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Chapter 41 Nian Nian, You Can't Leave Me

Feng Sichen always thought that no one could win his heart, but during those days when Si Nian left without saying goodbye, he was restless - his mind was filled with Si Nian's every smile, every move, including her stubborn face that refused to admit defeat.

He once went to the neighborhood where she lived and watched her from a corner she didn't know where it was, but every time he saw her, she was talking and laughing, as if she was really happy because she had been relieved.

It's maddening!

Si Nian was always disobedient, not at all like what he had expected. Even if he had planned a route for her, she would still find a way to break free.

If I hadn't chased her to Jiangcheng, I guess she would have really left City A completely and escaped from me forever.

She was willing to accept the uncomfortable scenes in her heart, and she would not give in to me. She was willing to drink herself to the hospital, and she would not ask me for help. She was willing to be severely beaten by me, so that her unbearable and embarrassing situation were exposed, but she still refused to bend and give in...

She would rather smile at other strange men and women, even at the trees, flowers, and clouds in the sky, than give me one sincerely.

To me, all she did was to follow the routine, set boundaries, and deal with me in an extremely hypocritical manner, and also give me extra care because she was kind-hearted.

On the night when he made love to her, Feng Sichen got drunk in a bar. He tried to forget the way she smiled coquettishly at a strange man in the coffee shop in the afternoon, but the more he drank, the clearer it became, so clear that he vaguely saw the man touching Si Nian's hand, and she did not refuse!
She is his! She can only be his!

Feng Sichen hurriedly ended the invitation and drove back.

The first thing Feng Sichen did when he arrived at Bauhinia Apartment was to tear her apart and eat her, leaving traces and scents of him all over her body. He wanted to leave a deep mark on her to let her remember that her man was me!

But she was so disobedient!

Thinking of this, Feng Sichen's eyes were covered with deep darkness.

Feng Sichen's expression changed so quickly that Si Nian also changed. She asked tentatively, "Do you have a stomachache again?"

"Yeah." He lowered his eyes again.

That deep feeling turned into extreme hurt. Feng Sichen added: "Stomach cramps, uncomfortable."

"I'll pour you some hot water." Si Nian came back and she bent down as if to pour water.

“The hot water didn’t work.”

"I'll call you a doctor."

"It's just a spasm, just massage it, no need to bother the doctor," he said.

The man, who already had very little blood in him, was bent and folded due to the sudden spasm, which was very pitiful to see.

Si Nian came over, patted his back, and handed him a glass of hot water. "Cover yourself up and see if it feels better."

A quarter of an hour later, Feng Sichen recovered.

"You saw it just now. I am a patient and I need someone to be by my side. Lawyer Si, you will not stand by and watch me die, right?" he said.

Si Nian: What should I do? I really can’t find a reason to refuse.

"Well, I won't leave," she paused, "but I will leave tomorrow!"

"Okay." Feng Sichen said lightly.

In a corner that Si Nian didn't notice, Feng Sichen forced a fleeting smile.

Feng Sichen is a very busy man after all, and he has to handle official business even when lying in bed.

His fingers were moving rapidly on the keyboard. Si Nian looked bored. She opened her phone and watched the videos.

Perhaps because he had upset her, or perhaps because she had questions to ask, Si Nian stopped browsing her phone. She asked, "When you went to Jiangcheng, did you really push a lot of orders for me?"

She remembered what Wen Mo had said before, so she asked about what happened that day.

Feng Sichen said lightly: "It's just a few hundred million, it doesn't matter."

Si Nian: ...How many hundreds of millions? It doesn't matter? When will I be able to say this calmly?
Her eyes seemed to be covered by a layer of mist.

I have never been anyone's main choice, and the role I played was basically dispensable. But there was a person who turned down a project worth hundreds of millions of dollars for me. It was a bit dreamy and funny, although he was not short of money.

Everyone has two sides, A and B. My A side is positive, but my B side is dark and damp. It is like a worm in a dark corner that cannot stand the light. It is disgusting to look at.

Strong, confident, calm, composed, and kind, these are all fake. I am sensitive and vicious, and sometimes I wish the whole world would be destroyed.

Side B is what I cannot talk about. It is like the sword of Damocles, which puts my life in danger at any time. So the best way is to hide it and not let anyone find out. In this way, I can deceive myself and say: You are safe.

"Feng Sichen, do you find it hard to understand why I reacted so strongly after people found out about your investigation of me?" Si Nian took the initiative to mention what happened between them.

"That's a past I can't get over. I don't want anyone to know about my miserable past." Si Nian said calmly.

That document recorded my past in too much detail, directly exposing my B-side.

Si Nian saw his fingers pause, she smiled and said: "You can think that I am hypocritical or just for the sake of reputation, that's just how I am."

This time she smiled sincerely: "I don't like anyone seeing how miserable and miserable I am." There was a sad atmosphere in her smile.

"Feng Sichen, I'm too worthless. You shouldn't waste your time on me."

This time, they calmed down and talked honestly. They talked for a long time. During the conversation, they were on an equal footing and there was no discussion about who was the dominant or the controller of the situation.

"If you come to work for me, I can give you an annual salary of one million." Feng Sichen said to Si Nian seriously.

Si Nian replied with a smile: "Are you trying to steal Shen Qinlan's girl?"

"It seems that he is unwilling to do so."

"No, it's just that I don't like to change my career or workplace. I like the familiar feeling."

"Occupation? Lawyer Si has many side jobs besides being a lawyer."

Feng Sichen knew all her aliases, such as her CV Si Ye, the great novel author Que Shanxing, as well as the accounts she had abandoned, as well as the lyricists and composers.

Knowing too much is not necessarily a good thing. For example, he now knows the truth that was puzzling to him at the time - she was desperate to win the lawsuit for Chi Yan because he was her first love.

But that's in the past.

It was late at night and Si Nian dozed off.

Seeing that she was drowsy, Feng Sichen closed the window, closed the computer, then gently got out of bed, tiptoed to carry her to the bed next to him, and covered her with a quilt.

The air conditioner was at 22 degrees, so he turned it up to 26 degrees, then closed the curtains tightly and turned off the lights.

When he was about to go to bed, he turned around, his eyes fell gently on Si Nian's face, then he moved forward, leaned over and gave her a light kiss on the forehead.

Nian Nian, you can't leave me.

Feng Sichen originally wanted to kiss her lips, but on a whim, he changed his mind.

(End of this chapter)