally reached out to hold him in her arms. The quilt covered the two of them, and his head was buried in her collarbone, full of dependence.

Cui Ying couldn't hear his uneasy murmurs clearly, so she could only pat his back and hum a ballad.

In fact, she also felt that she didn't care about him, but he held her tightly and wouldn't let go when she wanted to leave.

"Yingying."

Just when Cui Ying was about to coax herself to sleep, Chu Yan opened her eyes. He saw that she was a little sleepy, but he didn't stop moving his hands, humming a song that even she didn't seem to know what she was singing.

Cui Ying glanced at him and let out a hum, with an upward pitch at the end. She didn't realize that he had woken up.

The hoarse and gentle Yingying spoke again. He took her hand, hugged her and said softly: "Go to sleep."

After Cui Ying closed her eyes, Chu Yan looked at the tent above his head and could no longer fall asleep.

Everything in the dream is so distant yet so clear.

Fifteen years ago, when he went to Dongyi Kingdom, it was after New Year's Eve. At that time, there were two days left before the Shangyuan Festival. He asked Emperor Qi if he could be two days late.

Just two days, let him eat another bowl of Yuanxiao after sharing his mother, and then he will leave.

Because every year, on such a reunion day, he would be sent to Fengyi Palace to kneel in front of his mother's portrait for a whole day and a night.

The wise concubine begged him, but he said that if it hadn't been for giving birth to him, he would not have lost his queen and would not be able to reunite with the one he loves.

At first he cried and made trouble, but then he never struggled again.

He has never met his mother, and the portrait hanging in Fengyi Palace is his only memory of his mother.

But later, he never saw the portrait again, because Chai Guangfu said that on the day he left Dashuo, there was a fire in Fengyi Palace, and everything left by the Queen was burned, including the portrait. portrait.

They all said that this was his mother's punishment for Emperor Qi. She punished him for never listening to her and taking good care of himself, so she was unwilling to leave anything to him.

He didn't eat that bowl of Lantern Festival after all, and he never ate it again in the ten years from now.

Whether it is the Mid-Autumn Festival moon cakes, Dragon Boat Festival rice dumplings, or this bowl of Yuanxiao, I have never eaten them again, because Dongyi Kingdom does not have these days and these things.

When he first arrived in Dongyi, he fell ill because he could not adapt to the weather in Dongyi. That illness really almost killed him.

When Dashuo was still in spring, Dongyi Kingdom entered winter early. In the cold twelfth month of winter, the cotton clothes he brought were burned by them, and there was no one around to help him.

Because Emperor Qi didn't even leave him a person to take care of him.

In a state of high fever and confusion, he seemed to have seen his mother who was taking him away. She was so gentle and asked him with loving eyes if he wanted to go with her.

He cried, saying that he missed her and that Huaiwei missed you.

It's a pity that after all, it's like a flower in the moon mirror, which will fall apart at the touch of a touch.

Just overnight, His Highness the Crown Prince, who was above the throne, became a slave for others to bully and tease. For ten years and countless days and nights, he wondered why.

Chu Yan took a deep breath and felt a little swollen in his heart. His headache became more severe, as if it was going to tear him apart.

This kind of problem also happened in Dongyi Kingdom. They hated Dashuo deeply. The two countries were already in a hostile relationship, so how could they treat Chu Yan kindly? After all, he was a hostage at that time, not a prince.

After a year in Dongyi Kingdom, Dongyi was also wary at first, fearing that he would bully Dashuo too harshly and anger Dashuo, but he found that no matter how they treated Chu Yan, Dashuo would not say a word.

Over time, the initial verbal abuse and physical torture became commonplace.

They scolded him as an abandoned prince, scolded Dashuo as a weakling, and scolded him for being born of his mother but not his mother.

It was this sentence that angered Chu Yan, who was still a teenager at the time.

His bottom line is his mother. The wet nurse said that the queen loved him, so she would rather give up her own life to bring him into this world.

'I'm not! '

Chu Yan couldn't remember how he struggled with those strong Dongyi people. It was also a cold winter day. He was pressed into the snow, and bright red blood flowed all over the ground, spreading along the white snow. .

'ha? Disobedient Central Plains people, do you think you are still a superior prince? You Dashuo are all weaklings! '

'If you don't obey, your legs will be broken. You are one of our dogs in Dongyi. How dare a dog bite its owner? '

The noisy sound could not cover up the sound of broken bones. His legs were broken, and the pain was heartbreaking, but he could only hold on to the snow that fell apart at the touch of it.

The light in the young man's eyes, the ideas in his heart, and the sage's words taught by the Taifu completely collapsed at this moment.

He is just someone who can be discarded at will.

It has always been like this, no one wants him.

Even the Empress Zhao who raised him, he couldn't see her sincerity.

Then for more than ten days, before the leg injury had healed, they broke his leg again, and repeated this cycle three times until their medical officer said that the bones had been misaligned and he would be unsightly when he walked in the future. .

So after that time, he had always been on a slope in Dongyi. This leg was re-bonded after returning to Dashuo. In order to adapt, he was worse than dead during those three months.

After all, he had used the dislocated bones for eight years. The new bones were grinding against the old ones, and the pain was unbearable. He wanted to die several times.

Later, when he grew up, the second prince fell in love with him. He felt sick when he thought of his greasy and disgusting words saying that he was more beautiful than the goddess of Dongyi Kingdom.

He wanted him to be his forbidden pet for him to play with, so when he left Dongyi, he let him be burned by fire and became the person who knelt at his feet and begged him to save him.

Chu Yan raised his hand and rubbed his head, enduring the pain and hugging Cui Ying tighter.

He has everything, but nothing. She is the only person he can hold at the moment.

He doesn't understand love, but he knows that if Cui Ying is gone, he is afraid that he will never be able to return to his old life, because he has gained it, so how can he be willing to bear the loss.

"Can you please stop running away?"

Chu Yan looked at her and asked, but unfortunately Cui Ying, who had already fallen asleep, would not answer his question.

"As long as you want to, you will be Gu Gu's princess, but you don't want to. You don't want this child, and you don't want Gu Gu, and you don't want to be with Gu Gu for a long time. Cui Ying, Gu Gu seems to have a crush on you."

He murmured to himself, saying words that she would not respond to, as if this way, he would not get a negative answer and could not see her evasive eyes.

He was the first to take advantage of it, and in the end, he was the first to fall into it.

He was greedy for the deceptions and lies she gave him, but he also knew that she was just like his mother who fell apart at the touch of her when she was in a high fever coma. If he couldn't hold on, she would leave.

　He finally realized it!

　　Let the babies read the book review activity! It starts tomorrow!

　　
　
(End of this chapter)