My Goddess

Su Yifan chatted with Yu Zheng on the side of the road and suffered from mosquito bites.Cheng Shuixin lay on the armrest of the seat and looked out of the car window. The brightly lit world hides many secrets, and makes people want to hide many of their emotions inside.

Yang Bingbing looked up at the rearview mirror, Cheng Shuixin's expression was unprecedentedly melancholy, which made her feel a little curious.

"what happened to you?"

Cheng Shuixin supported her face with one hand, shook her head slightly and replied, "It's nothing, I just feel a little tired."

"This doesn't look like you." Yang Bingbing felt that she understood Cheng Shuixin, "You usually have a heavier workload than today, and that's not the case."

Cheng Shuixin looked at Zhang Yao who was about to fall asleep, and lightly patted the little junior sister's arm with her hand and said, "You're right, I still have something on my mind."

Yang Bingbing didn't ask Cheng Shuixin to speak out, so she just turned her head and looked at her quietly.

Cheng Shuixin couldn't bear Yang Bingbing's stare, and waved her hand and said, "Oh, it's just those anonymous things that sprayed me, it's nothing."

Of course Yang Bingbing remembered the comment Cheng Shuixin showed her that day, and subconsciously asked, "It appeared again?"

"Every day." Cheng Shuixin wasn't really worried about this, she didn't want her troubles to be clearly felt by Yang Bingbing, so she could only choose another topic that bothered her a little, "It looks like you put in a lot of effort, The proxy ip is different every time, and it is very troublesome to track it down.”

"Ask Su Yifan for help." Yang Bingbing suggested, "He should have a good idea."

Cheng Shuixin glanced at Su Yifan outside the car window, shook her head and said, "Forget it...he's annoying enough, don't bother him."

Yang Bingbing insisted on her point of view seriously: "I think it's the most reliable to find him for this kind of thing."

Of course Cheng Shuixin knew that going to Su Yifan was the most reliable way to minimize the impact of the whole incident and make it easier to protect herself.But since she said those words to Su Yifan yesterday, she really wasn't in the mood to do anything to trouble Su Yifan again.

"Actually, Su Yifan already knows." Regarding Yang Bingbing, Cheng Shuixin was still willing to explain, "He said that he wanted to help me solve it. I don't think it's really necessary for him to go through this kind of thing."

Yang Bingbing also remembered Su Yifan's special expression that day, smiled and said: "Well, your own opinion is the most important."

Cheng Shuixin sat up straight, completely different from the lazy or even melancholy just now.

"Don't worry, I'll tell you if you have any questions."

Su Yifan, who had finished talking with Yu Zheng, just got into the car, and Yang Bingbing directly issued an order to the young man sitting in the passenger seat: "I'll send Zhang Yao off, today you send Cheng Shuixin home."

Su Yifan was about to say something, but Yang Bingbing stopped him with a stern look.

"No problem." Su Yifan decided to obediently obey the leader's arrangement after observing the words and expressions. Yang Bingbing would not be in a hurry with him under normal circumstances.

Others had no objection to Yang Bingbing's arrangement, after all, the female driver was the most tired today.The six-hour drive back and forth was no joke, if it wasn't for Su Yifan's business, Yang Bingbing wouldn't have to work so hard to wrong herself.

After kicking Cheng Shuixin and Su Yifan out of the car, Yang Bingbing looked back and gave Cheng Shuixin a gentle but slightly weird smile, and drove away with Zhang Yao.

Su Yifan stood by the side of the road, watched the car go away, smiled wryly at Cheng Shuixin who was standing beside him: "It seems that we were abandoned."

Cheng Shuixin smiled and said, "Then take a walk?"

Of course Su Yifan couldn't wish for such a thing, he was actually worried about Cheng Shuixin's attitude all day today, and when he heard that Cheng Shuixin was willing to talk to him like this, his mood finally became much better than before.

It was not the first time for the two of them to walk the streets side by side, and they were very familiar with everything around them.It is nearly ten o'clock at night, and the traffic flow is much less than that of the peak period. Looking around, there are only street lights stretching into the distance, which seems endless.Pedestrians who lowered their heads and walked quickly kept their eyes on each other. In the darkness, everyone seemed to be able to hide their emotions and spy on everything around them quietly.

After walking not far, Cheng Shuixin suddenly said: "I used to think that Yang Bingbing didn't care about these things, but now it seems that she doesn't care, but it doesn't involve her life, she just doesn't care about it."

Su Yifan understood what Cheng Shuixin was talking about, Yang Bingbing must have seen something wrong between him and Cheng Shuixin today, and wanted to leave a separate space for himself and Cheng Shuixin to solve the problem.

Cheng Shuixin didn't care whether Su Yifan responded to her or not, and continued: "I have asked myself before, if I have the conditions like her, can I do better than her, and now it seems that this question has been answered."

"There are some things that I can never do better than her."

After a pause, Cheng Shuixin turned her head to look at Su Yifan who had been silent all this time, and smiled again.

"It's strange. I'm still arguing with you today. Why should I tell you these things? But think about it carefully, I can only tell you a lot of things."

Su Yifan understood, just like what Su Xiaoqing said, Cheng Shuixin's heart is full of conflicting emotions, these emotions piled up, so that such a seemingly mature girl finally fell into the rut of hesitation .

"Accompany me to have a cup of coffee?" Cheng Shuixin was depressed for only a minute, and then she returned to her energetic self, "It's been a long time."

Su Yifan nodded: "Okay."

I don't know what time the coffee shop without a facade is open. Anyway, when the two of them went, there were still many people in the whole shop.Many lovers hide and whisper in the semi-private space formed by bookshelves, and there are also middle-aged people who seem to be successful and charming women sit and chat in public places.

After showing the membership card, Su Yifan and Cheng Shuixin chose a secluded corner, just like Su Xiaoqing chose every time he came.

"In fact, the things here are at the upper-middle level." Cheng Shuixin has recently strengthened her appreciation of food and coffee in addition to work. "The environment is really important-look at that bald old man over there, he The owner of Hejin Store. The old man in the plaid shirt over there is the vice president of the Calligraphers Association."

Su Yifan was quite familiar with this set, nodded and said, "It's a status symbol, it's normal."

Cheng Shuixin smiled and shook her head: "If I didn't know you and Miss Qing, I'm afraid it will take at least five years before I have the opportunity to drink coffee here. It's not about money, but about my mentality."

"What about now?" Su Yifan asked.

"Everything is so good now." Cheng Shuixin said in a low voice, "It's so good that it feels like a dream."

Su Yifan said: "Damn butterfly, I had a damn dream."

Cheng Shuixin could understand what Su Yifan was talking about. It was an essay about life written by an American. The article borrowed Zhuangzi's philosophy of life and said that life does not have so many heavy burdens and one should not think about the past.This article was recommended by Cheng Shuixin in the literature club, and Su Yifan never forgot after reading it.

Maybe, Su Yifan didn't forget every bit about Cheng Shuixin, he remembered them all.

"If that's the case, I think it's pretty good." Cheng Shuixin said with a smile, "It's a pity that the reality is still too heavy for people to fly."

Su Yifan didn't speak, he looked at Cheng Shuixin, at this girl who once made him feel that the world was a lot better.

When the coffee came, Cheng Shuixin stirred it gently with a small spoon, and suddenly asked, "Did I never mention my family to you?"

Su Yifan shook his head: "No."

"I was a mother's baby when I was young." Cheng Shuixin said bluntly without making any preparations, "You also know that there are so many parents who want to live their children's lives for them. Unfortunately, I just met one."

"My mother used to work in a daily newspaper. After becoming the editor in charge of the corporate page, she cooperated with others to set up a cultural company, specializing in various outdoor advertisements. Now you can see that the earliest large LCD screens in our city are all invested by her. .Now she is in a semi-retired state in the daily office, and she is on long-term sick leave. It is good to have half the status in the system. As long as you bypass the wall of not being able to start a company, you can always do well."

Su Yifan nodded, he had always suspected that Cheng Shuixin's family should have one or all of them were cultural people, in order to create such a beautiful girl who loves literature and art.Now it seems that I guessed correctly, Cheng Shuixin was greatly influenced by her mother.

"My mother has always hoped for me to be outstanding since I was a child. No matter what way, she always hopes that I can be the most dazzling one." Cheng Shuixin said about herself lightly, without any emotion, "I learned to dance when I was young. Singing, drawing, painting and playing the piano, I tried everything, and finally came to the conclusion that those methods are not suitable, and my childhood was almost ruined as a result.”

The topic of ruining childhood has similar shadows in the hearts of almost all people of the same age. After all, there are still a small number of people like Su Yifan who are freed.Su Shen and Gu Ying are also typical intellectuals, and their requirements for children are outrageously low.Su Yifan sometimes sees other people's children being subjected to all kinds of strict demands and euphemistically called love and deep responsibility, and even basely wonders if he is paying for phone bills...

"Later, when I grew up, I was more curious and wanted to know everything. My parents took me around, but they refused to let me make decisions by myself." Cheng Shuixin paused at this point, looking at Su Yifan , There was a bit of loneliness in the smile that Su Yifan could understand, "From then on, I made up my mind, at least to make them think that I am excellent, that I can make decisions on my own, so that they can rest assured."

"You did it." Su Yifan said.

"I just passed the pass." Cheng Shuixin said, "My mother's requirements for me have changed now. She especially hopes that I can become the kind of person who is sought after by many people, and then marry into a wealthy family."

"........."

Su Yifan felt that this was almost the dream of the parents of many beautiful girls. Of course, they might not be as frank as Cheng Shuixin's mother and said it directly.

"So you can see that I do so many things to make myself better." Cheng Shuixin looked into Su Yifan's eyes and said, "I want to get rid of my mother's expectations, so I can only work hard to prove myself."

Su Yifan persuaded: "There are no parents who don't love their children. Maybe they understand you and won't ask you so."

Cheng Shuixin chuckled: "Understand? That's the most difficult thing, okay? If you can really understand, there are so many contradictions."

Su Yifan was silent, he knew Cheng Shuixin was right.Many efforts may not necessarily bear fruit, and dialogue between generations is one example.

"So I don't know what tomorrow will look like." Cheng Shuixin frowned, looking pitiful and loving, "I'm more afraid of change than you, I hope you don't blame me."

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Frail and sickly, he still hasn't healed, please ask for a red ticket