The perfect life of rebirth

"Teacher, who did you hear about this, and when did it happen?" Mrs. Li asked after being stunned. This kind of thing was so sudden that even he found it unacceptable when he first heard about it, let alone Shao Jiahua. Chen Yan is very affectionate.

"Woo~" Chen Yan cried in pain and depression. To her, such bad news was like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, and the sky collapsed. Her weak shoulders trembled slightly as she cried, like a blow in the cold wind. Like a small tree, lonely and trembling.

With his right hand he tightly hugged the little girl whose little head was scared into his arms and didn't dare to look up at her mother, and with his left hand he pressed Chen Yan's back to nourish her breath with the innate heat to prevent her from crying and fainting again. He sighed softly and comforted him, "Teacher, the sky cannot fall because of me."

Perhaps it was the words of Mrs. Li that had an effect. Chen Yan let go of the distressing crying that was originally suppressed. Seeing that Chen Yan no longer suppressed herself, Mrs. Li was a little relieved, but she didn't want Chen Yan to let go. The crying frightened the little girl in the arms on the other side, and she also burst into tears, making Mrs. Li flustered.

Chen Yan cried for a long time, and finally stopped crying again. She reached out and took the little daughter who was looking at her timidly from Mrs. Li's arms, and hugged her tightly, the tears in her eyes seemed to have dried up, but Sitting there in a daze.

"Mom." Feeling her mother's sadness, the little girl burrowed her head into Chen Yan's arms, hugging her tightly and not letting go.

"Ms. Li, what should I do?" Chen Yan gradually stabilized her emotions after venting before, and asked while looking at Mrs. Li with red eyes. Accustomed to it, she subconsciously regarded Mrs. Li as the support of their mother and daughter.

"Did the prison call to inform you? When did it happen?" Mrs. Li frowned and asked, he needed to figure out the ins and outs of the matter first.

"I was notified by the prison, so I called you. The people in the prison told us to go there as soon as possible, and said that when they found out, Jiahua had already..." Chen Yan tried her best to express this in a calm tone. She said this thing out loud, but when she talked about Shao Jiahua's death, she still felt a twinge of pain in her heart. She closed her eyes in pain, tears overflowed from her eye sockets, and slid down her beautiful cheeks drop by drop. down.

"Clean up, I'll take you to the prison right now, and we'll talk about the specifics when we get there." At this time, Chen Yan was already in a mess, so Mrs. Li didn't ask for her opinion, and directly made the decision for her.

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Ten minutes later, Mrs. Li drove out of the family home with Chen Yan and Xiaonannan, and accelerated to the south of Shangyang City. Three hours later, they appeared outside the gate of the Third Prison in Central Plains Province.

After they revealed their identities in the reception room, the prison guards took them to the prison warden's office. The warden didn't rest, and seemed to be waiting for Chen Yan to arrive.

The warden first apologized to Chen Yan, and then briefed them on the specific situation. Shao Jiahua died of internal bleeding after swallowing a razor blade. When the prison guards found out in the afternoon, it was already too late.

Just as the warden was introducing the situation to Chen Yan and Mrs. Li, the warning officer who led them in came in from the door with a folder.

"Comrade Chen Yan, we found two letters beside Shao Jiahua, one is for you, and the other is for Mrs. Li who came with you." The prison guard took out two envelopes from the folder , Passed to Li Kang and Chen Yan respectively and said.

Mrs. Li took the envelope, took out two stacked letter papers, unfolded them and looked at them carefully. He was very curious about what was written in Shao Jiahua's letter paper, which should be regarded as a suicide note.

Li Kang:

When you read this letter, maybe I have already left this world. The idea of ​​leaving this world started when I was imprisoned in this prison, but I was very afraid of death, so I never had the courage to do that ...

I love Yanyan and Nannan very much, and I can do anything for them. In order to let them live a good life, I listened to Zou Shikai's persuasion and went to Hong Kong with him to do business that can make a lot of money. One step into hell, in order for them not to be harmed, I endured the torment of my heart day after day...

During the Chinese New Year, Yanyan brought her daughter to see me, and I saw deep sorrow in her eyes, even though she said she would wait for me until I got out of prison, even if my youth was gone and my head was full of white hair... …

Yanyan's determination moved me, and it also made my determination to leave this world early, which I was still hesitant, gradually firmed up. Because I love Yanyan, I would rather go to another world to endure loneliness by myself than Let Yanyan spend her beautiful years in painful waiting, because she is so young and so talented, she should have a more exciting and happy life of her own.

But I am very aware of Yanyan's feelings for me. For this feeling, she is willing to give up a better job arranged by her parents and accompany me to Shangyang to be a middle school music teacher who is not valued. She is willing to accompany me to endure I am poor, and now I am willing to wait for me to be released from prison in 20 years...

Yanyan's character is weak on the outside, but strong on the inside. No one can change what she decides. She said she would wait for me, so I believed it. I love her and want her to be happy, so I can't let her waste her time and suffer. I have been waiting for me for 20 years, and what I finally got was an old man who couldn't give her happiness, but I knew that if I was still in prison, Yanyan would definitely wait. I felt that I became Yanyan's pursuit of a new life The biggest obstacle, so I made up my mind to remove this obstacle for Yanyan. Although this decision made me feel painful and wanted to suffocate, as long as I think that without me, she can find her own happiness again. Even if I die, I will rest in peace ...

Mrs. Li, thank you for saving me in Hong Kong, and thank you for telling me the news of Zou Shikai's death. Thank you for taking care of Yanyan during my absence. I know you hate me, but I still have to be cheeky I implore you, I implore you to help me take good care of Yanyan after I die, until she comes out of the shadow of sadness and finds her own happiness again...

After I die, Yanyan will be very sad, I beg you to help me persuade her, tell her that I left with a smile, and finally say thank you to you.

After Mrs. Li read the letter, he folded the letter paper again and put it away. He couldn't tell what it was like. He didn't know how he should evaluate Shao Jiahua, whether he was infatuated, cowardly or brave, and he didn't know whether he should sympathize with him or should Continuing to resent him, finally these complex emotions turned into a long sigh.

Turning his head to look and finish reading the letter, Chen Yan, who hugged the little girl and wept silently, stood up and said to the warden, "Can we go and see Shao Jiahua?"

"Yes." The warden said, and then ordered the prison guard to take Mrs. Li and Chen Yan to see Shao Jiahua's body.

"Teacher, let's go." Mrs. Li came to Chen Yan's side, helped her up, and hugged her mother who hadn't spoken or slept since they came out of Shangyang, but just hugged her mother tightly with wide eyes. The little girl followed the prison guards out of the warden's office and went to the room where Shao Jiahua's body was kept.

When they came to a locked door, the prison guard opened the door, walked into the room and turned on the light in the room with a snap. Chen Yan's face was pale, just like her mood.

Standing at the door, Chen Yan hesitated a little, her feet were a little soft, if it wasn't for Mrs. Li reaching out to hold her, she would collapse on the ground.

"Teacher, let's go in." Li Kang said softly, and then walked into the room with Chen Yan's trembling body on his arm.

There was a single bed in the room, and Shao Jiahua's body was parked on the single bed covered by a white sheet.

Mrs. Li's expression was a little dazed, as if she saw the scene of Chen Yan being carried away under the white sheet after she died in love in her previous life. In a sense, Shao Jiahua also died for Chen Yan.

"Maybe this is a kind of repayment of Shao Jiahua's feelings towards Chen Yan that he owed in his previous life." Mrs. Li thought, he felt that he could no longer bring up his hatred for Shao Jiahua.

Chen Yan came to the side of the bed, and gently opened a corner of the white sheet with trembling hands, but she no longer had the courage to lift it again, and put the sheet back again, her chest heaved rapidly a few times.

"Ms. Li." Chen Yan turned her head to look at Ms. Li who was standing behind her holding her daughter, and called out in a trembling voice.

"Teacher, some things have to be faced sooner or later." Mrs. Li said softly, but did not lift the sheet covering Shao Jiahua's face instead of her, "No matter what, I will always stand by Teacher's side and protect you."

Chen Yan turned her gaze back again, and as if she had exhausted all her strength, she lifted the white sheet, revealing Shao Jiahua's face, his eyes were tightly closed, and the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, giving people a feeling that he was in a peaceful state. The feeling of deep sleep.

"Mom, is daddy asleep? Why doesn't he come home?" The little girl's clear and clear child's voice echoed in the room.

Chen Yan turned her head to look at her daughter, a smile appeared on her face, and said softly, "Father is asleep, and he will go home with us when he wakes up at dawn." After speaking, she turned her head and stretched out her slender fingers Gently brushing Shao Jiahua's already cold cheeks, he said softly, "Jiahua, my daughter and I are here to see you." But the tears fell down like broken pearls, dripped onto the white bed sheet, and broke into several petals.

"Mom, I want to pinch Dad's nose, wake him up, and let him tell me stories." The little girl said again, struggling to get out of Mrs. Li's arms. Her young age could not understand the other meanings of the verb fell asleep The meaning is that she simply thought that her father was really asleep. In the past, when she wanted to listen to a story, she would climb on top of her father, pinch his nose, and he would wake up and hug her to tell her a story. Although Shao Jiahua It has been more than a year since I held her at home to sleep or told her stories, but she still clearly remembers those things.

"Ninny, Dad is very tired, shall we let him sleep and have a good rest?" Mrs. Li was worried that her childish words would irritate Chen Yan, so she quickly coaxed her.

"Oh, then I'll wait for my father to wake up before I ask him to tell me a story. I want him to tell me a happy story." The little girl tilted her head and said in obedience to Mrs. Li's words.

What Mrs. Li was worried about finally happened. Although Chen Yan was also heartbroken before, she did not see her husband with her own eyes. Now Shao Jiahua is lying on the bed, and she feels the cold touch from her fingers stroking her husband's cheek. Tell her that her husband will never wake up again. The former flowers and the moon, the former vows of eternal love, and the anticipation of the white capital have become flowers in the mirror. It's the same as living, and it's extremely uncomfortable.

The daughter's Tongyan undoubtedly stabbed Chen Yan's already extremely painful heart again, she suddenly felt that the world was spinning, and everything in the room seemed to be far away from her, becoming ethereal and uncertain.

In order to prevent herself from fainting, Chen Yan took a deep breath, but she didn't want a wave of blood to be sucked into her trachea, which immediately caused a violent cough, and the scarlet blood sprayed out with her cough, and spilled onto the white bed sheet. After embroidering desolate and seductive flowers on the bed sheet, she collapsed limply on the ground.

"Teacher..." Chen Yan vaguely heard Mrs. Li calling her from a distant place, mixed with the voice of the little girl calling her mother.

"Am I going to die?" Chen Yan thought, "Jiahua, wait for me, I'll accompany you." There was a smile on the corner of her mouth, and she slowly closed her eyes.

ps: Wow, Green Tea was moved to tears by what I wrote, I really want to cry~, the character Shao Jiahua has finally come to an end, Shao Jiahua is a tragedy, although there is not much ink, but Green Tea thinks he is plump, flesh and blood, so Green Tea is right His feelings are very complicated. I don't know how book friends will evaluate him. If you have any feelings, please leave a message in the book review area.

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