After I died, the scumbag went crazy

"Go and see Lin Xi." Lu Zhe pulled Qin Ruolin away, fearing that she would be emotionally unstable.

Qin Ruolin murmured softly. "You're lying... Xixi was reborn, she just came back to life..."

Lu Zhe sighed. "You are a forensic scientist, you have to believe in science."

Qin Ruolin's eyes were red and tears rolled out. "Science doesn't tell me... how to accept the death of my best friend! I believe in science, but I prefer to believe that she is still alive..."

The word science is too cold.

She believes in science, but science cannot soothe the pain of losing a loved one.

Gu Yuchen glanced at Ah Xing, then turned and left.

Xiao Yi is waiting for Ah Xing's answer.

I'm waiting too.

"I can recognize her when she turns into a dog." Ah Xing refused Xiao Yi's approach, his voice was calm and distant.

"When the laboratory is exposed, the organization will clear everything about the laboratory...including me. If I want to live, I need someone to protect me, Li Sichen." Xiao Yi walked up to Li Sichen and spoke again. "I have the same genes as Cheng Xi flowing in my body, Aiwujiwu, you have to protect me, right?"

Xiao Yi suddenly laughed. "I want to see how far you can deceive yourself..."

Since everyone is a substitute, why should I let him out?

Gives me chills all over.

Why is he so stupid...so persistent that he is stupid? "You just turned into a dog..."

Opening my eyes again, I woke up.

If anyone wants to rob me, then... kill her.

If he is mine, he must be mine only.

I actually...had the illusion that no matter if I was Cheng Xi or not, as long as Ah Xing cared, I would never give him up to anyone.

Looking down at my hands, it feels so amazing.

This time...I actually felt jealous, very strong jealousy and possessiveness.

The last time my soul left my body like this, I felt pain, unprecedented pain, and despair.

"Xixi?"

I actually had murderous intention towards this clone.

I was a little jealous, so I stood in front of Ah Xing and didn’t get so close to him!
But there's nothing I can do...

I stood there in shock, looking up at Xiao Yi.

I was stunned for a moment, and for a moment, the world was spinning.

My tears seemed to have dried up in my eyes, and I looked up at him, wanting to cry and laugh at the same time.

This is a terrible impulse...

"Xixi woke up!" Qin Ruolin ran out of the ward and called the doctor excitedly.

My voice was a little hoarse, and I raised my hand to pull his clothes, but I couldn't.

Really woke up.

But the body is not quite under control yet.

The doctor rushed in and checked on me.

"The patient is relatively weak now, let her rest well."

The doctor gave an explanation and took the people out.

Qin Ruolin stood beside the bed with red eyes, holding my hand. "Xixi... Just wake up."

Even if the evidence is in front of her, she still insists on believing that I am Cheng Xi...

"Xixi..." Ah Xing ran in, holding my face in panic, pressing his forehead against mine, with hot tears.

He was really afraid that I would die.

That feeling is so subtle...

It's like I have found the meaning and value of my life and my existence in this world.

Because I found a reason to survive.

It seems that I finally... found a reason to live.

In the past, I seemed to have no idea why I was living.

After experiencing the death game in the ruins building, and the crazy possessiveness in my heart... I will probably never play the ridiculous, despicable and childish game of suicide and self-mutilation again.

In the past, I probably thought that death would bring pain to those who hurt me. This was a protest and the most powerful fight back against the organization. But now, I feel very naive.

My death will not hurt any bad people, it will only make the people I care about sad and desperate, and collapse again and again.

I tried my best to raise my hands, held Ah Xing's face, and smiled weakly. "Axing...Long time no see."

haven't seen you for a long time.

My star.

Ah Xing's body stiffened for a moment, and the moment he closed his eyes, hot tears fell on my eyelashes.

Why do you love to cry so much...

When he goes crazy and beats people, he doesn't appear to cry so much.

"I prayed countless times that nothing would happen to you..." Axing whispered, his voice trembling.

"So geniuses also believe in gods?" I smiled weakly.

He smiled too. "I don't believe in gods... but when my heart is empty, I need someone to rely on, Xixi."

I looked at him blankly, and suddenly remembered a small thing deep in my memory.

Although the incident was trivial, it still remains fresh in my memory.

In my memory, the grandmother of a classmate who had cancer in high school knew that there was no god in the world, but she kept praying to God and praying to Buddha every day to keep her granddaughter safe and healthy.

In order to help her granddaughter get better quickly, she, an old lady in her sixties, climbed up the mountain without rest, kowtowing three times step by step, to pray for her granddaughter.

The girl with cancer was laughed at by her classmates at school. They said that the girl's grandmother was a superstition and was doing stupid things.

At that time, I didn't understand it very well.

In my memory, the girl with cancer was obviously very ill and was about to die, but she was still happy every day.

I asked her: Your grandma prays to God and worships Buddha like this every day. Is it really useful? There are no gods in this world.

She smiled and said to me: My grandma is my god.

I froze in place, unable to digest this sentence for a long time.

But now, I understand.

Regardless of whether I was Cheng Xi or not, from the moment they regarded me as Cheng Xi, I seemed to have become their 'god'.

So, I have to live.

Before Asing doesn't want me, live well.

"You are not allowed to be with her... you are not allowed to look at her, you can only look at me. What kind of person I look like depends on what kind of person you like..." I said domineeringly, asking A Xing not to look at Xiao Yi.

I never thought that one day I would be jealous of my past face.

"it is good……"

But he is always so doting and agrees to me.

……

After eating the vinegar, I passed out again.

This time he probably wasn't fainting, but falling asleep.

I didn't think about anything, didn't have to worry or be afraid of anything, and fell asleep peacefully.

This feeling is really good.

"Fuck! Son of a bitch." I don't know how long I slept, but when I was about to wake up, I heard the curse.

It's Gu Yuchen.

This guy loves to talk dirty.

"Be careful, don't curse in front of me, a high school student." Feng Yu reminded Gu Yuchen.

"Aren't you about to take the college entrance examination? Why are you still here? Go back and feed yourself, you brat." Gu Yuchen was in a bad mood, probably because he was offending whomever.

When I opened my eyes, I saw Feng Yu, who was nearly 1.9 meters tall, approaching Gu Yuchen with a gloomy smile, and raised his hand to grab his back collar. "If you want to go crazy, don't go crazy here."

Then he threw Gu Yuchen out and slammed the door of the room.

Feng Yu clapped his hands and looked back at Ah Xing, who had been sitting by the bed with low pressure. "It's so noisy."

The ends of Ah Xing's eyes were still red, and he looked very scary.

He glanced at Feng Yu and spoke in a low voice. "Get out of here too."

Feng Yu said oh, turned around and walked out obediently, not forgetting to close the door thoughtfully. (End of chapter)