my lord god sister

The outdoor scene was so clear, Gao Xiaowan gently pressed the palm of her hand on the transparent glass in front of her, saw her face reflected in the glass, and couldn't help smiling.

In the distance, there is a young man who looks exactly like himself, with a pale face and a thin body, walking towards him step by step in the wind and rain.Every step he took, he would sway in the wind and rain, and the half-melted candy at the corner of his mouth constantly reminded Gao Xiaowan of that slightly sweet taste.

If I remember correctly, I ended up committing suicide by taking medicine.Isn't sweet candy your favorite poison?Gao Xiaowan squinted her eyes, slowly watching the person walking towards her in the distance.That other self walked very slowly, and after a while, he walked in front of him again.

Then the outer self raised his pale and thin hand and pressed it on the glass.

Across the glass door, Gao Xiaowan seemed to feel that she could feel the cool rain.

In an instant, palms met, and the world was turned upside down.

Opening her eyes again, Gao Xiaowan saw the familiar scene in the distance again.

A crumbling building appeared in front of him unsteadily in the wind and rain, silently, just waiting quietly and horribly for himself in the distance.

Unknowingly, a smile spread from the corner of Gao Xiaowan's mouth. [

"Can you really beat me by repeating the scene before your death?"

Gao Xiaowan squinted her eyes, looked at the scene in the distance and smiled, then lowered her head again.Under the feet, there are patches of potholes with accumulated rainwater. Right now, there are a pair of bare feet.

Stepping forward, the cold raincoat directly covered her ankles and invaded Gao Xiaowan's nerve endings.Such a cold raincoat.It seemed to remind Gao Xiaowan of that familiar feeling again.

That familiar feeling that overflowed the corner of his mouth.I have always been alone, but now I actually feel a little uncomfortable.It's ridiculous as hell.

Gao Xiaowan thought, walking forward step by step.Every time he takes a step, the accumulated water under his feet will awaken Gao Xiaowan's sense of touch again, allowing him to re-feel his own position, re-feel the rainwater falling on his shoulders, and re-feel the endless cycle of reincarnation.

Finally, I don't know how long it took.It seemed only for a moment, Gao Xiaowan raised her head again, staring at the transparent glass door in front of her.It's a pity that this time is still the same as last time.The self is outside the glass, and on the other side of the glass, there is also a self.

Stretching out her hand mechanically and pressing it on the bone-chilling cellophane, Gao Xiaowan quietly looked at herself with a pale face and speechless inside the glass.

"are you alone?"

Gao Xiaowan narrowed her eyes.He looked at himself in the glass and smiled.

No one answered, even like a tomb in the dark night, without the slightest sound.Only the silence of death, even as zombies crawl out of the rotting dirt of the tomb.There was no sound at all.

The person inside the door didn't answer, but slowly raised his hand, facing Gao Xiaowan's palm.

In an instant, the whole world changed.

I am no longer where I used to be.Or.Gao Xiaowan answered the question again.He raised his head subconsciously and looked around him.

Not far from him is a computer with fluorescent lights.No one should doubt Gao Xiaowan's manipulation of the computer and the Internet.He is even more familiar with the computer in front of him than his own limbs.These are just programs that combine 1s and 0s.It has already become Gao Xiaowan's blood.

Moving her hands proficiently, or just relying on instinct, Gao Xiaowan pressed her hands on the keyboard, and began to move with her beating heart. [

da da da da...

The sound of the keyboard filled Gao Xiaowan's room in the blink of an eye, and Gao Xiaowan's painstaking effort and soul seemed to be condensed in every corner.The half-melted candy in the corner of her mouth was constantly exuding a sweet taste in Gao Xiaowan's mouth.This smell makes people involuntarily want to fall asleep.

Gradually, Gao Xiaowan only felt that her eyes began to droop, and a yawn came out from Gao Xiaowan's lips unconsciously.He raised his head subconsciously and looked outside.

Outside, there is rain.

In the rain, there are people.

People are themselves.

Gao Xiaowan squinted her eyes, stretched out her hand again, and stuck it on the cold door glass, just like outsiders, she stretched out her hand, waiting for Gao Xiaowan inside the door to respond.

The world is spinning, and the world is back in darkness.

When Gao Xiaowan opened her eyes again, the familiar scene reappeared in front of her eyes.

The distance is still so familiar, and I am familiar with the house that I can freely copy in my mind.That familiar scene is constantly circulating in front of Gao Xiaowan's eyes, never getting tired.

Gao Xiaowan lowered her head slightly, looked at the puddle under her feet, and then slowly lowered her body.His movements were very slow, as if he was afraid that he would disturb others, he just squatted down slowly and seriously, looking at himself in the water.

The figure reflected in the water is Gao Xiaowan's face, it is a pale and thin face.There are two extremely deep black bags under the eyes, and a thin face with almost only bones left.Looking at the eyes with two huge bags under the eyes, looking at the look reflected in the eyes, looking at herself reflected in the look, Gao Xiaowan smiled, and then lowered her head again.

Staring, staring for a long time, I don't know how long, Gao Xiaowan raised her head again.

The rain was still falling in the distance, and the rainwater flowed down Gao Xiaowan's shoulders, in front of Gao Xiaowan, and into the puddles gathered under Gao Xiaowan's feet.

"How many times is this?"

Gao Xiaowan asked in a low voice to herself in the puddle, with a smile still on the corner of her mouth.Every time he would appear here, and then take a step towards the rickety house in the distance.Every time I was barefoot, walking on this somewhat muddy road, it seemed that there was something attracting my soul at the end of the road.

"Fun, interesting."

Gao Xiaowan walked forward without looking back, taking every step.There will be a contemptuous smile on the corner of the mouth.This contemptuous smile seems to be the flag flying on Gao Xiaowan's body at this moment, telling people that he has not given up until now.

Yes, Gao Xiaowan still did not give up.

When he opened his eyes again, he found that he was back in the crumbling room again.The scene in this room seems to really only appear in a dream, except for the fluorescent computer in front of my eyes, I can't see anything clearly.

But Gao Xiaowan was unwilling, at least such a monotonous scene made him feel a little chatty, even a little insulting.So Gao Xiaowan decided to find some interesting fun at this moment.

He stood up from his chair.Start looking around at your environment.

Seeing is believing, but there are always things more interesting than seeing with your own eyes.That is to use your own hands to touch everything that appears in front of your eyes.

For example... the photos placed next to the computer.In the photo, there is a large group of four or five-year-old children. They are all short and have timid and fearful smiles on their faces.No one dared to look up at the camera.Gao Xiaowan picked up the photo in the glass frame and read it carefully until...

An indifferent figure appeared outside, stretched out his hand, and pressed it on the glass door.It was like a mournful song rang in Gao Xiaowan's ears, waiting for Gao Xiaowan's arrival.

Gao Xiaowan just smiled, dismissing such urging.He clearly remembered that this photo was taken when he left the orphanage.As the last photo of nostalgia.

To be able to see this photo again in the world of reincarnation, Gao Xiaowan felt that no matter what, she had to revisit it in detail, recall the scene at that time, and herself at that time.And the years I spent before my death.

The hand holding the photo was steady without any trembling.It's just that Gao Xiaowan's eyes suddenly showed a look of panic.His pupils dilated in an instant, as if he wanted to devour all the light in front of his eyes.Half of the candy melted at the corner of his mouth.Constantly reminding Gao Xiaowan of the situation he is facing at this moment.

"I should die."

An indifferent voice sounded in Gao Xiaowan's heart, before Gao Xiaowan could react, her legs began to move uncontrollably.Step by step, he moved little by little, and moved straight towards the transparent glass in the distance.

"Stop."

Gao Xiaowan subconsciously said to herself in her heart.

The footsteps are not obedient, and they are still moving forward.Until Gao Xiaowan stood in front of the transparent glass door, looking at her pale face on the other side of the glass door.In a trance, Gao Xiaowan vaguely felt that she could detect the shallow, sarcastic smile on the face of the person in the opposite household.

The half-melted candy at the corner of his mouth melted again in Gao Xiaowan's mouth, telling Gao Xiaowan what he was facing at this time.

This scene, this scene, unstoppably replayed in front of Gao Xiaowan.Unstoppably, he raised his hand tremblingly.

This time, this time, Gao Xiaowan remembered very clearly that what she raised was her left hand.Zuo said sticking to the cold glass door, waiting for a colder touch from the opposite side of the glass door.

And then... the world spun, whether Gao Xiaowan was willing or not, his eyes sank into darkness again.Other than that, nothing appeared in front of Gao Xiaowan.

tick...

The raindrops fell on Gao Xiaowan's face again, waking up the young man who had fallen into a deep sleep to welcome the cold world.

"It's cruel..."

This time Gao Xiaowan simply stood up straight, looked into the distance, and stopped her steps.He already has a preliminary understanding of this endlessly looping world.

This world... is all too familiar to Gao Xiaowan.All this is like the computer world.There are only two different numbers, 1 and 0, just like yin and yang, the two are intertwined with each other, and then weave the whole world.

And I am constantly circulating in these two worlds, every time I open my eyes, I will involuntarily move towards the dilapidated house in the distance, and then reach the glass door of that house.

Inside the glass door, there is a person.That was me before I died.Himself who committed suicide after taking poison.Gao Xiaowan can still remember the smell of poison clearly.

It is sweet, a sweet poison prepared by myself.

When I reach the transparent glass door, I can't help but raise my hand and stick it on the glass door, just like...

Gao Xiaowan lowered her head and looked at her hand that was stuck on the glass door.

That's right, just like now, it's a completely conscious action.

Stretch out your hand, and then stick it on the transparent glass door, it looks like a dying person.Stretch out your hand and pray for the sunshine that never comes?

As Gao Xiaowan thought about it, the corners of her mouth turned up contemptuously.

When he opened his eyes again, he found himself in that dilapidated room.

It's like two sides of a coin, either one or the other.There are only two possibilities.When he appeared in this dilapidated room, in front of him was the dilapidated computer emitting fluorescent light.The computer also looked at itself quietly, like a dying patient.

Regardless of any actions I make in this room, how I manipulate the computer in front of me, or even tie myself to a chair with a hard rope.

When people from far and outside come to the front.I would do the same action without hesitation, the same action as if I had been cursed.

Standing up, she walked unstoppably towards the only transparent glass door leading to the outside world, until she walked in front of the door.Unstoppable, he raised his hand as if possessed by a demon, and pressed it on the other palm print.

When another reincarnation happened in front of Gao Xiaowan, when he appeared again in the world under heavy rain.Gao Xiaowan shook her body slightly.I saw that his short black hair was completely attached to his forehead, and the rain was sliding along Gao Xiaowan's forehead hair tip little by little on Gao Xiaowan's paler face without a trace of blood.

Qi Xiaoxiao's situation should be exactly the same as hers, right?

Gao Xiaowan frowned slightly.Waiting for my body to automatically walk towards the house in the distance.In any case, this fateful action showed no sign of stopping.Constantly, constantly walking forward, constantly, constantly beating Gao Xiaowan's nerves.

People can often deepen their memory through constant repetition.But again, people have a genuine dislike for repeating it.

No matter how painful the experience is, after repeating it dozens of times, it will gradually become numb.No matter how happy a memory is, it will become boring after repeated dozens of times.

This in itself is something that humans will never be able to overcome.

But now...Gao Xiaowan now...

The blue veins on his forehead were completely protruding, like rolling hills.His eyes were wide open, looking at the transparent glass that appeared in front of him, and at the other self in the glass door.

Such a scene, such a scene, such an experience, once again appeared in front of Gao Xiaowan like fate, with a blunt and cold scene, constantly circulating in front of Gao Xiaowan.

Gao Xiaowan wanted to fall down, desperate to smash the transparent glass in front of her.But he knows that he can't do much now, and he can't do it anyway.He only felt that power was flowing out of his body bit by bit, like an hourglass turned upside down, many golden sand grains were constantly flowing out from the middle, accumulating more and more, slowly overflowing Gao Xiaowan The nasal cavity that can breathe, overflows his eyes.

This is a sense of fatigue, and it is also a sense of fear bursting out from the deepest part of my heart after repeated repetitions.The repeated feeling will make a person doubt from the bottom of his heart, doubt...

"Am I still alive?"

Gao Xiaowan opened her eyes, looked at the fluorescent computer screen in front of her, stuck out her tongue, savoring the almost numb sweetness.

"If a person eats too much candy, he will always get bored. Not to mention my current situation." Gao Xiaowan said to herself, raised her head self-servingly, and looked at the The figure reappeared in front of him.

"How many times is this?"

Gao Xiaowan asked herself softly, but even the contemptuous smile at the corner of her mouth had disappeared.When she found that Qi Xiaoxiao was asleep and unable to wake up, Gao Xiaowan had already sensed that the attack of "him" had come to her group.

This is not a simple attack, because the only way to connect to the outside world is completely cut off.In other words, how can a person who has fallen into a deep sleep give some reaction to the outside world?

Not to mention, how can I tell the outside world what I have discovered?

This... can be said to be a difficult problem to solve.Not to mention, although it cannot be said to be completely conceited, according to Gao Xiaowan's calculations, the only people who can do all this are herself, Liu Ling, and Liu Mengchao.

Liu Mengchao can't take the risk himself, once he is lost in this world, the glue of the whole team will no longer exist.

Neither can Liu Ling, although she seems to have nothing to do with the main god named Aurora, but the two who used to be in the same body are other than Liu Mengchao, another link team and the main gods bridge.

in other words……

The only person who can really stand up to take risks, enter the dreamland, and find someone to defeat this endless cycle of dreams is yourself.

but……

Now there is only one problem.

Gao Xiaowan sighed heavily.

He has cycled a thousand and eight hundred and twenty times, but still hasn't found any clues.He didn't break down, but it seemed like it was only a matter of time.

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