Snowy Night Kiss

Chapter 108 She is the only one left in this world

When Jian Yi arrived at the hospital, her grandmother was sleeping. She held her breath and walked to the bedside, fearing to disturb her.

Grandma Jane opened her eyes with great effort and grabbed her hand in a blur. She uttered two words with difficulty. Jian Yi couldn't hear clearly, so she had to lower her head and move closer.

"It's Yiyi."

Jian Yi nodded heavily, tears welling up in her eyes. She didn't dare to say a word, for fear that her choking voice would be heard by her grandmother.

She held her grandmother's thin and withered hand, just like her hand was held in her grandmother's palm when she was born. Life is passed down from generation to generation, but it also means that life cannot stay in one person for long.

During this time, the head nurse called her out and reminded her of various things she needed to pay attention to before the surgery the next day.

Jian Yi stared at her intently and took note of every word the nurse said, so much so that when she signed the risk disclosure form, her wrists kept shaking from the excessive force.

She took a deep breath, folded the surgical form into two and stuffed it into her schoolbag, then turned to go to the lobby on the first floor to pay.

When Jian Yi took out the familiar bank card, she was still a little dazed, and some memories that had been deliberately suppressed deep inside were suddenly brought out.

Jian Yi often thought that the reason why she had never been attracted to any boy of the same age over the years was probably because she once had a lover who was much more mature than her.

Just like today, she is still favored by every step he takes with careful consideration.

The bank card balance was cleared again, as if fate had returned to the starting point. Jian Yi walked towards the ward on the second floor with heavy steps.

Grandma Jane has woken up. She had slept for the entire day and now sits by the window, quietly watching the evening sunset. The setting sun falls on her white hair, as if coated with a layer of golden afterglow.

"Come and sit, Yiyi."

Jian Yi moved a chair and sat next to her grandmother. She lowered her head to look at Grandma Jian. Unconsciously, her grandmother's back had become hunched. When she lowered her head, she could see every wrinkle under her eyes. Those were the footprints she had left over time.

Grandma Jane smiled and said, "You were just brought home. You were only this small, but you were very well behaved. You didn't cry or make a fuss."

"Do you blame your parents?" Grandma Jane suddenly asked, "Blame them for abandoning you in your hometown since you were a child, blame them for not paying any attention to you, blame them for always wanting you to pave the way for your brother."

Jian Yi couldn't answer this question.

She opened her mouth, but her throat seemed to be strangled by a hand, preventing her from uttering those high-sounding lies.

Grandma Jane looked at her gently.

After a while, he slowly hugged her and pressed his forehead against hers. The texture of her old, wrinkled skin was like the softest blanket that wrapped around Jian Yi's entire body.

"Then blame them, but don't punish yourself for other people's mistakes."

"You have been very outstanding these years, and you are better than others in everything you do. But you have never been in a relationship. Grandma is wondering if mom and dad have made you disappointed in marriage. Grandma cannot be with you for the rest of your life. Grandma hopes that someone will take care of you in the future."

Grandma Jane reached out to help her tidy up her wind-blown hair. She asked softly, "Or is your heart following something and flying far away?"

"Is it the string of agarwood beads you often see?"

Jian Yi bit her lower lip tightly. She clenched her left wrist, and the round Buddhist beads dug deeply into her palm. The temperature of the beads was as hot as body temperature, as if someone had never left.

Maybe her heart was not heading somewhere else, but was sealed up by her for a long time and silently.

"No, grandma." Jian Yi hugged her back, his voice breaking, "I will live a good life and be happy every day. You have to watch me get married safely, and when I have children, you have to pass on your parenting experience to me."

Grandma Jane smiled and said yes.

When Jian Yi secretly wiped away her tears, she found that her grandmother had fallen asleep on her shoulder without her knowing when. Her heart trembled suddenly, and she dared not move at all, for fear that time would freeze at this second.

Grandma Jane slowly raised her head from her shoulder and said slowly after a while, "Grandma wants to drink chicken soup tonight."

Opposite the hospital is a small vegetable market and there are many restaurants along the street. Jian Yi knows that there is one that serves the most tender chicken soup cooked in a clay pot.

It was now the restaurant's opening hour, and a long line had formed at the entrance of the restaurant. Jian Yi stood at the entrance to place his order, and the line moved forward very quickly, with people waiting in line in front of him running out in panic from time to time.

Jian Yi knew that it was the hospital calling them.

This is the normal state of life, coming and going in a hurry.

She slowly followed the crowd forward, and the chicken soup that was served in a thermos accidentally splashed on her palm when it was poured out, like a drop of hot oil, which pulled her heart, which was already hanging in mid-air, again.

On the way back to the hospital, Jian Yi used her mobile phone to search for information related to the surgery the next day, and the results were not good.

My grandmother is old, and any surgery would be risky, but if she doesn’t have the surgery, she would be at risk of death at any time. She is not often at home, so I cannot take care of her all the time.

Jian Yi paused. At this moment, the sun had completely set and the hospital corridor was completely shrouded in gray shadows. The smell of disinfectant in the air made it hard to breathe.

She bent down and squatted in the corner to dial the phone.

"Dad, grandma's going to have surgery at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning."

"Got it. I'll be back tomorrow morning. You stay home and take good care of your grandma."

"The doctor said the surgery is risky and the success rate is not high..."

Jian Chengfeng interrupted her impatiently: "Okay, didn't you find the most famous doctor? You've spent all the money, and it still can't be cured? I have something else to do here. If you have anything else, we can talk about it tomorrow."

The sound of the phone being hung up rang in my ears, like some kind of warning. After the ringing sound disappeared, I could hear hurried footsteps running forward at the end of the corridor.

Jian Yi raised her head in a daze.

She saw a transfer bed being dragged out of the ward, and the bed sheets that were blown up by the running revealed a quiet and kind face.

Then the red emergency light came on and the door of the operating room slammed shut in front of her.

The world returned to dead silence, and her whole body was cold, as if she had fallen into hell.

Jian Yi didn't even know what to say. All her thoughts and calmness were taken away. The cold walls of the hospital reflected her panicked face. This was the first time she faced the distance between life and death, so close that it seemed like there was only one step between them.

The time on the phone was moving forward minute by minute, but Jian Yi still kept squatting by the wall.

She clenched her hands tightly, like a devout Catholic, the holy walls listening to her prayers, she hoped that time would be more lenient to her.

At least don't leave her alone in the world.

The lights in the operating room went out.

It was like God's final judgment on her as a believer. When Jian Yi saw her grandmother lying alone on the narrow operating table, she felt like a string broke in her brain.

She walked over like a zombie, held her grandmother's cold hand, leaned close to her body whose heart had stopped beating, and tears finally burst out.

There has never been a more confused moment than now.

She stood between the vast heaven and earth, but she was the only one left in this world.