The whole world just wants you to love me

Mo Zhengyan felt a suffocation in his chest. At that time, he didn't even understand what it felt like.His mind was a little empty and a little messy, he thought he should leave here.Mo Zhengyan took a few steps back, he really wanted to run fast, but he was afraid of disturbing the people inside.

Mo Zhengyan slowed down his pace at first, and after he passed the stairs, he ran down quickly.

He ran out of the villa and came to the back garden.

Mo Zhengyan ran into the woods in one breath and climbed up the big tree.When he was young, he loved climbing trees the most. This caused headaches for everyone in the Mo family, fearing that he would fall off.Skillfully climbing up the big tree, Mo Zhengyan sat on the branch, lost in thought.

Mo Zhengyan became dazed for a while, and then looked forward.

The garden is facing the villa, and you can see the room where Mrs. Mo is.The curtains were half-closed, and the scene inside could not be seen.

In Mo Zhengyan's ears, the conversation just now emerged.

Suddenly, there was a burst of inexplicable anger and haze.

Mo Zhengyan grabbed the leaves beside him fiercely, and was about to pull them down forcefully.Perhaps his movements were too violent, so with such a tug, he moved the branch.The branch Mo Zhengyan was sitting on was not very thick, and after he shook it like this, the middle part of the branch broke with a click.

Mo Zhengyan was startled, and before he had time to react, he heard another cracking sound, and he fell from the tree.

Mo Zhengyan groaned and fell to the ground. His exclamation attracted the servants in the garden to look around.

Seeing him fall to the ground, the servant was so nervous that he rushed forward immediately, "Master, how are you? It doesn't matter!"

Mo Zhengyan was helped up, and he felt pain in his body, but he shook his head and tried his best to stand still.

"It doesn't hurt!" Mo Zhengyan gritted his teeth and said.

"Shall we go to the doctor? Did you fall somewhere?" The servant was still worried.

"I didn't fall, I just slipped accidentally." Mo Zhengyan didn't want to admit that he just climbed a tree.

Because he had already had an experience before, just last month, when he insisted on climbing a tree and fell from the tree, which frightened everyone in the villa.Immediately, a doctor was invited to examine him and calm him down.And because of this, the mother was also accused by the father, who blamed her for not being good at even a child, and not knowing what she was doing all day long.

This time, Mo Zhengyan would not admit it even if he died, and he secretly climbed the tree again.

If it is known, then the mother will be criticized again, and the father will also be angry.

After thinking about it, Mo Zhengyan always felt that everything was caused by himself, so he only said that he didn't feel any pain at all and that nothing would happen to him.

The servant asked many times, but Mo Zhengyan was still stubborn, and even jumped on the spot.The servant had no choice but to tell him if it hurts, otherwise it would be bad if something happened.Mo Zhengyan just nodded and said firmly that he had nothing to do.

After the servant left, Mo Zhengyan frowned in pain.

He suddenly lost his footing and fell to the ground.The body seemed to be on fire, but miraculously, it seemed to be in pain, but at the same time it seemed to be painless.

Mo Zhengyan raised his head and looked at the sky above his head.

The blue is so brilliant, there is no cloud in the sky.

The pain in the body suddenly became apparent at this time.

For some reason, Mo Zhengyan felt a little sad.

Mo Zhengyan opened his eyes wide, unwilling to let the tears fall.

A man wouldn't cry over such a trivial matter.

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Mo Zhengyan didn't know what went wrong between his parents.When he was young, he had only one thought in his heart, and that was to make himself better, so that his mother would like him!

So, after that, Mo Zhengyan's academic performance was among the best.

So, after that, Mo Zhengyan no longer liked to laugh and make trouble, and everyone who saw him would praise him for being sensible and obedient.

So, after that, when the teachers at the school talked about him, they always praised him countless times.He is a man of the hour in the school, even the headmaster favors him.

However, Mo Zhengyan did not get his mother's praise.

Only when he got the award and ran to show his mother, she would smile, such a gentle smile.

She would say: Zhengyan, so smart.

This made Mo Zhengyan feel too precious.

Therefore, Mo Zhengyan participated in various competitions one after another.

It was Mo Zhengyan's first time participating in the National Mathematical Olympiad. After passing the rematch, Mo Zhengyan felt a desire, and he couldn't help but want to confide in it.In fact, it has not yet entered the finals, let alone ranked in the national competition.But because the teacher told him that only three places were entered in the whole city, and he entered the final with the No.1 result, this is a very honorable thing.Therefore, Mo Zhengyan was full of expectations. He was looking forward to telling his mother about this matter, and even more looking forward to gentle smiles and compliments.

So, Mo Zhengyan came to his mother's room again.

Mo Zhengyan stood at the door. He was about to knock on the door, but he heard the sound of arguing from inside.

Mo Zhengyan was frightened at the time, because he heard the sound of things being smashed on the floor.Immediately, footsteps gradually approached.He suddenly panicked and didn't know what to do, so he just ran into the next room and hid inside.

The door was open, and Mo Zhengyan was leaning against the wall. He heard the door opening and footsteps.

And the voices of father and mother.

"Yuanzhou! Why are you treating me like this!" It was Mo Haiyin's voice, helpless and hesitant like never before.

"Haiyin, I'm going to work!"

"But we are husband and wife, aren't we? We are legally registered husband and wife! There are so many days left, and now you are going to other places for long-term development, what do you want me and the child to do?"

Mo Zhengyan had been standing behind the wall, he didn't even dare to take a breath.I have always known that the relationship between father and mother is not harmonious. Many times, mother will lose her temper, while father is suffering.For a long time, they have become a little respectful to each other, and what's more, the father will avoid the mother.

"You and Zhengyan are living a good life in Los Angeles, what else can we do?"

"Qin Yuanzhou! Don't think I don't know what you're thinking! Don't you just don't want to see me!"

"There is no such thing at all!"

"Yuanzhou! Don't go! I know you don't like children, and I know you blame me! If I didn't want children, then Zhengyan wouldn't have been born! I regret it too! But this is all in the past, isn't it? "

……

The words that followed became hazy and unreal.

Mo Zhengyan hasn't fully understood all of this yet, only heard that sentence.

——If I didn't want a child, then Zhengyan wouldn't have been born!I regret it too!But it's all over, isn't it?

It doesn't matter what the Mathematical Olympiad competition reached the final.

It's long since ceased to matter.

The answer that I didn't get before, suddenly got another answer at this moment.So clear, yet so profound, he will never forget it.

He, as expected, should not have been born, it was a mistake.

In that year's National Mathematical Olympiad, Mo Zhengyan did not attend the finals.

He was the first and only absent student.

Later, everyone asked him the reason for his absence that day. His classmates, teachers, and even the principal all asked him one by one, but Mo Zhengyan didn't answer.

Mo Zhengyan was silent.

Finally, this matter was finally known by the mother.

Mo Haiyin finally asked him the reason for his absence.

Mo Zhengyan still didn't answer.

Since then, he has gradually become silent.

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If the first two times were unintentional, they were accidentally bumped into by Mo Zhengyan.Then that time, it was Mo Zhengyan who deliberately eavesdropped.

A moment ago, Mo Zhengyan had just returned from school when he heard his parents arguing.The sound of arguing came from the side hall.

Mo Zhengyan couldn't help but glance sideways.

After Mo Zhengyan went upstairs again, he came down another staircase.Going around the garden, quietly came to the side hall through another door.

The servants were not there, and they were probably dismissed.

He saw his mother and father still arguing,

"Qin Yuanzhou! Do you think I don't know! You just can't let go of that woman! That woman came to you again, didn't she! It's been so many years, it's been so many years, and you and her are still inseparable! You are already me Her husband is the father of a child! Don't you know how to avoid suspicion!"

"No such thing! Don't think too much about it!"

"How much do I think? Last night, where did you go? Who did you see, do you dare to tell?"

"Mo Haiyin, you sent someone to follow me? How could you do that?"

"I just sent someone to follow you, so what? You are the one who is sorry for me! If I hadn't married you back then, would you be where you are today? If I hadn't helped you back then, would you have the career you have now? Qin Yuanzhou, you have no conscience!"

This time, Mo Zhengyan saw his mother's face clearly.

So desperate, red eyes, full of tears.

He also saw his father, Qin Yuanzhou, with deep regret and unspeakable guilt on his handsome face.

"Haiyin, I know that you have helped me all these years. Without you, there would be no Qin Yuanzhou now! It is I who have treated you badly, I am sorry for you, I am sorry for the children. I did not take good care of you, I did not do a good job The responsibilities that a husband should have, and the responsibilities that a father should have, I owe you a lot. But Haiyin, do you know that you make me feel that I will not be able to bear it, and I am not a person at all in your eyes. Husband, but a person you can come and go when you call it! You never find mistakes in yourself, and now, I have nothing to say, you can do whatever you want!"

"But I've changed it, haven't I?"

"too late!"

"Qin Yuanzhou! Stop! I won't let you go! These are all your selfish excuses! You still love that woman! You just want to go to that woman!"

However, Qin Yuanzhou just turned around silently and left the side hall.

Mo Haiyin was the only one left.

And Mo Zhengyan who was secretly hiding.

Mo Zhengyan thought, over the years, although father and mother were not on good terms, although they always quarreled, they were always together.His father will also ask about his academic performance, care about him and love him, and treat him and his mother very well.Mo Zhengyan felt that his father still liked them very much.

But now, everything has been turned upside down.

Seeing Mo Haiyin slumped on the sofa, covering his face and crying, and hearing her heartbroken sobbing, Mo Zhengyan finally understood.

It turned out that the father did not love the mother.

It turned out that his father did not love him either.

Mo Zhengyan, you are just a child that no one loves.

Since no one loves him, and no one wants him to be born, why should he be born.

It would be great if a person could turn into air and disappear directly.

Mo Zhengyan once answered this question in class when the teacher asked a question.