The leisurely life of rebirth.

"There are songbirds in the court trees in the court, and the red and green support the spring to the distant forest. Suddenly there are good poems in my eyes, and the syntax is hard to find." The ears are full of birds, and the eyes are full of green branches. The green and red support each other, and the fragrance is attractive.The spring water is born, the milk swallows start to fly, the bees gather flowers to make honey, and the fish hug the hooks for food.

Fang Monan didn't look at Han Zhaoqi, but just watched the beautiful spring scenery quietly.The low mountains in the distance pass in and out of the faint breeze, and you can see the peach blossoms swaying with the wind, and it seems that you can still smell the sweet fragrance of the peach blossoms. Occasionally, one or two green leaves have emerged, and spring has come.

And Han Zhaoqi was a little nervous at first, afraid that she would ask what happened to his lover's face?Seeing that she didn't ask anything, she gradually relaxed, and lay down on the rocking chair on her own, looking up at the blue sky, with her hands naturally placed on the armrests, and it creaked and rocked.

There was silence all around, the rustle of the wind blowing through the branches and the creak of the rocking chair sang in harmony, it seemed quiet and peaceful.Han Zhaoqi's facial expression softened a lot, and he gradually withdrew his heart.

After applying the medicine on her face, Wang Ting walked back quietly, sat beside Han Zhaoqi, and no one said a word. She quietly watched the scene of singing birds and flowers, full of spring, and felt that her mood was much clearer. Comfortable. [

Han Zhaoqi sat up straight and frowned. Maybe it was because the atmosphere was too good, or maybe it was because he was depressed for too long. He said slowly, "I was the first batch to enter the southern border battlefield. At that time, the reconnaissance company I was in went deep into the hinterland to carry out operations. The mission, the young guy, passionate and impulsive, had some expectations for everything on the battlefield, and even had a faint feeling of excitement. He went in smoothly and avoided obstacles along the way. He passed by small groups of enemy patrolling troops several times. During the rest I am always half asleep and half awake, and my nerves are tense. Especially at night, the Vietnamese army agents and stragglers are very active. If they are touched by the enemy, they will be finished. The mental tension is high. In the middle.” His mouth trembled and he said in a firm voice, “It was early in the morning, and there was a thin layer of fog. I was hiding in a tree hole, covered by a layer of weeds outside, because the fog was too thick, those Vietnamese people Agents, hit my gun directly. They were all barefoot, and they seemed to want to use the morning fog to sneak attack. Although we had been trained before going to the battlefield. I was panicked and scared at the time, but I knew I must not let them Walk past me."

His hand was trembling constantly, Wang Ting hurried forward to hold his hand tightly, rubbing it non-stop.She never heard her husband talk about the battlefield.This is the first time I heard him mention it, and I didn't expect such a big reaction.She looked up at Fang Monan, only to see that she shook her head at her, signaling her not to speak.

Han Zhaoqi seemed to be trapped in his own memories, his eyes were dark and out of focus, he shook off Wang Ting's hand, and compared the posture of a machine gun, "I closed my eyes. Da da...a burst of fire. The guns are all shot, and I'm still there." I pulled the trigger hard. Even when my comrades came over, my mind was very confused at the time, and I just wanted to kill him, kill him. I was so scared that I wanted to fight him desperately with a saber, and almost hurt my own people."

"Pa..." Han Zhaoqi slapped himself. "In the end, the company commander slapped me hard, and I woke up."

Wang Ting covered her mouth in fear, afraid that she would cry out, but the tears couldn't be stopped and flowed down.

Han Zhaoqi touched his swollen cheek, and his eyes became clear again, "There are four corpses of Vietnamese soldiers lying under my feet, and I shot all of them with 30 particles at once. Those four were sieved, and one was fatally shot. It hit the chest and left a big hole in the back. Unfortunately, the other three people were shot in the brain and face. It's the brains."

"Wow...I threw up right then." Han Zhaoqi yelled, "I haven't even killed a chicken at home, I killed people, I killed people."

"The comrades in arms comforted me, they said, 'Okay! You boy, kill four as soon as you come up! Why did you give such a good opportunity to show your face.'

'Killing someone on the battlefield is a fart, just bear it and pass. '

The company commander comforted me, 'Either you die on the battlefield or I die, otherwise you will be honored, just get used to it. '"

"Yes! Just get used to it. Just get used to it." Han Zhaoqi said mechanically. "Gradually, I killed more and more people. When I saw more than 100 enemy corpses lying on the ground, the air was filled with the smell of gunpowder smoke and blood, and I lost my feeling.

Seeing his comrade was hit in the face by a bullet, the bullet passed through the back of the head.Another team member was forced to ring the glory hanging on his chest during the fight with the enemy. Everyone has one, and he swore to the death not to be a prisoner.

Watching our comrades fall, we realized that we would die too. We cried bitterly holding the mutilated bodies of our sacrificed comrades.Although we had been prepared to accept sacrifices for a long time in those days, but...but at this time, we really saw the bodies of our comrades-in-arms who had begun to turn cold.It's a pity that we can't bring them back to China and bury them on the land of the motherland.It is even impossible to cremate the remains of comrades-in-arms and take the ashes back.We carefully buried the remains of the martyrs, found a direction facing the motherland, and buried our comrades-in-arms. The soil was shoveled down, gradually covering the young and pale faces of the martyrs, and they rested in peace.Resting in peace in a foreign land, they seem to be just sleeping, more peacefully sleeping, and will eventually become one with that lush bamboo forest.They will never see their mother again, and their mother will never see them again. Tears streamed down his cheeks. "Ah..." A heart-piercing, desolate roar resounded through the air.

Seeing someone wanting to approach, Fang Monan quickly waved her hand to prevent them from disturbing her.Han Zhaoqi choked up and said again, "I don't want to die, I don't want to never see my mother again, I don't want to die, I have to kill! Kill!" His face twisted, and he shouted ferociously, gnashing his teeth, "Kill!" He was full of killing intent With a look in his eyes, he jumped up from the rocking chair with a 'teng'.

Seeing this, Fang Monan went down with a knife in his hand, supported his falling body, and put him on the rocking chair.

"Is he all right?" Wang Ting asked worriedly.

"It's okay! He's too tired, let him sleep for a while." Fang Monan shouted out of the courtyard, "Come over and help, carry him in."

"En! Good!" Li Qingjie and Li Daniu stepped forward quickly, carrying the rocking chair on both sides, and carried the person into the room.Fang Monan followed him and said, "Go to the guest room and let him sleep for a while."

The two big men worked together to lift Han Zhaoqi onto the bed, Wang Ting took off his shoes, put his legs on the bed, and covered him with the quilt. [

Taking advantage of the three of them not paying attention, Fang Monan took out a sprig of tranquilizing incense and lit it. "This calms the nerves and helps sleep."

Wang Ting looked at the clean and spacious guest room, looked at herself, and said embarrassedly, "I can wash the sheets and quilt covers."

"Let's not talk about this first, let's go out and talk." The four men rushed out and sat down in the living room.

Fang Monan got up and went to the kitchen, brought three cups of tea, and placed them in front of them one by one.

Li Qingjie and Wang Ting held the teacup in their hands and took a big gulp. After taking a few deep breaths, Li Qingjie calmed down, "Sister-in-law, is Lao Han always like this?"

Wang Ting took another sip of water, her eyes were foggy, as if she was recalling, "I didn't realize that when I first got married, he was always taciturn, looked like an honest man, and kept everything in his heart. The thing is, I lost my temper at the slightest disappointment. First I threw away the things at home, and then I punched and kicked me. When I was sober, I apologized vigorously and asked me to forgive him. In order to give my child a complete family, I endured it. Later, he felt that he was about to lose control of himself, so he asked me to tie him up, but this time, he chopped up the family dog." She trembled all over, as if recalling the horrible scene, "I'm really afraid that he will hurt me Our son." She sniffed, "We also went to the hospital for an examination, and the doctor said he was fine, but he was just depressed, probably because his work was not going well."

Fang Monan rubbed his chin and asked, "Irritable and irritable. Is he like this at work? He is a police officer, how is his relationship with his colleagues?"

"He is a loner at work, a loner." Wang Ting said immediately.

"Then how does he treat the prisoner?" Fang Monan asked again.

Wang Ting frowned, "I don't... treat prisoners, ah! Now that I think about it, he always treats prisoners with a murderous look, and he almost beat them to death a few times." She paused After a while, "For this reason, he suffered a lot of criticism, and his promotion to the general manager was delayed because of his hot temper. Later, he was afraid that something similar would happen to him, and because of his good brain, his superiors only asked him to analyze the case, and no longer Participate in the arrest."

Fang Monan asked again, "How is his education level?"

"Oh! Join the army after graduating from high school." Wang Ting replied honestly as she looked at her confused. "Doctor Fang, what happened to my lover?"

"That's right! Doctor Fang, when I went to see Lao Han last time, he was quite a normal person!" Li Qingjie also asked eagerly, "Doctor Fang, what's wrong with Lao Han! How could he beat his sister-in-law!"

Fang Monan sat up straight, and said lightly and coldly, "The war has changed many people who participated in it. It is the war that makes people strong or sinks. Maybe it was the blood and passion that supported me at the beginning, but later It's death and blood that make me numb." He paused and continued, "The veterans who have returned from the southern border battlefield, although their lives have returned to peace, their experience seems to be on the battlefield every day. Images of war, dead comrades, killing scenes, gunshots, etc. will constantly flash up. Sleep disturbance, emotional instability, no sense of joy in life, living in the past memories every day, and it is fragmented and fragmented "(To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to vote, monthly ticket, your support is my biggest motivation.)