The concubine's favorite? Break off the engagement and marry another prince, please respect you

Chapter 101

"You said, let me not care about those details, she can't affect me,"

She sneered and looked him up and down, "How could it not affect me? In my eyes, she is a woman who wants to be held in your arms while sleeping."

Her eyes were mocking, and Lu Ziyan looked unhappy, "I didn't..."

Xie Wan Ning ignored him and continued, "Do you know how torn my heart was every time you came to Shao Guang Yuan and pulled me to the bed?"

"I tried to tell myself that there are few men in this world who don't have concubines. It's normal for you to have concubines. I shouldn't be petty and calculative. I should learn to be generous and be a virtuous and dignified marquis' wife."

Her tone was calm, but every word was precious. Lu Ziyan's heart sank. He took a step forward to stop her from speaking, but Xie Wan Ning's voice had already sounded in his ears.

"But I can't do it," she said, "When you kiss me, I can't help but think about who you have kissed with this mouth and where you have kissed them. When you hug me, I will think about how you behaved on their couches, whether you were strong and whether you were so demanding."

"I can't control those thoughts," she said with disgust, "Every time I get close to you, I feel sick and want to vomit."

These were the true feelings she had endured all her life, but she was his wife at the time, and saying these words would do nothing but make her more embarrassed and ridiculous.

It’s different now. Now she has nothing to worry about. She doesn’t have to put herself in a difficult position or pretend anymore.

She just disgusted him.

Lu Ziyan seemed to be stupid, staring blankly at her lips opening and closing, listening to her uttering heart-piercing words.

During those years, he used these bits and pieces of comfort over and over again, and she said she felt so sick that she wanted to vomit.

Those memories were the motivation that kept him alive for five years, but in her eyes, they were so unbearable.

He turned pale and didn't want to hear her continue.

"Only you. I've only kissed you and hugged you. Don't think of me like that. You're the only one I want." He paused and said, "I've only slept with you in my arms."

When he finished speaking, there was a hint of grievance in his voice.

There was no murderous aura, no coldness or arrogance. At this moment, he was like a misunderstood teenager.

Xie Wan Ning pursed her lips and looked at him, feeling somewhat speechless.

The room became quiet, and the two were only an arm's length away from each other. Her scent lingered in his nose bit by bit with his breathing.

It was the scent of Baiyuelan that she usually used.

She didn't know how much he loved the smell of her.

He loved holding her in his arms and kissing her body.

The skin as white as mutton-fat jade was warmed up bit by bit by him and turned pink.

Even now, with their relationship at this point, he still couldn't resist anything about her.

He already knew that she was his addiction.

Lu Ziyan's eyes moved slightly and his back gradually straightened.

Xie Wan Ning noticed this change almost instantly. She frowned and took two steps back again, until her back was against the windowsill, with no room for retreat.

Her series of reactions made Lu Ziyan's lips curl up. He stood where he was and didn't move closer. He just raised his eyes to look at her and smiled.

"Wanwan really understands me."

They have been husband and wife for two years and they couldn't be closer.

Xie Wan Ning turned away and said in disgust, "Beast!"

He was still crying, confessing his inner feelings word by word, explaining his difficulties. He was even injured, but even in such a situation, he could become aroused while talking.

If not a beast, what is it?
Lu Ziyan hummed and didn't get angry even after being scolded.

"You can say whatever you want. I don't deny it." His eyes fell on her delicate face and said, "Even if you are a beast, I have only been hard with you."

How dare he say such a thing?

It was so vulgar that it made her ears dirty.

Xie Wan Ning had a deeper understanding of his shamelessness. Her cheeks flushed and she glared at him angrily.

After a while, she gritted her teeth and said, "I don't believe it."

He made such a long speech just to prove that he is innocent.

"I don't believe you. I don't believe you haven't touched Liu Manrou and Erxia." Thinking of Erxia, her face became even colder, and she said word by word: "After all, didn't you and Erxia do it in my yard?"

As soon as she finished speaking, Lu Ziyan's face changed. "Erxia's incident happened suddenly. When I found out who her master was, I couldn't take care of anything else. I didn't have time to slowly pull out this nail."

"I approached her and gave her two choices: to die immediately or to defect to my side. She chose to betray her master and save her life."

"But she is your personal maid. I cannot let such a two-faced person serve you in your daily life."

He thought of the scene in his dream where the girl stood stiffly outside the greenhouse and heard the noise inside. He smiled helplessly, "At that time, I just wanted you to stop associating with her from now on. I was stupid and only came up with this idea."

There is no way to make the master more disgusted than having a maid climb onto the bed.

How stupid he was. He only thought about keeping her away from Erxia and all possible dangers, and completely forgot to think about what he would become in her eyes if he did so.

Erxia is not the only one who is despised.

After the Erxia incident, she seemed like a different person in front of him. The girl who smiled sweetly at him was no longer there.

Xie Wan Ning, who was standing aside, had no intention of thinking about love affairs at all. When she heard his words, she just felt unbelievable.

"Erxia is my family's servitude daughter. Her father, mother, and brothers are all servitude slaves in the mansion. Whose daughter could she be?"

Of course, the personal maid that Zheng chose for her daughter could not be of unknown origin.

Erxia and Erqing are both servants of the Xie family. Their father, mother, brothers, and ancestors have all been servants of the Xie family.

When Xie Wan Ning got married, Erxia was a maid who came with her as a dowry. Her entire family was still working in the Xie Mansion, and their indentures were still in the hands of the mistress Zheng.

Erxia, as a dowry maid, climbed onto her brother-in-law's bed. Although her behavior was disgusting, such maids were not uncommon in wealthy families.

Xie Wan Ning always believed that this maid was just too ambitious and had dreams of becoming a concubine.

But what is he saying?
Erxia has been serving her since she was a child, how could she have other masters?

She was so surprised that she couldn't believe it, but Lu Ziyan just looked at her with gentle and quiet eyes.

Ever since I found out that he was not Lu's biological son, the answer appeared in my mind subconsciously without giving it much thought.

Under his gaze, Xie Wan Ning moved her lips and uttered a few words stiffly.

She looked frightened and stared at him like a frightened deer. This look made Lu Ziyan unable to restrain himself any longer.

She retreated three steps, and Lu Ziyan only took one step forward, grabbed her wrist and pulled her back, then held her tightly in his arms.

"Don't be afraid, Wanwan, don't be afraid. No one can hurt you anymore."

"...How could this be?" Xie Wan Ning looked dazed.

There is no doubt that Erxia is a member of the Xie family, but there are many members of the Xie family, and she may not be her only master.

For example, her aunt, the first-rank imperial concubine in the palace, was the eldest daughter of the Xie family.

Speaking of which, Erxia's mother... was once a maid in her aunt's courtyard. But when Concubine Shu entered the palace, her rank was not high, and she entered the palace as a concubine, so the dowry she brought could not exceed the rules.

Of course, not all personal maids could be brought into the palace. Only two capable ones could be selected, and Erxia's mother was one of the ones left behind.

Erxia turned out to be my aunt's person.

that……

Xie Wan Ning shuddered as if someone had poured a bucket of ice water on her. "My aunt wants to harm me?"

"Yes," Lu Ziyan tightened his arms and said in a low voice, "The secret poison of the Western Region is not something a boudoir girl can get. Lu Xiyao was deceived by someone."

Even if he didn't say who it was, Xie Wan Ning could guess.

After all, before entering the ancestral temple, she had heard about Lu Xiyao's marriage, and it seemed that she was going to marry into the eldest prince's palace as a concubine.

Although she was a concubine, the eldest prince's reputation in the court was at its peak at that time, and he was within reach of the position of crown prince.

As a concubine, Lu Xiyao will definitely be promoted to the position of a noble concubine in the future. This is not only not considered a low-class marriage, but can be considered an excellent marriage.

However, this good thing came to nothing due to Lu Ziyan's opposition.

Lu Xiyao was only half a year younger than her, an eighteen-year-old girl. Her marriage was rejected by her brother, but she was not unhappy at all. Instead, she turned around and gave her a jade bracelet, trying to kill her.

After her death, the position of Lu Ziyan's wife became vacant.

Once his identity is restored...

Xie Wan Ning took a deep breath and felt that she had died unjustly.

She broke free from his arms, raised her eyes and said, "Tell me what will happen to them after I die."

Lu Ziyan followed her force and was easily pushed away by her.

His lowered eyes seemed to be covered with a thin layer of mist, and he looked at her quietly for a few breaths.

"They made me lose my loved ones and live a life worse than death. I..." At this point, he paused, turned away and said, "I don't want to talk about it."

He didn't want to lie to her again, and he didn't want to see hatred for a madman in her eyes.

Xie Wan Ning was silent for a moment, vaguely understanding something.

In short, those people will not have a good ending.

A man who commanded a army at the age of fourteen, went to the battlefield at the age of sixteen, and was accustomed to bloodshed, when in a crazy state, the means of revenge he would take would be more cruel than she could imagine.

In such a short period of time, the truth about his past life that Xie Wan Ning learned from him made her mind turbulent one after another. Her brain was a little confused and she didn't know what to say for a moment.

The room fell into silence.

From the corner of her eye, she could see that it was getting completely dark outside the window. Xie Wan Ning pursed her lips and was about to say goodbye when she heard the man's slightly hoarse voice in front of her.

"Wanwan," he stammered twice and spoke with difficulty, "Is it okay to divorce him? I can't live without you."

"I know I was wrong about everything. You don't owe me anything. I owe you everything." He held her wrist and gave her a stiff smile. "Can you give me a chance to make it up to you?"

There were starlights in his black eyes, and he looked at her with some fear and pleading, like a drowning man grabbing a piece of driftwood.

Such an affectionate look would move any young girl.

But the person in front of him was Xie Wan Ning.

It was Xie Wan Ning who loved him to the point of being afraid of him.

She did suffer from the aftereffects of being hurt by him. If she had known before that he loved her so deeply, she would have been extremely happy.

But now, seeing this look, her first reaction was not touching or joyful. She clearly felt that her heart was calm.

It even feels a little heavy.

Those infatuated feelings are separated by a lifetime.

Now she has the memory of having died once, and is no longer obsessed with love between men and women. She just wants to live a peaceful life, and she can no longer remember how she felt when she was madly in love with him.

I love him so much that I almost lose myself. Even though I am treated coldly time and time again, I still have naive fantasies about him.

How stupid.

She would never be so stupid again.

Xie Wan Ning blinked, feeling inexplicably sad for her loving self.

"Don't cry." The girl's eyelids in front of him turned red, and Lu Ziyan panicked. He was most afraid of seeing her cry.

He remained calm even when commanding his men on the battlefield, but when he saw her tears in the eyes, his hard heart began to waver.

Disliking his fake concern, Xie Wan Ning turned her eyes away and didn't bother to look at him. The next moment, she was embraced by him.

"It's all my fault. I got caught in my own trap. I deserve it. But Wanwan, I can't let you go. I can't let you go no matter what. If I could let you go, I wouldn't be living like a madman."

"Whether you marry someone else, no longer love me, or have transferred your affection to someone else, I don't care. You don't know that feeling. I dare not experience it again, and I can't care so much. I only want you."

His low and hoarse voice was close to my ears, with a hint of madness in it.

Xie Wan Ning's whole body was stiff, she felt a little scared and a little resistant.

She thought of the dream.

In the dream in which he was looking at her old clothes, an overwhelming despair lingered around him.

Her breathing hitched and she struggled to break free from his embrace.

"I won't divorce."

Her voice was very soft, but every word reached his ears. The calmness that Lu Ziyan had managed to maintain could no longer be maintained. His eyes turned cold, and then disappeared in an instant.

"No matter what your reasons were, the hurt has already become a fact. During the two years I was married to you, I didn't live a happy life for a single day. In the end, you pointed at me and called me a wicked woman. Even Er Qing..."

Yes, and Er Qing!
Thinking of Er Qing who was stripped of her pants and beaten to death, the tears she had been holding back for a long time finally fell, "Er Qing was also implicated by me and died in your Shen family. It was you who gave the order yourself."

She could ignore the grievances she suffered. After all, it was her own choice. She insisted on marrying him, and any cold treatment she suffered was her own fault.

What's wrong with Ke Erqing!

She smiled coldly, "Are you going to tell me that Er Qing is also my aunt's person?"

Lu Ziyan wanted to say so, after all, that was something from the previous life and she would not know the truth.

But he really didn't want to lie to her anymore.

So, he was speechless when asked, and he opened his lips for a long while before he said, "You want to hear the truth?"

Judging from his tone, it seems like there is something hidden.

Xie Wan Ning's heart skipped a beat, fearing that she would hear the news that another of her maids had betrayed her master.

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