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() No matter how complicated her feelings are, now is not the time for her to leave. After hearing Liu Yihan's roll call, Kim Taeyeon showed her head and listened to the director's talk with the male lead under the gaze of everyone. She trained for several months, even if it was Taeyeon is very familiar with the most out-of-the-ordinary scenes, but she is still happy with these nagging, and her eyes are more serious than usual. No matter whether she can recite Liu Yihan's words or not, she really needs it at this moment. Do something to distract her energy. The biggest source of breakup pain is being reminded. A dialogue, a side dish, or even a passing scenery will remind her of their past. The sudden daze is because of depression, and the text message from the ex-boyfriend, It is tantamount to putting everything that day in front of her eyes again.

Taeyeon often has a dream these days. In the dream, the moonlight is fine and the sky is cloudless. She stands on the lawn lit with candles and sees them arranged in an orderly manner. She stands in the candlelight. In the end, he was alone, he seemed to be waiting for something, and he seemed to be just regretting, but it didn’t rain in the dream, and there was no figure of the man standing alone in the candlelight watching him go away, It will not bring heart-piercing pain, but it will bring a faint melancholy that is stuck in the throat. Whenever Taeyeon wakes up in such a dream, she will do one thing. She opens the drawer at the bottom of the bed and takes it out. A lighter that was hidden deep, and then randomly dropped anywhere during the day's outing. At the beginning, she would go to the place where she lost it to take a look, but when the first lighter disappeared inexplicably, she began to force it. I no longer look for it.

In the empty bathroom, Kim Taeyeon lowered her head.Instead of looking at herself reflected in the mirror on the sink, she didn't burst into tears.Just feeling extremely tight in her chest, she propped her hands on the edge of the sink, feeling that it would be okay even if she didn't show up for the next premiere, she stared blankly at the marble pattern on the sink, because her gaze could only be placed there.

Breaking up hurts more than imagined, but it’s not as painful as imagined. Getting used to it is like getting used to the stage and getting used to other people’s gaze. When Taeyeon knows and experiences this personally, she has enough confidence to feel that she can complete this part alone. when traveling.Just a text message from that person easily broke her defenses, she felt that she could remain normal even if she met by chance, she felt that she could remain normal even when Yoona introduced him to all of them one day, But the text message told her that no matter what, you can't be normal with someone you love.

She gave herself several reasons to persevere and leave good memories.For the sake of everyone, changing back to her former self, and terminating a wrong relationship, but there are many reasons for her to act like this, but it is what made her act like this.Seems like nothing but jealousy.If he said to break up with YoonA, if he said he only loves himself, even if he only imagines that Kim Taeyeon knows that he can't stick to it, so the whole reason is that she found a "correct" coat for herself, because She has no real drive to return to solitude.

She could not say that her act of breaking up was love for him.Because during that isolated period, she felt that he could give up everything for her.

She did not admit that her act of breaking up was forcing him.Because during that period of isolation, she even made the decision to stay with him all the time without a name.

She thinks that he loves herself more than Yun'er, and she thinks that she will keep looking for such proofs, and instead of drifting away from him in the process of searching, it's better to just give up like this.

She foresaw the deterioration in the future, so she gave up, leaving only the good ones, but if he felt that he couldn't lose himself and gave up on Yuner, then she would go back, replace or win that position...

"Is everything going to be okay?"

Raise your head and ask in the mirror, this is a question that can only be answered from waiting and time, but at this time, Kim Taeyeon seems to have no ability and courage to know the answer.

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After the 10-minute long meeting ended, there was only half an hour left before the show started. Everyone was making final preparations. No one knew where Kim Taeyeon had gone. Liu Yihan, who had just dealt with the chaos at the front door, returned to the backstage and declined. Accompanied by the person in charge of the venue, I went through the final procedures before the show with a lot of irritability, but the heroine who was about to appear in the second act has not been seen yet. If it is not because of her good health, she may really suffer from a heart attack. .

When Taeyeon reappeared backstage, Liu Yihan, who concluded that he had given too much good looks, immediately rushed forward, but when the onlookers were worried that his reprimand would be too serious and affect the actor's state, they found that the director suddenly disappeared Angry, he softened his tone with a shocked face, and vaguely heard some words floating over, all of which seemed to be asking for warmth, everyone was surprised, although curious, no one dared to ask what happened, and noticed that the director His eyes glanced over, and the people who were still looking around immediately lowered their heads and went about their own affairs.

Using his gaze to distract the crowd, Liu Yihan turned his head and looked at Taeyeon's face again. He glanced at the much lighter wine bottle in his hand, and lowered his voice very worriedly, "Is it really okay?"

"kindness!"

Kim Taeyeon replied crisply, but the voice was accompanied by the smell of alcohol, "Director, please rest assured, I will have no problems, and I am also very sober now."

Listening to her clear words, Liu Yihan was indeed comforted a little, but he was still not completely relieved when he was thinking about the iron wine bottle in his hand. Although the capacity is not large, it can hold a small half bottle of shochu. It should be fine to separate it a little Question, but judging by the appearance of this girl, she should drink it all at once.

Stage actors, actors, and even drama actors who consume a small amount of alcohol before going on stage will help their performance, partly because of the psychological effect, and partly because of the relaxing effect of alcohol on the mind, even for stage actors who have performed thousands of times I will also be nervous, and alcohol can just help the actors put more energy into the performance, but this does not mean that the more they drink, the better the performance. Liu Yihan has seen some actors die because of this trick. The gain outweighs the loss, the hotness under the stage lights is unimaginable for ordinary people, and Kim Taeyeon, who is acting in the music scene for the first time, may be affected by the alcohol, and Liu Yihan's heart is completely downloaded to Kim Taeyeon.

Maybe she is a person in this way?

Seeing Taeyeon smiling at some seniors, Liu Yihan automatically dispelled the idea. It is the most beautiful time for a girl to grow into a woman. Kim Taeyeon, who also looks cheerful, how could he be an alcoholic?

Liu Yihan, who ordered Kim Taeyeon to prepare for the stage, is still worried, and has been following around to observe the actor's state. If she is really affected, even if she is scolded to delay the performance time, Liu Yihan will not mess up a premiere , but Kim Taeyeon performed very well. She came and went in the performance team, and greeted everyone seriously. She talked properly and her steps were not vain. After the male protagonist next to him nodded, he looked at the stage of the first act that was being arranged behind the curtain in a hurry, and he didn't look like he had been drunk at all.

Stage plays are different from TV dramas and movies. If everything depends on the director before, then after the show starts, you have to watch the actors. Except for these actors who perform live performances, none of the well-known movie stars in the world can control this. A stage, but stage actors can, because once on stage, each of them is their own director.

The audience, the auditorium is full of people, including fans, reporters, pure musical audiences and those who want to see their idols in musicals. Girls’ Generation’s Kim Taeyeon is a well-deserved star, even if it can only be A theater with a capacity of less than 1000 people has no appeal and don't expect to fill her seats.

Looking around, the lights suddenly dimmed, and the chatting audience suddenly fell silent. They focused their eyes on the stage. The red curtain was still, carrying the expectation in their eyes. At the other end of the stage, there was only a glare of light flashing, and the seniors and assistants beside them walked onto the stage one after another. Almost at the same time as the last person reached the designated position, the curtain was slowly opened. The light is one step ahead of the music. When the lights came on, Taeyeon, who still couldn't adapt to the light and dark transition, narrowed her eyes, and the sound of music in her ears told her that the performance had already begun.

The stage play Song of the Sun adapted from Bando Kenji's work tells a love story. The heroine Amane Kaoru played by Kim Taeyeon can only live under the moonlight, while the male protagonist loves surfing and lives in the sun Takashi , two people who cannot be together interpret a story about first love, as if the god named love waved his hand, and people can cross the impossible reality.

Love equals miracles.

Kim Taeyeon had this feeling when she first came into contact with the script of Song of the Sun.

Time passes.

If the current Kim Taeyeon is to explain it, miracles are equal to too many coincidences and stories in fairy tales.

Before fully adapting to the lighting on the stage, Taeyeon looked over the edge of the stage and looked at a certain position in the auditorium. She was not standing on the stage. From this angle, she could vaguely see that position.

That's an empty slot.

It was the only empty spot in the entire game.

It was the position she deliberately vacated.

Kim Taeyeon occasionally thinks, when Xiaozhi wants to take Xiaoxun to walk in the sun in the story, when the dream of the two is completely opposite to the reality, will they still love each other like this?Or did Xiao Zhi already know that he would never be able to take Xiao Xun to walk in the sun when their relationship started?

The story ends here at a very perfect place. Perfect means impeccable. Under the big theme of love, Song of the Sun only talks about love. As for what happens after love, the author doesn't care, and the audience doesn't even care.

Perhaps, love is an art that ends here. It needs to be clever in its beginning and perfect in its ending.

People who can't be together probably shouldn't expect the miracle of love. Even if it comes, they should know when to stop here.

The real story after Song of the Sun ended like a fairytale, this is Kim Taeyeon's love, and this is her ending.