Lu Mingfei, who has bipolar disorder, refreshes the holy text every week

Chapter 1 Bidirectional Disorder Lu Mingfei

"GG."

Lu Mingfei had dark circles around his eyes. He typed these two words weakly and exited the game.

He lost the sixteenth game of the day, making it one win and fifteen losses.

In the chat channel, the opponent expressed concern.

"Mingming, are you depressed again?"

Lu Mingfei said nothing and switched to QQ. The avatar of the girl wearing a baseball cap was still grey.

His mood became even lower.

He sighed and took a look at the profile picture of the ID "Lao Tang".

"Mingming, except for the first game, you acted normally. You basically lost after that. This game therapy has no effect."

Lao Tang was the player who defeated him. Today, he suddenly proposed to use games to treat Lu Mingfei's bipolar disorder, but failed.

"Oh, let's just leave it at that. I'm tired." Lu Mingfei said.

Old Tang was even more worried. "Mingming, be more positive. Think positively about everything. Don't commit suicide!"

Lu Mingfei replied: "Okay, got it, I want to sleep."

"Ok."

Old Tang went offline, he knew that Lu Mingfei needed quiet time.

The main reason why he was depressed today was that the girl was not online, which led to him being in a depressed state.

"A box of discounted bagged milk, half a pound of Guangdong sausages, and the new issue of 'Novel Drawing' that Mingze wanted. Come back quickly after you buy them and pick the celery on the table for me! And go to the message room to see if there are any letters from America! Still playing games? You don't care about your own affairs at all. If no one accepts you, how can you get into a top university? What's the point of spending so much money on you?" Aunt's voice rang out like thunder next door.

At the same time, there was also the sound of my uncle's scolding.

"Can't you keep your voice down? Mingfei is seriously ill right now. What if something happens to him?"

Lu Mingfei felt his head buzzing. He glanced at his aunt who was looking apologetic, and his uncle who was smiling on the sofa.

"Mingfei, if it doesn't work, just rest at home. I'll get it later." Uncle said calmly.

"It's okay. I just want to go out for a walk."

Lu Mingfei agreed casually, walked out, and closed the door gently. He could even hear his uncle and aunt arguing about him inside the door.

He is ill, seriously ill.

Bipolar disorder.

It is a rare mental illness that sometimes causes depression and sometimes mania.

The greater the pressure, the more depressed he may become, or he may suddenly become manic.

Emotionally very unstable.

How he wished his parents could be with him at this time.

If his parents were around, his illness... wouldn't be so serious.

Lu Mingfei put his hands in his trouser pockets, hung his head, looked at the ground, went downstairs, bought the things his aunt wanted at the convenience store, and then strolled to the bookstall and bought a newly published "Novel Illustrations".

When the newsstand owner saw Lu Mingfei's depressed look, he knew that he was depressed again.

"Ming Fei, look at it more positively. The world is a beautiful place. Don't be so depressed."

Lu Mingfei nodded gently, "Well, I have applied to go abroad. Maybe my condition will get better abroad."

"It's good to go abroad. The world outside is very prosperous and the medical level is high. Your illness will definitely be cured!"

"Thank you, sir. I will try to get treatment."

Lu Mingfei was in no mood to continue reading the magazine, so he went to the message room and looked inside blankly.

"Um...is there a letter for me?"

He opened his mouth and stammered, "Mingfei, Lu."

"Yes, it's from the United States." The guard threw a letter to Lu Mingfei, "Look at you, you are depressed. It's not easy to apply to American universities. Just go to any university in China."

Lu Mingfei smiled awkwardly and felt inside the letter. There was only a piece of paper. A rejection letter...

Lu Mingfei felt even more depressed.

As expected, there was no way I could get an admission letter from an American university. I didn’t do well in the college entrance examination and I probably wouldn’t even be able to get into undergraduate school.

Study, study is not working.

Love, no love talk.

Game, game keeps losing.

Why am I such a waste!
Maybe, I shouldn't have come into this world.

Lu Mingfei laughed at himself and tore open the envelope. Lu Mingfei, who was feeling depressed, did not notice that a black substance floated out from under his feet and sank into his body.

Suddenly, Lu Mingfei covered his chest, feeling a sharp pain there. "Damn it, has the effect of the drug worn off so quickly?"

The pain comes and goes away just as quickly.

He was breathing heavily, and it seemed as if something extra was in his mind.

"Holy text...C?"

"…Enforced?"

"What the hell, are you hallucinating now?"

"You'd better go home and take medicine. I don't want to live anymore."

Lu Mingfei began to check the letter and found that it was actually written in Chinese.

Dear Mr. Lu Mingfei:

Thank you for your interest in the University of Chicago, but unfortunately you were not admitted.

However, we often say that there is more than one road, it just depends on whether you are willing to choose.

First of all, introduce yourself. Cassel College is a private university located in the outer suburbs of Chicago, Illinois, USA. It is a joint school with the University of Chicago and has extensive academic exchanges.

We are very honored to receive your application information from the University of Chicago. After careful evaluation, we believe that you meet the admission standards of Cassel College and would like to extend an invitation to you.

Please contact Professor Guderian of our school as soon as you receive this letter. He is on an academic visit to China and will arrange an interview with you.

If you have any questions, please contact Professor Guderian. I will assist him in providing services to you. I am Norma Lawes, the college secretary of Kassel College, and I am very happy to meet you.

Yours sincerely,

Norma.

Lu Mingfei put down the letter and became even more depressed.

Looking at the beginning, it seems to be a very standard rejection letter.

However, when it comes to the word "but", the tone of the picture changes. Could it be that the other party is playing a joke on him?

"Haha, they must be kidding me. How could I possibly be accepted? Alas, the whole world has abandoned me. What's the point of me living?"

"Oh, there's another package." The guard suddenly said, handing over a list, "Sign for it."

"Oh."

Lu Mingfei no longer cared. He signed his name casually and took the package, which was hard inside.

He was in no mood to open the package, so he just went back home.

While taking psychiatric drugs, I watched my aunt pour out a mobile phone from a package.

"What the hell is this?" Aunt looked at the pure black phone in confusion.

"Wow, it's N96!" The uncle was extremely excited. "It's very expensive!"

"Kassel College? Brother, you'd better pay attention to this school. Maybe you can succeed."

Lu Mingze looked at his depressed brother and felt reluctant to hit him, so he said that Kassel College was a scam.

I was afraid that my brother would get so depressed that he would jump off the building.

(End of this chapter)